SO it' the last sem. exams... I woke up at abt 10am and it's 3:44pm and I have read less than a 100 words related to my paper on monday.

I've been lazing on the bed since breakfast, doing everything except study. And now I'm blogging. The weather outside is killing and I wished to just stay in the cooling air-con room and do NOTHING. 12 chapters to finish for my retail paper and let's see how much time am left with....

Not too sure given the amount of time I'm lazing around. And still... I've plans to go Bishan. And I so wanna collect my clothes I bought online from Lyn! Talking about clothes. I've cut down my shopping expenses by more than 50%! Oh well... I'm surviving quite well for the moment.

BUT! Not gonna last long. In 3 weeks time, I'll be taking my block leave, taking a break from work for 10days. I wished it could longer or forever. Work is just getting shitty nowadays. It's not the work scope but rather it's the people. The head. Nothing can be worse off than being under a terrible leader. Anyhow back to my well deserved break.

Will be heading to KL and bangkok for holiday with the boyfriend. He has to visit his relatives in KL first 'cause once he's back he'll be going to NS. Old solider! He hates it whenever I call him that. =)

As for Bangkok, I don't have to say anything more.

I simply can't wait. I've been wanting to head to BKK since last year. And each attempt to go failed since I plan to go. But this time nothing's gonna stop me. Unless the H1N1 flu gets really bad. If not! It's time to go crazy and let loose!

Alright enough said. it's time to hit the books again....

Ciaoz!

Excited? ecstatic? happy?

I can't describe how I feel now... But one thing for sure. My shoulder feels lighter now. One by one, each burden is off. Portfolio and retail test is over. Portfolio assignment has already been submitted. For the past few weeks, it's been hard to breathe. The race went on week after week. Each week there was something to prepare for or to submit. Even the simulation group game, is left with the last round this week. It's the last 2 weeks before this sem. ends and it's time for exams.

Just checked my PM results... 77. It was such a relief. 'Cause this module has the highest failure rate. Looking back in April, getting this sem. started was something that I thought I couldn't do anymore despite the 4 sem. I went through. I was demoralised and discouraged. I didn't know how to survive through this period but eventually I did. And it's ending soon. I owe it to some of the people around. Their care, concern, encouragement and faith in me got me through.

Now it's left with one reflection paper report and final presentation for biz cap. Am still dilly dallying... =)

Another thing I can't believe is getting close with Lyn. Someone which I thought I couldn't click with since the very first sem. But damn... I was wrong. We're planning to go on a self declared graduation trip. I'm just glad that I knew her. =)

Alright... it's time for reflection paper. Gotta get it done before dinner!!

Ciaoz!

am supposed to be studying for my retail test tml. But I've been sitting in front of the com. doing everything else except for studying. So much for a long weekend... I have to worry for my test tml.

10 chapters... I'm not even done with chapter 1! I would need some good luck and good memory now.

Anyways I scored pretty ok for my individual simulation game. It was such a relief. I've got so many burdens on me, now slowly it's taken off one by one... exactly 1 more month lessons will end and my final exam will be here.... The smell of freedom is near! Though there's another supp. paper.

I was just reading through some email. And time really flies. It's been 4 years since that incident happen. I look back and i'm glad Jocelyn is standing strong. A much more stronger person today. =)

You know I've so much plans in my head for holidays and I can't wait. But once again BKK is gonna be out of the question. People stop rioting!! There are shoppers dying to go there! Anyhow if BKK is out of the question, it shall be HK. Again.

But what I really wanna do is to go back to Sabah again. To climb Mt KK. I need buddies! Still in the search of people who are interested.

Alright... time to study!

Have a long and nice weekend peeps!

Insanity

It's been hell of a week for me.

And my emotions sets in to make things worse and on top of that work has to join in the fun. I find it quite hard to deal with my emotions nowadays especially with him around me. And he always has to face with my different emotions. And it's anger and impatience most of the time. He tried hard to cheer me up. I appreciate it.

Just finished a test on tues and it was the week of our individual simulation game. It's terror seriously. Am so tired running my last lap and I'm giving every last bit of my strength for this sem. Retail test is next sat. It's no time for resting. The run has to continue on. And after that it continues on with presentation and project submission. 2 more months... the race will end.

The study race is ending soon but when will work race end? When will my race in this place end, I'm thinking. 21 july would be my 3rd year here. I look back and wonder... how many times did I thought of leaving this place so badly? Countless... And now it's back again... Quite determine this time round. Even more determine to realise my dream. But I need money.

But I can't wait and I hate it here! I drag everyday again. What can I do?

Quite after studies? I need to think it through.

But I need to breathe....

Have you ever notice yourself scratching when you feel stressed up? And probably just feel better after it?

Well I was in the lift this morning up to the office on the 26 floor. In our building, every lift has a mini tv that broadcast news from Reuters. And I happen to chance upon this depsite having so many heads in front of me, I thought it was rather interesting and true to a certain extent. Here it goes.

CHICAGO (Reuters) - Oh, it brings such blessed relief and now scientists can tell you why -- scratching an itch temporarily shuts off areas in the brain linked with unpleasant feelings and memories.

I recalled the times when I did scratch my head when there isn't an actual itch. The chances of it is... 8 out of 10. so the next time round... scratch! :0)

My colleague forward an email about Zodiac sign yesterday and I went to checked it out. And it's pretty accurate about libra woman.

LIBRA WOMAN
Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape. She has a nice smooth skin and a good figure. She will spent so much efforts to keep her skin clean and pretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and make up, but taken care of her face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby. She is good at it and tend to look younger than her age.

She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. She looks nice in either Jean or night gown. She thinks woman is equal to man. Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will not leave you far behind. She will try not to make you feel like you are competed or defeated in any games she plays with you even she is winning.

She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can not decide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her schedule very well in all cases. She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. She likes to dress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery scent.

In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostly win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and once a while give you a smile also. She will make a good politician, because she can tell which party will win the election.

She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She can not decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a good side and a bad side. Woman in other Zodiac might not care what other people think, but Libra woman care what other people ,or what you feel as much as her own feeling.

She can adjust to her environment very well, so at work she will be at the ladder up. She likes team work in doing things. If you ask her for help or advice, she will help you except if she does not like your guts. She can change you and make you think you change by yourself without her influence.

Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with your privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even she cares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will never forget to let you know how much she cares for you.

She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it well. But if you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strong woman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looks and may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games.

If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way is using her friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or treat her like a bubble head. You have to move forward toward her with confident and secure. Show her that you are a kind , polite and a real gentleman. Be a slow hand or else you might get smack!

Free day

It's a free day. I would said it is 'cause I had time for myself. I've been so caught with all the busyness in my life that I've already forgotten that I need time for myself. To stop and reflect. Sundays would be tuition. The little time that I can squeeze out is occupied as well.

But it's different today. After spending some time in church, preparing for good friday, I headed to orchard. I was still early and buying time. I walked from city hall to PS. A short walk but probably enjoyable. And i realized I've missed out so much. Letting the things around me just passed? How the traffic lights are being placed for pedestrians to cross. It sounds lame and not necessary to mention that, but I really never take notice how the traffic lights were despite walking past that area so many times when my school was still there.

With my cup of green tea frappucino, I chilled out alone @ PS starbucks waiting for time to pass. Was there to catch Arvin's gig with SMU. I would said it's 1 hour well spent, least I got some notes into my head for portfolio mgmt. An hour plus of waiting for just a 10mins gig. But oh well it's not too bad.

And right after his performace, we decided to give weiloong a 'visit'. More like surpirse. T'was the changing of guard parade at Istana. It's rather interesting. Hmm... maybe it's fun. I remember how I always drag it when I see them parade, 'cause their nothing but hazards on the road causing traffic jams. Delaying my time home. But today I finally understand why. It's fun to just walk down with the soldiers marching and the band. And watch a mini show outside the Istana. Many people were just walking down with them, taking photos and videos of them.

Anyways good job weiloong! :0)

Joined him @ Clementi for dinner with his family and relatives. I just love being with them. It's so much fun. And easy to communicate. oh yea... It's really sweet of his aunt to get me a ring on her holiday trip. Lovely ring. Love it. Gonna wear it tml.

That's it for today. Doesn't seem much but I felt that I had time for myself. It's 1.37am. Weekends always pass so fast. Luckily it's a 4 day work week.

Alright! Bed is calling!

Ciaoz!

it has been madness since I came back from Sabah. Everything didn't seem to work well at all.

Results was out on the day when I flew to Sabah. And I checked it at the airport free internet services provided. Didn't do well and I had to take a supp. paper for corporate finance. So guess how much I enjoyed my trip. It's probably just that little bit.

Things were just horrible when I came back. I had allergy spots on my feet and hands. Apparently I was bitten by some sea organisms and allergic to it. And then 2 days later I was down with urine infection.

And the best part of everything, he left for Ipoh with his family and I was left alone at his place to look after 3 guinea pigs, 2 hamsters,fishes and plants. Since when I became a gardener or farmer. It was really bad. Practically devasted. Crying was my only way of releasing out my stressed up mood. And I didn't understand why he could just leave me here alone.

I just wanted to quit school. It's really draining. Work and study. But it's my last sem. I can't just give up.

And I thought that I would feel so much better after he's back. I did feel slightly better but I didn't exactly feel better. I still had many issues to deal with. The problem lies with me. I realised that I had to let it go. I had to look at things positively. Feelings goes with thoughts. That's true.

If I didn't had to take supp. paper this time round, I don't think I'll be that motivated this sem. It's really a wake up call. I screwed up one sem. Not this last sem anymore.

Things are getting better. And I'm standing strong again.

Nothing is gonna beat me down!

It's freezing cold in the office. My fingers are numb. And damn.. I brought my jacket back home.

I'm leaving for Sabah at 5pm. Finally a short getaway to the nature. After so much of shopping holiday trips, I think it's time that I learn to appreciate the beautiful nature that God has created. Something that I've missed. Until Ivy's trip here. And I didn't realise Singapore has such nice places. So near my house but also only caught my attention when the bus passes by.

Leaving for Sabah... but it's pretty shitty. I had stomach cramps since sunday and stomach upset since sunday. Everything goes in, comes out watery. And I had seafood for dinner last night. Now I have rashes on my feet! Damn!!

I really hope I enjoy this trip!

I totally screwed up my paper today. and I doubt I can passed. But I pray for the best.

My strength is not strong enough to support my will. I have slowly drift away from Him. My quiet times with Him had seem to disappear. What's the most important thing in my life and yet my faith is not built upon it.

I've been depending on my helpless strength. But why not depend on the One who have unlimited strength.

I need my REAL life back!

Time now is 7:39pm.

And we're supposed to be on our way to weiloong's 21st birthday. But I just managed to finish. Sorry boy... work has to come first.

Anyways morning was a real busy time for me... Boss was sick. She went to see a doc and came in late. Leaving me to be superwoman, handling both SG and HK. But anyhow it all went well! Talking about falling sick. The weather is pretty bad nowadays. It's hot and dry. Everybody is suffering from sore throat,flu and headaches. Just hope the germs dont start to spread! Take care my friends!

I rec'd a call from mum just now. I would be happy if she didn't call. And it probably won't end up in such an upset situation. She called to ask if I was free to help my dad sign a contract to get him a phone from starhub. I told her that am having exams next week and I need the time to study. Sure it takes a short while but it's Sat tml. Starhub is ALWAYS flooded with people. A short while could be 2hours. I could achieve lots in 2 hours rather than sitting at a place with so many deseparate people waiting for their turn. So my dad not having a phone to use is more impt than my exams. How good can she improve the already so bad situation.

I don't know how...

Anyways it's time to leave! Auds waiting at Vivo! Sry girl!

I don't know why but as I get older I seem to hate... probably the word "hate" is too much, dislike might be a better word, my family.

Probably like the old saying... 长大了, 翅膀长硬, 会飞了.

Growing up has allow independence to be part of my life even more. And having an income has made me wanna break free even more. From this family. A home. More like a place I wanna get away from so much. And I'm counting down to the day. I'm waiting for that day to come.

Having being introduced into another family, I realised the meaning of being a real family. Maybe it's because of this family that fillls the part that's is missing in my life all these while. Strangely, it makes me wanna cherish this family more than my own. Everyone in this family plays a part and not saying "those are not mine, it doesn't bothers me." Everyone in this family helps each other to keep the house neat and tidy. Relatives that communicates with each other with not much restrictions and talks about anything. And not feeling like a stranger and have no topic to talk about.

Not relatives that says things without thinking or say things that might even hurt. Not relatives that gives a strong urge to show them that without their help financially, I'll still stand on strong. Even if it takes to stop school.

And my family. I'm starting to close my doors towards them.

This chinese new year's spring cleaning has taught me not to do too much. Just stick around with your own stuff. I find time and spend time to do but it wasn't appreciate. All I get back is "only hardworking today" from my mum when my aunt came. That's all I got. Not a single thank you or anything. Packing to the wee mornings after work and non-stop from sat afternoon to 6am sunday morning, no appointments, no sleeping despite of headache. Just to try to keep the house clean and presentable. And all I got back is a bucket of cold water right on me.

And my youngest sisters who did nothing and 2nd sister who helped abit and went straight to bed after saying having headache didn't even got a single nag or scolding from my mum.

I had a huge quarrel with her few days after the cny eve. A quarrel that changed everything since then. Home is no longer the place I took refuge in. I've not talk to my sisters much since then. Not share with them what happen at work. I've become someone of few words at home now. I won't say that it's totally her fault but I would say only 20% is my fault. But 80% will be my fault 'cause I was disrespectful. But I had enough.

Life in my family will be different. You may say I could have choose the other way. But I'm telling you now, i'm choosing this way. I'll let things be the way it is, so as to minimize the quarrels at home.

Family is no longer that important to me, but in times of trouble I won't run away.

My OWN family will be the important one to me in future. A family I built up with love and warmth. With lots of laughter and sharing. With happy memories that make me smile and not fill it with tears.

Don't say anything 'cause I'm not changing my mind. Mum hasn't wash a single of my clothes since then. 'Cause I've been doing it. And i'll con't on.

Call me stubborn, stupid or heartless. It will be the way it shall be.

It's been madness at work these 2 days.

The word "madness" seems to be always used to describe my work. Frankly speaking it is. It comes and goes like nobody's business. It can be calm this moment and stormy the next. Sometimes I think it's too much. 'cause every single payment is urgent. But there's only me. One Jocelyn.

Yesterday's work left me seeing red. And really realise the reason why many hate these, in this case I would like to refer to them as "zi you shen". Learnt this when I was in HK. They are really horrible. Calling china is always the greatest challenge for me. And I was being transferred here and there. Details I shall save it. Manage to get it settled after 2 days. And I'm "impressed" with their working attitude. How could their main branch sent our amendment to the wrong branch?! We're talking about payments here. Late payments=lost of interest or causing a OD in client's account. I take my hats off them. They're nothing but "superb".

This case was already driving me crazy and this morning I've so many payments that are urgently waiting to be authorised. I wonder how I manage to cope, but I just did.

So much about work. Let's gossip abit.

I've a stalker sitting next to me and he's slowly getting on my nerves and a pain in the arse. He did something that probably NO ONE will ever do. Didn't they say men think from one box to another. But he's thinking OUT of the box. It was a stupid thing to do.

He's been bugging me and my colleague for weeks as to why I'm not speaking to him. Somethings are just best left unspoken. I was already slowly talking to him but he screwed it up yesterday.

We have templates at work to used when crediting the client's a/c. Once the entry is keyed, it would be reflected in client's a/c, pending for my approval. This smart alec actually type "Ms lee, can u pls tell me why are you not talking to me leh. I really dont know why leh." So you know why it's stupid.

Luckily I found out in time, reprimanded him a little and ran away from the qns. It stepped on my tail again.

What can I say. He's just too imaginative. Smart.

I've been through lots of emotions yesterday, good thing was it ended on a happy note. I bought a pair of boots for 50 bucks. Cheap!

My mind is wandering off soon... Getting slpy.

Gotta sleep early and prepare for a power pac morning!! Body combat here I come!!

Ciaoz everyone!

Till then! Take care!

Gastric is giving me problems again.

Was on mc for the past 2 days. down with gastric flu. I slept the whole of yesterday and I just feel like sleeping more. Headed back to work today. But felt worst.

I was having terrible headache. Had a nap on the bus and woke up feeling giddy and nausea. And my vision was blur. I was afraid to stand up when I reach office. Coz I fear that I will collapsed again. I had something sweet and felt better. But my vision was still blur. I was trying hard to keep my eyes open. To make sure that the numbers I saw and figures were correct. Fearing that I might just sent the wrong amt out.

Lunch was terrible. I could barely eat anything in. I didn't ever had half the salmon or 1/4 of rice. I lost all the appetite.

Sudden change in body temperature was frustrating. This minute i felt chill, next I'll be in cold sweat. I felt like going home badly but there was no one to cover me. Sg side already had enough problems.

Manage to get off work early due to low volume. Headed to Tiong Bahru for a better doc. The same doc which I went back 3 times and got a 5 days mc. He's good just that i'm a lousy patient with a stubborn gastric. Well medicine is stronger i guess this time round.

But if I don't recover by this weekend. It's straight to the specialist this time.

So pray hard Jocelyn! U have a mighty healer! Have faith!

2008 has been a year of great blessings and trials.

It was a year hard to get by. Trying to balance life between work and school.

And work gives me nothing but sadness. It took me awhile to finally realize and figured out how I could look at my job the positive way.

Besides work and school, manage to meet up with some of my poly classmates and sec. school mates. And of course, the percussionists! The people I truly and always adore! It's fun having their company. And I've owe them a gathering since a long time ago.

But sadly, there are a group of people. I don't wanna use friends here 'cause they are the people I would like to forget as I leave.

Friends were wonderful. But there is someone else that played a bigger part in my life and he still is. That is the boyfriend.

I recall the many times when we quarreled but without fail you always give in though it's my fault. I'm always the one who's all out to pick a fight with you and just walk out of the problem with my tiredness. But you taught me how to be patient. How to not give a verdict without hearing you out. And sad to say I'm still learning and trying...

You always gives me the best and keep the lousy ones for yourself. I don't understand how and why but you seem to have endless patience with me. My roller coaster mood swings must have gave you many tough times. Something which I might have took for granted sub-consciously. This part I'm trying very hard...

You get upset and ask me why I always refer you as "my friend" when speaking to others. It's just like we never or seldom call each other "baby,honey,dear or my darling etc....". But bitch,slut and arsehole. And our contact name in the phone are still our name. I like it this way 'cause what's important is just us. There better not be a 3rd party!! That's for me! haa... =x

I treasure this relationship, treasure you and all the effort you've put in. Especially helping to take care of Butsie. She would have been dead if she was living under the same roof as me.

Thank you for being my best friend,confider and arsehole! And never to forget my best bitchy shopping partner since a long time ago! You love to see me buy clothes that suits me and so do I! That's why we always over spend!

It's a brand new year with several "missions" to accomplish.

2009's resolution:
1) Building a closer relationship to God
2) more Devotional time
3) Re-discover my keyboard skills in worshipping and leading worship.
4) His salvation.
5) Get done and over with my Degree
6) A new job with better boss and career opportunity.
7) To spend less. (Quite impossible but trying.)
8) Travel more. (How to spend less????)

The lists goes on but these would be top priorities.

It's 1am. Time for bed but I need to start on my assignment due on wednesday.

Gosh feeling lazy and it's suppose to be a brand new year!

So long peeps! Till then! Take care!

Mum and Aunt called to check on me several times these 2 days.

I feel touched and loved.

I made them worried. Esp. my mum... who called me many times just to ensure that I'm alright.

I fainted on sat mornin and my sister, meichan, freaked out 'coz my eyes rolled.

Thank God she was in the living room. If not I might had hit my head on the sofa side or the floor.

When I woke up I was kneeling on the ground with my sister trying to hold me up and shouting "Jie" and the last thing I could rmb was me standing up talking to my sister.

Thanks mum,aunt and meichan!

I'm struggling hard to keep myself focus in my studies.

Exams are just one day away and I've hardly prepare anything much. What have I done the past few days?

I really don't know. concentration only comes in the night. And in the day it's just time for Jocelyn's lazy afternoon.

My life is better much like a roller coaster nowadays. I think I know where the problem is. But why is it so difficult. Why do I find it so restless or weak to stand against it.

I have time to reflect on my actions. But I chose to leave it at the back of my mind.

Am I just such a coward to admit? While on the outside stands a ego and strong me.

Nobody screwed up my life, except myself.

Work could have been fine, even though it's really shitty.

But it's just how you see it.

I need to get my life back in shape. Like how it used to be.

I pray for help, O God!

I finally found the reason of my unhappiness.

Not exactly found but re-confirm.

My work is the one.

It's my 2nd day of leave and I have not felt a single unhappiness in me. I'm enjoying every moment. And I realise that it's really time to leave this place. But not with the current situation. Just how long do I still have to wait.

The work is fine but some people are juts shitheads. Esp. if it's your boss.

And I just found out that one of my colleague didn't like the girl I always dislike.

I've always thought that I have a problem with her that's why everything she does. Just annoys me. But it turns out otherwise. Ai ling felt the same way too.

And after hiding so long and working with each other for quite awhile then we realise that there are alot of things that we think the same way. We have been hiding and complaining to out bf and husband. Now that we know we have each other, work seems happier.

Having her ard makes me happier at work. Coz least I know I can speak to someone about it.

I have about 8 more months to go before completing my studies. At this point of time, I need the money for my school fees. I don't pin much hope on them reimbursing me for my studies. After all studying and taking a degree is for my own benefit.

When it comes to a point that it reaches my limit. I'll definitely do what I've been wanting to do and ought to do for the past one year.

I've become such a unhappy person because of work. My boss doesn't really give my opportunities. Not sure why. Probably she's afraid.

But the day when I tender I'll give her the real reason for my resignation. And not telling her I've a better offer. No lies.

We're a family. That's what she told Ailing today. But are you sure you really see me as a family?

I've chosen to keep quiet at work and not give her much suggestion. Since she doesn't really use them.

She loves her "pet S" so much. They can go form a family then.

I think I better stop. Or else it'll bring the anger out from me again.

It's just 40 over days more to the end of 2008.

Bear with it! i believe I have higher tolerance level than this.

Time to study! Econs! Damn!

I hate...

After 2 weeks of madness working, I finally went for my workout.

It felt good. I let it all out.

Work is making me moody. It's making me depressed.

I want to end my journey here.

This is not what I want. I need something better.

I hate restrictions. I hate not being able to go further.

I hate my life now....

punctured.

I'm feeling like a thousand things is in my head. and I just can't get things started.

Am tired from work for the past 2 weeks. almost 15 hours of work everyday. It's draining me...

Economy is going chaotic. And so are our lives. Long gone are those who said that banking pays well. Now the question is. Can you even keep your job? People are paranoid about their investment. And I've lost some too.

I'm getting annoyed with people around me. Wanting to get some interest out of AUD. But is afraid. Changing minds from time to time. It's getting on my nerves. Just what the hell is your final decision.

My mum thought that I've lose my senses by having a $10K credit card bill and there she goes nagging away over the phone. With a "no it's not", I ease her and just hang up.

Things around me are going on so fast but my pace is slowing down each day with the tiredness. Yet I can't stop 'cause I've projects and assignments.

I'm starting to hate school. Hate marketing. But like finance. Surprising.

And I just want to leave somethings the way it is now. I don't feel like meeting some people 'cause it reminds me of others. The others that I don't really want to associate with. I tried to push it away. But they keep forcing me.

I'm disappointed with some people in my life but they just don't know. I've become less interested in what they are doing. Cause the ones that really cares are far away. The friendship that used to bring some fun and laughter, now I want to stray faraway. But it just won't allow me to. I've hinted but it insisted.

Does it have to be so clear? I just want my time alone. To spend time with people that I think would make me happier.

My voice has slowly lose it's existence in the work place 'cause I chose not to be too close. Everyone is wearing a mask. Even those that I thought are nice, are actually not really sincere and nice. Those I don't like remain unwelcome in my life.

Now those few people are running through my head. And some used-to-be close ones. I'm feeling sore.

I need chocolate or ice-cream.

It's okay. I shall abstain.

Till the next time round.

ciaoz.

Typhoon No.8

yes... it is but not here at work. But live in HK.

HK market is closed for the day. And there's not much work to be done.

So now the decision maker is my boss.

Waiting for the green light from her to see if we can go home.

hmmmm.... but she doesn't seem like she want to...

Anyways we'll see.

Life have been such a bitch. I'm beginning to realised that I've lost myself. Work is becoming such a drag even after 10 days of block leave. I can't get back the passion that I used to have. Becoming abit more laid back when doing work. But not too much.

It's like a time bomb have been planted within me. Waiting to explode anytime. I've been holding on and biting my teeth. How I wish I can bite it off.

anyhow.. i'll still try to hold on.