Finally weekends are here and weekdays are gone... A rather long weekend coz it's a public holiday on monday! Which means no work!!

Weekdays was busy,tired and restless... I didn't manage to get enough sleep and rest...

Mon-Wed
Work was from 8.30-6pm... And I had to rush back to school for band... And it ended very late coz they were having band camp... Didn't stay becoz of itp... I would reach home about 11.30pm... And by the time I finish bathing and wait for my hair to dry it's already 12+ or 1... It's not just the time... It's because all my energy has been used up moving the instruments up and down the band room... Not even a single one is left to let think of other things outside work and band... I just lie on my bed with my mind blank... And the next day when I wake up to go to work... I can't really concentrate... almost fell asleep a couple of times...

Thurs
After work rush down for tuiton... also reach home about 11+... But one thing that kept me going was weekend was near...

Due to my busy schedule, I didn't manage to see my parents for 4 days... It just hurts me not seeing them... We are living under the same roof and my house is not big... yet I didn't manage to see them or talk to them... Even my sisters... Didn't manage to spend time with them at all... When I'm back all of them are asleep... And when I wake up... I only manage to see meiying but couldn't talk much coz I've to bath...

But Thank God Friday I finally saw them... I purposely left it free so that I could go home early to see my parents and rest well too... Coz I think I deserve that rest after the busy schedule... After work. bought dinner for my parents and came home to eat with them... Thought it's not some expensive food but it was a dinner well spent... manage to talk to them and see them...

Well friday seems to be a happy day... Everybody in my department was so slack, which is a rare scene... serious! These people work non-stop all day... But friday was so different... Suddenly everybody seems so close... I was quite close to them too... And there seems to be a bond there too... And got to know them a little more... just some of them...

Jessie is the big boss there... have not talk to her before... But her looks are enough to scare me away... She quite built, short hair and tough looking... So tough that there were a few times when I enter the toilet I though I went into the wrong one... :x She looks really firece and i meant it...

Linda is some head there... Don't exactly know her position but she seems to have some authority... She does resembles rebecca... But she's slimmer and of coz older... She's rather pretty but it scares me when she frowns... She has nice hair but it would be better if she dyes it...

Ivy, the one that taught me payment balancing... Well, I can't exactly say out how is she... sometimes she seems irritated and pissed off... And sometimes she behaves and walks like a child... I don't meant it in a childish way... Can't use the right words to describe her... Probably she's bust that's why... And that's her... She's not hush or impatient... She would correct me and teach me patient... sometimes when I forget to do sometimes she would tell me nicely...

Jasmine a pretty lady... hmm... She seems to dislike me intially or probably Like i say all of them are busy... And there are certain things that we have no choice to apporach them to help us... like logging into the company lan with their password... But when got to know her well, she's fun, at times jokes with me and stuff...

Yong, the silent joker... Why do I say so? Just by looking at him, you would wanna laugh... He has this face that once you see him, you would laugh or smile... But one very scary thing is that when I'm working I feel that he's watching me... Making sure I work and stuff... Which I think it's not true... It's just the feeling that he gave... He's quite soft-spoken too... have not hear him raise his voice or talk loudly before... He's a Mr nice guy... willing to guide us... But Shunli and I always tot that he has something with winnifer... :x

Winnifer is the leader of the department I guess... She looks serious and stern... But in fact she's not... That's if she don't frown... I like it when she smiles... But Winnifer has kids... So well... we don't know what's happening... haha... These are the things that keep us awake during work... Gossip!! Coz they are always together! Yong always lunch in the office during the first week of Itp when winnifer was on leave... But she's back they have been having lunch together... :x

ok let's contiune with my impression of the people there...

Asiah... A woman who's laughter can just comes easily... one small little matter she can laugh to the extreme... One of the few whom I really talk to in the office coz she's sitting near me...

Lastly is Maggie... I remember the first day I came in or rather the first week... I didn't really like her... Coz she looks firece and she keeps looking at people with her specs below her eyes...

BUT!! BUT!! She turns out to be nicest lady there! A lady in her 50s I guess, standing at a height of 150+... petite, cute and pretty... A lady with a nice heart too... I've been there two weeks... And heard her getting scolding twice... BUT!! Never once I saw or hear her complain... And she still looks as cheerful!! And hey she still puts on make-up! And it's not extreme... and she has a little sense of fashion... For her age, I really think she dresses well!

She was the one that makes me feel so happy there... It all started out when I help her to do batching... She's patient... All of them are really fast there... And I remember when she aksed me to help her fax.. the freaking paper got jam so many times... And I know I took a long time... But she didn't rush me... When hongkong emailed her to say that they didn't receive the mail...

She came over and just me nicely... And she was still smiling.. I remember what she say...

"Just now we did fax over the documents right? Hong Kong email me now say they never receive"

that was the first incident... there was once I had to fax the swift document over... The amount of the first page was supported by the documents behind... I didn't know and tot that she just wanted me to photocopy the supporting documents... so i fax the first page and one page of the supporting document... came back told her... She didn't scold me at all... She was patient in telling me and just tell me it's ok... Just re-fax to them... I feel so comfortable helping her to do things coz I know that when I make a mistake, she will always be so patient...

She's the person that I'm gonna miss the most when I reach there... Just by thinking about it, I alrady feel like crying...

Well these are some of the people in my office... Thank God that I'm blessed with good collegueas...

Ok that's about it... I need a rest...

The night is here accompanied with the memories... It's always this time of the night that reminds me of the time that we spent together...

And it's the time when I thought the strong me in front of my friends is actually the weakest...

No matter how tired I am... There isn't a day that I spent without thinking of you... Your voice fills my head, your smell is still around and the happy moments that we spent together fills my mind...

Suddenly, I wanna close up to myself again... I don't want anyone to enter my life to take away the memories that we share... To take up the space... I wanna keep it, I don't want new memories with anyone... I just want to keep it going... since the day we start...

I want it so badly that sometimes I imagine the memories myself... Just that this time it's a different case... it has the word "if" in front of every sentence...

But I know it's not possible anymore... all those "if" will never happen... Coz I lost the last and only chance left...

I'M SO IN LOVE!!!

"read your blog... *holds you close and says "it's going to be ok"* call me. meet me. I wan to be here for you when you need someone. just whether you allow me or not"

This was the msg I saw when I woke up this morning... I was so touched and near to tears when I saw it...

And I wanna tell you that I definitely allow you to come into my life... And share the ups and downs with me... I not only allow you to be here for me... I will also be there for u!

I realise that I'm slowly falling in love with you~! Aww... I'm so in love! Thank you for your love! I would go to far extent to try and cherish it... The day that my love die for you... would be the day when we depart from this temporary home... But still I'll carry my love for you with me! :) And I know you will... Let us work hard to keep this love going strong!!

Love you lots!

I'm working at 8.30 am tml and yet I'm still awake! I want to sleep but my hair is wet!! And I'm freaking tired!! It's a bloody long day!!!

My legs are tired and I'm dead bush!!! Work was from 8.30 - 6pm... And after that went back to school for band... Band prac was from 8-11... and by the time I reach home it was already 11.30...

Man! The whole bloody week is so packed! I'll be going back for band straight after work tml and wednesday... And thursday after work I have 2 tuitions... and friday after work... Still band!!!! What a week!!! It's kind of stressful and tired when you know that the week ahead is so pack!!

Well no choice, concert is coming! 3 weeks time... And don't ask me about my playing! It's bad!!!

Had a talk with Jerm just now... She asked me why do I want to guard my heart? Coz she feels that I can't breathe... I'm making things difficult for myself... i know that! I'm trying very hard! and it's so hard! but I'm still trying!

So guard your heart well Jocelyn!!

I'm feeling how I feel last week again... I don't know why? Tears just fills my eyes... why am I feeling so tied up inside? I really need someone badly... But I don't know who to go to... I need a hug... I really need someone...

But all I have is my blanket and soft toys... hiding at one corner...

what I'm trying to say is so contradicting....

Many people come in and out of our life but how many actually stay for long or probably a lifetime... Or rather I should say how many of us would make an effort to make these people stay.... Each time we know someone of the opposite sex, each of us would be in the stage of infatuation... And what comes next would be the path of friendship or lovers... It's the choice that we make...

Many times we thought that we have found the right one... "OH! He's the guy that I'll be walking down the church aisle for at the end of my singlehood life... The one that you will spend your whole life with and share all the happiness and sadness with... BUT! Think about it... In all the relationship that we are in, we feel that for almost each of it right? And too often things turns out otherwise... And we often end up being hurt or hurting someone...

Each time we got into a relationship, we have already made a decision to hand the dagger to your other partner... And now the decision lies with him/her whether she/he will use it to protect you or stab you in the heart... But because when you hand the dagger to him/her, you have also put your trust in him/her... Believing that it would be used to protect you...

If you think that you have been stab, think twice probably you have actually use it to stab someone before... Probably I had, that's why I'm going through this now...

Everything was so perfect... Or rather seems so perfect... I thought I met the right one and put in all I could... I was about to take the dagger out to hand it over to the person... But before I could, he took a step faster by grabbing the dagger and stab me in my heart... *oUcH*

I've pulled the dagger out but it still hurts... What's left is a wound to recover on it's own...

I always have cinderella story before things offically happen... And each time the wound just get deepper... Probably everybody has the right to love except me... I know it's because I have not meet the right one... But why is it so cruel?

I'm a girl who cries easily and gets happy over small issues... And definitely someone who falls in love easily... and a girl who have cinederella story again and again... Even cinderalla has a happy ending...

Would I be the same girl again? The one that falls in love easily? I've lose the trust and once again walk back into my own world... But this time with a new mission and lesson... A place where I learn how to guard my heart... And not wanting anyone to step into my world yet... coz I've lose faith in relationship... I dare not hand the dagger to anyone... Coz I've lost the trust and become more protective over myself...

I'm guarding my heart... coz it hurts to hurt someone and it hurts to be hurt... I'm still healing a wounded soul and I really appreciate that anyone would try to stay away from me...

But one thing for sure... I'm still the same old girl that thinks alot of every issue in life...

At this stage of my life, I feel that relationship is a want not a need... Sometimes I do feel that it might be a blessing in disguise... Therefore I'll stick to going back to my own world and guard my heart well...

Like I say what I'm trying to say is so contradicting...

I'm losing my faith in relationship, guarding my heart but at the same time feeling that relationship is a want not a need...

Though I'm enjoying every single moment of singlehood but... I'm still at lost... The memories that is inside can never be erased... At times I still wanna curl up like a baby in someone's arm... But I'm still afraid...

The fear in my heart cannot be described... Unless you experience it...

But sub-consciously I know the answer right inside me... I'm still not sure if I wanna make that decision or not... Coz I'm not daring enough to make that decision...

First week at DBS Vickers Securities....

yup attached to DBS Vickers Securities for a week already... And it also means that one week of ITP is over... BUT! there's 7 more weeks.. But nvm!! I'm looking forward in learning more things...

Well, it's not that bad... Just that sometimes doing the same thing over and over again, makes me feel sleepy... And it's terrible when you know that once you reach there in the morning... Viewing clients' account and stuff... But well I did payment balancing on my own for 2 days.. Couldn't balance ytd and I was so sad coz it was so easy yet I couldn't do it...

BUT!! today I could balance it... Just that I missed out the checking of the figures with the receipt at the back if it's the same... But overall still ok... Gotta get familiarise with this before I learn how to do the DBS vickers online payment balancing...

Overall in conclusion, first week of itp is excited, tired, sleepy and abit boring ar... Well guess that's working life... If you get to learn something new then that's a different issue...

After work, headed to meet Andy at Suntec... get a cake for Nei coz we were celebrating her birthday... Headed to this chinese restaurant somewhere near far east square... which is a less than 10 mins walk from my office!!!! DAMN! waste my money... But nvm! The food there is not bad... the sambal kangkong is nice... we had fish bee hoon too, tofu, fried beef whatever you call it... But we simply enjoyed... my pastor, nei, meiying, meichan, vivian, andy and me... hmm... a good dinner after a day's work is always the best!

But I think having a HOT BATH IS STILL THE BEST MAN!! :P

After dinner, both my sisters headed home and the rest of us wanted to go to the coffee bean at Chinatown point, well not exactly them but me... coz i didn't wanna go home... but it was closed when we reached there... So headed to Mac... Spend our time chatting there and left at about 11... THANX FOR SPENDING THE TIME WITH ME!

hmm... I'm freaking tired... I need a good rest...

it's the third day of work!!! The same word.... "TIRED"

I'm really sleepy... my legs are aching due to the fact that I've been wearing heels the whole day... BAD FOR LEGS MAN!!

It's only the 3rd day of itp, it's already feeling like a rather long period of time... And today is the only day after 3 days of work, I finally got to see my parents and talk to them... I feel so sad... "wah, it's been a long time since I see you!"

I don't like them telling me this... So today I said it and told my mum how much I miss her!

the first thing that I saw when I open my parent's room door... was my dad's smile!! AW!!!! It took my tiredness away from me... All the pain just went away immediately... ;)

But I guess I won't enjoy such days for long... :(

well... Did the same few things again... abit of data entry, view clients' a/c, put through trade and did abit on payment balancing... BUT! tml I'll be handling the payment balancing alone! coz Ivy is on leave tml... I'm really scare! I'm totally new and I have not ever try doing it before... Hopefully I can do it!

Gotta sleep early or else I'll be tired again tml... and it's thursday tml! which means!!! Friday is coming soon!!!

why is it that when I'm learning how to see things from the other side... I'm fighting a spirtual warfare... I know it's hard to guard my heart against all things... BUT...

Why is it so hard to guard my heart? why?!

Everytime I try to put it off... The feeling just keep coming back... I was looking forward to ITP... But suddenly on Sunday night I got so emotional... My heart was in a whirl and I was feeling lost...

I mean don't I know my directions in life already? Ain't I determine to do somethings already? Why the sudden feeling of confusion?

Am reading "I kissed dating goodbye"... which gives lots of enlightenment to me... Really... But each time when I come to realise something... There's this pain in my heart... I don't know whether it's a blessing in disguise or not... Sometimes yes, sometimes no... And sometimes I don't even know what is a blessing in disguise...

Sometimes I will question God... why is there love or feelings on earth? why did He create such a thing? But I realise that if without love or feeling... there won't be passion... There won't be obstacles to be met and, thus learning and growing up from it...

I just need more time and more strength... more determination to guard my heart... And I really do wanna guard my heart... So don't try to come attack my heart people! Coz I'm trying to guard it 24 hours! So I beg you guys not to come disturb it k! I'll appreciate it alot! :)

2nd day of itp...

Did I ever told you that I never thought that working was easy?! and it's freaking true!!! I wanna study for life!!!

yup... it's the second day of itp... and I'm already feeling so tired... In fact when I sat at my desk yesterday, the sudden feeling that I wanna study for life is so strong...

Yes I was looking forward to ITP... indeed I am... To learn things that I don't learn in the books... and yes I did...

Probably it's the busy schedule that I have... that's y... My working hours are from 8.30 - 6.... And I have to wear formal wear everyday!! That's the last thing I wanna hear man! I can't wear jeans!!! GESH!

ok let's start with day one of work...
hmm... Reached at 8.15am... I took a bus!! haha... no cab!! I'm proud of myself!! Anyway it's just a 15mins bus ride from my house... ;)

There was a totally of 10 of us from the same course attached to DBS vickers sercurities... At first I tot it was some deserted place... but hell no... haha... and Thank God I'm with Shunli!! We are both in the same department which is the operations department... ok we are at the payment side...

got our desk... and waited for stuff to do... And I did data entry the whole day yesterday... But it's better than nothing to do... It's gonna feel weird... Day one was tiring man! Don't know why... But after work went to meet up with Cia and guys for dinner... seems like all of them had a boring and slack day one... except for Cia... seems like your pay doesn't come easy huh?! hahha... :P

Day 2
I've learn something today... COOL!!! I did data entry when I was free... And when Josephine and Ivy was free they guided me... I did put through trade... Though I was nervous initially coz I was afriad that I might do something wrong... But it was ok after all... then Ivy guide me on payment balancing... Did touch that part yet coz she has already finished it when I was done with put through trade... View client's account too... see if their account are closed or whether the'r names or IC has changed... rather easy job...

Well got've work waiting for me tml... put through trade and payment balancing... GOODY!!! I think I'm rather lucky to have jobs waiting for me... Must really Thank God! If not for the prayers that everybody had prayed for me... I won't be so blessed... :P

After work, headed down to school for band.. IT'S TERRIBLE!! All the work and effort that was put in previously, has gone down the drain partly! AND! MD is just in 3 weeks time! with ITP, tuition and band plus percussion concert... Wonder how I can cope!

OH YEAH! Percussion concert is approved ane so is the 760 bucks!! haha...

seems like things are going well...

Just a simple sentence which I pick up along when I was looking through my friendster...

"A friend drops their plans when you're in trouble, shares joy in your accomplishments, feels sad when you're in pain. A friend encourages your dreams and offers advice--but when you don't follow it,they still respect and love you."

Why Am I not feeling the way I'm supposed to be?

Finally exams are over... Took the last paper... It was ok... But forgot somethings here and there... Was only able to remember certain words of the sentence... Just hope I can pass... Didn't really had the mood to do the paper... YES! And that's the worse feeling you can ever have when you are sitting for a paper... Probably it was due to the insufficent sleep yesterday night... I toss and turn on my bed... By 3+ I was still awake... But somehow manage to get some sleep before the paper... As usual my class has the least amount of people left by the end of the paper...

After the paper I went to meet up with Jerm... Wanted to get a bag for ITP but couldn't find one so I intend to find one or I might end up finding lots within my BOX of bags... It was only a few hours spent with her, coz she's meeting Weilun to go to Johor... Though it was a short time spent with her, but it was worthwhile... It's been a long time since the both of us went out together due to our busy schedule.... It was an afternoon filled with love and laughters between best friends... Despite the heavy rain, and we had to end up buying umbrella to go to cineleisure, it was a wonderful time walking, we could still just talk about anything under the rain... haha... Am still looking forward to more of these days to come... We have plans to go backpack... and also on a holiday... but that is when we have the time... probably after my students PSLE... hope we are able to do it this time...

Paper is over... Or I should say that exams are over... It's a burden off the shoulder, a day that calls for a celebration and out having fun times with friends... I should be happy and laughing crazily... But you know what... I'm feeling none of this... I do feel that a burden is off the shoulder, a day that calls for celebration... But I just wanna be alone... which I am now... Alone at home... The quietness that is so peaceful... accompanied by the wonderful weather outside... All i want to do is slack... probably read a book, lying on the bed starring at the ceiling with plenty of thoughts in my mind and with good music... Or rather catch some sleep, coz I'm rather tired... My eyes are feeling heavy... I could just sleep sitting up straight...

And darn! why does the phone have to ring and break the peacefulness in my heart and mind! oops... It was my dad... calling back to ask me what I want for dinner... :) Ok forgiven for breaking the peacefulness, coz it was a disturbance of fatherly love... :P

*yAwNz*

gonna take a rest, before I go for tuition later...

The feeling of anxiety is gone... There's only worries, sadness and anger in me... There are some issues that I really need to consider... It's gonna be a heavy burden to me... It's time that serious decisions need to be make...

a sudden feeling of anxiety...

I don't understand why... There's a sudden feeling of anxiety in me... Why? there should not be... Probably I'm just thinking too much... Get back to study...

I'm suppose to be studying coz FMKT paper is tml... Well I've finished studying... Still left with tutorials... But I'm so lazy... I don't feel like doing anything besides slacking...

But well I don't have a choice...

Will go through and recap later... With abit of confidence and faith... I'm ready to take the paper...

Am still listening to "till the end"... It's been with me for many afternoons and nights... And I never get sick of hearing it...

It brings me different feelings each time my cursor hit the "play" button on the winamp...

Sometimes it's so relax, that I'm living in my own world... with all the happy memories that are spent... Leaving a smile on my face and a small pinch of happiness...

But sometimes it makes me heartbroken... I can feel that my jaws are numb, but tears ain't rolling down...

And sometimes I feel as if something pierce through my heart... Leaving me to bleed slowly and in pain...

Sometimes it leaves my mind in a whirl... Leaving my mind filled with all the whys which I really want to find out... Guessing and more guessing... Thinking and more thinking... Over and over again... But no matter how hard I guess and think, I still can't find the answer... And no one is willing to give me the answer... Coz no one can... What exactly went wrong?

I keep asking myself why that sometimes I'm beginning to feel that it's my fault... It's me that things turn out like that... My egoistic that destroyed everything... My pride that I refused to put aside... That cause me to lose something...

But I mean I have the right to know things don't I?! I just lose something without knowing the reason... And I'm left alone to guess the reason... I hate it... I tried not to think about it but it just keeps coming back... It's worse when night falls... Tears would start rolling down my cheek... Leaving my blanket and bed sheet wet...

At times I would cry to sleep... I've become so tired and numb that sometimes tears will just roll down without me knowing... It has become part of me...

I hide under the blanket to cry, you don't know and won't... My heart is aching... you still don't know... I'm calling out your name each time but again you still don't know... No matter how many times I shout out aloud or how much I do, you still won't hear me... And you are never gonna hear me anymore...

I'm never gonna see the same nick flashing on my computer screen again... Coz you might not even take a look at what I write... neither is my nick gonna appear flashing in your screen too... Coz I've lost all the courage, faith and cofidence that I've slowly built up... I have to struggle so hard even before I try... And even when I have the courage to do so already, the moment I try to click... I'm back to square one again...

I thought I was strong or could be... But I'm not...in my heart, I can no longer hold inside... It seems like I, myself don't even know the real Jocelyn... then how can my friends be?

In front of them, I look happy and sounded steady... Laughing away and back to my chirpy side... But how many knows my real thoughts? Probably all of them know, but they just don't wanna bring me back and see me sad again...

Jermaine don't even know till I told her... ya she knows that I definitely can't forget coz memories can't be erased... She thought that I was already recovering... But when I told her about the recent me... I guess she knew that I'm not recovering... the feeling inside is way beyond description...

Fendi didn't know to till I told him... And he said that I could be an actress... Coz I sounded so steady...

The laughter,smile and craps are just like my concealor... when the zits are covered, so are my pain and sadness... And people can only see the me that is hidden well enough... Hoping and praying hard that it would stay on...

I can only keep myself occupied with my busy schedule now... but nevertheless I know that the busy schedule is useless... Coz once again when I lie on my bed and turn in... All these would come back... And I would pray to God... Asking and crying out to Him to take it away, so I can rest...

I know it's gonna take time... I don't know how long and I probably don't want to... Probably I should let it be... It may take a long time to heal, probably a period of time that is gonna be very unexpected... But for now I'll try to work tomards my direction... Though my heart feels sore and in future when I think back tears will fill me but I'll pray that He's watching over you... It may sound silly but at least that's the little bit I can do silently for a friend...

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2 more days to the last paper... But I'm still so slack... Although I'm already at foreign exchange market 2... and 2 more chaps to go... But I doubt I can remember much... So I think I need to go through one more time to recap...

And the weird thing is that I can only concentrate in the wee hours and on my bed... I won't fall asleep... In fact, I can study faster and be more awake... when I'm on my bed...

I'm freaking sleepy... Feel like taking a nap but just can't get to sleep...

I slept at 5+ in the morning... Coz I was studying... Anyways I can't get to sleep, so might as well use the time...

Woke up at 11+ to meet cia to get the answers for foreign exchange market... Bought LJS for lunch then headed home... And just let that another day is going to end soon... I wasted almost one day just like that... But well will study later...

OK DARN! There's suppose to be music playing from my blog... But!! There isn't!!! Why?! Shall try figure it out again tml...

Jerm just called... Ok I don't know whether to say that I'm stupid or working too hard... She called to ask me if I could take another student... Coz auntie serene is looking for a tutor desperately for one month.. But Jerm was hoping that I can teach her English and Science till her PSLE is over... Was in a dilemna...

My ITP will be starting next week... And tues and fri there's band prac... another day for sectionals... And I have to give tuition every wed and thurs and sat... hmm...

Well despite my busy schedule, I agreed... Just hope I'm able to take it... yet to know the pay...

The thought of it stresses me out... I'm so afraid that I can't take it... NVM! Take it easy! When it comes, I'll try to handle it well...

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Finally manage to wake up with some sleep... But I turn in rather late... it was already 4+ in the morning when I finally felt tired and sleepy... And that was after a long talk on the phone with Jerm... A good long chat... Coz we rarely talk on the phone...

I'm beginning to be worried coz I'm not able to get to sleep early... If ITP starts, I'll be going to work feeling so restless the next day... I'm trying to sleep early but it's seems impossible... will try other ways then...

It's tuesday... 3 more days then exams is gonna end! Simply can't wait for ITP... Well as for me... Still trying hard to study.. manage to finish the few chapters... So I'm gonna make full use today... Hopefully *cRoSsInG fInGeRs*