Some photos taken on my birthday celebration...


Me and sufen



Sufen and me


My sisters singing birthday song for me! 


My birthday cake! 


Making a wish... Wanna Know?! *_< 


Blowing candles time! May my wishes come true!! 


at esplande.. 


Sufen... 


It's us again! 


Lina and me... 


Sisters love... 

This gift can be said to be given by my mum... She gave me money to shop at OG... And these are the 2 skirts which I bought...


Skirt from Dorothy Perkins!  
It costs $19 only...


the other skirt...  
This is the skirt that costs $55.20!! But well I like it... Like the cutting...

Just reached home... Went to KTV with Sufen, Lina and both of my sisters... So sweet of them to celebrate it for me... Thanx guys!! Appreciate it alot...

Had a fun time at "Party World"...

Recieved my presents from Alicia, Sufen and Lina...

Alicia gave me a bottle of marbles... Indeed a little creativity from her little mind...


Gift from alicia 

Sufen gave me a flower-shaped necklace...


Gift from sufen... 


A closer look... 


Nice card rite! 


But... It's empty! 


and Lina gave me a cross necklaces... Thanx man! been wanting to buy one cross necklace... You help me save all the trouble...


Cross... 


From Lina... 

Got my happy birthday wishes from some of my friends... Also message 2 of my friend who share the same birthday as me... hehe... So happy to be able to share this important day with 2 of this friends... Happy Birthday CHRIS AND IVAN!! ENJOY!! AND DON"T FORGET MY PRESENT!! HEHE... Just joking!

After KTV, went to esplande with them... Had a talk with Sufen... hm... Finally!

Off to bath... Then rest... Will upload the photos tml... if i can do it!

Woke up late today... Lessons start at 9... I woke up at 9... All becoz of my laziness... hehe...

Finshed lesson at 1... Then intended to head down to Cityhall alone to get storybook... But so sweet of Meimei to offer to accompany me... Was walking out from school then saw James, Edwin and Hanyong... Were walking with them to the train station... They were heading to PS... So they pshyco-ed us... Or rather as Hanyong claims persuaded us... Coz it sounds nicers... Head down to PS with them... Regret abit coz the Times bookshop there is so small... And I couldn't find the book which I want so ended up buying another book entitled... "PS, I love you"... A rather sad story...

Some people wait their whole lives to find their soulmates. But not Holly and Gerry. They are childhood sweethearts... But the unthinkable happens... Gerry's death devaststes Holly... But as her 30th birthday looms, Gerry comes back to her.

spend about 1 hour in the shop coz I couldn't decide what to buy... Finally got the book and went to the arcarde to look for Edwin and James... After went to have our lunch while waiting for Hanyong to cut his hair... Had beef noodles but didn't had any appetite... Struggle to finish it...

After that Meimei got to go home, Hanyong back to school for rock climbing and me... Went to OG!! Finally!! I spent about 2 hours there man!! Was deciding what to buy... So that it would accumulate to $75... Really had a difficult time... When I don't have the money, I've got lots of things to buy... But when I had the money I don't know what to buy... What the hack! Never in my whole life I thought this would happen to me... Man!

After shopping for 2 hours plus... Finally got stuffs... And I spend $99... bought 2 skirts and 2 sets of bra... Didn't go home start away... Went to lucky chinatown that area... Shop for awhile... Bought 5 pairs of earrings, one braclet and 2 necklaces... One for Jermaine... Coz she likes Jade... Though it's not real but think it looks nice... Bought one for myself too...

Got tired so headed for home... Terrible man! The bus was so packed!! Got hit by the bus door... hurt the back of my heels twice already... Yesterday in lecture hall and today the bus door... Don't what's wrong with people nowadays... THe bus is so packed and I'm already squeezing... And they gave me those eyes as if I'm at fault... Just becoz I was reading!! What the hack!! What's wrong with me reading and not giving space!! It's not as if I'm blocking your way~! Spastic people~! Just been pissed off...

But felt ok when I alighted the bus... Finally a load off my mind... Got the card for my mum already... So she will not nag anymore... hehe... She gave me another $50 again... Probably it's nearing my birthday that's why...

Don't know whether should I be happy that my birthday is nearing or not... Happy coz my mum been giving me money... She always does... At least it's been a good week in this sense...

But nothing good ever happen on my birthday... Faced with my bad prelims results in Sec 4, had a quarrel with my aunt on 2 years of my birthday... Probably I should just celebrate it alone or keep it low... Even though my wish will never come true but I don't want to be disappointed every year on my birthday... In fact I'm so afraid for the day to come... I'm not looking forward to it... Wish that day could be fast-forward...

Well, off to do my project already...

Haiz... Didn't manage to go OG in the end... Coz I fell asleep on my bed while waiting for my mum to take a nap... Super tired la...

Manage to wake up on time to catch my show... so sad like each other but can't get together becoz of the sister...

Having many of thoughts this days... Positive... Negative... Think more of negative...

Seeing someone again, makes me feel so hurt... Everytime I see that someone... Those scene just flash through my mind... But I'm glad I made that decision... Filled with regrets but smart move... At least I'm free...

Why is that I can't bear with singleness?! Ain't I enjoying it? Probably, it's just my mood swing... Feeling rather down, tired and laid back this days... I think I should come up with a mood chart for myself... To keep track of my moods... Look at my life... And see where's the problem... I guess I know why... Not having enough faith with God... Who's always there for me everytime... Looking over me... Have not been spending time with God... Have to start already...

My mind is blank now... Trying very hard to remember what I want to blog...

Ohya... I finally foun someone who think the same way as me... My FA tutor, June lin... Coz yesterday my whole class guys skipped FA and she was worried... I always have this thinking... I don't like the subject but I'm studying for the sick of studying and passing it... I don't like to fail... On one! I never like Physics but I still had to study it... Always been telling my sisters that but doesn't seem to be getting into their head... Well, she said that too...

Got lessons at 9 tml... End at 1... Got nothing after day!! Nice day... What should I do? Tot of going out alone... go to the bookshop to look at some books which I want to buy.... Then probably head down to OG... My mum is deseparate for that card... Better get it before the month end...

Oh I'm so proud of myself... Thought the same old thing will happen to my com... But I actually settle it... I delete some of the stuff in cookies... then did this ad-ware scan... Hehe... And it did not hang... I'm so smart... So worried that this will happen again... It always happen once in a blue moon... Coz my friends are coming over next week to do project... guess it should be ok... Pray hard!

I'm home!! Home sweet home!! I feel so good!! Feel so good with nothing after school... No tuition and band... haha... I'm home early and i'm so happy when I saw my mum... Feeling so cosy now...

Just finish shitting!! Shiok!! hehe...

Listening to "Stand by me"... it's from the disney channel... Super funny... The frogs are so cute! Timom and Pumba makes me feel so cosy... There's such a strong bond between them... Very meaningful song... "As long ass you stand by me"... Friends can do that too... I'll always stand by my friends...

Hehe... Going to OG with my mum later... Love shopping with my mum... Just realize how much I love my mum... Really love her alot...

Off to watch tv...

Finally got abit of reuslts but not sure if it's useful or not... *Praying hard*

ok the light of hope is gone... Can't find anything... And the freaking lab is so cold... My hands are going numb.... I want a hot cup of milo... But not craving for it....

Manage to come to early but! I took cab coz of my laziness... Woke up and went back to sleep... Think I better sleep early tonight... Feeling so tired... *yAwNz*

It's gonna be a long day... I guess... School ends at 3... Can't wait to go home and slack... Coz there's nothing after school today.... No band! No Tuition!! Just home, tv, books and me!! Ohya.. and my family... I missed so much time with them... Probably go out with my mum to OG coz she still wants to make her card... let see how... *eViL*

Then she can pay for my stuff then i get to keep the $50 that she last gave me.... haha... probably not... let see what she say first... But she would always end up saying... "Aiya, bu yong jing la! Take it and don't spend all!"

Then she'll give me that look and I'll give her that smile!! hehe...

Anyway having MA practical now... Doing project... I'm searching for the data for Japan's economy... Coz we've got some values missing for the one that we collected at the library... But still can't find anything... Anyway working hard... Trying not to be laid back... got a test in week 4... Got to start now... Exams are also coming soon... got to really pull up my socks... I'm so behind my classmates... I guess.... It's a short term... Only 6 weeks of school... Oh I love it man!! Study late at night to the wee hours... And get to sleep till afternoon... More time with my bed!

Still can't find my data!! Ah...!!!!

Sunday

Thought it's going to be weird but I was thinking too much... Everything went well at Sentosa... Everything was like gone... But felt better... The outing was a success! Although little people turn up... But we did enjoyed ourselves... Managed to click around with Andy's friends... Really nice people... Especially Serene... She sounds like Eugenia... But she's far better than Eugenia...

We played couple of games... Then there was this game that I had to compete with the opponent team in the sense of highest pitch!! And my opponent was Mei Chan!! My sis!! Both of our voice are of higer pitch except for Meiying! Extra!!! Voice so low!! My student thought she was my boyfriend over the phone... hehe...

Of coz I win!! My pitch is the highest at home!!! They didn't even need to compare with a recorder!! haha... Way to go to my voice!! All thanx to the choir training during primary school days...

We wanted to play Ultimate Freezbie... but too bad it rain!! So can't play.... So waited for some of them to change... My auntie is so horrible! While waiting for the others... She was sort of "match-making" me and Charles... She asked if I can consider him... Coz she said I prefer mature guys... But he's 9 years older than me lor!!! What the hack!! So far off!! I like mature guys but.... not in age wise... Unless I really like that guy or else no!

After separating from the others... Went to Harbourfront with Meiying to look for Lina... Took our dinner then she came to my home to study... Helped her in her geography... Not bad! I can be geography teacher!! hehe... Way to go Jocelyn!! :x

Lucky I did my FA on saturday... Coz i was too tired to do my work last night...

Monday

Managed to wake up for school... But! Took a cab to school... Coz woke up to late! RWPS was abit slack... Coz she go through with us our individual group project... Can you believe it!?! Our group got the highest! And guess how much we got 61%! What the hack!! That's bad!!

Went to the library to collect data on Switerland for MA... we spend 1 hr just to get the data into floppy disk!! Irritating man... But in the end we did it... Then went for FA... Was super tired... Trying hard to concentrate... Manage to...

After that went to Meimei's house to do ecm project.... Manage to do somethings... Or rather finished and divide the work up... Super tired... Left at ard 7... Share a cab with Nat... Was $11... Slept in the cab... Finally get some sleep...

Went for tuition at ard 9... Didn't do much coz she got some problem with drawing angles... So spend abt more than 1 hr to do her school work...

I'm so happy!! I'm rich!! My mum gave me $100 for my birthday... No at first she gave me $50 than asked me enough or not... Then I said enough coz the other time she gave me $150 already... But she said this time is for my birthday present... So i say like that I might as well say not enough.. Then she gave me another $50... hehe... I love my mum!! She really dotes on me alot!! but I really missed my Grandma! Think she's getting me a cake to celebrate for my birthday too... And also cook... hehe... Looking forward to good food! FOOD! GLORIOUS FOOD!!

And Meiying gave me $50 for my birthday... Coz she don't know what to get for me... Haha... I'm rich to get books for myself already... Saw lots of books I wanted to buy when I went to "Times" that day... Hand itch!! hehe...

Off to copy some of my tutorial then sleep... Lessons start at 9... Sian... But now no band liaoz... Shiok! Finally a rest!! So I can come home earlier to rest...

Copying time then... Sweet dreamsssSSSsssss...........

I don't even know how to start... I've not open my mouth since i put down the phone... Was doing my FA tutorial just now... But sub-consciously I'm thinking of another thing... Why does my life goes up and down so fast... When I'm happy, I'm really happy... But just when I'm happy, bad things take the happiness away from me... Things that screwed up my relationship with people...

Just when we are getting closer, just like the past... Things happen today... And there it goes again... back to square one... And I just kept silence... I didn't explain coz I couldn't find the reason... No matter how I did, reasons that I thought of are just a piece of shit... I'm still at fault... I know it too well...

Just this matter alone, make my happiness, that I have since afternoon, gone... Gone... I don't know how and what I have to do to make things go back again...

Probably I should be left alone... With my forgetfulness, I think I shouldn't be given any responsibility... I'm irresponsible... No matter how responsible others think about me, but in your eyes I'm forever irresponsible... you affect my life so much... But I doubt you know it... Coz I never know how to tell you... the barrier is there...

Probably you won't even believe me... coz you have a different thinking... And you always manage to even make me believe or agree with you that I'm in the wrong... That's why I couldn't think of reasons to explain...

I'm in a lost now... I don't know how to face you... I'm filled with guiltiness...

I think I should just buried myself under my blanket and do some soul-searching?

Just reached home not long ago... Just finished bathing... Feel so refreshed now...

It's the big day for SP concert band just now... The IBM concert had ended 7 hours ago... well, can see all of us enjoyed ourselves... We all went super high... Alan, Venassa, Rebecce, Joanne and I came out to dance for "American Graffiti"... I guess this is the first time... We broke the rule again... We always break rules... But it all leads to good results!!! The audience enjoyed "Kabe".... and the whole convention hall was filled with laughter... And we were simply enjoying ourselves on stage... Sufen said that we seems to be enjoying more than performing... But well, if we ourselves don't enjoy... how are we going to lead the audience to enjoy... right?!

My sisters and Lina bought pink roses for me!! So sweet!! My favourite colour!! Thanx peeps!

Apparently, I didn't manage to play the running notes for "Merry Widow"... Coz i came in too early and was lost after that... But well, I'm ok... I didn't dwell over it... I guess I learn how to take things lightly now... It's no use bothering over it... I can stop the band... the conert has to go on... So all I can do is... To enjoy this concert... And to focus on my other pieces for the concert... "RiverDance" went well... Even though I screwed up the starting when Yong xiang was playing... But we got together then after that he screwed up abit but got back again...

So glad he didn't rush... I think we did a great job... I'm happy for River Dance... hehe...

After the concert, went to Holland V with Muru, Alan, Venasaa, Raf, Chee Guan and Jermaine... Had our dinner at a coffee shop... The eupho and tuba section was there too... All of us wanted to go Breko... But they had no sits for 16 people so ended up at Coffee Bean... Not too bad... Enjoyed ourselves... Took lots of photos...

Supposed to reach home at 2+... But both jermaine and I had a long talk... After alighting from the cab... we sat down at a place and started talking... We talked till 4+... We talked about lots of things... At first it was about my problems... Some sensitive feelings I have with the section... then talked abouot her problems... Just contiune talking non-stop... our grandmothers, some eerie stuff but that was like for few mins... then about relationship....

Never had a good talk with her for a long time... Both of us have been busying with band, projects, tests and personal stuff... bought a drink from 7-11 then sat outside and talk again... My mum called a few times to ask where am I... I know she's just worried... Not angry with me...

Kind of weird... Jermaine's father only trust her with me and ting hui... same for my mum... When she knows I'm with Jermaine or Sufen... She doesn't say anything...

Even though the concert is over, I'm not the least happy... In fact, I'm sad... But glad that I talked to Jermaine... It's not because of my playing or becoz everything is over... I'm glad that everything is over... I can have a break! Finally! Becoz of this concert... There's some unhappiness between me and some people... And I'm very sad about it... probably the section need a break from me... I'm too hard on everybody... I'm sorry if I'm too hard on you guys... Probably i'm being too sensitive but I believe there are people who are unhappy...

I think recently many things happen in my life... it has change my life... I've changed abit... I've learn not to put my heart and soul into everything now... I just do what I have to do that's all... I've not been my usual self... Coz I can't anymore... everything has change my life and I'm really very sad... I can't even used words to express how I feel... All I know is that... the feeling is making cry...

I think I know what I should do already... Sorry Jermaine... After all those advices, I still stick with my initial decision...

Backstage preparation before the percussion individual performance...


Venassa and rebecca... 


Zai... 


ME! 

It's our turn!


Before the piece start... 


KABE! 


Our tribe! 


Raf's tribe dancing... 


Banner made by the first year 

Full band...


Full band 


Full band 


Merry Widow 


Flowers given by my sisters and lina!! It's my favourite colour!! PINK!! 

Damn had a bad morning... I had a good sleep last night!! But I was awaken by all the drilling at 9.15am... When I should wake up at 9.30am... i know it's just 15mins... But it makes a difference!!!! But well, I extended my sleeping time to 9.45... But the stupid drilling didn't stop!!!

It's only when I got out of the house then I saw the light to all this drilling... It was some renovation of the shop downstairs... I was crusing and swearing when I saw it... Stupid people!! Ruin my beauty sleep...

I woke up with puffy eyes... Don't know why... I didn't cry... Probably I drank too much water the night before... Or rather I didn't have enough sleep... I selpt at 3+... Studying for ECM...

I took a bus to school!!! Finally no cab!!! hehe... Reached school at 10.50... not bad quite punctual!! Then went to apply for LOA for 1 sep and the past 2 days...

Took quite awhile...

I just want this to be over soon... Just 3 more days... All this would be over...

So close...

I'm glad that Nei called...Make me see things that I can't see at that moment... I'm not alone and God has not foresaken me... He's always there... Feel so much better after Nei prayed for me... My heart is comfort by God... No longer feel the hurt...

Went to church this morning... Feel so happy... To feel the warmth of God and He's love... It seems like a long time even though I just didn't go last week... After Service head down to PS with Pastor Lee, Nei, Andy, Meiying and Mei Chan...

Nei wanted to give Andy and I a treat... Coz both of our birthday fall on this month... His is tml and mine is in 2 weeks time... Since Andy is the birthday boy I let him decide where we should makan... But that guy took such a long time to think... He went from head to tail then back to head again... So fickle minded... One moment Thai food, the other moment indo-food... Thai Express, he said he had a bad impression... Swenses don't like... Can't stand him... So in the end I decided for him... Swenses...

Reached PS then... Still couldn't make up his mind when he saw the menu for Thai Express... Feel like bashing him up!!! ARGH!!! End up! Decided to have lunch at Thai Express then Ice-cream at Swenses... hehe...

I had "Fire Noodle".... Super spicy... For once I eat till I cried... Guess I did the wrong thing by eating spicy food with cold water... No wonder it makes it worse... So full!! Straight after that we went over to Swenses to have Ice-cream... Shared "Earthquake" with Nei, Pastor Lee and Andy... Then after that we discuss about the Sunday church outing... Everything's out now... So glad....

Simply couldn't walk after that... Went to Carrefour to get some tidbits.... Ohya... Met Jackson and Bee Cheng... Hmm... Wonder why they are together? Well... Nvm...

HURRAY!!! PS is having some bra sales!! haha... Saw a few which I like... Going to get them on Wednesday... Intended to go with my sis, Mei Chan... But I guess can forget abt it... After what had happen...

Head down to Orchard point OG... Bought 2 skirts... hehe... at $32... Well, quite cheap.... took a long time to try and walk around somemore...

Separated with Nei and pastor lee after we came out from OG... Decided to go home... But both of us had the sudden crave for "Mango Tango"... SO headed down to Bugis just to drink... hehe... Stupid right... But well... Who cares! I had my cup of drink! Then from Bugis took a cab home...

Everything seriously went well... But everything was screwed up when we reached home....

I'm so upset... why is my closet people only seems to be close to me physically but not mentally and emotionally... Ain't we supposed to share everything since we are a family...

Mei Chan came home with a big present... And I asked her who gave her that... she said her fren... I asked her if the guy likes her she said she don't know... But I think God had it all planned... To let me the fool to get out from darkness... A card dropped out from the bed, I picked it up and I told her the card dropped... I opened up the card and see... Guess what I saw... They've been together for a month... Why is is that she had to lie to me? I bet Meiying knew about this coz the guy is her friend...

I really feel like a fool... why?! I was angry at first but I was sad after that... Ain't we supposed to be close?! Don't tell me all this while, it's just pretending... I told them everything in my life... I share with them everything... Ain't they supposed to tell me their life? I thought we should share... Probably I'm too naive... I really so cheated... I think they don't treat me as an elder sister... Probably i'm not their biological sister...

I wanted to change the Jocelyn I am now... I want to change into a sacaristic, snob, hack care, irritating bitch.... Whoever talk to me... I won't bother about them... I won't give any advice or do what i do now... I want the good part of me to vanish and the bad in front of everybody... But God knew what I was thinking... Nei called and told me somethings about the skirt... Then she asked whether is Meiying home or not? She told me to give her a call and I told her I don't want and that I can't be bothered about them... before I couldn't finished my sentence I cried...

I told her everything and she consoled me... Her words really make those hatred go away... She said that sometimes what I do to people... They may not do the same thing... My sisters may feel that It's their privacy or probably she's afraid that we may scold them... If we know that these people are like that... Don't put all your heart and soul into this matter coz what I could get back is disappointment... She knock some sense into me...

I put all my heart and soul into them, even though I said I wouldn't care... But all I get was the pierce in my heart...

I think I shouldn't put all my heart and soul into other people's matters anymore... Except for my own work, interest and church... Coz I will end up hurting myself....

Nei called Meichan to lecture her... Think instead of feeling gulity (coz she didn't bother to apologize), she hates me to the core now... She's now downstairs with her friends... She's crying to her friends telling them what I did to make my aunt scold her and how she cried... And I become the bad guy in front of all her friends... But well, be it...

I'm going to try to guide them when they need to... But no longer with all my heart and soul anymore...

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Just reached home... Went to see the doctor... Everything went well... He said that I had good recovery and I need not depend on medication... Since I have not taken medicine for 3 months and there was no outburst... So happy! At least everything is under control already!

No worries people~! I'm talking about my skin! Not any sickness...

I can say good-bye to my acne face already! But he gave me a gel to apply every night... To prevent outburst again... Coz there's no cure for acne... Just got to learn how to take care of my skin... I guess I know how to take proper care already...

After that went to Circuit Road hawker centre to have dinner with my mum and sisters... Lina was there and Uncle Robert... We had steamboat!! Yummy!! Missed those vegetables and fishballs!! hehe... Coz when I eat steamboat I only go for fishball, vegetables and the japanese mushroom... Don't really like to eat meat... Anyway wonderful "vegeterian" dinner...

I haven't study my ECM yet... Got to start later... It's 0n wednesday...

The holidays are going to be over soon... So sian... I feel so laid back... Can't get anything done... Still got projects!!

I've been blogging like 2 to 3 times a day... coz I want to write every moment down... Every moment to be remembered.... Coz I'm very scatterbrain... I don't want any moment to be slipped away from my hand...

I feel so sticky... Going to bath... Then rest!! Got church tomorrow!!!! Hurray!!! Didn't go to church last week... Felt so uneasy... And it seems like a long week... Love going to church... It makes me forget all my tireness and worries... Even the morning sickness would just go away once I enter the church... Feel so light-hearted there... :P

I"m so sleepy and tired... Feel like sleeping but going out with my mum later to see doctor and go for dinner...

Must be all those perspiration in the band room just now... Went for sectionals in the morning... Then the freaking band room air con is not on... In fact it can't be on... Coz of the 5 day work week... so sat can't have any cca... Stupid~! Perspire like hell!!

Went through all the IBM pieces except for "October"... Luckily we didn't go through that or else I'll start to sleep... Well, need lots of practice... I still can't play my parts for "Merry Widow"...

After sectionals, stayed in the band room to practice merry widow... Kept practicing the running notes... Didn't stop and rest... My arm went numb just now... But well my efforts paid off... I could play now except for a few wrong notes now and then... I'm left with the last 3 bars of running notes... Couldn't go on with it coz too tired... My arm is still aching now... Must relax more when play...

Come to think of it... where were the rest of the percussionists? There were only a few of us only... Pathetic...

Practice till about 3... Then went to Clementi for lunch with Raf, Charlton and Jermaine... Then headed home...

But Jermaine and I went to Tiong Bahru to walk for awhile 'cos we were looking for specs... Intend to buy a specs with plastic frame... well see about it first coz i'm not used to it...

Hehe... My hamsters are here... So adorable!! my god!! I was blogging half way then my aunt told me to get ready for it... hehe... Well hane not thought of names for them yet.. Probably on the way out...

Finally finished everything with music... Pick the song "Love in any language"... One of my all time favourites... Also added some words to keep myself going whenever I "drop by" my blog... To keep myself going whenever I'm tired or feel like giving up...

My bed is calling me... Off to sleep! *yAwNz*

hehe... I changed my blog skin!! Finally got it done... encounter with some problems just now... But well everything is solved!

Like the background... Strawberries! and more strawberries! The sight of it makes me feel like eating my blog up... hehe...

Plus the fact it's my favourite colour and fruit!!

Wanted to study just now... But when I finished bathing I felt so refreshed so I sat down to watch tv... then surf for more blogskins... Had my dinner and went to teach...

My aunt whom I called Nei, called me just now... Told me that Sunday we will be going to get tidbits for the outing next sunday... She said something that really made me jump! She told me that the OG at orchard point is having sales... And skirts that are used to be sold at $90+... Is now only 15+... MY GOD!! What kind of sale is this man!! I was so happy! But well not sure if those skirts are of my liking or not... But i'll definitely go down and take a look!! I won't want to miss this chance!

Haha... I'm not broke anymore!! My mum gave me money!! I think I'm so blessed!! Everytime when I'm near to broke, my mum would just leave the money on my table! She's always my rescuser! hehe... She totally understand me!

Just like the camp... Before I left for camp she gave me $100... But when I came back home on saturday... She left $25 on my table on sunday morning and $15 on monday morning... Altogether $140... And you know what... I was left with nothing after that! I don't know how I spent all that money... Guess is cab and the food i bought... really need someone to take care of my finance...

My hamsters are coming tomorrow!! Haha... Can't wait to recieve them with open arms... My aunt janet is giving them to me... Winter white... Wanted this breed all the while! finally got them... can't wait to see how tiny they are coz they just came to this world like a few weeks.... hehe... :P

Having sectionals tomorrow morning... Last sectionals before IBM... then it's exam period! Don't plan to go anywhere after that! Got to come home to prepare the cage for my hamsters... Talking about them... What should I name them?! Still thinking about it...

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I woke up at 11+... lying on the bed for while before i got up to brush my teeth and have a nice cup of Golden tomato juice to help aid in my digestive system...

Snack abit and all i did was just slack on my bed and watch tv... Then my mum brought lunch back for me... Wah! Missed her wanton noodles so much!! Finally had it today!

After that... slack on my bed again!! After awhile, I fell asleep!! Woke up.... then had a cup of apple juice and snack again... Then finally on my com to blog...

the whole day is just slacking, snacking and sleeping! I can feel the fats growing on me... But it's been a long time since i had the time to do this... Finally a day for myself together with the things that i like to do...

I just remember that I need to study for test... totally forgot abt it... Gonna teach later...

For now, i'm gonna take a bath and buried myself in my notes, reading and some writing...

And some soul-searching, before my noisy sisters come back...

I'm feeling rather down nowadays... Even though when I'm with my friends... I go crazy... But when I come home and hide myself under my blanket I'm no longer the Jocelyn that everyone sees in the day...

Sufen said that I'm acting rather strangely... I'm mean speaking strangely... she was so freak out I guess... When I told her about that thing yesterday...

Haiz... I guess I'm too tired... I need some space and rest...

Or else my feelings is going to control over me again... sometimes I wonder why must God create us with this thing called feelings... But if we are not filled with feelings... Our life would just be a straight line... No more interesting events!

Went out with zai, venassa, rebecca, Qiao ling, muru to have lunch at rice table at cuppage there... Well, Had a full lunch... the food was not bad but i guess is not much of liking to me today...

After lunch, head down to Bugis... Went to the arcade... alan joined us... Played some lame games... Then sat down at Rockery to chat for awhile... then Raf came to join us... went to TCC... well, me and zai didn't want to sit down so we went for window shopping... By the time we were back... they had already finished their drinks... Then we head to this halal coffee shop which sells fishball noodles, wanton noodles etc...

Intended to eat desserts but couldn't find the place... so gave up... Instead we went to Breeko! Chilli out an chat!! Ohya... Raf was analsying our characteristic by our handwriting!! Guess what!! Nobody will ever thought of this man!! You know what did Raf analyse from muru's handwriting!! he have high sex drive!! haha... The moment we heard this... WE, 3 girls can't stop laughing!! My god!! Zai kept making fun of him... haha!!! Sorry brother!! It's just too unbelievable!!

But know what!! Raf is really very accurate!! He was like 99.99999% right!! My god!! Probably one day, you guys can give me your handwriting then i'll pass it to him to analyse... It's free!

Wanted to go home... But Zai suddenly suggested to go "Actors"... WAh!!! Wonderful place man!!! Alan! Muru!! U guys missed lots of fun lor!!!

"Actors" is a pub... but is not those pub where u dance like crazy or watever... it's a place to chilli out... Zai, Venassa, Raf and I had so much fun!!

After reaching the place for abt 30 mins... there was a live band!! Shiok man!! The songs they played were superb!!! We played tai-tee... But after awhile, Venassa and me started to dance to the music... it was so romantic... But when they played "Can't take my eyes off you"... All of us went haywire!! We started singing loudly!! But well there was only 4 of us there! Coz the night is still young!

So they told us to go down and sing but we refused!! We simply went high!! I was super high!! Plus I was having terrible headache!! I did not need alcohol to make turn red!! My face was super red when I came out...

Anyway the bus came shortly after i reached the bus-stop... Was like dead when i was sitting in the bus...

Having terrible headache... and it's making my eyes red...

The concert went well... Even though there were breakdown in between...

I screwed up the drumline... but managed to get back... But well... Everybody enjoyed... The audience were so entertained by us...

After concert, we had band camp straight away... We went for AGM... Horrible tiime... All the time the topic revolves around the key issue... And the percussionists were all starving... And I guess this issue makes it worse... It's all because some of them are against someone... Politics!

After AGM, we went to the area near the sports hall to have our "dinner"... the time was already 1+... All of us had a talk till about 5+... all of it was about the concert...

Only managed to sleep at 6+... We were all dead beat...

Went home on saturday... Coz i thought I had test on wednesday... But when I reached home I realized the test was next week... hehe... sorry alan!!

Guess what! I slept from 6+ till next morning 6am... Open my eyes and went back to sleep again... hehe... Don't start saying I'm a pig!! I'm over tired... Put yourself into my shoes... guess you will be like me...

Had section competition on Monday night... We had already planned to celebrate the success of our concert... Be it if we win or not for the competition...

WELL, we didn't win... But we recieve the loudest applauses!! The most important thing is that everybody enjoyed and we, the percussionists, enjoyed too!! I guess we lost because of the IBM quiz... But never mind it's ok... Alan was quite sad about it... But I guess he somehow got over it after that...

We played badminton, volley ball and captain's ball... Haha... I finally paired up with Jermaine!! After 4 years!! Even though it was not a real game but we put in our best... And we lost to 7-6... Not that bad right! We were the only girls' team that played the longest!! ANd we make good partners!! hehe...

Slept at abt 6+... Woke up at 8+... Then had full band with Mr Tan from 9-12... Then head for home!! hehe... Home Sweet Home!!

Went to do project with my friends just now... Managed to get things done... Came home to have my beauty sleep before going out with my sis to K-ster...

Been thinking of someone recently... Never thought he would be in my mind once again... Thinking of the time we spent together in the past... Guess i'm just too tired that's y...

Off to sleep... Meeting up with the section for lunch tml...

DE AVANGANDA PERCUSSIANS 1!! Is in 19 hours time~! Man!! I'm so nervous!! Just hope it's gonna be a good concert~!!

Got camp after that~! Haven pack my bag yet!! tot of packing it tml.... But guess I can forget abt it!!

Better start packing now~!

hahah!!! I'm feeling so high now!! So happy!!! Can't stop grinning!!

My friends who are not interested in any band thingy... They had preview of our concert just now... Guess what they say... Wei bin said, "Thinks it's gonna be a good concert tml, seems real good!"

haha... Man!! Plus ruben might be getting another ticket from me... Makes my day even better!! Something good before a good night sleep!!!

Guess it's a good sign to us for the concert tml!! hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahahahahahaah!!! :P

I'm pissed!! So pissed! I'm so angry!! Ah.... I hate you!!!

I cried to sleep last night... I cried for 1 whole hour!!! Is it going to be the same again tonight?!!

Or am I going to be burn with flame within me!!