Finally! new haircut and colour after 2.5 mths.

Before I headed down, I thought if I couldn't cut at least colour. It was in need of some touch up!

But now that I've got both, am a happy bitch!! I love the new look and colour. I think tml will be a happy day at work. :)

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Old is the new now....

Just when you thought leopard prints are very auntifying. It has became the lastest trend. Leopard prints no longer means aunty.


And I'm hoping to own one. Just one. Trust me!

Sometimes I hope my mum kept her old clothes!

If you're looking for a rich husband...

MINDBLOWING THOUGHT PROCESS!!!


A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:

Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here. I'm 25 this year. I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above. You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York. My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married?

I wanted to ask:

what should I do to marry rich persons like you? Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York CityGarden(?), $250k annual income is not enough.

I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:

1. Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)

2. Which age group should I target?

3. Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking? I've met a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.

4. How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? My target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

Awesome reply:

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours.

Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor. My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.

From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain. Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money": Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.

However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year. Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worried 10 years later. By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position". If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased".

Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income. This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Hope this reply helps. If you are interested in "leasing" services, do contact me...

signed,

J.P. Morgan
 
He has a point! So! Don't be such a bimbo and get back to reality!

Hate me...

Yes. I hate me. Hate myself for doing this.

It's been 3 weeks. I've been a bad girl but I can't help it. Really.

It hurts badly to do that but my feet bring me the other way round. All the time. She's upset and I'm the cause for it. What has the little girl in her heart become?

To me. A monster.
To her. Am always the little girl to her that she always love.

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Mess...

Yes, everything seems messy.

Not just visually but in the mind as well. I'm feeling tired.

Then or now. Somethings just never change.

Just got back from team building from Bintan. I would say not much of a success, glad to be home that's all.

With love from Korea!

Totally caught off guard! am ecstatic! How can I ever stop shopping. Without traveling, I can buy as much!

Hannah bitch! thank you so much!

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It can't stop twitching.

My left eye has been twitching constantly since Saturday.

I don't like moments when either of my eyes just kept twitching from time to time. To others, superstition sets in.

"Hey, left eye twitching is a good sign!".

 Got a little curious and google it.

Have I mention how much I love "Google". "Google Lee".That's what Ailing, my colleague, calls me.

Anyhow here's what I got. It's quite interesting to know the eye twitching means differently to different culture.

Left Eye Twitching - What Does It Mean

Left Eye Twitching Superstition - China: An old Chinese saying about twitching eyelids says that "the twitching of the left eyelid indicates the coming of good fortune; while the right one is a warning about the coming bad luck." So while a twitch in the left eye indicates good luck or even a major gold rush, a twitching right eye is considered a bad omen which foretells of ill luck headed your way! In women the tables are turned as a twitching right eye signifies good luck while a twitching left one is considered a bad prognostic. Similarly, there are many assumptions of eyelid twitching causes and superstitions where a twitch in the lower left eyelid means you can expect to cry soon or someone is gossiping about you.

Left Eye Twitching Superstition - India: The Indian left eye twitching superstition is the reverse of the Chinese version. So in India a twitching right eye is definitely a good sign while the left eye twitching is considered inauspicious. At times, eye twitching can also be based on the gender as well, so while left eye twitching is considered good for women it might be a bad sign for men.

Left Eye Twitching Superstition - Parts of Africa: In certain parts of Africa, twitching in your lower eyelid signals that you will soon be shedding tears or when the upper eyelid twitches, it’s a sign you will meet someone unexpectedly. The Nigerians also follow the Chinese version of the left eye twitching being considered as bad.

Left Eye Twitching Superstition - Hawaii: In Hawaii twitching eyes can signal the arrival of a stranger, or a mourning in the offing.

In addition to these faith and beliefs, there are some other versions of the left eye twitching superstition where a constant twinging of your left eye might signal a demise in the family or the twitching of the right may signal an impending birth.

However scientifically.

Eye twitches can also be caused by certain conditions such as stress, air pollution, strained eyes or fatigue. If it is an extreme condition you need to consult a doctor who might prescribe oral medications or certain eye drops. In an extreme case, myectomy or surgery for treating blinking eyes may have to be performed to cure the excessive twitching of the eyes. However, general twitching in the eyes can be cured with plenty of rest and cutting down on certain things like smoking, caffeine or alcohol. To know more about how to cure eye twitches read more on eye twitch remedies. So the next time your left eye twitches and you worry about a catastrophe befalling you, just stay calm and hope for the best.

Whether it's a good/bad sign, I very much believe that the cause of my left eye twitching is definitely scientific.

memories...

Was rummaging through the bf's hard disk and found some photos.

I used to dislike taking photos thinking that it's such a hassle, it's tiring to keep smiling in front of the camera. I still do even now but I've learn to appreciate it more now.

"A picture is worth a thousand words". It's even said.

Photos & pictures allow us to remember and reminisce the events that brings us joy and laughter. Reminisce is the word. Not just remembering but recalling the past. One can't deny the power of photos. I can't, can you?

Sometimes you just can't remember one of the many events that had happen in your life. I was browsing through folder. And it's amazing that just by looking at the photos, I seem to return to that very day.

The rascal turns 1...

I have to share these photos 'cause these 2 kids of my cousin are just too adorable. It's so much fun being with them.

We celebrated Caleb's 1st day and this calls for a family gathering. Had so much fun laughing. This boy sures enjoy food. It was so difficult to keep his hands away from the cake and they just kept feeding him with bits of cakes to get this attention diverted.

Heading to the pool.

 All dressed up for the party. Am I more handsome or Beckham?

First drumstick from his grandma, my aunt.

Tasting in progress....

hmmmm.....

 And Absolutely loving it!

 The sister and brother. How did she even think of having her hands over the brother's shoulder. =)

 Love this photo of the bf and my niece.



If you dreamt of death...

Does it brings you fear?

Not too long ago I dreamt that I was dying. It was strange.

I was given time to see all the people that was important in my life and say my good-byes. Then I rec'd a call from the hospital requesting me to report for death. I got pretty agitated (as always when people rush me).

I woke up feeling strange and thought it was quite funny. Was surfing the net and this was how they interpretated it.

Looking long

what I wore to work today. Forgot the shoes. Tryin to see if the necklaces matches. Tot it was too big. Changed to a smaller one.

And off to work. Late!

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Day before the long weekend break

It's always raining so heavily when am on shift work. Makes going to work tougher especially when you're already having second thoughts.

Anyhow I woke up early today. Before 10. It's a rather rare thing 'cause usually I would be sleeping till the very last min to shower. Not sure if it's the trip tomorrow. I feel kind of relax. Away from here, away from work and some irritating people.

Currently reading Rick Warren's "Purpose driven life". It reminds me again. No matter what am doing and whatever I have is given from Him. Just work and do your best. There's a plan from Him.

Have a great afternoon peeps! Cheers!

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Meet ups

A rather fruitful week. Not talking about work, that's the norm for weekdays. It's something on top of it. Sometimes last min meet up turns out to be better than planned ones.

Been meeting up with different group of friends this week.

Mon - skinny pizza with mei and wan chien. And definitely chilling out till late at starbucks!

tues - the bark's cafe @ changi with zai, ven and Jerm. We had a good laugh. Crazy laughters just like the good old poly days.

And now am on my way to meet my sec sch friends (Ruben,Kar heng and halim). It's a pity Nas and Jerm can't join. But I guess we'll still have lots to talk about.

Finally it's friday tml and 2 more days to my birthday. Turning 24 but not feeling the burden yet. Maybe when I turn 30. Dinner with the bf,jerm and marilyn @ straits kitchen this sat. I can't wait!

have a nice evening ahead!

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Slumber

Waiting for bus and heading to work. Nice weather to slumber. Have not been sleeping well the past few days. Sometimes i just feel like taking leave to just sleep at home. And again I can't wait for x'mas to come and say goodbye to 2010.

I've something plan in my head. Really hope it'll come true. I've been saying for years since am here.

On the other hand, am hoping for things to be settle. Get photo of the leggings and send it over to hk. And also for his friend to finish his current project. Don't wanna delay anymore. It might a better choice.

All enthusiasm has ceased for this job.

Anyways great day ahead peeps!

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Gaps

was reading through cleo and chance upon this.

i've always been mindful and hated the gaps between my 2 front tooth. everyone around me always have perfect teeth. not straight teeth but with gaps in the front. braces was my only solution though people tell me it looks fine.

So i grow up hoping to work and put braces! but my shopping habits kills me every mth. However on top of that, it's only recently that I came to realized. am not alone! there are tons of people out there with that! even models!

question is should I beautify it or embrace it?

funny thing is that I've come to accept it more after seeing so many people with it. Stars and models in this case. hmmm....

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lunch

great to have her back!

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wedding dinner went ok. will be boring if we won't sitting with boss. but it was a night of many laughters.

i know how my dream wedding is gonna be like. i've had it in mind since when i was a kid attending wedding dinners with mum. but not so soon.

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was reading through some fashion blog y'day in the ofc while working. I realised. you need to get in shape to look good in almost everything.

am working towards that. hopefully it works out all well.

it's a hot and sunny day. Enjoy the sun. gonna attend a colleague's wedding dinner tonight. gonna be all dressed up!

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Finally am all ready for the dinner on Saturday. Grey flair dress,blue heels, statement necklaces and a red clutch bag.

I guess either you hate it or love it. Appreciate it or find it totally off. But I thought it goes just alright! So does the bf!

And it's how I wear it. Not the dress wearing. Anyhow it's time to slp! Gotta work tml!

Night!

Good and bad

alright let's start with something good for the start of the day.

Just installed 'blogger-droid' on my phone last night. Now I can blog on the go. It's good for lazy people like me who thought of so much to blog but just gets so lazy when am home. Let's see if i'll make full use of this app.

The advancement of today's technology makes things so much easier and people happier. Gone are the days of the ancient handphones. Soon.

On the other side of life. I was blowing my hair and preparing for work. CNA would be my best companion through my preparation. This ad just caught me. it still gives me the chill despite happening for so long. I remembering hearing this news from the local radio and it didn't really occur to me that much back then. All that came out from my mouth was "a plane just crush into twin towers".

9 years after, the 911 incident serves as a reminder to all country to be vigilant at all times. even till today. many more after that, tighten securities at all airports.

But again besides as a reminder to all government of the world. To normal people like us, it says to cherish loved ones around you.

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Strange

Fate. Strange as it can be. Sometimes it's just so funny. It can bring a smile on your face just by thinking back.

And it just happens. You can't explain. Maybe there isn't a reason for it at all.

You can know someone almost 1/2 your life and thought it was never possible to be together but one fine day you just did.

I never thought I would be with him. And we just celebrated our 3rd year anniversary. But it seems like just yesterday. I guess that's when you meet the right person.

Sometimes I just feel so blessed when I open my eyes to see him first thing in the morning. Saying goodbye then back to catch my last 10mins of sleep.

I'm getting tired.

Need a break.

Dear God, What should I do?

I can't help but think abt it when mei mentioned the word "polaroid".

Reminds me of my hk trip, when my sister, meiying, came to look for me from dongguan. And how I just got angry with her for nothing. Really nothing and to think that she was away from home for about 3mths for her china internship. To see me was supposed to be the happiest moment for her. But turns out she was so scared. Apologised after that, 'cause I really felt very bad and guilty.

Anyways it's over, just that the thought came to me. Gotta get her something from here to make up for it.

After 10 days with wen min here, I realised that I need to change a camera! I need a new camera!! Canon's specs are quite gd. Thought of getting a semi-pro since I wanna change!

Should I? hmmm... I shall go back and tempt the bf about it. 'Cause he wants to get one as well! =)

Finally my last 5 nights here in Belgium, feelings are really at 2 extreme side of each end. I don't wanna leave this relaxing place and nice weather but on the other hand I'm excited to head home! But I guess it's back to reality. you enjoy enough, it's time to work hard.

Having a terrible headache now. Feel like heading back to the hotel for some panadol and sleep since I'm doing nothing.

Unsuccessful trip

It's 12.47am here in Belgium and I just finished showering. It's the first time am back in the hotel so late ever since I came here. But I've got company.

Was supposed to tour around Antwerp but our Paris hotel was declined as it's fully book. So we've gotta start sourcing for other hotel if not we'll just end up on the streets with our LV and long champ buys. Managed to get a hotel for 95euros. Not that fantastic looking but well it's just one night and we're on the train back to Antwerp.

So we got the hotel booked and got ready to head out for dinner. After looking through the map, we decided for Moroccan Seafood located slightly further away from Chinatown. Got some directions from the recep and with a 15mins walk mindset we stepped out of the hotel lobby. Was fine initially but as we got deeper in. Everywhere was closed and it doesn't look safe. We were contemplating if we should go forward or just turn back. Considering the fact that we still have to walk back and it was late. We gave up the idea and turn back. A wise decision made. I would say.

We walked and walked. Finally settled down at a nice looking, modern Japanese restaurant. I had chilli beef ramen with lots of uncooked beansprouts and red onions. I finished everything but not the beansprouts and red onion. Not a fan for uncooked vegetables when it's supposed to be cooked.Wen min had some curry with tempura vegetables and salad.

Nice and warm dinner.With a satisfied stomach, we paid for the bill and asked "when are we ever gonna watch a movie here?".

Bought the tickets for "Sex and the city 2" at 9.45pm for 4.90euros each and off we go to the cinemas! It's free seating! We get to choose our seats! Now I bet if we had the freedom to choose our seats back in Singapore, you'll have queues outside of EVERY theater. Watching a show will be so tiring, just like queuing up to pay for GSS.

The idea of watching a movie here strike me when most of my friends back in Singapore were posting about how awesome "Sex and the City 2" were. And I thought I shouldn't give it a miss! It turns out not to be as good that I thought it would be. Was kind of bored in between. But overall It's probably a 3/5.

It's getting late! Time to sleep! Ciao!

It's 10.48pm here in Belgium. I'm showered and nicely tuck under the blankie.

We had just finished dinner at this crappy restaurant. I had Scampis lookroom for dinner. Not sure if I got it right. But anyways it's actually prawns with garlic cream sauce. Prawns were fresh and I added fries which I couldn't finished.

Everything comes with fries or bread here. I'm almost afraid of seeing bread now. And the same old breakfast everyday. And I can start my conversation by comparing which hotel serves better scramble eggs! That would be Le Meriden Brussels. Not forgetting better service.

Feeling sleepy already. Planning to head down to Paris this weekend. So! We'll have to check and book a hotel there. Have not done any research on where to go. We'll be taking the super early train on Sat morning. 6am and reached Paris at 10am. Thanks to the 1 hour wait in between, if not it would have been 9am.

Seesh... can't wait to go Paris! Can you imagine me going crazy there?

Changes

It's Monday once again. Back to the nothing to do again. I've been sitting here all morning not knowing what to do. Almost dozing off at every stage.Came in late, had long lunch and planning to go off early.

All the taboos in office, I've done it all here. Feel like a total slacker and waste of my time. I would rather be out walking with Wen min then sit here though it's a very rare opportunity to be so slack.

Oh yea... Did I mention I'm left with 50euros for the next 2 weeks. Gosh! This is so disgusting. What have I been spending on! goodness gracious me. And too much shopping. No good for me! Not forgetting that I still have credit card bills to pay when I get back to SG. My HK trip as well. I'm starting to think if I would need to declare bankrupt soon. I think I better stop. Oh maybe after a few more items. Yet to buy chocs for the office and others. I need CASH! Better get the reimbursement of my meals back soon!

Somehow I still don't really like this trip despite it being paid for. I wanna be back home.

Anyways I was reading through Emilie's blog and it reminded me of something.

A little change to my life when I'm back in Singapore. Gonna start jamming with Emilie and her friend, Edwin. It's for fun as of now 'cause she's taking pop piano and having a band to practice with will be better. But  it's also good for me cause I always wanted to sing in a band, work with others and discover things as a band. And how to improve myself from others' suggestions. I'm looking forward to this addition activity in my life. The colours that it'll be adding to my life besides the monday-friday, work and home routine.

The list of songs can be found on Emilie's blog and thankfully she post it on her blog 'cause I left the list back in Singapore. I could practice during my free time especially those new songs.

Not sure how it's gonna turn out to be but very eager to work with the both of them. What's the future of this band? I don't know but at least it's a good start. Things can always be work out on the way. We've started picking out songs that we wanna try and see which is the best for us. Or rather we can choose songs and customized it to suit us. Don't expect Mariah Carey's kind of voice for me 'cause I ain't those kind. My voice is just a voice that produces out a sound that might coincidentally be in tune with the note that's playing out from the keyboard or guitar.

So the first task is to exercise diligently to firm up and train up those diaphragm. It really helps alot and makes alot of difference. Well at the same time, I could work out and lose weight. The best of both worlds. Or maybe I can start at the gym though I don't have proper exercise gear. But I guess shorts, t-shirts and sneakers are good enough.

Sorry for the lack of updates in photos, I'm just too lazy to do so. I'll find the time.

Can't wait to be back in Singapore. Not that I don't like it here. I enjoy the weather and laid back life. I'm probably the luckiest person in the back office that could be sent from so far to actually help out. God has heard my prayers and given this opportunity. But still, this is not home. I don't get my favourite food here. Food are horribly expensive and if you thought Singapore is expensive you might really consider eating grass here. What I don't really like is that I've gotta move here and there. It gets quite irritating actually. I'm checking out from Antwerp's hotel on the 17th June. I'm still thinking if I wanna move to Brussels for one night. But my luggage is heavy. Then on the 18th I'll be spending 1 night in Amsterdam, I'll have to move again. Head to Amsterdam Hilton on myself by cab and then fly from Amsterdam airport. I really don't like the travelling thru and flow esp. with my heavy luggage.

I miss the bf alot. One month of separation might not be long but it's not too short either. It's great to know that we both miss each other as much. And looking forward to the day of my return back to Singapore. !2 more days till the final countdown! I'm out of these place and back to the land that's filled of love for me. =)

Amsterdam

Weekends in Amsterdam was amazing!

Had so much fun and eye opening experience! The red light district, apartment with very narrow staircase, canal boat ride and nice ice cream. Red light district area was totally eye opener and it was just like entering sin city. Kind of too much man. But good to experience it. heee...

My Amsterdam colleague was nice enough to host us and giving us a roof. Nice and simple apartment with doors all spoiled. But he's a man leaving alone so what can we expect. Funny thing is he didn't change fresh new bedsheets for us. haaa... amazing but well we still slept on it. Need to sleep.

Anyways am not thinking straight anymore. Need to get some slp, gotta head to work.

More updates! Laterz!

Lobo

I've been sitting here the whole morning doing nothing else except for chatting on msn, commenting on friend's post in Facebook, reading blogs and sending emails to friends in SG. Not just today but almost everyday since I'm here.

Good life eh. I won't comment much on that. At least some work is better than no work. But it doesn't seem to look as wrong here compared to Singapore. I just settle into the culture. when they have nothing much to do, they surf net here. And how do I know. 'Cause I'm sitting right at the corner of the room.

If only work was like that back home. I was just looking through the HK mailbox and  wonder to myself. "Can I picked up the fast paced work when I'm back." Or maybe the question should be this instead. "Do I want or not." I'm getting so lazy. I still can't make myself commit to here anymore.

The fire is dying. I can't get it burning again. I need some motivation.

But anyways on a happy note. Wen Min has finally arrived Antwerp! Finally! I'm gonna enjoy these 10days with her so much!! And probably get better sleep tonight. I was jumping on the streets when I saw her. Literally. It's fate I guess. We've got the same luggage bag as well!

We'll be heading down to Amsterdam later in the evening by train. Staying over at a colleague's house. Glad that we can actually save up the hotel money and spend in Paris. Can't wait to explore with her, Heard Amsterdam is damn fun!

Lunchtime soon. Gonna head back to the hotel to look for her and off we go for some walk! Good weather today! Not oo cold and the sun is up!

16 more days...

16 more days to the end of my misery here.




I feel like a fool here. It's my 2nd week here in Belgium and I've yet to figure out what I'm supposed to do. Should I sit here and wait for them to tell me what to do or take initiative?

Back in SG, our culture is to take initiative. Which I did. I did as told but seems like it's pointless if something else is not completely done. I, as a tester, whom they requested all the way from SG has totally no information or updates about the delay of the DU testings. And how am I supposed to know. Even the lady guiding me is so inexperienced and get stressed up over little things which can't be comparable to our working env't in SG. I mean of cause I can't compare it's different culture. Do it! You have done it before! Like "HELLO! I have not done it before! I know it better than you, confused mouse!"



I know I'm being mean here. But feel my frustration. It's the situation of a blind mouse leading another one. And she's sort of raising her voice at me. I'm here to help her, not her assistant! She don't even have good payment knowledge. Ugh... nvm. Just that too many things happen and I just have to beware of my back. 16 more days and there are 10days Wen min is here. I thank God for that.

Well it's another 1 hr 10mins more for lunch. I'm looking forward to it.

Have a great day ahead pple!

Starting all over again

Checking out from Le Meriden Brussels in another hour and gonna hop on the train with all my heavy luggage to Antwerp.

Yes I'll be spending the rest of the week in Antwerp.

It feels like starting all over again. Trying to adapt to be alone somewhere else again. Survived through the 2nd weekends. I've 20 more days and 2 more weekends before home comes near. That's why Wen Min's arrival next friday is gonna be such a bonus! At least there's someone to spend 2 weekends with me! Gonna head down to Amsterdam and Paris! Woohooo!!! =)

2nd wkend in Brussels

Time is starting to pass faster now.

Just last wk I was wondering how to pass each day till 19June. But now I'm enjoying. The relax and laid back life ass compared to the bustling and stressful Singapore. It's been stress-free days since I was here. Strangely I have this feeling that on the day I'm leaving, I might not wanna leave.

But I still miss home. Wanna be back for my laksa, fishball noodle and chilli! Miss those food. I still do think that they're fattening but I've been away for 1mth. So I'll put that aside and enjoy food from where I call home.

It's gonna be my last night in Brussels, heading down to Antwerp tmr and I'll be there for the rest of the weeks till I head home. The mention of the word "home" just gets me so excited!! But there's something else making me even more exciting and that is Wen min's arrival to Belgium next friday!!! Finally someone to accompany me, we have plans to visit Paris and Amsterdam! But she had a little problem with her confirmation email, just hope everything is alright.

It's almost 12pm now... Heading out for a walk soon and do some shopping. And come back early to pack my luggage. I had a hard time squeezing things into my luggage when I came. I bought somethings as well. Just hope I'll be able to close it!

Ciaoz peeps! Have a great evening!

Day 5 in Brussels

It's the most sunny day since I came here.

Hop on the city tour bus to a few places. I'm kind of burn having standing under the sun waiting for the bus for almost 30mins.

Visited the Atomium and a few other places. Hoping that the bf were here to actually enjoy all these beautiful scenery with me. Frankly speaking I have not taken that much photos of a place away from Singapore. Each vacation destination is just for one purpose. Shopping!!

Walking around with my camera and exploring Brussels, I came to realised how much I've neglected the beautiful sights that I might have missed on my travels. But I just can't help it.

The thing about here is that the shops closes early everyday. It's like maybe 7+ or 8pm. I would be back in my hotel room at 9+ and probably sleeping by 10+. But it's 4am in SG so my body clock is still trying to adjust to it.

I was out at this park just now and so many of them will lying on the grass. Chatting away and enjoying the sun. And I thought to myself. "hey when I'm back in SG, I would love to do that with the bf as well." Spending quality time together. And how we just love each other company.

During my walk here, I barely see any chinese or yellow skin people here. So each time when I see some chinese here, I feel warmth. You know that kind of feeling. All alone in a foreign land.

I still have 25 days more. Hope the clock ticks faster....

Dinner time soon... Ciaoz!

Missing Home

So here I am, all alone in Brussels. It's the fourth day and I'm still trying to get used to it.

The jet lag is just making me crazy and the air-con in my room is spoiled. I have been sleeping and waking up in perspiration. Hate that.

Wanna get some good sleep tonight. They'll be changing a room for me later and upgrade to a deluxe room. Much bigger room. Hope I get a better sleep tonight.

4 days in Brussels and I've lost 1 kg. Appetite has not been too good. It was only yesterday that I actually went out to look for dinner. Room service was just 1 button away for the past 2 nights.

I used to hope that I could get out of Singapore and maybe try a new life outside. Always wanting to try it out. I love traveling but traveling alone and with the bf is so different. I remember heading to HK alone last year, it wasn't as fun as compared to the trip that we both went together last week.

I guess that's what they meant by home is where the heart truly is. With him around, everything seem so colourful and bright. Reminds me of the time when I came down too harsh on him and the quarrels that I started. But again... it's only when you really love someone that you'll miss him so much. Every beautiful sight or happy things, you just wanna share with him. Was out walking alone y'day, how I wished he was around to see how different the culture is from Singapore. Things will be different if we're exploring this place together. All the fun and laughter, I can imagine.

Well it's another long day which I don't know how to get by. Probably I'll stay in the hotel room. But I think I'll probably go out for a walk and take some photos. Will join the city tour tml.

Till then. Take care folks!

26 more days to be back home!

First day in Belgium

Hello from Belgium folks!!!

Alright I don't really sound as excited as I am actually.

It's my first day here in Belgium and I'm feeling kind of crappy. I feel so dumped right here. That's not what I was expecting. I thought someone here will bring me around. But apparently, I'll more or less have to be on my own. Don't really like that idea, since I'm not familiar with here. And plus I'll need to be here for 1 week. What's this. Seriously. Guess I'll call back tml and see what can be arranged. I don't really know why I'm here. Their system is much more advanced than us. I spoke to the lady in-charge of the testing project. Guess what. She didn't want me to come all over from SG. She has a point there. We're both thinking the SAME! But whatever...

Am just having my dinner right now. Seasonal vegetable cream soup. Not really in the mood to eat sth solid. Just wanna keep the stomach full and head to bed early. Time now in Belgium is abt 8.45pm but it still looks like 4-5pm.

On a happy note, since it's a business trip. Everything is paid for. So might as well use the internet and the room service here. Since there's no one to bring me around there's nth much I can do either.

And first time on SQ business class. Awesome experience. Air stewardess taking your orders one by one and addressing you by "Miss Lee". Seats are comfy. Better headphones and much more peaceful. No wonder the price for business class.

First day and I'm already missing SG 'cause of the situation I'm in. Wish there were other SG colleague with me. Now I'm all alone. Miss the bf alot. If only air tics to Europe were not that ex.

Will update more... till then folks!

Ciaoz!

Final Endurance, I hope.

Endurance is really tough especially when it comes to something that you don't like. Each day seems like hell and you can't stop blaming time for passing so slowly.

But I hope this is my final endurance here. And probably move on to another stage of my life with a career change. I'm excited about it and looking forward to it.

Back in the office on a sunday for standby in Dubai processing just in case there's anything. I'm just making full use of the internet services given to us. I'm wondering if I should do my masters in Marketing. The bf is gonna start his studies soon in May and Ivy is gonna do her Masters in Mkting communications as well. It's influencing me to wanna study again. I'll give it a good thought first.

It's another hr before the cut-off time for client's instruction to be fax to us. Hope I can get out after that.

Anyways enjoy the last bit of weekend!

Making God's word the final authority in life

Just finish battling with many issues for the day. Waiting for the bf to pick me up.

Sometimes I just wonder is it worthwhile to put in so much effort at all. People don't appreciate or even remember. It's quite discouraging.

But again I forgot. God never change. I'm doing it for the glory of God and not for anybody else. They don't remember or appreciate. God will remember and reward accordingly. The world's order of things are unsure and indefinite. Each day before I step into office, I pray for strength from God in everything I do. And things will change for better.

And now though there are many issues but I've settled it all and it's time to head home to the nest.

"I am the Lord, I change not." Malachi 3:6.

Happy CNY and V-day, my dear friends!

Nothing really special for this occassion, except for the long holidays and red packets. But it's not really a long holiday 'cause am back today on the 2nd day of CNY to support the dubai market. It's awful feeling.

And so the spring cleaning should be done way before CNY and just enjoy the new year. But I've been so busy at work, working late for the whole of last week. I rarely could spare any time for spring cleaning. Cleared some of my shoes on CNY eve though. Threw quite a few pairs away but it didn't make much of a difference. 'Cause I've already got a few new pairs to fill up the space! So it just looks like how it was before.

Yet to clear my clothes and bags, I'm sure it's gonna be a disaster. I just can't stop buying. The old ones are not going but new old ones just keep coming in at a uber crazy flow! I'm trying to cut-down a little. It's tough! Made a promise to the bf. For this spring cleaning, I'll have to listen to him. Those that need to go, will have to go. There was a little disagreement to the shoes that day 'cause I'm not the kind that keep to my promise when it comes to clearing my old stuff that I treasure so much and actually listening to the man telling me what to do. Ego. That's me.

Plan is to pack tml. Don't think I'll have enough time to do so. I'll always stone mid-way through the packing cause I don't know what to do with the overflowing stuff I've got or even where to keep them. For some reason, I'll just blank out.

Anyways am just waiting for confirmation from another team, in order to make my payment out. But the system is down, this whole processing for dubai is pissing me off. I hope I can leave at 10pm. Or before 11pm. Pissed with my boss as well, it's her week for dubai shift. We are nice to take turns for her. She left at 4.30 ytd. Just felt that she should be the one coming back today, not us covering for her. It's not fair and she just kept quiet abt it. It's fine to come back to work if you enjoy the work you're doing but it really sucks when it's not.

You know, I've been giving a good thought of my future here. I can't give up the benefits and the pay but I'm sacrificing my happiness which is not worth it. Decided to leave some time this year and move on to something new. Probably no more banking line. Wanna try out marketing communications kind of job. Am 24, still young for a career switch and I don't intend to settle down so fast. It's never too late. Everything is just getting draggy here. Looking at my work and all the investigationgs and recon one person has to do. There's only 1 word that starts highlighting itself in my head. Hate. So I guess it's time to move on. To something new and fresh.

Sunday's sermon was good. It was about faith.

And Heb 11:1 mention.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, being convinced of what we do not see."

Entrust your life to Him. And it is mention in Heb11:40

"For God had provided something better for us, so that they would be made perfect together with us."

I've always been afraid of quitting my job. Many questions will start popping in my head.

Can I get a job? A job that pays as well as this? Would I be once again jobless for many months?

All these uncertainties are driving me insane. And each time when I make a decision to leave. I'll be held bad. This is when the good times are here.

But it's short-lived. Bad times come quick. I'll be filled with frustration again.

I guess my students made me realised something. I've always been telling them. Do what you like, then you'll be happy. They did. One of them got into Integrated resort event mgmt and the other mass comm.

If I could tell them that then what am I still doing here. I used to put in a 120% for my work but now it's just 100%. I'm tired of this place.

I'm gonna try out marketing. I know it's tough. Long hours. But who knows I might be just happy with it. I'm still young. I still have time to change my career.

The fear and questions are no longer in mind. God will provide for me. Like what Heb11:1 said. We do not know. BUT! He knows!

Good and bad times

it's the 12th day of 2010 and within this 12 days I've learnt quite abit.

A new beginning and a new kind of life. Starting my day with daily devotion and a simple prayer for victory in all things that I do everyday. And sure, it does help. God answers prayers. A little incident at work happen last week, though the amount is small but it still will have an impact on client.

But there was a voice telling me, you have to check. And we manage to send the money on time. Praise God!

I was feeling rather down and irritated the first few days of 2010. I felt lost at work. I didn't wanna go to work. I took out a book which my Pastor gave to me for X'mas present. "From faith to faith".

"Look up... because in times like these, your very life may depend on it."

Hebrews 12:3
"Consider (Jesus) that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be worried and faint in your minds."

It reminded me. Trust in Him. I've gotten weary recently. And immediately when I lift my eyes, raise my head instead of looking down. I felt so much better. I felt comforted.

But somehow I've make my decision to leave this year. I've no motivation to wake up for work. Or even try to put my best effort for my work anymore. And the thing is that my pay is not the sustaining factor anymore. I've no reason to stay on. But I'm praying for strength to hold on a little longer. Save a little and take that step.

I need a break. And then probably move on to marketing. After all, I do have a degree in marketing. Why waste it. Give it a shot. It might give me more job satisfaction.

I'll have to pray for guidance ans wisdom to make decision. For the time being, prayer for strength and peace is what I need.

What a waste of my time I would say.

I could be spending my time on more meaningful things.

Am back in the office for sytem testing. And the system is not responding. Here I am sitting here doing nothing. Just surfing net. I could do that back at home in the comfort of my bed. Not here. And I have to be back with the worst colleague ever. No one to talk to.

Bf's and his mum purchased tics for "New moon". Bought mine as well. Now they are watching it. Show started at 3.50. It's 4:41pm now. I think the tic is gonna go wasted. Damn it.

Anyways it's Dec. Finally! Can't wait for X'mas to be here! Simply heart X'mas. But hate the part whereby I have to crack my mind thinking what pressie to get for friends. But I just love the joy. 2009 is ending 26 more days. Gotta come up with a list to Thank God for the year. It may not have been smooth sailing but He gave strength.

Just like this job. Since Oct, it's been crazy. Everything at work was piling up. Everything went wrong with the separation and new a/cs set up. And it definitely had a direct impact on my team. Many of the discrepancy in recon was the "wonderful" work of ours. Working till 1-2am, no matter if I start work at 9am or 1pm.

It could be avoided. But it wasn't well planned. Having bad management was bad enough. A lousy direct boss makes it worse. And sometimes co-workers in HK have to drag you down into hell. I'm running out of energy and maybe passion to make things work out well. I no longer wanna give a 100% for this job anymore. I make dislike my job in the past but I'll give my all and put it all the effort even if it takes to stay a little later. I can only conclude. ENOUGH is ENOUGH!

Waiting for the end of year review first. See how it goes. I think I need a break from work for the time being. Have gotta start saving from now on.

BUT! Am so in the mood for the best therapy in the world! Shopping!

De-stress is the word.

Hope this crap end really soon. Don't wanna be stuck here anymore.

I black out again.

But this time round it's different. I feared. I was afraid. I actually cried when i regain consciousness.

Just glad am fine.

Am on 4 days sick leave. Gonna have ample rest before heading back to work next week.

Are these worthwhile at all?

It's the question that pop in my head when I was taking my shower after 16hours of work. And previous day I spent 17hours in the office as well. But all my efforts worthwhile. Depsite trying my best and making sure things flow well. Despite that things are not within my control, it's still my fault.

Being blame for not sending out the payment. Not urging.

Did you see me making many calls? Did u hear me urging them? But there's nothing I could do. It's not my control.

And words are put into my mouth.

I'm wondering. I've tried my best and I'm satisfied. But why ask so much?

I just feel like swearing. I miss the bf. Wanna talk to him. Tell him all the problems I had for the day. He's sleeping at home now. Tml is his P.O.P. Finally after 3 months, I can talk and msg him anytime. And his comforting hug.

It's getting late. Time to sleep. Thank God am on 1/2 day tml.

17 hours

Just got back fro work not long ago. yea am not kidding. Left at 2am.

It's been a rough day. Super pissed with my colleague. Seriously so what it's her last day. I've never seen such irreponsible people. To think she's older than me. She still have the cheek to msg me to say she's sorry. Come on if it wasn't for her dilly-dally-ness. I won't have to leave so late and miss out my tuition session with my student for her Emaths O's tml.

Anyways she has left. No more working with her. I shld be glad.

Wanted to head to bed. But I'm so hungry and I definitely can't head to bed with a hungry stomach. It'll be tossing on the bed. Thank God mum cooked if not i'll be stuck with bread again. Breakfast-bread. Lunch-Sandwich. I'm gonna be so afraid of bread soon. It's not just today.

Gonna play some game before I head to bed. Gotta reach work early tml.

Work was like a nightmare this week! And I can only say... Thank God weekends are here! Was on dubai shift from 1pm till 10pm but without fail for the past 5 days I have been knocking off after 12 not to clear dubai stuff but HK stuff.

All the changes are affecting our work somehow or another. And for the past few days, I've become a help desk, query desk and hotline services. Many screw ups at work. Unexplainable and ridiculous shit happens. If I was the customer, I would have been pissed and lodge a complaint.

It's just scary how time just ticks away without my knowing. And before I know there's not much soul at Raffles place anymore. Just cabbies forming queues in hope for a customer to hop on.

It's tiring and draining. And I think I'm pretty stressed up. Or probably my brain had worked too much. There was 1 night I msg my boss to tell her that there's a mistake and she has to help me amend it in the morning. Msg was sent at 3am in the morning. It just came to me when I was about to fall asleep. Overload by work.

O's are coming soon. I'm worried. Have not been able to spend time with my student to clear their doubts. 6 years of tutor-student relationship or maybe I would prefer to call it friendship is gonna end soon. It was nice teaching this sweet little kids since I was 16. They have grown. I did as well. Physically and mindset.

It's 4:37am. Time to sleep. Gonna be a long day tml. Gotta collect my regalia and tickets for Convo. And I hope for a little shopping spree over the weekends! With the bf! =)

Coming back to work on a sunday is definitely not so pleasant.

When everybody else is getting ready to head off for shopping and enjoy the last bit of weekends before monday comes. I was preparing to come to work right after church.

Everything is just messy. Volume is low but there's so much problem to deal with esp. the system.

It's driving me crazy till I realise that I asked a stupid qns!

Gosh... it's another 1 hr more till knock off.

My sunday just went wasted like that.

I can't sleep tonight.

There's an unexplain excitement within me. The cause of it, I don't know.

Anyways we have started supporting dubai and it's been busy. Have to cover 2 persons job in the morning. Just so many things to do. And I wanna head to the gym. Have a good workout routine. Tone up more! Thought of signing up for PT.

My mind has suddenly gone blank. Heading to bed.

Night!

Just a few days ago i was pent up with immense frustation and bitterness. Everything just seem bad. I was not happy at all. Just felt like crying my heart out. Matter of fact. I hate it. I don't like to be crying cause it makes me feel weak. Esp. when I'm crying for no reason at all. Crying feels good though.

But these few days things got a little better. I'm happier. Even when I'm feeling tired and sleepy, I was happy. It was overwhelming. It's flooding within me. I guess things do really change when you see it from another point of view. When you start the day by leaving to the big Guy up there. He makes things more colourful though shit happens at work sometimes.

I'm sure God has his plans for me. And the things I have will be sufficient in my life.

Another colleague left ytd.

He came to bid goodbye last night. He took that leap of faith cause he's not happy here and some other factors. Quit without a job 'cause he believe God will provide a way.

But I heard otherwise this morning. Not sure what's the truth but if he's happier leaving then go ahead. I'm always happy when people leave this place. =)

He must be enjoying at home now. Especially with such a weather, lazing is the best.

Anyways when he bid goodbye ytd, he made a such comment while we were talking.

"Hi, i'm here to say goodbye, it's my last day. Though you look very stern most of the time but you're actually very nice. "

Do I?

I'm back I'm back!!

Changing my focus has brought happiness in my life.

I hate the me that cried so much the last few days. Feel so useless and vulnerable.

After that incident, crying was so tough until the bf came into my life. Though I still don't cry much, but i'll only allow tears to drop in front of him and no one else.

But anyhow spending time with God makes a big difference. I need to give more time to God. I'm losing that part out soon. So preoccupied with the things in my life, the busy work life, that I almost forgot my strength provider.

Verse of the day:

"Seek the LORD while he may be found; call on him while he is near."
Isa 55:6

Short weekend

Weekend is coming to an end once again. It's the draggy monday soon. It's been a rather rough week for me. I'm experiencing roller-coaster emotions which I have not had in a long long time. Like I say. I just wanna hide for a while.

"Maybe we should not meet tonight. Let's see each other tml instead?"

Those were the words that I sms the bf on friday and I regretted it 'cause last min he had to stay in camp. We only got hold of each other for an hr when he came back for a little while to check on me. On Sat we only manage to saw each other from evening onwards. Had a mini mid-autumn celebration in church. Headed out for midnight movies with Andy and my sister, Meichan when the bf went home to pick up the car.

Choice of movie: Surrogates

"People are living their lives remotely from the safety of their own homes via robotic surrogates -- sexy, physically perfect mechanical representations of themselves. It's an ideal world where crime, pain, fear and consequences don't exist. When the first murder in years jolts this utopia, FBI agent Greer (Willis) discovers a vast conspiracy behind the surrogate phenomenon and must abandon his own surrogate, risking his life to unravel the mystery. Written by Touchstone Pictures"

Quite a good show. But somehow as I was watching it I just felt that technology might just get a little way too scary. People operating their surrogates from home and they can even choose how they look like. Which means the surrogates looked different from the real human and since this is possible, a man can have a sexy female surrogate. In the world of surrogacy, it's perfect. Man has the perfect wife, no one ages. But isn't it scary? How about the human touch? It's gone. People lose their identity, laziness sets in, the world is seen from the eyes of the surrogates. The real human love is gone.

I hope technology has not gone that far to make this happen. God's beautiful nature will be neglected.

Anyhow after the movie, spent the night at his place. It turned out to be a long night. The eyes got tired and we just slept holding hands. Without saying a word. I felt like crap when I woke up this morning. I was sleepy. But the night passed too fast. I was still thinking about what I said last night, I wished time could just go back.

Well on a happy note, my aunt brought my niece, Jemmima, to church today. She's such a dear. Seeing her just makes everybody smile. I wanted to hug and cuddle her so tightly when she ran all the way to me and said these words. "I love you!"

"Awwwww..." That was just so sweet. A very sincere "I love you". Tell me. How many times do you mean it when you say it?? I gave her a big hug and a "I love you too."

Through out the whole week, this afternoon was the only time that I really smile and forgot about the burden. The innocence of kids. Their world is just so simple. She made my day by giving me one last hug and goodbye kiss before we parted.

Less than 24 hours, I spent with the bf this weekend. Dinner was fast and he had to head back to camp already. It's hard to even say "see you" and "take care". The words just choked on me. Especially at this point of time. 26 more days to his P.O.P.

It'll passed fast enough.

I guess I've lost focus on where my strength should come from. I've been drifting apart. It's time to search back and look at the main focus.

Hebrews 12:1-3

¹Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. ²Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. ³Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

Nothing much.

Sick. Having gastric flu.

Period. Gonna rest.

The floodgates

Have I reached the limit?

Seriously I don't know. It's been tough going by each day this week. Since monday I was feeling down. Ain't I supposed to be happy after birthday celebration. But what's wrong? What's bringing me down. Down to the bottom of the valley. Suddenly I seemed to have dropped into a cave. So dark with no exit or a ray of light.

I just need to let it out but there's no way out. My job has become more than a burden to me.

Finally today I couldn't help it, the floodgates open. Everything is just not right from the time I woke up to shower. Work was not good. Made a mistake. AGAIN. That's it. I wanted so much to break down at that moment. Go to the toilet to cry. Pick up the phone to give the bf a ring. But I couldn't 'cause he was in camp. And I didn't allow myself to get off my seat to hide in the toilet to cry. 'Cause that's not the person I wanna be. I sat there and controlled the tears that was about to roll down. I fought it. To the end of the day.

now i'm feeling so restless. Am on leave tml. Need it. I need some time alone. Just wanna be all alone. Not sure of the plans tml. Either head out shopping alone or just hide under the blankie.

Tired. Ciaoz peeps!

I wonder if it's the sadness after the happiness. I was feeling shitty today. Woke up and realise it's one of those days that work is such a bitch. But you'll have to drag yourself to FACE it. I just wanted to hide myself, kept to myself. Don't wanna talk or say anything much to anyone if necessary. Even calls rec'd from HK was answered with not much enthusiasm. A voiceless day I would call it.

Wanted to be alone for lunch as well. Decided that instead of sitting in the pantry, I shall just head out for some fresh air and open a UOB a/c. So second half of the day was better, after a cup of hot choc and 1/2 size sandwich. Felt so much better.

Anyways weekends were great! Friday was a pampering day for myself. Finally no more OTs on birthdays after 3 years in this Co. Headed to gym and spa after that. Gathering with the SP percussionist was FAB! But the dinner was awful. We'll supposed to head to Astons for dinner but it was too packed and so settled for New York, New York. Had to make it up with a carrot cake and green tea frapp. @ starbucks. Got my capitaland vouchers from them! and jazz cd from LJ and Doreen.

And Saturday I was with the bf from day to night. Lovely. Miss those time. Woke up for breakfast with his mum and it was just slacking at home with the TV and lappy. Headed to Tanah Merah country club for my niece 3 years old birthday from 2-6pm. Boy! you bet there were lots of children. Kids kingdom eh. Re-lived your childhood once again. Photo of my cousins with the little birthday girl.


And of 'cause after her celebration it was my time to celebrate with the bf! We headed to ION Orchard so that I can use my vouchers. Saw a couple of things the other day but it didn't end up being mine. Figured that I might find nicer stuff around. Anyways it was not a two-some outing that day. Called Jerm along as well! It's been a long time since I last shopped with her. Though not much time was spent on shopping. We had dinner at 'The Imperial Kitchen' and spent a whole load of time chatting away and enjoying our food! I think I need to start learning how to speak Cantonese. Not sure how long we spent inside the restaurant but everywhere was almost closing when we finished. Did some last minute shopping before heading to No. 5 at Emerald hill. 1 for 1 martini. It was chatting time once again. We had so much to talk about but Jerm forgot to bring my camera and there was NO photos of that outing. damnit!

But anyhow thanks for the watch Jerm!

Bf got me a Braun Buffel key pouch. I know he wanted to give me a surprise by giving me something else. Thank you for putting in the effort to head to Haji lane to look for something nice though you couldn't find any. I remember Ligen saying. Luckily he bought you the key pouch, what if he had gotten something that doesn't suit you. My answer to him was.... "My bf always gets the right thing for me, he knows what suits me best and always have an eye for the best things given to me." =)

But weekends have to go by so quickly and it's only tuesday tml. Stepping into October soon. And shift work is starting soon. Work always makes things worse!

Bought another book by Tess Gerritsen, "The Mephisto Club". It's reading time.

Ciaoz!

Twenty-three

I'm turning 23 in another 27mins time. Hmmm... how does it feel??

Twenty-three. 11 alphabets, 3 syllabus. Few letters, short and sweet. But it's 23 years of bittersweet. What an interesting journey through out my 22. Wonder how's the 23 journey gonna be like.

Oh well not much feeling to it. Just 1 year wiser. The more pleasant way to say it. To be more frank and blant, it's just 1 year older. Maybe when the number in front turn "3", I'll probably see it differently.

Nothing special. Not much wishes. Just want a quiet and peaceful birthday. And NO MORE OTs! Am on 1/2 day tml. Gonna head to the gym after work, spa and then dinner with the percussionists. What a relaxing day huh. Enjoy life? I need that.

Must be wondering where does the bf fit in?

We will be heading to Amber Hill on Sat night. Will update more.

Time to sleep! Ciaoz! =)

Pissed

I really feel like screaming!! Someone is getting on my nerves! I'm settling this freaking not-a-problem issue tml! Jocelyn is not gonna be Ms Nice TML!!

First of all, Selemat Hari Raya to my malay friends. Though I don't have that many but still it's still ya day.

So how did you spend the long precious weekend? Hope it was good and fulfilling. Sleeping till the late afternoon and just simply do nothing but laze around. Hmm... remind me of someone. Tian Ligen. Hell of a slacker!

Probably when you were still sleeping soundly and in lala land, I was preparing to head back to work. yea... that's how I spent my monday. At work. HK wasn't having holiday so I had to go back. If not I would really love to spend some time with the bf. Just cuddly and snuggling together. Lazing around at his place. He is such a dear. Despite sleeping so late last night and being tired, he would rather give up his morning sleep to drive me to work. Picking up breakfast from the 24-hr drive thru Mac at Cecil St. All so that I could just sleep that extra 30mins. I allow him to do so in exchange that he promise he'll sleep once he got back. But instead he went for breakfast with his parents. There goes his sleep. BUT! I can feel your EXTRA TLC! =)

At work I couldn't help but keep thinking about the things I could have done with him, if I wasn't at work authorising payments. At the same time, I was praying hard that we will not end late, in order to have dinner with him before he book in to camp. Thank God I was done at 6.30 and 7 bucks cab was all worthwhile. Just to catch hold of some time tgt and a tight hug before we leave the house and couldn't even hold his finger when he's with his uniform on.

I'm glad we spent the whole sunday afternoon together. From lunch to window shopping at Suntec and ION then to burger king for dinner and finally "The ugly truth". I enjoyed every single moment together. It has been a long time since we spent time like that together. I'm just too busy all the time that I've neglected him but he just understands though he always say "please". And I would give him a stare that disappoints him. So I guess and I'm sure, he love the time spent yesterday.

You know it's just so comforting to know that someone understand you so much that before you take a breathe to speak he already know what you want. Someone who can take your busy schedule. Gives small little surprises that you would have already guess his intention even before it happen. haha...

I'm tired but am smiling just by the thought of it. Making me a 1/4 awake despite my tired mind. And that silly boy bought my birthday present 'cause he's afraid that I might get the key pouch to pamper myself on my birthday.

I finish at around 9 again. Gosh i'm feeling so tired. Need some time to relax.

Planning for sat's outing. Hope the turn up is good!

Can't think of what to blog. Just plain tired.

ciaoz!

Basically weekend was... nothing much. To be exact. Wasted.

Didn't mange to spend much time with the bf for his weekend book out. Probably less than 12 hours for the 2 days.

But we manage to make it for breakfast on saturday morning. Mac's breakfast. It's been a long time since we woke up early and catch the morning sun. The smell of the fresh air and freedom. It's different as the ones on weekdays. You know what I mean. Anyways we headed to Daiso to get some stuff and it was time to head home to change. I had to go back to office. yea... Had to do some system testing for the Dubai market.

Totally wasted. I was there from 2-8pm. I could have done lots of things with 6 hours. Anyhow I rushed for the bf's friend's grandma's birthday celebration right after that. Nothing interesting happen. Headed over to his place with his parents while he had his night out with Clintson. Men's talk. They need it sometimes.

Resting day it's what I would call Sunday. Was lazing at his house after church and waited for dinner to come before sending him back to camp. Again. The part I always hated. And he's ever so sweet. Your sweets help to survive me through a stressful day at work. Thank you!

Nothing much. Work just felt like that today. Seriously!

Sleepy. Turning in soon. Ciaoz.

What's going on?

I got a little too emotional just now.

Don't know why. Anger was overtaking my senses. And then I started crying to let it all out. I raised my voice at him but he was still talking to me in the most gentle voice. I felt bad but am glad that I manage to control it there.

We had a good talk, though it was just 15mins or so. But it's just so precious. I miss the bf. When I need a hug from him so badly and I know he wants to give me that hug too. It's comforting enough. Weekdays are hard to go by, friday is what I'm looking forward to every week.

And work is missing the satisfaction part. I don't know where I'm heading to. After much thought, I've given myself a dateline. It's still long but I have yet to settle some things. Now it's not the right time.

I was talking to Wan Chien this afternoon. I was telling her, we're the minorities that bear with the unhappiness of our job for our age. People our age would have just quit and not think so much. Only those in their 40s will think twice. We are complaining and grumbling everyday. We talk abt taking that leap of faith. BUT! We are still where we are!

Zonked

Beautiful and joyous friday is here to say hello!!

What a week it has been for me. Working till almost 10 everyday and came in 30mins earlier to try and do some stuff. But couldn't manage to. Crazy week with lots of problems. My overlook to a certain payment has cause some disagreement. Should have been more careful while checking inputter's work. But my confidence for her got the better of me. And trouble is here knocking on the door. Make phone calls from melbourne to Wellington to HK, it's insane due to the time difference trying to catch hold of the people there before they knock off.

Anyways it's over. A mistake done is a lesson learn for life! Move on. Life goes on. The earth is still moving.

Totally zonked out. Each day pass and I'm just so tired. But everything is cleared. A better week will come!

The sleeping bug seems to be in the office today. I thought I was the only one but turn out few of my other colleagues felt the same too. I guess it's the weather. Rainy days... and mondays always gets me down. Sorry can't help it. Carpenters. Lovely!

So it's 8pm and am still in the office. Well waiting for the bf to call so that we can head out for a sinful meal together! Mac! and "G-force" with Alex and Vony!

Peeps! Have a great evening ahead! Mind is gonna blank out soon! Ciaoz!

Chilling weather. Rainy season. Making me lazy and sleepy.

It makes working tougher. Especially when there's just so much to do and lots of patience and tolerance to some colleagues while working. Worked till 10 last night and headed to office early this morning.

Made a mistake at work, trying to get the case solve. It feels kind of crappy. Helpless. Somehow it's solved but it's not. It's weighing on me.

There's something I've been thinking the past few days. Since I've finish my degree, I should feel like a burden off the shoulder. But somehow I still feel like a stone on me. The feeling that I had when I was struggling to go through every assignment and paper. Is it time for a break?