Saturday, August 15, 2009

movie night

Just got back from movie with the bf. Watched G.I.Joe. It's been a long time since I went for movies. And after so long, it was a show worthwhile! If you have not catch it, you should!

If you're looking for...

action packed,you have it.
a little humor,you have it.
hot babes? I only saw 2 ladies in the show.
hot and sizzling bodies?! oh yea! there's a few in there. though not as many compared to "300".
It's sure a movie of the good triumph over the evil. I would give a 3.5 out of 5. hmmm... maybe 4. It can't be that perfect. Just that I felt it's worth my $10.50.

Anyhow it's bedtime! Hope I'll be able to wake up for some work-out after those cheesy nachos! =)

Night peeps! ciaoz!

Friday, August 14, 2009

crappy goodbye msg

I was clearing my office mail in preparation for the migration from lotus notes to microsoft outlook and I came across this mail which one of my ex-colleague, Hannah sent back in 07. Here it goes...

IF YOU CANT SEE,YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO RIGHT?iF YOU DON'T,DONT ASK ME
Hey gal & gay,
Thank you so much for lunch & card!!!!!!!!!!i'm so touched!Almost into tears & knee...erm.... I mean tears...almost wet my ......also

Kinda of worried about Joc...AliSia,pls take care of her..& guys pls...be patient LIKE me,who always extend LOVE & PATIENT to people,ESPECIALLY to the NEEDY..Although at times s,O I mean ALL the times she is late but I know she don't really mean it.Right Joc?

Ligen,too bad I just get to know that you are a gay.You know I have so much "trick" to give you.Hence,we can always talk about it.I can't sms to you bcos you never give me you HP no!Even though I did asked,Weisan can be the witness.

Weisan,PLS,even thougth take it as I am begging you.DON"T FAINT ANYHOW.Why choose when people wants to chill out?Only chill out what...not that they are going for ROM.Remember,if you ever want to do it again,my hp is always OFF.yes,you did read correctly -OFF

Carlene,I don't know what to say about you bcos the look at you,always make one SPITLESS.
AliSia,continue to burning,I can see something coming out.....keep it out.

LiangDe,I always want to tell you this but I don't have the guts to do it...but after today,I realize you are a nice lady...so...UR NAME HOR..SOUND LIKE MAN's name.

ok ok .I don't want to say goodbye,we will still meet & MAKE SURE WE WILL!!!!!!! I really hate to leave here but I have no choice!

cheers!

Can't help but laugh. The meaniest goodbye msg from a ever irritating person. But always the person I can look for if every situation. Talking about that... I haven met her for a long long time.
Guess it's time since am already done with my studies!

Anyways! TGIF!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Nightmare

Think I had too much of Tess Gerritsen's books.

I had a nightmare last night. Dreamt that I was almost killed by someone.

More of like... gonna be be gruesomely killed. And woke up in a shock.

Thank God I woke up, if it continues... think I might just scream and wake his sister up. maybe the whole family.

Just finished work. Heading to gym! =)

Say goodbye to bluey tuesday!

Monday, August 10, 2009

It's 10.50pm now. But it feels later. Feels like a sunday though. A long weekend but I didn't really enjoy much. Time just past like that.

Friday: prayer meeting after work. And dinner was settled with crispy noodle.
Sat: Church,tuition and steamboat at night.
Sun: Church, his uncle's place for dinner and Daiso at IMM. Just love Daiso so much. It has practically everything. I never let my trip go wasted each time I'm there.

As for today, did nothing much. I was quite upset about that. We had a quarrel. It always happen before he book in and regrets would always fill me.His effort to humor me will always be reciprocate with my coldness. Feeling bad, I'll try to be the understanding gf again and not let the temporary separation leaving both of us feeling upset.

Anyways we bid goodbye unwillingly. As our gaze met, I just knew what we wanted but you were in your uniform. And each time it's replaced with a tap on my shoulder. For a hug.

Suddenly it seems like a long week for myself and once again the feeling of dragging myself to work is back.

I was dreaming again just now... it was a beautiful scene played in my head and I could feel the happiness.
1hr and 18mins ago, Singapore just celebrated it's 44th birthday. A nation wide celebration. Celebration for her success. Her recognition over the world.

44 years may not seem that long. But for a small country like us, a little dot on the world map, it didn't came easy and it was the hard work of the pioneer leaders that we are leaving in comfort today.

From little to many.
From seas and grass to land filled with many skyscrapers.
A once dirty river and land which has now turn to a clean country and amazingly acknowledged worldwide.
A place for the youth olympic games.
From nothing to something and even being one of the top centres of finance.
And what's more? With the integrated resort coming up what would Singapore turn to become.

It's been 44 blessed years for Singapore. Blessed with good leaders and their foresight. Blessed with harmony among races. And the riches and prosperity it was given.

Now the time has past and life is once again resume after the joyous celebration. And now we'll all have work towards a better 45 years.

Friday, August 07, 2009

12:34pm is arriving. And if you guys have already rec'd sms or email from friends, you would know what i'm talking abt. if not...

Do u know?

At 12hr 34 minutes 56 seconds on 7th august this year, the time and date will be

12:34:56 07/08/09

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 this will never happen in your life again!

Amaze your friends, be the first to tell them!

Anyways I would email some of my friends at work everyday. Just in case work gets abit crazy.

oh when I was typing this I rec'd another email. The chinese version from my friend in hk.

今天12点34分56秒是一个神奇的时刻, 它显示为12:34:56 07/08/09. 123456789在我们的有生之年再也不会出现 , 祝您一切顺利,身体健康 ,工作愉快^^

Back to sending emails during working hours.. and yea... Ligen happens to be one of them.

and here goes our conversation. we were talking about how busy I am and we were deciding for a date to head down wala.

Me:
hahha... tat's y my friends are always scolding me.
need to pre-book in advance... how abt make it on the 22/08. 15/08 i can't...

LG:
yah, maybe i should start scolding you as well. haha.
and you know whats the most irritating thing.
there was this once when we confirm the venue and date for wala, and when i ask you about it.
you said "HUH? whats happening on sat?" wah thats the ultimate man seriously.haha

Me:
oh shit man!!
serious! i can't rmb that... seeshh... u must have really been not that impt in my life... =)

LG:
oh well,
hey wala is not just you and me alright, it includes dean ws wm too.
oh well, at least i know i am significant to u, thats what matters!
wahahahahahahaha~

Me:
you meant insignificant? hahahah...

LG:
you know i'm significant.
stop deceiving yourself. you arent doing any justice to yourself you know. ;)

Me:
wonder who's the one that is deceiving himself...

LG:
who who who? where what when whom which? ;)

Me:
see u're doing it again... haiz...

As usual he went...

LG:
ohh shuddup~ haha!

Me: =)

See the reason why email is so impt now... Coz our co.... well not exactly our co., ban us from MSN. It's the only way to communicate with the outside world while working.

A little interest or laughter when work just sucks...

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Blessed thurday!

A blessed thursday. A joyful day. Bless by the the big guy up there.

I passed my supp. paper! I was ecstatic when I saw the email. I just wanted to dance, shout and sing! The feelings were just filling within me. Overwhelming. But I can't do so in the office. So I was just dancing on my seat and within me. And letting joy to carry me away with the wind in my beautiful garden. Of cause in my imagination.

This verse best describe how I feel now. From the time when studying for exams just turn so tough all of a sudden. Worries that filled me when I was preparing for my supp. paper.

You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to you and not be silent.
O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever!

Psalm 30:11-12

It was a battle won after 1.5 years. Indeed it calls for a celebration.

For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance.

Ecclesiastes 3:1,4

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Once again weekends just passed without a sound. Without a blast.

Time spent with him was short. And we did nothing much for the weekend except for having lots of fried food. I can hear the machines calling me in the gym. I drag going gym on mondays 'cause it's always fill with people due to the overeating during the weekends. But other days are occupied.

He's back in camp and probably sound asleep.

Picking a fight with him was so much easier in the past but now I'll have to think twice. Just the other day we had a little quarrel and it sort of worries me. Isn't that the time when relationship starts to change during enlistment? But a simple sorry makes everything loving again.

It's kind of a bitter-sweet day. It's our 2yr anniversary but he's back in camp. But none of us really mention anything about it or rather it slip our mind. Just like how we always did. The exact number of days doesn't really matter I guess.

Currently reading "The Sinner" by Tess Gerritsen. If you like thriller, this is a must read. I started reading the book on friday and am halfway through the book already. And I guess it's gonna be another late night with the book. =)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

At the bf's house now.

Came over to wash Butsie's cage if not his sister will have to wash 3 cages.

Was the supp. paper today. I don't know what to say. Feel more at ease but hope that I can pass this paper. It's the last one already. Hope I don't have to re-module again. I'll need to pay 1.9k. It's insane.

Staying for dinner at his place. It's finally tues. Can't wait for friday to come. His booking out day. Miss him terribly the past couple of days. Didn't know that I would miss someone so much. Or even need someone so much before. It's just weird to not have him around me. But I'll slowly get used to it. oh well we'll have to.

But I don't really look forward to work tml, after taking a break for 16days. The thought of work just sucks but money... need me to say any further... Need to get the engine running again.

Gonna laze in his room before dinner... then it'll be time to head home and get ready for work tml... =(

Certainly hope I can wake up.

Thursday, July 09, 2009

He left this morning at 8am to CMPB and they sent him to camp. Didn't slept well the whole night 'cause he was still not feeling well. Having diarrhea and chest pain which got me really worried. He was still having diarrhea when he reported to cmpb this morning.

I wonder how is he now. Resting or going through crazy trainings. Hope he's doing fine. Will keep him in prayer. Anyways some photo from KL & BKK.

"Garden" in KL.




Photos with his nephew.


The super long tissue prata at a super cheap price.

BKK.

Not much photo taken in BKK. 'Cause most of the time it was spent on shopping and walking! I'm so glad to have a bf that loves shopping!

There were some small arguments during the BKK trip which I really regret 'cause I was the unreasonable one. But it made me cherish him even more knowing that he's putting effort to be patient with me and trying to learn more about God.

I remember on monday night when little pudding die, I was crying like nobody's business and washing up her cage. which I rarely do it. Most of the time he'll do it though it's our pet. But he never ever complain that he's doing everything even for our guinea pig, Butsie. I thought he wasn't that upset after all. I kind of doubt it 'cause even the slightest abnormality of our pet drives him really crazy and worried, and the next sentence that comes out from his mouth would be "shall we take her to the vet?".

After praying for him to be ready for enlistment the next day, I saw tears coming down his cheek. Finally.... who wouldn't have miss the cute little pudding. With all her stupid and funny actions.
R.I.P pudding.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Got back from some crazy shopping in Bangkok with the bf on friday.

And we sure did paid a high price for this trip. Fall sick and still recovering.

My poor bf was down with fever the day before he was supposed to be enlist into police academy and was sent back home instead. Time just tick away and his 2 day mc is up tml. He's gotta report tml. Gonna miss him for 10days.

well... after some crazy shopping it's time to prepare for my supp. paper next tuesday. How sad. My block leave is gonna end in 4 more days. Isn't it a tragic!! Getting back to work after 10days of leave. It's like trying to get the engine started once again. Going back to the fast pace life.

Having your alarm waking you up from your beauty sleep, like it's screaming "it's time to work".

oohhh... that feeling. What a drag. oh well I'll just make good use of the last few days and enjoy it.

met up with mei,wan chien, ivan and james today...

Dinner at fish and co.

Dessert at Canele.

And we called it a day. Upload the photos soon mei!

Friday, June 19, 2009

It's the bf's driving test day.

I certainly hope he'll pass... 'cause it'll benefit me alot! =)

I'm already planning for late night outs without paying for cabs anymore!

Saturday, June 06, 2009

SO it' the last sem. exams... I woke up at abt 10am and it's 3:44pm and I have read less than a 100 words related to my paper on monday.

I've been lazing on the bed since breakfast, doing everything except study. And now I'm blogging. The weather outside is killing and I wished to just stay in the cooling air-con room and do NOTHING. 12 chapters to finish for my retail paper and let's see how much time am left with....

Not too sure given the amount of time I'm lazing around. And still... I've plans to go Bishan. And I so wanna collect my clothes I bought online from Lyn! Talking about clothes. I've cut down my shopping expenses by more than 50%! Oh well... I'm surviving quite well for the moment.

BUT! Not gonna last long. In 3 weeks time, I'll be taking my block leave, taking a break from work for 10days. I wished it could longer or forever. Work is just getting shitty nowadays. It's not the work scope but rather it's the people. The head. Nothing can be worse off than being under a terrible leader. Anyhow back to my well deserved break.

Will be heading to KL and bangkok for holiday with the boyfriend. He has to visit his relatives in KL first 'cause once he's back he'll be going to NS. Old solider! He hates it whenever I call him that. =)

As for Bangkok, I don't have to say anything more.

I simply can't wait. I've been wanting to head to BKK since last year. And each attempt to go failed since I plan to go. But this time nothing's gonna stop me. Unless the H1N1 flu gets really bad. If not! It's time to go crazy and let loose!

Alright enough said. it's time to hit the books again....

Ciaoz!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Excited? ecstatic? happy?

I can't describe how I feel now... But one thing for sure. My shoulder feels lighter now. One by one, each burden is off. Portfolio and retail test is over. Portfolio assignment has already been submitted. For the past few weeks, it's been hard to breathe. The race went on week after week. Each week there was something to prepare for or to submit. Even the simulation group game, is left with the last round this week. It's the last 2 weeks before this sem. ends and it's time for exams.

Just checked my PM results... 77. It was such a relief. 'Cause this module has the highest failure rate. Looking back in April, getting this sem. started was something that I thought I couldn't do anymore despite the 4 sem. I went through. I was demoralised and discouraged. I didn't know how to survive through this period but eventually I did. And it's ending soon. I owe it to some of the people around. Their care, concern, encouragement and faith in me got me through.

Now it's left with one reflection paper report and final presentation for biz cap. Am still dilly dallying... =)

Another thing I can't believe is getting close with Lyn. Someone which I thought I couldn't click with since the very first sem. But damn... I was wrong. We're planning to go on a self declared graduation trip. I'm just glad that I knew her. =)

Alright... it's time for reflection paper. Gotta get it done before dinner!!

Ciaoz!

Friday, May 01, 2009

am supposed to be studying for my retail test tml. But I've been sitting in front of the com. doing everything else except for studying. So much for a long weekend... I have to worry for my test tml.

10 chapters... I'm not even done with chapter 1! I would need some good luck and good memory now.

Anyways I scored pretty ok for my individual simulation game. It was such a relief. I've got so many burdens on me, now slowly it's taken off one by one... exactly 1 more month lessons will end and my final exam will be here.... The smell of freedom is near! Though there's another supp. paper.

I was just reading through some email. And time really flies. It's been 4 years since that incident happen. I look back and i'm glad Jocelyn is standing strong. A much more stronger person today. =)

You know I've so much plans in my head for holidays and I can't wait. But once again BKK is gonna be out of the question. People stop rioting!! There are shoppers dying to go there! Anyhow if BKK is out of the question, it shall be HK. Again.

But what I really wanna do is to go back to Sabah again. To climb Mt KK. I need buddies! Still in the search of people who are interested.

Alright... time to study!

Have a long and nice weekend peeps!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Insanity

It's been hell of a week for me.

And my emotions sets in to make things worse and on top of that work has to join in the fun. I find it quite hard to deal with my emotions nowadays especially with him around me. And he always has to face with my different emotions. And it's anger and impatience most of the time. He tried hard to cheer me up. I appreciate it.

Just finished a test on tues and it was the week of our individual simulation game. It's terror seriously. Am so tired running my last lap and I'm giving every last bit of my strength for this sem. Retail test is next sat. It's no time for resting. The run has to continue on. And after that it continues on with presentation and project submission. 2 more months... the race will end.

The study race is ending soon but when will work race end? When will my race in this place end, I'm thinking. 21 july would be my 3rd year here. I look back and wonder... how many times did I thought of leaving this place so badly? Countless... And now it's back again... Quite determine this time round. Even more determine to realise my dream. But I need money.

But I can't wait and I hate it here! I drag everyday again. What can I do?

Quite after studies? I need to think it through.

But I need to breathe....

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Have you ever notice yourself scratching when you feel stressed up? And probably just feel better after it?

Well I was in the lift this morning up to the office on the 26 floor. In our building, every lift has a mini tv that broadcast news from Reuters. And I happen to chance upon this depsite having so many heads in front of me, I thought it was rather interesting and true to a certain extent. Here it goes.

CHICAGO (Reuters) - Oh, it brings such blessed relief and now scientists can tell you why -- scratching an itch temporarily shuts off areas in the brain linked with unpleasant feelings and memories.

I recalled the times when I did scratch my head when there isn't an actual itch. The chances of it is... 8 out of 10. so the next time round... scratch! :0)

My colleague forward an email about Zodiac sign yesterday and I went to checked it out. And it's pretty accurate about libra woman.

LIBRA WOMAN
Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape. She has a nice smooth skin and a good figure. She will spent so much efforts to keep her skin clean and pretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and make up, but taken care of her face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby. She is good at it and tend to look younger than her age.

She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. She looks nice in either Jean or night gown. She thinks woman is equal to man. Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will not leave you far behind. She will try not to make you feel like you are competed or defeated in any games she plays with you even she is winning.

She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can not decide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her schedule very well in all cases. She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. She likes to dress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery scent.

In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostly win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and once a while give you a smile also. She will make a good politician, because she can tell which party will win the election.

She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She can not decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a good side and a bad side. Woman in other Zodiac might not care what other people think, but Libra woman care what other people ,or what you feel as much as her own feeling.

She can adjust to her environment very well, so at work she will be at the ladder up. She likes team work in doing things. If you ask her for help or advice, she will help you except if she does not like your guts. She can change you and make you think you change by yourself without her influence.

Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with your privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even she cares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will never forget to let you know how much she cares for you.

She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it well. But if you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strong woman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looks and may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games.

If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way is using her friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or treat her like a bubble head. You have to move forward toward her with confident and secure. Show her that you are a kind , polite and a real gentleman. Be a slow hand or else you might get smack!

Monday, April 06, 2009

Free day

It's a free day. I would said it is 'cause I had time for myself. I've been so caught with all the busyness in my life that I've already forgotten that I need time for myself. To stop and reflect. Sundays would be tuition. The little time that I can squeeze out is occupied as well.

But it's different today. After spending some time in church, preparing for good friday, I headed to orchard. I was still early and buying time. I walked from city hall to PS. A short walk but probably enjoyable. And i realized I've missed out so much. Letting the things around me just passed? How the traffic lights are being placed for pedestrians to cross. It sounds lame and not necessary to mention that, but I really never take notice how the traffic lights were despite walking past that area so many times when my school was still there.

With my cup of green tea frappucino, I chilled out alone @ PS starbucks waiting for time to pass. Was there to catch Arvin's gig with SMU. I would said it's 1 hour well spent, least I got some notes into my head for portfolio mgmt. An hour plus of waiting for just a 10mins gig. But oh well it's not too bad.

And right after his performace, we decided to give weiloong a 'visit'. More like surpirse. T'was the changing of guard parade at Istana. It's rather interesting. Hmm... maybe it's fun. I remember how I always drag it when I see them parade, 'cause their nothing but hazards on the road causing traffic jams. Delaying my time home. But today I finally understand why. It's fun to just walk down with the soldiers marching and the band. And watch a mini show outside the Istana. Many people were just walking down with them, taking photos and videos of them.

Anyways good job weiloong! :0)

Joined him @ Clementi for dinner with his family and relatives. I just love being with them. It's so much fun. And easy to communicate. oh yea... It's really sweet of his aunt to get me a ring on her holiday trip. Lovely ring. Love it. Gonna wear it tml.

That's it for today. Doesn't seem much but I felt that I had time for myself. It's 1.37am. Weekends always pass so fast. Luckily it's a 4 day work week.

Alright! Bed is calling!

Ciaoz!

Thursday, April 02, 2009

it has been madness since I came back from Sabah. Everything didn't seem to work well at all.

Results was out on the day when I flew to Sabah. And I checked it at the airport free internet services provided. Didn't do well and I had to take a supp. paper for corporate finance. So guess how much I enjoyed my trip. It's probably just that little bit.

Things were just horrible when I came back. I had allergy spots on my feet and hands. Apparently I was bitten by some sea organisms and allergic to it. And then 2 days later I was down with urine infection.

And the best part of everything, he left for Ipoh with his family and I was left alone at his place to look after 3 guinea pigs, 2 hamsters,fishes and plants. Since when I became a gardener or farmer. It was really bad. Practically devasted. Crying was my only way of releasing out my stressed up mood. And I didn't understand why he could just leave me here alone.

I just wanted to quit school. It's really draining. Work and study. But it's my last sem. I can't just give up.

And I thought that I would feel so much better after he's back. I did feel slightly better but I didn't exactly feel better. I still had many issues to deal with. The problem lies with me. I realised that I had to let it go. I had to look at things positively. Feelings goes with thoughts. That's true.

If I didn't had to take supp. paper this time round, I don't think I'll be that motivated this sem. It's really a wake up call. I screwed up one sem. Not this last sem anymore.

Things are getting better. And I'm standing strong again.

Nothing is gonna beat me down!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

It's freezing cold in the office. My fingers are numb. And damn.. I brought my jacket back home.

I'm leaving for Sabah at 5pm. Finally a short getaway to the nature. After so much of shopping holiday trips, I think it's time that I learn to appreciate the beautiful nature that God has created. Something that I've missed. Until Ivy's trip here. And I didn't realise Singapore has such nice places. So near my house but also only caught my attention when the bus passes by.

Leaving for Sabah... but it's pretty shitty. I had stomach cramps since sunday and stomach upset since sunday. Everything goes in, comes out watery. And I had seafood for dinner last night. Now I have rashes on my feet! Damn!!

I really hope I enjoy this trip!