Market Crash.

Boredom is killing me.

Penny of thoughts suffocating me with lots of stress and worries.

Studies.Work.Money.

And all these are unnecessary. I know it. So I'll just leave it to God.

I just need wisdom to plan everything properly. Life would be a whole load easier. And that includes spending money. Credit card bills was a killer last mth. 1.3k was charged to it! So control is definitely the word now.

Was emailing Arvin and he was suggesting on getting a busking license for the band. A totally fab idea. So we can perform on x'mas or any other day. But we'll have to go thru audition first. But currently practice has stop. And I need to resolve the key issues. Just hope the solution does work out.

Time now is 3:41pm. I have been sitting at my work station surfing the net since lunchtime.

Guess I'm really more of a workaholic. Ever since the lady who came in to help me out,I've been bored to death. Before she was in, I was so busy. So busy that I can't even think of anything. But now I've so much time to think! Think about what I wanna do. What are my plans in future.

To think is better than not to think. My job doesn't even require much thinking, if I don't think it's gonna get rusty soon. Need to make those brain cells work a little.

Work has been rather slack but each time when I'm abt to knock off. Things cork up last min. Then I'll be late. If today it's gonna be like that again. I'm just leaving. I just love days that I have classes. I can leave as I want and I have to! ^-^

It's almost 4. 2hrs 30mins more to end of work! And super duper long weekend!

Have been doing some random blog reading and talking to some friends.

And it seems that... EVERYBODY IS GOING ON A HOLIDAY!

Everybody is talking about going here,going there. I went there and here. Everybody is having plans to go here and there. blah blah blah....

When is it gonna be my turn? When can I start to plan? No... I should say when can I ever carry out my plan?

I've so many plans in my head. Zillion of things to do... But the foremost thing I have to do now is TO TAKE A DAMN BREAK! A tiny weeny short break, I would be more than satisfied.

Okay so here's how it goes:
24jan-25jan: stay home to study for my consumer behaviour test on sat.

and then I try to fit in some breaks in between to go on a holiday.

Mar:A short trip.

But realise I can't at all. Exams end on 23feb. New term commence on 12Mar. Too rush. Financially restraint too!

So I guess probably in Jul. Hmm... Not too bad. Seems okay.

Look further down the calender(and it's only Jan), probably oct or nov would be nice. Dec the best.

Damn! I have school in dec and all of our leaves are froze in the december. And 23nov is the last day of exams, new term starts 26nov.

So I'm only left with July. Last day of exam:22 June. New term:30 July.

The one and only term that gives me ample time. And probably during that time, financal wise would be good. Least I'm talking about the extras income, After starting my budget plan coming mth.

I'm pretty much pressing for time. And time is just ticking away. Talking abt time ticking away, I've yet to start my revision for CB test on sat. Gosh... Kill me.

Work has really exhaust me to the max and when I'm home. I'm just simply brain dead!

okays.back to topic.

Anways plan was to go bangkok in thailand. Not that rich though I'm working in a bank. So I shall go for the more value-oriented one. I need a shopping haven for me!! Shop like there's no tml!! haha....

sry got a little carried away. But who can I go with? Pan di might be going. Gotta call a few more gfs. If pan di can't make it,then it shall be gfs outing!! But max of only 4 allowed! No more than that!

So much of planning. Let's see if it's possible when the time comes.

Okays. Time to work.

Healthy Lunchtime

yes it's lunchtime and here I am sitting in front of my work station blogging.

Am just lazy to head out for lunch and besides I need to save up a little so I shall cut down on my lunch expenses and enjoy my healthy lunch made up of salmon and veg(tribute to my mum's money!) ^-^

I finally did sth to all my clothes and jackets that I've bought some time back(more than 2 yrs back is possible). Sort it out,pack them nicely and got my mum to bring it to the laundry shop downstairs my hse.

It cost a total of $67 paid by mum and not claimable!=)

Anyways I've been using office hours to blog everyday so it goes showing how manageable work is.

Schedule for the week is tight.
Today:Tuition
Fri:Finance class
Sat:gym,church & Pan di's cousin 21st bday
Sun:church and dinner @night.(gotta pop by popular to get my studen'ts assessment books.

Have got a test next sat morning. Consumer behaviour. Sigh. Haven really start studying. And I've yet to do my finance tutorial for tml...

Shit! It just came to my mind.

Time is already 13.28, have only got abt 30mins to study.

Grad the chance!

Cheers!

After surviving on baos,bread and milo for the past 1 mth, I finaly step out of office for lunch ytd.

It felt good cause it was only with WS and WM. A small group is what I would prefer now.

Shocking news:
WS is converting to perm. Just one signature away.

I was like! hello girl!!

*thinking* wish I cld hit her head to knock some sense. Asking her not to convert.

It may sound cruel but it's really the best option.

Staying here wouldn't be the choice of any wise man. Unless due to certain situation.
If not just get your arse out of here.

But anyways just rec'd an email from her this morning. She's stayin as contract for the time being until she sort it all out. Way to go granny!

Best news for the day:
Cia's last day at work. It may seems and sound insane that I'm happy that pple are leaving. But for a fact it's really the best choice. Rather than drown here.

Bad news:
I'm still here.

Am really starting to know the feeling of "unhappy at work."

Not a single trace of motivation at all.

I can't go cause I need the money. Cause the pay is freaking good. Cause the bonus is insane! And cause they are gonna sponsor for my studies without signing a bond after I complete my course. That's doubly insane!!

Gosh gosh.... I feel so trapped in this.

Time now is 18:16.

I need need to head for school soon.

Ciaoz peeps!

Each day as I go back home, I would tell myself.

"Jocelyn, you've gotta smile at work tml. You've gotta be hapy at work."

Each day pass, and weekends are here to say hello. And I'm still trying to tell myself this. I told Dean that I will be a happy Jocelyn.

But it turns out that I'm not. I came in today, not wanting to go out for lunch. Not wanting to join anyone or join the big clique for lunch.

I realised. I'm not happy at work.

The motivation and drive is gone. But definitely not a chance for my or others work to be screwed up.

Possibilities:
1) I'm sick of my work and need something new or more interesting.

2)I'm sick of the people,which is not likely.

3)I'm too stressed up trying to cope between work and school.

Guess (1) would be the biggest possibility. Well there's nth much I can do. Just stick my arse around for another a year or so. Then we'll see how.


Myspace Codes

I'm almost 2 months into my degree course and in the mist of this. I'm thinking is this the thing I wanna do?

I'm coping quite well if you want me to say. I have never answer any finance question like I did now when I was in poly. Finance lessons was a terror to me! I simply don't understand why. Or rather I would say probably I didn't put in effort to know why.

I just wanted to finish up and get my arse out of this shit.

Finally bidding good-bye to finance with a big smile, I welcome finance back into my life after a year with a big smile and much enthusiasm. Can you believe it?!

uh-eh! I can't! I started doing my tutorials! And actually put in so much effort to try and study. And amazingly TRY to understand this shit! Tell me what's the funny thing abt life?

I took 2 days off just for a test on sat. It's not a normal test. It's 40% weightage! So if I'm looking at just pass and waste my money! I won't be taking off from work.

On top of all these stress, I'm failing in my emotions control. I lose my temper easily. I get irritated. I just don't know how to control all these blues and reds. And someone has to take it all my nonsense. Family are the ones you take for granted. But the even closer ones bears it all.

Pan di. You're the dearest in my life. Thanks for enduring with me through my emotion roller-coaster ride. I know u don't enjoy this ride at all, who will right. But you sat on it with no idea what kind of track is coming ahead. Till now U're still on the ride. Thank you so much...

Since the start of 2008, though it has only been 9 days, my record of taking cab has been clean. You have no idea how proud I am! until this morning!!

Damn!! Taxi fare are soaring!! Every 20cent the meter jumps,my heart is filled with anger! It cost me 14.40 to take a cab from home to office! This is insane! I think even cabby think likewise. I bet business are getting worse. In the past, I used to take taxi w/o hesitation but now?

No hesitation! Just take the bus!! Just wait!

Gosh... probably they should bring it back.

Thankfully work was fine. Not too bad. Lunch in with my finance notes and bread! Sad but yea...

Working and studying ain't that easy. Knew it from the start but there are more. I'm gonna make things work! And it will! Still have tuition.

"Jocelyn you must be insane!"

yea yea.... I know what you mean. But oh well... ... .... ....

I'm speechless too!

Tiredness is taking over. I'm losing focus now. My brain is sending msg to my body! Time to slp!
But it's time to study!

Ciaoz!

I've missed my last 2007 entry and first entry of 2008, it's the 4th day of 2008 and I've yet to come out with a proper new year resolution.

2007 just flew by unknowingly, and 2008 is here to say "Hi, I'm here to make you work harder! hahaha(evil laughter)."

Flash thoughts:

it's the last day of 2008, 2009 is here to say "congrats! you only have another 6 mths in this damn place!"

Bidding good-bye to 2007 wasn't a loud or happening one. Probably age is catching up. It was a moment of mix emotions. Sadness at 7pm, frustation at 9pm, laughter from 10pm - 2am.

Least there's laughter to be mention.

However sad,angry or happy the last moment of 2007 is, I'm all geared up for 2008.

Movie of the year 2007 (least to me):

Almost every scene was filled with excitement. Getting audience so jumpy. Probably off the seats if that was possible.

Can't get my fav. scene upload due to Co's computer restrictions.

Overall 4stars out of 5.

Seriously I hate festive season. Esp in Singapore. Everywhere is packed with people. Humans are just like sardines packed into the can. (oh how poor thing.)

Finally a saturday that I can wake up late. Woke up at 9+ and realise that some of them actually didn't rec'd my msg abt the cancelled practice. Rang Lj and told him.

And last min they Muru and Lj asked if I wanna join them for breakfast. More of lunch I guess. Wanted to sleep more but my stomach disappoint me. Crawl up to bath and pack my gym bag. And off we head for breakfast. I was craving for dim sum. Good dim sum. But come to think of it most of the dim sum here taste awful. That I would rather stick to pancakes. But luckily Lj knew of a place. These restaurant had the best dim sum I ever ate in Singapore. Very traditional like restaurant with all the waiter and waitress pushing the trolley around asking what you want. Just like how they do it in HK.

After a satisfying breakfast accompanied with good conversation, it was time to burn those fats and tone it up!

Met my PT there, had a short chat and did a little small training there. haha....

Cardio:done.

Biceps:Worked.

Triceps:worked.

Chest:worked.

Thighs:Worked.

Stretching:DONE!

So overall it was nice saturday. A good breakfast followed up with a sweat-it-out session.

Headed to down orchard with the intention to get some stuff but the shop is not selling it anymore! That's sad. And I ended up buying a pair of shoes and 2 shorts.

Few days back I was just complaining of being cashless. And now?

Thanks to my mum who kept striking lottery.

Anyways time to study!

Ciaoz!

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress. You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

You Are a Fierce Femme

You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right. But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check. In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it... You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act!

Are You a Daring Woman?

Laying in the comfort of my bed,i'm here blogging at this hour.

Just got back from wala. It's been a long time. Can't rmb when was the last time I actually went out on a friday night.

Busy and messy day at work. Thanks to the x'mas lunch, but food was gd. It took abt 3 hours. It was held at the sentosa cove. Nice place.

Had to dump my colleagues in the battlefield for my other battle. School.

Lesson was fine. I've succeeded in answering another question with understanding. With a nod and a "good" from my lecturer.

T'was alr 10plus when I ended class. Still nth can stop me from wala!!! Nv had so much fun and laughter for a long time. Shouting and arguing. haha....

Headed to the nearby coffee shop for a chat with my colleagues.

Gonna head to bed soon hope that i can wake up for gym tml!

It's the last day of processing sg box. And am so relieved! So happy.

well that's not the only happy issue for the day. Got a year end review.

They increased my pay for next year and this yr bonus was a satisfactory amt of money! =)

But besides these 2 happy issues, work was tiring and energy consuming. It's a public holiday and there are so many remittance to do. Though can't be compared to HK box. There's lotsa of shit for SG box. Ended up leaving abt 8!

For gym!!!! Gym!!! GYM!!!! I've been for 2 wks!! Gosh!!!

It's work and studies. Tideous. Worked out with my PT today! She's insane man!! nuts!! But well had fun training together with her. After so long.

It's day 1 of not having him around me. I feel so weird. No one to give me a hug after a day's work. No one to share my joy with when I got my bonus letter. No one to have dinner with me. To make me laugh.

I hope the 5 days passed real fast. Beginning to miss him.

Ciaoz peeps! Gotta do my tuts!! Working tml!!

It's day 6.

6 days of processing SG box,it felt like 6 mths. It's torturous.Disgusting.Troublesome. And overwhelming sadness in ME!

Only wish for KC to be back soon. Since the day I'm back from my block leave,I've been lunching in. Making sure every single min is used wisely,I wld look through my notes or do my tutorial.

Working and studying part-time is tideous. And I've not been gym-ing for 2 wks!

There I go again.

Weight-conscious mode:Activated.

Fats increased mode:Activated.

Rapid changes in mood:ACTIVATED.

I've never been so stressed up in studies before. Probably last min studies. But since the day 1 i started class,I've been revising almost everyday.

It's not 'cause of the competition in class. It's abt me paying whole lump sum,though it's sponsored by the bank but i'll hv to pass first. Can't afford that to happen.

Gonna and have to come out with a time-table.

Planning time!

Let's just say it's an insane day after lunch.

i'm leaving office now!

I've reached office at a surprisingly 8.30am. It's not usual to see me around at the time unless u're talking about 9-9.30am.

The reason for the early timing is due to the location of my stay over.

Was staying over at uncle's place last night cause all of them were outstation. So to be exact, I was a guard dog. It's freaky to stay in a 2-storey terrace house with just the maid. So I got cou ricky to stay over... And this dude has to come at 11.30pm.

I cldn't wait any longer. No. My bowels cldn't wait any longer... I had to bomb Afghan. Went up alone to shower.

Anyways took a private bus to work, it's way much faster and convienent. Of coz! At a cost of 2.50. It's worth anyways.

I'm rather free at work now since I have a helper now. And my job now is to dump everything to her. Cause I'M GOING ON LEAVE!!!

21nov-4dec. Don't woah... cause I deserve it. I need a good rest.

My leave is nicely planned out alr. I've loads to do.

It just feels different. 3 more days.... 10 days of leave! and a helper now. What's more can I ask for? OH... pay raise! hee...

Time now is 1.44pm. Lunch time!

Current mood:


Wondering why I cld change a skin but not update? Just let me tell you.

Updating an entry is way more tiring then changing a blog skin. But at least I had updated with 3 sentences the other day. And since I've neglected my blog for a long time,it shall be a proper entry for today.

Saturday nights should be fun and exciting but here I am just lazing around in Mr pig's room updating an entry. His room always make me feel so comfy that I fall asleep each time I'm here.
It's been a tiring week. Weeks to be exact. Needless to explain you know why. I need the space for better things to say.

My hamstrings are so tight,I just need a stretch. Man! I miss Shufen helping me with all the stretching! Oh yea... Shufen is my personal trainer, the torturous trainer!! haa... But i need those torture, cause it's my only channel of relaxation straight after work.

"Gypsy dance" is getting better. Each individual can almost play our parts, just a little more practice together before the big day!

Heading to orchard to look for Mr pig and her mum and sister. First destination was to subway at cineleisure. It wasn't satisfying at all! The lady burnt my sub and the manager had to change a new one for me before even wrapping it up for me! And she did something so stupid! She toast my bread without my cheese and turkey ham!!! I love melted cheese! Thanks thanks.... Had an awfully quick lunch.

Talking about lunch reminded me of breakfast this morning. Last night I told mum that I wanted to have the longevity bun for breakfast cause I wld be hungry in the morning. And plus I won't be meeting Mr pig for breakfast. I came out from the shower and happily turn on the stove. Went into the room to dressed up and pack up. And when I was abt to leave the house, I went to check on my bun. Guess what! I was actually boiling water for 15 mins!! Thanks mummy!

Anyways back to where I was. After lunch we headed down to Taka to see what we can buy. My company gave me a $100 taka voucher. Won't get it until 15 nov. Wanted to get a wallet for myself but I cldn't find "the wallet". Besides I've too many. So I might just get sth else and leave the rest for Mr pig.

Plan today was to window shop and it went pretty well, only money spent on was food and drinks. Talk about that! I feel so fat now. I've been eating non-stop. High sugar intake is making me feel diabetic. I need sth plain GOD!!! Orchard is getting boring after heading down for 2 consecutive weeks. We left for cityhall on 124 and sth unexpected made us alight opp. SMU. They were having a mini flea market. I just love flea markets! You never know what kind of "steal" you can get.

That's y I said "plan". I ended up buying a vest,t-shirt and 3 books which cost $50 for all. Think the only way to stop myself from spending is to stay home and rest,since I need it. I've nth to say about my spending ways, I guess it's the same for you.

Met up with his mum and sister for dinner. Settle at this jap restaurant in PS which contradict themselves by selling pasta and baked rice. It's not worth the money and the food ain't fantastic. It's right beside Ajisen, give it a miss if you can. Strongly advisable!

And that was today for you. Boring life but at least it's better than work!! Simply can't wait to start school!! First day of student life commenced on the 30th nov. I know it sounds insane but I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO HIT THE BOOKS AGAIN!! Rawrrrr....... hahaha!!!

Being able to study again just mean so much to me. The other meaningful thing was yours truly turning 21 on the 25th sep. Boy! Haven't had a birthday celebration for so long and it's so tiring. Esp. a big one.

The popiah gang who came with a cake box which I have no idea how they got it.

Law,Mr pig and me.

Pastor Lee,Andy,me,Daphne,Aunt Emily

Poly classmates.

We share the same birthday. Hmm... maybe our soul swap.

Abn Colleagues.

Sweet!

Mum didn't know Ricky was taking a photo cause he didn't count! She picked up her call.

I can't rmb when was the last time I took a photo with mum. But I'm glad that I did on the day.

My Little Niece,Jenmma. Oh look at her!! She's so fat!! I just wanna pitch her! Sad to say none of us really got the chance to carry her except for her parents and my aunt! Cause she wld start crying like we just abuse her so badly!


My no-choice-cake. Wanted cupcakes but it was way too late.


My sisters setting my birthday cake on FIRE!!



The family photo.

My students.

De percussionista.

I rmb 2 weeks before my birthday, all my friends started asking me what I want. They had no idea what to get for me cause I already had everything. It's just funny that what present you are gonna expect. And because it's your 21st birthday, you can always ask for a BIG ONE!! It's your 21st birthday dude!! Don't ask for nothing!! hahaha....

Gifts requested by yours truly:

From marilyn and Wei bin
Who else can this be from?

Abn colleagues.

From popiah.


From poly classmates.

I msg-ed them to tell them what to get. But there were some that bought the right things for me.


Jewellery box from some colleagues who cldn't make it.


Mirror from Eanna.

Bikini from Mai & Ricky.

From Andy & Daph. Love the watch and the book. But I misplaced the book!! boo hoohoo...

From my lovely sisters.


Had $700 red packets from my uncle and aunties. And Aunt Emily paid for my buffet. ^-^

Thinking back. Though it might have been tired but having so many people at my party was lovely. Tears almost filled me when they sang the birthday song for me. Kind of shy too cause cause I haven't had a party since I was 5 or 6?!

The party wldn't been successful without some help as I didn't had time to buy the necessary things due to work.

Meiying:
Thank you for the help in getting the party decos, goodie bags,sweets and pumping the ballon. Leading in singing the birthday song. And setting my cake on fire! I still owe you money!!

Meichan:
Thank you for pumping the ballon and putting up the decos.

Ricky:
Thanks for packing the goodie bags and stealing the sweets at the same time! Thank you for being the camera man with shaky hands!

Mai:
Thanks for packing the goodie bag!

To all of you! Thanks for coming! You guys made it lovely!

That's all for now... TBC!

Posting an entry seems tougher and tougher nowadays.

A good and soundless sleep is hard to get by.

A good long break takes forever to come.

When can my rest come?

Finally manage to "steal" some time to update.

Heading to the gym just makes me feel so good but still I feel fat cause I'm eating. uh huh! Signs of anorexia. Yes yes... am watching out for that. Still munching chips down my throat but only a few pieces.

Anyways was on the bus the other day, heading somewhere when this just hit me.

Happiness. What is that? Each individual has our own definition of happiness. A simple 3 syllabus,9 letter word but it's worth is higher than that.

So what's the measure of yours? Or you've yet to think about it.

Slow down. Take a few secs to think. Soon you'll realise secs would turn to mins then hours. Now you're starting to think.

When I mention happiness here, I don't mean having "the man" of your life. Come on we're still young (if only my friends are reading). Life's a bitch, you never know a better man will come along one day. We are the new age women. Stronger and tougher.

But like I say each individual has different point of view to happiness. Maybe to some people having lots of branded goods is their happiness. Ain't trying to say that it's materialistic. Those are the results of hard work so pamper yourself!!

Gucci,Guess,LV.... blah blah... as the list goes on. They're never my kind of thing. Despite coming out to work for nearly a year plus. I still don't set my eyes on those. But I love bags. Cheap affordable bags that have different style and look.

Heading to the gym 3 times a week is an enjoyment for me. No matter how tired. The thought of putting on weight is just simply unacceptable. I've become paranoid I'm aware of that. Watching my diet and keeping fit.

Making the percussion band a success. Lots of performance,exposure. Excel at work. Hoping to change an environment. Studying part-time and working full-time which I simply can't wait. It sounds insane.

But this is my happiness. These are the things that satisfy me. That could keep me smiling.

Had dinner with my mum just now and she was so happy... And I realise I have not been spending time with her. I've been coming home late and barely get the chance to see her. She's happy but I'm sad. Cause she misses me yet I didn't realise it cause she never say it out. But it isn't difficult to see right. She everyday she would call me to ask what time I'm coming home.

"Don't be too late."

That's already a hint. But I was just to busy to even care... No heartless I would say.

So I came out with this plan. Every sat would be dinner with mummy. Bring her around for good food.

After reminders from Aud and Weiloong, I decided for a short entry! ",)

well it's always better then nothing. Ha...

Anyways life been rather the same. Same old roller coaster life. But wait. Not exactly the same. There are some changes to work. The lady helping me tendered! Thanks Thanks! Thought that we've finally found someone who will stay long. But now she's gonna be gone soon.

And I can't help asking myself.

"WHAT THE HELL AM I STILL DOING HERE?!"

Working my arse off! Having my dept head saying... "Do you know that our company is paying her very high?!"

Oh! So what I'm only a dip. holder! You have a problem with dip. holder having high pay! I'm so glad that I ain't working in yr used-to-be section. Where you even pay yr contract DEGREE holder PEANUTS! They're your staff! Not yr slaves!

But sadly you're soon gonna be my EX-boss! ",)

I'm getting sick of my job. But am worried. Quitting without a job is dangerous! There's a risk after 3 months, I'll be shaking legs at home, logging on the jobsDb, sending tons of resumes that when tat stupid someone calls you and asked if you did remember, think hard you'll still end up saying no!

And I've been overspending recently. So I guess I'll have to stick on to some time later.

That's the problem when you start doing online shopping and when you lose weight! You know you can just fit into it even without trying.

The fact that I'm happy that I've lost weight seems to backfire to all the adults in my life. My parents (esp. mum), my auntie Emily, my boss Lydia and some of my colleagues. I look way too skinny. That's what they commented.

Can you imagine my relatives used to call me "xiao pang" and few days back when i went back to my uncle's place for dinner. They all actually said I was skinny.

See it's difficult to satisfy all these adults. But so long as I'm happy.. It's cool. Heading to the gym every alternate days in I can. Still watching out my diet but sometimes I still give myself a little treat. After 3 mths of controlling,losing 10 kgs and now heading to the gym... I think I can still afford that little treat. Though I still feel guilty about eating. Yes I'm a little anorexia but still under control. It's all in the mind.

But I've to give away alot of my clothes but i'm happy to do so! Cause....

As the saying goes....

"If the old doesn't goes, there's no room for the new ones!"

Hey peeps! Pardon me for not blogging this week. Just got back from Osaka ytd. Totally zonked out. Will update soon about my wonderful trip and the sadness of coming back to this land.

For now! it's bed time! Night!