What a week!!! My first 2 days of the week started out bad... So bad! It's totally ridiculous! I don't know how my week is going to be like... I think it can be make into a drama...
 
Movie: The week.
Main actress: Jocelyn Lee Shang Ying
Directed by: Eveybody who appears in my life this week.
 
Monday: 
It started out well... until things happen during band... Firstly, I hurt my toes against an instrument case. *OUCH* Then after that I didn't see the pail next to me... ANd I put my leg... I almost trip over it... That really make me blush! How clumsy can i be! Then when I tried to sit on the sofa side... I lost my balance and almost fall... Luckily Chris held on to me...
 
Tuesday:
The worst day ever!! I got caught for jay-walking!!! And I will receive a summon letter in 2 weeks... Ok! When you hear the word "summon"... You usually get it for driving... but i got it for jay-walking!! Serious how bad can it be!!

Wednesday:
Didn't go to school... Woke up late... My students came to my house... They were especially noisy!! I don't know why!! It pissed me off and i started being fierce to them... Then went for band prac... They did some tuning... MY GOD! The sound irritate me!! I can't take the noise~! Really can't stand it!! Don't know why I can't take the noise!
 
Thursday:
Prac with string ensemble!! Boring!! Boring and Boring! Besides boring, it's just boring!!
 
Friday:
Went for tuition.... then i don't know! my mind is in a blank now!
 
Saturday:
Went to school for lesson... supposed to be from 10-12... Then he ended at 11! What the hell! What is he thinking!! Crazy fellow! Then went for sectionals... Well, not that bad... Don't want to say much... Then went to church... Song prac... OK... I shouldn't have touch the keyboard or played on it... My aunt started asking me to play for the worship...
 
Sunday:
As usual went to church... Don't know why i rarely drag myself up to go to church... If it's school I will definitely do that... For the first time, I played the keyboard during worship... Well, I didn't feel nervous... weird! I would be in it was the past... But I'm glad that I did not... Or else the whole worship will be screwed up by me...
 
After that, met Zai to watch contemporary dance at the outdoor theatre at Esplande... Nice!!! Lucky the person explain to the audience or else I will be like huh....
 
Went to Coffee Bean boat quay, to have a drink... Then we had a long talk... really long talk... Had a nice time talking to her...
 

 

 

Think I'm the first in all my friends' history to be caught for jay-walking!!! And all of them were laughing their heads when I told them about it... My friend even sms me after reading my blog...
 
And Chris was so mean!! He said that when I received my summon letter tell him the amount of fine I need to pay so that he can have a good laugh at it!! IDIOT!! And the worst thing ever!! My mum didn't scold me... She did gave me a smile... Then she asked for my IC number... I knew what she was up to immediately!! And I refused to tell her... She wanted to buy 4D!! She said it's my first time!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!  How can she be like that!! So I asked her to pay my fine if I have to... She said ok! then I gave it to her willingly!!
 
The first two days of this week has already been bad... Guess it won't be a good week... Think I better pray hard!!

What a "GOOD" morning!!

You will know what I mean by "good" morning as you read...
 
My mood is getting better... So much better... I woke up this morning with the best mood ever since school starts... Everything went well... I was happy and very motivated to go to school... Ok then dressed up and happily went out of the house... Was abit late... Initially, I wanted to take a cab but I was thinking it's ok... Just take a bus... So I did...
 
As I was at the interchange, I usually crossed the road... YES! I CROSSED THE ROAD!! And guess what happen! Damn it! IT RUINED MY WHOLE MORNING! I WAS CAUGHT JAY-WALKING!! For my whole of 17+ years, it's my first time being caught jay-walking! I've jay-walk there like thousand of times... And after so many years! I got my punishment today! And I will received my summon in 2 weeks time! HELLO PEOPLE!! DON"T START LAUGHING!! I'm worried sick! I don't know how much I've got to pay! My friend help me check... The max. is 500 bucks! MAN! My pay comes this week and it will be totally gone soon!!! How good can this be!! My mum is going to kill me if she knows this... Probably not... She will start laughing like some of you reading my blog now.... The policewoman asked for my IC and I gave it to her... And I listen to her "leture" me... And when I was about to walk off... I asked her where to pay... OK! I don't know if you call it silly or what... My classmates think I'm very silly! Especially the question which I asked her... They said that I should beg her and asked her to give me another chance...  But you know what when she caught  me I never had the thought of explaining coz I was in the wrong after all... I've just got to wait for the summon letter to be sent to me and for now be worried for 2 weeks! Damn! I should have just stick to my initial decision!
 
Then end up I still took a cab to school... Coz I was late...
 
While having lesson, my teacher told us he has good and bad news... "Bad" news is that he will be away next week... so it means no MA I(P) and lecture... It was meant to be good news for us... Well, his "good" news, sorry alan! you won't want to read this...
 
I have make-up lesson on this sat from 10-12! Hell! It's a super bad news for me!!! Super! super! It means I can't go for sectionals!! I will missed practice... Ok probably I can go but I will have to leave at around 2... I need to go to church! The percussion ensemble is coming and I'm bad enough! Who's fault?! It's definitely him.... It's the 3rd week of school and it's our FIRST MA I(P) lesson!! The first week is becoz he went on reservice... then I don't know about the second week... And next week he will be send for a course... Coz the school wants them to introduce the programme to us... SPSS it's already tough enough... and this bloody programme is 5 times difficult.... Guess what when he comes back he's going to write a report saying that it's not suitable to introduce to us... Right! Why not just not go for the course and some teach!
 
How bad can this be! When my mood is getting better, the sun is starting to shine and suddenly.... BOOM!! Here comes the thunder storm! And the poor me with no umbrella is totally drench and pathetic! Why must it be like that!!!
 
The summon thing is not getting off my head! I'm really worried...
 
So what's the moral of the story...
 
If you are late for school, jolly well take a cab and reach on time! If you still want to take a bus and be scolded by your teacher! Go ahead! I will support you! BUT use the bridge or traffic light! Don't jay-walk! Rather be scolded then pay a price! At least you don't have to burn your pocket!

Emotionless...

I'm feeling emotionless today... It's kind of scary you know... Everywhere you go you have no feeling... It's like a walking dead person! I don't feel sad, happy,angry or whatever expressions... My mind is blank... Or rather I should say that there are too many things that I don't know where to start? Or how to start?
 
Had a talk with Chris just now... Well, told him like everything... Sets me thinking too...

*yAwNz*

Can you believe it! This is so................ Boring.... Waking up early for a boring lesson... Having backache problem since yesterday morning... Must have slept at the worng position... Wanted to take a cab coz i wanted to sleep more... But decided not to... Waste money! Besides I'm broke recently... Been spending on notes and cabs and other stuff... Not on shopping!
 
My sister is late again! When I open my eyes at 8.30... She's still sleeping beside me!!! So I just said! MEIYING, you are late again!! Then went back to sleep... Can't be bother if she missed school or not... So long as I don't have to escort her to school... hehe... *BAD*
 
Guess she's happily sleeping now... Snoring loudly! Like a pig... And later she's gonna get her mc...
 
Ohya getting my pay tomorrow and another one this week! Hurray! It sums up to 380 bucks! hehe... Can go sign up for my tx card already... Broke now so can't sign up... the form has been laying on my table for weeks...
 
Ever since school re-open... I've been missing my tv programmes on disney channel... Like "Totally spies", "Lizzie Mcguire", "Evan Stevens".... And I've not step into the cinema for a long time... The last time I went was to watch "Harry Potter and the prisoners of azkaban"... I want to watch "Mean girls", " 13 Turning 30" not sure it's still on...
 
School ends at 3 today... But I've got to give tuition after that... Well it's only for one hour... Anyway time flies very fast....
 
 

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I'm never gonna bother! Never! Never! NEVER........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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I'm so full!

Just came home from dinner or rather supper... Went to Swenses! Hehe... My sis treat... No my mum gave us a treat... But she didn't go... Went with my sis and her friend,Lina... We order lots of food.... Prawn Dippers, Redeo Wings, Sirloin Steak, Crayfish Pasta, Curry chicken baked rice and also ice-cream... Topless 5 and Frosted Chocolate Malt... Luckily Lina was there to help me finish my share... Or else the food will be wasted...
 
Off to bath then sleep... Got church tml!
 
 
 

Time for myself...

Just reach home.... Went for sectionals in the morning... Attendance I guess was better... Lj came too... He looks like a girl... And his head looks smaller... And he definitely slim down alot...
 
Practice was bad today... I need lots of practice... Left about 1... Went to church for song practice...
 
Then went to boat quay Coffee Bean alone... Sat there for 2 hour... Did some reading and thinking... But don't seem to be able to do any thinking... Too many things already... It feels so different being there alone... Usually would go with my friends... A very good place to be alone there... especially in the afternoon coz it's quieter... 

Speechless....

I don't know what to say... Abit speechless... Today besides lessons is still lessons... Supposed to give tuition... But then... I wanted to be a good friend... So I accompany Faezah till 6 to wait for her mentoring friends... See where can you get such good friends?! Ivan was there too... Poor Ivan and me... We sat on the ground for 1 hour... Our butts were numb! When I asked my tutee if I can go at 6... She said too late so end up cancel... Came home early slack around...
 
Ohya I was scolded by Nat and Alicia for drinking too much food juice... I drank 3 packets... 2 packets of Golden Tomato and one carrot mixed fruit juice... So when I wanted to buy my third packet... Nat went with me so as to stop me! But too bad... Her mission failed! hehe... Hey Nat! U know what?! When I came home I bought another 1 litre of Golden Tomato... Hehe... :x
 
Recently borrowed a book from the BizIt Library... It's called "Perfect Stranger"... Just started reading... Not a bad book... Came upon this... I don't know whether to call it a joke or riddle...
 
Question: How many advertising people does it take to change a light-blub?
 
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12- one to fix the light and 11 to explain the concept.

Better....

Feeling much better now... After talking to Ivan last night before I went to bed... Thanx sis! At least today I feel lighter... Not much of a burden feeling... Had a good cry too... And somehow a good sleep and a not so good one...
 
Coz of the weather this morning... It's so good for sleeping! But had to come to school for lesson! haiz...
 
Chatting with my cousin now... All thanx to the e-messenger thingy... Lucky I went to read alan's blog before lesson's start... or else I'll be bored to death!
 
Having RWPS now... Guess most of them are slacking lor... After this I have another break... Sian! I really hate breaks... Then after that a 1 hour lecture before school calls it a day...
 
I've got tuition later... But lucky it's just 1 hour... Btw I've came out with a new way to teach my students english... To make the lesson more interesting...  That is by making them watch a movie and after that write a movie review... Guess this would make it more interesting then reading a book and writing a book review... Even my youngest sister who thinks that english is boring... And finds that english is quite fun...
 
Can't wait to use this method... Don't know whether it will work or not... Planning to let them watch School of rock... The first movie to my new method!
 

It totally suck!

It's just one of the bad morning today... Woke up feeling very irritated and frustated... Changed my clothes for several times... Not happy with everything I wear... And I ended up wearing the slackiest attire.... shorts, big t-shirt and slippers...

My mum called me in the afternoon to tell me that she got lock out coz the door is spoilt... And she called me to nag at me... As if nagging at me can help to open the door... I'm not studying at Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry!

Recently, many things happen... Family... My parents had a quarrel last sunday... It's my dad's fault... I'm not sure if they have made up already or not? Coz I don't get to see them much... When I'm back they are already sleeping... When I see them they didn't say anything...But this is not much of a problem... They will be alright soon! I know them! My sisters have always been a problem... Studies... Attitude... I don't know what to do with them... This only is adding up to my stress...

And it's the second week of school... And it's simply horrible... I can't feel the bond with my new classmates... And things happen yesterday... Which led Nat to be quite unhappy about...But glad that it's over now... Nat you are definitely not in the wrong!

Band is enjoyable but stressful.... It's my playing...

And I feel that I'm incapable of doing things... Things just ain't up to my expectation... Everything just seems so horrible... And Plus the fact that my mood is at it's lowest point now in my life... It feels horrible... I need to breathe!

There are happy times... But the happiness is just for a moment... It doesn't last long at all... The loneliness and sadness is overwhelming... It's kind of contradicting! I feel out... Too out that I feel like running away... But again... Today I feel like being alone... Spending time myself... Probably walk on the streets blankly? I don't know...

Had half tub of Wall's Chocolate Ice-cream,chips and lots of stuff... But it's only temporary... WAtched school of rock just now... But it kept me happy for a moment... Guess when I'm on bed it comes back again...

I don't know how to be ready for this week's sectionals...

This week is going to be hard... I seriously feel the sore in my cheek and face... And I'm trying very hard to put a smile on my face... The week is going to be long... Feel like hiding! TIME-OUT!!

Nothing much...

Too many things happen today... And I don't feel like writing anything here... Too many things in my heart... Just wanna keep to myself... My heart is feeling empty... And I'm so tired after a long day... Having lots of mind and heart battle today... There's a pierce in my heart.... Used the wrond word yesterday... There's no pierce... There's a hole? I don't know something is lacking...

I'm tired... Nitez people!

GOOD NEWS!!!!!1 GOOD NEWS!!!

I forgot to write this in my blog... It's a good news! how can I actually forget! Probably it's becoz we fooled alan that day... No I think it's becoz of the corrupted jokes that I heard from Shawn they all... Really can't stand them!

This is definitely good news! Well, at least to the percussionists! It's the best news ever!! Ms Hope has approved our concert!!! HURRAY!!! Hehe... Alan got fooled by us becoz of this! hehe... Funny!

Her eyes was sparkling when she heard that we wanted to have a concert!! And she was for it man!! Way to go man! But that also means that we have to practice even harder!! IT takes all the hard work in order to have a good concert! So LET'S ALL WORK HARD PEOPLE!!

Ohya... I mention about Shawn and gang corrupted jokes... Vanessa and me went out of the band room coz we can't stand alan,and chris... But it was worse when we went out! Shawn and Kay chye was worse!! They siad things that Vanesse and me didn't want to know and doesn't have the need to know... Even Chris and muru don't know about it... So chris they all are just the surface one... Shawn and kay chye are the "experts"!

Beware of them!!

No need to escort!

Alright man! Today is the last day that I escort my sister to school!!! Finally! Was waiting for today.... Came home... Was slacking at home to wait for time to go to school... Had a very bad cough then I took the cough medicine... Was dumb enough to do that... Lay on my bed... And when I was totally awake it was 2.30! And school was at 9... End up didn't go school....

Slack at home the whole day... Study FA!!! I don't want to fail anymore... I want to do well... And plus the fact that I promised my aunt to work hard this semster... So I had to know my facts well... If not she will start nagging at me again... Hate it when she does that! Coz her words never boost my confidence level... It only demoralize me... only sometimes...

And she would compare me with someone! I hate it! It just irks me! That person results has got nothing to do with me! It's that person's problem!!

It's a sudden thought... coz it links...

Going to bed soon... Got school at 9... early morning just sucks! Nitez...

Quote of the day....

LIFE has its ups and downs. Sometimes the sun shines, sometimes the rain pours. BUT don't forget, it takes both sun and rain to make a RAINBOW!!

Remember that people! So smile!

What a wonderful morning...

Send my sister to school just now... Met a few of my ex-teachers... Mr Lee, still the same... Always wearing the same shirt... I definitely know what to get for him for the coming teacher's day... My chinese teacher... Can't remember his surname... hehe... :x

And Ms Lio or rather Mdm Lio... Don't know her husband's surname... She's pregnant now!! My god! Her stomach is big!! Feel like touching it but don't dare... Perharps next time when I go back... All of them was wondering why I was back at school... Early in the morning... Who else!

Heard the national anthem when I was crossing the road outside school... Brought back lots of memories... Hearing it again gives me a different feeling... Used to think that it's very troublesome singing early in the morning... Wish I had a chance now... Well! What can I say... Human are always like that... It's only when they lose the chance then they will start to cherish it... But by then it's too late...

It reminds me of the time when Jermaine and me were late for school... And We had to stand in front of the whole school... We were not the only one.... So paiseh! Both of us were still laughing... Of coz our classmates will laughing at us too when we went back to class... All thanx to my principal who was so frustrated with the late-comers theat she came up with this rule... Whoever is late has to stand in front of the whole school... Guess what! It worked! The next day... 3/4 of the late-comers were gone! It broke the record man! Of coz both of us were inside the 3/4... Well! Both of us are always late... We have to run into school once we reach the gate... We would even purposely go to school late just to have breakfast... MacDonald's! Come to think of it... Can't stop laughing!

Ok need to bath or else I'll be running late for school... Ohya got to go see Ms Hope later... God Bless Us! Hope everything would go smoothly!! Got band later!!! YEAH... it makes my days shorter!

Attendance problem...

I was reading alan's blog just now... Felt rather sad coz he's so troubled by the sectional attendance... We are having a percussion ensenble I guess everybody should know that there's lot of things to work on... It's not just the few of us sacrificing and then we can get things done... Don't they know it doesn't work in that way... I feel like asking everybody to come together to talk... But how to when there's no full attendance all the time...

Come to think about it... I was thinking about the sectionals on sat... It's making me feel inferior... I feel that I'm not good enough... And I'm having the worse thinking in my mind now! Not saying anymore... Practice!

A great Sunday...

As usual went to church on Sunday... Had a great and wonderful Sabbath day!! Felt that my body had good rest... After that went out for lunch with my church members and my aunt... We went to Simply Thai at Bugis... It's something like Thai Express but I think Thai Express is better!

After lunch I went to Bras Brasah complex with my sisters... Went to Popular to get some stuff... Took a cab home... It was my sisters' suggestion... I love going out with them! Coz they always suggest taking cab and they will have to pay for it!! Hehe... Well, It's our rule! So It shall be pass down to generations!! OK I'm craping...

Came home... Surprisingly! All of us started to do our homework! I am the one who suggested it! And I'm proud of it! Coz my sisters ended up finishing their work early!! Or else they will be still doing it now~!

Think this is the first time... I seriously do my accounts... Except when exams are coming... Have a sense of satisfaction! Good! Even though my balance sheer couldn't telly! Who cares! AT LEAST I DID IT! It's just 1000+ different between the assets and the owner's equity and liability... At least when the teacher go through I know where is my mistake... It's always better than not doing it...

Took a long time to finished it! That's why I hate accounts! Plus the fact that I don't really know my subject well!

My mum make me a cup of Almond milk... Super nice! Plus it's good for skin! Of coz... Every girl and even boys would want it! Love my mum man!!

Ohya btw Ivan... Class 101... it's a lesson to discover church membership... And I'm not insulting you when I said you are not that lucky to hear me sing... i said that because I can't sing in front of others... Especailly with people who have never hear me sing before... It's hard for me to overcome... Only few of my friends hear me sing before... There's a long battle to fight in my heart!

Sigh... Got to wake up at 6.50 tomorrow! No other reasons! Yes! It's my sister! Have to escort her to school! And guess what my lesson start at 11... Haiz...

Off to sleep soon! Cheers!

Long and wordy day?!

Well, not a bad start for the day... Had a good night sleep... Had sectionals at 10.30, can't be late! And surprisingly I can actually wake up... Probably I had the responsible to give the members morning call... I woke up at 8.45 and started calling some of them...

Reached band room at 10.35... Attendance was bad... Supposed to have 14 members coming... But only 9 came!! How to have percussion ensemble like that!!! Haiz...

We have five confirm pieces now... At least we are a step further than where we are initailly... Canon in D, Theme from New York New York, Whole Tone Fantasy, Kabe and Overture for Percussion Ensemble... I really need to practice... Not used to the chimes yet... We did some rythms for our stomp... Hehe... I like it alot... Quite interesting... But hurt my finger a few times... Coz jermaine accidently hit it... Think we got to space out abit...

After sectionals, went to church to practice the worship songs... Having bad flu and sore throat... How to back up tomorrow... GOD BLESS ME!!!

After that had Class 101 lessons... Long session... Trying very hard to concentrate...
Just reach home... Lawerence and his wife gave me a ride home... Lucky for them or else I'll be sleeping in the bus knocking my head at the window! OUCH!!

Well, was reading through what I blog yesterday... Think those things are quite true about me... Seems to see a clearer picture of myself...

Okie Off to eat dinner... And have a early night... Got church tomorrow... Cheers people!

Check this out... And tell me if it's true... Thanx!

Does your name begin with: J
You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising
Careful, cautious and organised
Likes to point out people's mistakes
Likes to criticize
Quiet but able to talk well
Calm and cool
Kind and sympathetic
Concerned and detailed
Trustworthy, loyal and honest
Does work well
Sensitive
Thinking
Good memory
Clever and knowledgeable
Loves to look for information
Must control oneself when criticising
Able to motivate oneself
Understanding
Secretive
Loves sports, leisure and travelling
Hardly shows emotions <--------- Now this is definitely not me!
Tends to bottle up feelings
Choosy especially in relationships <----- true!
Loves wide things
Systematic

Libra
Turn ons
Libra needs peace and harmony in all their relationship so help them maintain that. Venus the ruling planet gives them beauty and they have weakness for people who can compliment them about their beauty (you will not have to make an effort to do that anyway). You can help Libra seek union and partnership in life. If you have Libra partner you can be sure to share beautiful and pleasurable moments together.

Turn offs
Libra is kind and gentle soul but very argumentative. Hence do not start an argument or discussion unless of course you are free and do not know how to pass your time. They hate to lose and most probably in between of discussion they may change their side too (remember scales can tilt) and still continue arguing from other side. Do not push your Libra partner into making decisions. They will keep weighing pros and cons and may still not be able to come to any decision. Have patience!

Tired,tired,tired,tired............

Had a good start for the day... Even though school starts at 9... I had a wonderful bus trip to school... hehe... How I wish it would be like that everyday... Then I'll be so motivated!

Had a good thought of the path I'm taking... And I found my answer... I'm somehow on the right track, doing the right course... Coz I want to be a successful career woman... I want to earn big bucks for my parents to enjoy life... So I have to work really hard!!

School was quite tiring today... And the breaks in between makes it worse... Then had sectionals just now... Only the year 2 and 3 were there... The freshies will not there! Hello! Can't they just be abit responsible to inform us if they are coming or not... We msg or call them but get no answer from them... it pisses people off sometimes...

Well, I've not been sleeping well recently... I'm having very deep dark circles!! Super ugly lor!! Not just that! I look scary! My body seems to be not getting enough rest... Not enough for the battle ahead...

Starting to think if I should give up some things in my life... Of coz my studies is a no-no, it goes the same for band... Tuition is the only thing left... I'm really very tired... I feel like sleeping one whole day... Stay at home and not going anywhere... I need to rest!! I mean enough rest!

With my current schedule, i don't know how long I can take it... I feel weaker everyday... I don't know when and where I'll one day black out...

With problems of my sisters, it makes it even worse... And my own problems...

Can I take a day off?

Guess the answer is all about planning... i have to plan my time well...