Time... Flies.

Once again. Our anniversary passed. Our 8th month.

And we just let it past us again. Both of us forgot about it and it's not the first time. I just think it's kind of funny. I don't know what's the reason but ya... somehow both of us wld let it pass until one of us rmb-ed.

We laugh at each other for being so silly. But the love is still going on strong. The bond is there. Stronger than ever. The love is filling up the air and our hearts. I've learnt to be patient. Learnt to listen before giving a verdict. I mean still learning.

Everthing doesn't seems to be 8 mths that far. But the fact is that we are and still counting for more silly moments tgt.

Thank you for the past 8 mths! Pan di.

Anyways march was pretty crazy.

The start of march was slightly peaceful with just work and tuition. But the end of march was insane. School just started and I've projects to be submitted in apr. And I have a test in 3 weeks time. How nice. I just haven got the motivation in yet. Trying to get the fire started. But so far Finance Managerial is still okay. First few topics are a revision of last sem's work. So school is still fine till this point of time,it's only the 2nd week. But the stress is in.

Besides school, I had some fun time last weekend. My hk colleague,Ivy,came to visit singapore and being close,I'm definitely her host. Maybe half a host. We met up in JB with her friend Cecilia. Yea JB. Haven step into there for 5 years! But not everything went smoothly.

The bf and I bought the 3.30pm train tics so as to avoid the unnecessary jam. But it turns out worse! The train broke down and we were stuck at Tanjong Pagar train station for 1.5hrs!!! Everything was delayed!! We could reach at 4.30 but we reached at 6. So half a day was gone. And so finally we reached,happily headed to the Mac to meet Ivy. She was at the wrong place. Apparently the coach that she took from Malacca dropped them off somewhere even further than city sq... So it was time to wait again.

Didn't do much that day. Just brought her around to take some photos and headed for dinner. It's dirt cheap for my weak stomach. I don't have to elaborate here.

Seriously speaking if it wasn't for Ivy, I won't have such time to relax or maybe have fun. Thanks to her we headed to wild wild wet. Had fun and a good laugh under the sun. Got a little burnt but it's nice! Sentosa was next. But weather was throwing tantrum. So we just had to leave early.

Brought her for prata after she had dinner with TAG dept. We spent our time till 4am. Sleepy. But lots of fun.

The bf hit it off well with them. Am glad. And we're planning our next trip to KL tgt. The 4 of us. It's rare. That's all I can say.

Well more updates later... gotta work!

Time now is 1:14am.

It's way past bed time for a weekday like that. But soon I'll turn in for a good sleep.

It's been a long day for the both of us. More details tml,if possible.

Anyways I'm overjoyed and Thank the big guy up that for all the strength and blessings'cause I've gotten back my results! Satisfactory. I would say.

Got a credit for finance,66 marks. Guess my final year exam pulled the grades up 'cause I only got 56 for my test and it's 40%. So still quite satisfied.

And as for consumer behaviour, I've got a high distinction! 87 marks... haha... Am so proud of myself. Despite trying to cope with work,studies and tuition.

The other thing is that I've got a guinea pig! It's cute,timid,playful and lovely! For it cost us a total of 200+! And we're planning to get a 2nd one!

Period!

Sigh... It's monday again. Why does weekends always have to pass so quickly. And I'm already counting down to friday.

Exams are finally over. Last paper was on last tues,Fin. Gosh... don't ask. It's just not so easy. Just hope for the best now. *crossing my fingers*

Finally I have some time to take a breather... But good times doesn't last too long. Starting school in about 3 weeks time. Drag!

Classes are gonna be on wed & thurs. Seesh... Better take in more breathe now! And I'm so not happy at work. In fact,miserable. Nothing can motivate me to come to work everyday. But I've been coming in on time or on the dot. Strange. But oh well.. Let's just say I'm leaving no loop holes for my boss to pick on me. Just in case she does.

He says that I'm thinking too much,that's why I feel so stressed.

But I just can't help thinking. Work is so free that I have ample time to think. No... in the first place my work doesn't even need any brain work. Got advise of couple of my friends. And they gave me the same ans.

LEAVE!

I'm just not sure. I'm so confused up in my head. Not knowing what to do.

I've lots of issues up in my head. And even my issues have issues.

I think I'm making things too complex for myself.

Spoke to a couple of people over the weekends regarding my job. I just love speaking to fellow church mates and my pastor. They just always know what to say. I'm not trying to say that my other friends don't give good comments. But they somehow remind me that I've neglect my time with God. Which I did ever since I started working.

But anyhow... after listening to what I said. Some of them told me it's high time to change my job. But nevertheless pray about it.

So PRAY it shall be. Meanwhile just bear with it first!!

You think taking a long break will help?

Not sure too... All I know is that my long break can only come in july. Pretty excited about this whole trip. It's the first time I'm gonna travel with my friends. Sounds like a hill billy? Actually my mum doesn't allow me to. But this time I think I'm just gonna do it first then tell her. =)

The weekends were well spent. Least am able to slow down my pace and take a look at the beautiful things that I've missed out on all this while.

Had a great workout followed by facial with fab massage ytd!

A less busy weekend for me I would say. Being able to workout and have my facial session peacefully.

Just like they say... Good times always passes fast.

School is starting soon in 2 weeks time. And this week I'm already packed with tuition.

Happy lunar new year in advance peeps!!

I'm so guilt striken now... Guilty for not attending class on tues. Missed out on a super impt lesson. Partly I didn't wanna go 'coz of the holiday mood and the other reason is I wanted so badly to service my phone. Having so much problems... all in one morning. Can't answer calls. Problems with my touch-screen,can't get into some of the applications. Freaking pissed 'coz I can only ans calls by touching my screen...

Tell me about it... Am I just plain unlucky?!

Using my sister's ugly and laggy N73. Can't really get used to it esp when I'm alr so used to touching the screen. You know what I mean...

Chinese new year has always been the same for me each year. On the 1st day, we would head to my uncle's place for lunch. And we would have the same old things each year. But! This year was a little special. We had it in buffet style. We had the eastern meet western combine. For the eastern we had chinese and jap. Western was pumpkin and some other things. Something fresh for the new year...

And as usual after that we headed to my paternal grandma's place. Plan was to stay there for less than 30mins, get our movie ticket money and head home. Which we do every year. But this year we stayed on for hours and had a game of mahjong with the adults. Well we never have a close relationship with cousins from my dad side, it's still the same. We headed home at 5 to get my stuff before joining my maternal uncle's and aunts for "CJ7".

Total waste of my money. It's not worth my 9.60. That's why I never like to catch chinese movie.

But what makes this year cny special was having pan di.

For the first time in my whole entire life,cny was so much fun and it meant so much. Not just collecting red packets. And that's all.

Was invited to pan di's uncle house ytd for dinner @1am. Why 1am? I don't know. All I knew was that I had so much fun. Somethings that I never done in any of my cny celebration.

3rd day of cny, would be just lazing around at home and watching tv. Can u imagine how lifeless my cny was. But tml I will be heading up to pan di's uncle house for lunch again. Something that they wld do every year. I'm quite excited abt it.

Cny was fun with pan di around. Though next wed I have a paper. I don't seem to worry much. He makes it special. Pan di, thanks for bringing me into your family lives. It's not just special but it means alot to me. Thank you for letting me understanding the real meaning of cny.

Study time...

January is over with a blink of an eye and we're stepping into the month of love and prosperity.

Work has been quite alright for the past few days except for wed. Ai ling was on leave and Serene was on MC. And only left with KC and I to battle through the peak hours and high volume for both SG and HK box. And what was a tragedy I have class that night. And I was late. For an hour.

Cny is round the corner,all the client's are rushing to give instructions to remit money to everywhere. Seems like the US market crash hasn't really affect much. But that was a few days ago. Market is slowly picking up.

Hmmm.... wonder if it's time to invest my money.

Problem? The money is not with me. And I need to convince my aunt that principal on investment would definitely be affected.

Have the idea of playing shares. But still quite hesitant about it though returns can be quite tempting.

13 feb:consumer behaviour
19 feb:Finance(Intro)

Yea I so totally have to spend cny studying at home.It's just not too far and I have not really start preparing. So drain and tired after work. I don't know how am I gonna study.

Talking about exams,I've just gotta back my finance test. It's a terrible and disappointing score of 56. Damn I seriously think I'm not cut out for finance. It's kind of disgusting.

Anyways I've paid. Can't change course. So plan now is to ask around and look around to see what are the interesting jobs. Though 1 & 1/2 years seems long. But didn't Jan just pass like that when we feel that we just celebrate new year like yesterday?

Studying and working is tough. I've always wanted to go overseas to further studies. I wanna get out of this boring place and start a new life,new chapter. But I didn't want to depend on anyone,not even my mum or my closet aunt,for my school fees. I wanted to do it all by myself. Though at that point of time my aunt did say to use the money that was given to me by my grandma to study. I thought it wld be good to invest and generate more earnings. However if I'll to save and then go overseas,I'll be too old and too late! So here I am with my decision made.

I have to search fast and look fast. There are tons of different paths out there but which is the one that I want? I need to know what I want so that once I graduate I can develop my career. Instead of start searching only at that time. 'Coz it's too late. By the time I finish my studies, I'll be 23!!! It's too late. Women's youth and prime time is when we are young. We have to do it faster than the men. Men's prime is at 40,but a women at 40 might just be an ordinary housewife or wrinkled face. Oh gosh... don't every let that happen. Maintain is the word.

"Men aged gracefully,women aged."

Time now is 10.43am. Gonna head out for breakfast with pan di and his sister and mum. It's gonna be a long and tiring day. Not forgetting heavy day. Have got intensive lecture from 2pm-9pm and 10am-5pm tml morning.

Tell me about it. School...

Market Crash.

Boredom is killing me.

Penny of thoughts suffocating me with lots of stress and worries.

Studies.Work.Money.

And all these are unnecessary. I know it. So I'll just leave it to God.

I just need wisdom to plan everything properly. Life would be a whole load easier. And that includes spending money. Credit card bills was a killer last mth. 1.3k was charged to it! So control is definitely the word now.

Was emailing Arvin and he was suggesting on getting a busking license for the band. A totally fab idea. So we can perform on x'mas or any other day. But we'll have to go thru audition first. But currently practice has stop. And I need to resolve the key issues. Just hope the solution does work out.

Time now is 3:41pm. I have been sitting at my work station surfing the net since lunchtime.

Guess I'm really more of a workaholic. Ever since the lady who came in to help me out,I've been bored to death. Before she was in, I was so busy. So busy that I can't even think of anything. But now I've so much time to think! Think about what I wanna do. What are my plans in future.

To think is better than not to think. My job doesn't even require much thinking, if I don't think it's gonna get rusty soon. Need to make those brain cells work a little.

Work has been rather slack but each time when I'm abt to knock off. Things cork up last min. Then I'll be late. If today it's gonna be like that again. I'm just leaving. I just love days that I have classes. I can leave as I want and I have to! ^-^

It's almost 4. 2hrs 30mins more to end of work! And super duper long weekend!

Have been doing some random blog reading and talking to some friends.

And it seems that... EVERYBODY IS GOING ON A HOLIDAY!

Everybody is talking about going here,going there. I went there and here. Everybody is having plans to go here and there. blah blah blah....

When is it gonna be my turn? When can I start to plan? No... I should say when can I ever carry out my plan?

I've so many plans in my head. Zillion of things to do... But the foremost thing I have to do now is TO TAKE A DAMN BREAK! A tiny weeny short break, I would be more than satisfied.

Okay so here's how it goes:
24jan-25jan: stay home to study for my consumer behaviour test on sat.

and then I try to fit in some breaks in between to go on a holiday.

Mar:A short trip.

But realise I can't at all. Exams end on 23feb. New term commence on 12Mar. Too rush. Financially restraint too!

So I guess probably in Jul. Hmm... Not too bad. Seems okay.

Look further down the calender(and it's only Jan), probably oct or nov would be nice. Dec the best.

Damn! I have school in dec and all of our leaves are froze in the december. And 23nov is the last day of exams, new term starts 26nov.

So I'm only left with July. Last day of exam:22 June. New term:30 July.

The one and only term that gives me ample time. And probably during that time, financal wise would be good. Least I'm talking about the extras income, After starting my budget plan coming mth.

I'm pretty much pressing for time. And time is just ticking away. Talking abt time ticking away, I've yet to start my revision for CB test on sat. Gosh... Kill me.

Work has really exhaust me to the max and when I'm home. I'm just simply brain dead!

okays.back to topic.

Anways plan was to go bangkok in thailand. Not that rich though I'm working in a bank. So I shall go for the more value-oriented one. I need a shopping haven for me!! Shop like there's no tml!! haha....

sry got a little carried away. But who can I go with? Pan di might be going. Gotta call a few more gfs. If pan di can't make it,then it shall be gfs outing!! But max of only 4 allowed! No more than that!

So much of planning. Let's see if it's possible when the time comes.

Okays. Time to work.

Healthy Lunchtime

yes it's lunchtime and here I am sitting in front of my work station blogging.

Am just lazy to head out for lunch and besides I need to save up a little so I shall cut down on my lunch expenses and enjoy my healthy lunch made up of salmon and veg(tribute to my mum's money!) ^-^

I finally did sth to all my clothes and jackets that I've bought some time back(more than 2 yrs back is possible). Sort it out,pack them nicely and got my mum to bring it to the laundry shop downstairs my hse.

It cost a total of $67 paid by mum and not claimable!=)

Anyways I've been using office hours to blog everyday so it goes showing how manageable work is.

Schedule for the week is tight.
Today:Tuition
Fri:Finance class
Sat:gym,church & Pan di's cousin 21st bday
Sun:church and dinner @night.(gotta pop by popular to get my studen'ts assessment books.

Have got a test next sat morning. Consumer behaviour. Sigh. Haven really start studying. And I've yet to do my finance tutorial for tml...

Shit! It just came to my mind.

Time is already 13.28, have only got abt 30mins to study.

Grad the chance!

Cheers!

After surviving on baos,bread and milo for the past 1 mth, I finaly step out of office for lunch ytd.

It felt good cause it was only with WS and WM. A small group is what I would prefer now.

Shocking news:
WS is converting to perm. Just one signature away.

I was like! hello girl!!

*thinking* wish I cld hit her head to knock some sense. Asking her not to convert.

It may sound cruel but it's really the best option.

Staying here wouldn't be the choice of any wise man. Unless due to certain situation.
If not just get your arse out of here.

But anyways just rec'd an email from her this morning. She's stayin as contract for the time being until she sort it all out. Way to go granny!

Best news for the day:
Cia's last day at work. It may seems and sound insane that I'm happy that pple are leaving. But for a fact it's really the best choice. Rather than drown here.

Bad news:
I'm still here.

Am really starting to know the feeling of "unhappy at work."

Not a single trace of motivation at all.

I can't go cause I need the money. Cause the pay is freaking good. Cause the bonus is insane! And cause they are gonna sponsor for my studies without signing a bond after I complete my course. That's doubly insane!!

Gosh gosh.... I feel so trapped in this.

Time now is 18:16.

I need need to head for school soon.

Ciaoz peeps!

Each day as I go back home, I would tell myself.

"Jocelyn, you've gotta smile at work tml. You've gotta be hapy at work."

Each day pass, and weekends are here to say hello. And I'm still trying to tell myself this. I told Dean that I will be a happy Jocelyn.

But it turns out that I'm not. I came in today, not wanting to go out for lunch. Not wanting to join anyone or join the big clique for lunch.

I realised. I'm not happy at work.

The motivation and drive is gone. But definitely not a chance for my or others work to be screwed up.

Possibilities:
1) I'm sick of my work and need something new or more interesting.

2)I'm sick of the people,which is not likely.

3)I'm too stressed up trying to cope between work and school.

Guess (1) would be the biggest possibility. Well there's nth much I can do. Just stick my arse around for another a year or so. Then we'll see how.


Myspace Codes

I'm almost 2 months into my degree course and in the mist of this. I'm thinking is this the thing I wanna do?

I'm coping quite well if you want me to say. I have never answer any finance question like I did now when I was in poly. Finance lessons was a terror to me! I simply don't understand why. Or rather I would say probably I didn't put in effort to know why.

I just wanted to finish up and get my arse out of this shit.

Finally bidding good-bye to finance with a big smile, I welcome finance back into my life after a year with a big smile and much enthusiasm. Can you believe it?!

uh-eh! I can't! I started doing my tutorials! And actually put in so much effort to try and study. And amazingly TRY to understand this shit! Tell me what's the funny thing abt life?

I took 2 days off just for a test on sat. It's not a normal test. It's 40% weightage! So if I'm looking at just pass and waste my money! I won't be taking off from work.

On top of all these stress, I'm failing in my emotions control. I lose my temper easily. I get irritated. I just don't know how to control all these blues and reds. And someone has to take it all my nonsense. Family are the ones you take for granted. But the even closer ones bears it all.

Pan di. You're the dearest in my life. Thanks for enduring with me through my emotion roller-coaster ride. I know u don't enjoy this ride at all, who will right. But you sat on it with no idea what kind of track is coming ahead. Till now U're still on the ride. Thank you so much...

Since the start of 2008, though it has only been 9 days, my record of taking cab has been clean. You have no idea how proud I am! until this morning!!

Damn!! Taxi fare are soaring!! Every 20cent the meter jumps,my heart is filled with anger! It cost me 14.40 to take a cab from home to office! This is insane! I think even cabby think likewise. I bet business are getting worse. In the past, I used to take taxi w/o hesitation but now?

No hesitation! Just take the bus!! Just wait!

Gosh... probably they should bring it back.

Thankfully work was fine. Not too bad. Lunch in with my finance notes and bread! Sad but yea...

Working and studying ain't that easy. Knew it from the start but there are more. I'm gonna make things work! And it will! Still have tuition.

"Jocelyn you must be insane!"

yea yea.... I know what you mean. But oh well... ... .... ....

I'm speechless too!

Tiredness is taking over. I'm losing focus now. My brain is sending msg to my body! Time to slp!
But it's time to study!

Ciaoz!

I've missed my last 2007 entry and first entry of 2008, it's the 4th day of 2008 and I've yet to come out with a proper new year resolution.

2007 just flew by unknowingly, and 2008 is here to say "Hi, I'm here to make you work harder! hahaha(evil laughter)."

Flash thoughts:

it's the last day of 2008, 2009 is here to say "congrats! you only have another 6 mths in this damn place!"

Bidding good-bye to 2007 wasn't a loud or happening one. Probably age is catching up. It was a moment of mix emotions. Sadness at 7pm, frustation at 9pm, laughter from 10pm - 2am.

Least there's laughter to be mention.

However sad,angry or happy the last moment of 2007 is, I'm all geared up for 2008.

Movie of the year 2007 (least to me):

Almost every scene was filled with excitement. Getting audience so jumpy. Probably off the seats if that was possible.

Can't get my fav. scene upload due to Co's computer restrictions.

Overall 4stars out of 5.

Seriously I hate festive season. Esp in Singapore. Everywhere is packed with people. Humans are just like sardines packed into the can. (oh how poor thing.)

Finally a saturday that I can wake up late. Woke up at 9+ and realise that some of them actually didn't rec'd my msg abt the cancelled practice. Rang Lj and told him.

And last min they Muru and Lj asked if I wanna join them for breakfast. More of lunch I guess. Wanted to sleep more but my stomach disappoint me. Crawl up to bath and pack my gym bag. And off we head for breakfast. I was craving for dim sum. Good dim sum. But come to think of it most of the dim sum here taste awful. That I would rather stick to pancakes. But luckily Lj knew of a place. These restaurant had the best dim sum I ever ate in Singapore. Very traditional like restaurant with all the waiter and waitress pushing the trolley around asking what you want. Just like how they do it in HK.

After a satisfying breakfast accompanied with good conversation, it was time to burn those fats and tone it up!

Met my PT there, had a short chat and did a little small training there. haha....

Cardio:done.

Biceps:Worked.

Triceps:worked.

Chest:worked.

Thighs:Worked.

Stretching:DONE!

So overall it was nice saturday. A good breakfast followed up with a sweat-it-out session.

Headed to down orchard with the intention to get some stuff but the shop is not selling it anymore! That's sad. And I ended up buying a pair of shoes and 2 shorts.

Few days back I was just complaining of being cashless. And now?

Thanks to my mum who kept striking lottery.

Anyways time to study!

Ciaoz!

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress. You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

You Are a Fierce Femme

You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right. But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check. In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it... You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act!

Are You a Daring Woman?

Laying in the comfort of my bed,i'm here blogging at this hour.

Just got back from wala. It's been a long time. Can't rmb when was the last time I actually went out on a friday night.

Busy and messy day at work. Thanks to the x'mas lunch, but food was gd. It took abt 3 hours. It was held at the sentosa cove. Nice place.

Had to dump my colleagues in the battlefield for my other battle. School.

Lesson was fine. I've succeeded in answering another question with understanding. With a nod and a "good" from my lecturer.

T'was alr 10plus when I ended class. Still nth can stop me from wala!!! Nv had so much fun and laughter for a long time. Shouting and arguing. haha....

Headed to the nearby coffee shop for a chat with my colleagues.

Gonna head to bed soon hope that i can wake up for gym tml!

It's the last day of processing sg box. And am so relieved! So happy.

well that's not the only happy issue for the day. Got a year end review.

They increased my pay for next year and this yr bonus was a satisfactory amt of money! =)

But besides these 2 happy issues, work was tiring and energy consuming. It's a public holiday and there are so many remittance to do. Though can't be compared to HK box. There's lotsa of shit for SG box. Ended up leaving abt 8!

For gym!!!! Gym!!! GYM!!!! I've been for 2 wks!! Gosh!!!

It's work and studies. Tideous. Worked out with my PT today! She's insane man!! nuts!! But well had fun training together with her. After so long.

It's day 1 of not having him around me. I feel so weird. No one to give me a hug after a day's work. No one to share my joy with when I got my bonus letter. No one to have dinner with me. To make me laugh.

I hope the 5 days passed real fast. Beginning to miss him.

Ciaoz peeps! Gotta do my tuts!! Working tml!!

It's day 6.

6 days of processing SG box,it felt like 6 mths. It's torturous.Disgusting.Troublesome. And overwhelming sadness in ME!

Only wish for KC to be back soon. Since the day I'm back from my block leave,I've been lunching in. Making sure every single min is used wisely,I wld look through my notes or do my tutorial.

Working and studying part-time is tideous. And I've not been gym-ing for 2 wks!

There I go again.

Weight-conscious mode:Activated.

Fats increased mode:Activated.

Rapid changes in mood:ACTIVATED.

I've never been so stressed up in studies before. Probably last min studies. But since the day 1 i started class,I've been revising almost everyday.

It's not 'cause of the competition in class. It's abt me paying whole lump sum,though it's sponsored by the bank but i'll hv to pass first. Can't afford that to happen.

Gonna and have to come out with a time-table.

Planning time!

Let's just say it's an insane day after lunch.

i'm leaving office now!

I've reached office at a surprisingly 8.30am. It's not usual to see me around at the time unless u're talking about 9-9.30am.

The reason for the early timing is due to the location of my stay over.

Was staying over at uncle's place last night cause all of them were outstation. So to be exact, I was a guard dog. It's freaky to stay in a 2-storey terrace house with just the maid. So I got cou ricky to stay over... And this dude has to come at 11.30pm.

I cldn't wait any longer. No. My bowels cldn't wait any longer... I had to bomb Afghan. Went up alone to shower.

Anyways took a private bus to work, it's way much faster and convienent. Of coz! At a cost of 2.50. It's worth anyways.

I'm rather free at work now since I have a helper now. And my job now is to dump everything to her. Cause I'M GOING ON LEAVE!!!

21nov-4dec. Don't woah... cause I deserve it. I need a good rest.

My leave is nicely planned out alr. I've loads to do.

It just feels different. 3 more days.... 10 days of leave! and a helper now. What's more can I ask for? OH... pay raise! hee...

Time now is 1.44pm. Lunch time!