Did I ever mention to you guys about this colleague who sits besides me that hits the table and always scolding vulgarities?

I think I did. Cause everyday he does that.

And now? He's getting on my nerves.

"fuck.shit.si bei jia lat."

These are the words he always used and suddenly for no reason hit the table real hard. ugh. Imagine life sitting next to him. Sometimes I start to doubt if I'm 20 or he is. He's like in his late 30s but it doesn't seem so.

Ok I really have an issue with him. I better stop or else retribution will be upon me. =x

Now I'm back to my waiting-for-work-to-do state. Relaxing a little bit cause I've been working none stop since I step in for work during the past few weeks and esp. when we came back from bintan.

I had so much work to clear for the past 3 days. Fortunately for me, yesterday was a rather low volume day so ya... manage to finish evrything that was pending. even the forward value ones. =D

Lunch time is approaching... Gonna have Japanese Ramen. =D

Adecco

Haha... this whole adecco thingy is making everybody laughing their heads off! And creating a joke out of my boring and live-less life!

But for the last and Zillion time i'm saying! Auds and turtle! listen hard!!

Adecco is a JOB AGENCY!!!

Not a name in spanish,german,french or whatever langauage you think it is. =D

Oh well I've been home for 2h 30mins already. Yup.... everything went smoothly at work today except that I was feeling rather giddy and trying hard to really keep it still and not move my head too much or too hard.

*yawnx*

I reached my workplace at 9.30am today.... yes as usual I'm late! I'm never early for anything!

Sat down and before I could warm my seat.

"Jocelyn! Today got one SI and get ready for meeting."

Eanna ( my authoriser) said this and I was shocked cause I thought everybody else was waiting for me. But apparently not. Cause in the end the meeting started at 10+. Oh god you bet the meeting was so long, it lasted for an hour or so and I was trying hard to control myself from wanting to shit.

Karen,head of department,intended to start a operating manual for newbies. And she said this... "you can ask Jocelyn".

Karen: "Jocelyn. When she first came in, she didnt know anything and was thrown into the deep sea. She was so blur that she wanted to quit and be a teacher."

=.= thanks for telling the whole wide world.

But ok if not for this meeting I won't know that Karen didn't know what I was doing. She wanted to know why the P & R section are competing with the Securities side in going home late.

Eanna spoke up.

Eanna: "For Jocelyn is understandable. Cause she has to finish the outgoing first,then do the incoming funds,then the internal transfer through email."

Karen:"Huh. Jocelyn do so many things ar!" (in teochew)

She was shocked! I can't believe she don't know anything!! oh god. But here came the nice part.

Lydia:"Jocelyn is very good!"

Then came the applause! haha...

I was blushing with happiness. I don't know how that came along but that's exactly how i felt. When your capability is recognise, you're just on cloud nine.

Now that she knows, I hope they were be more bonus and high increment for me!! hiak hiak.... =D

Seriously, for the first time I pay so much attention to a business meeting. I learn alot. How all this mgmt actually go manage the section and department.

It comes in handy! =o)

Adecco.... to audrey!

Dear ladies and gentlemen! Remember! If you're not sure of anything, don't ever say anything! Or you might as well end up like audrey! Pls read the tagboard and u'll know why.

But thanks to her! She made me de-stress! And made Jo laugh her heads off!!

Auds! Auds! My dear auds! Now you know you better learn!!

haha.... I could not stop laughing even when I read my tagboard again! haha...

Nevertheless, Thanks for the good laugh! =p

And Auds is pretty proud of it cause she even blog about it!! =D

Wanted to photo blog but guess i'll give it a miss. I'm so tired and sleepy now.

The price to pay after a trip with the company? Long hours back at work!

Oh yeah... I just came back from my bintan trip with the company. The room was fab!! Fantastic! Peeps! You guys should check it out!!

You bet I start my bintan trip with a BANG!!

A loud bang in fact! I fell flat on the floor when i was in the company!! Yes yes... so flat that i got a carpet burn! I tripped due to the friction between my sneakers and the carpet! yes how stupid! And the worse thing. There was a guy behind and at the side and my boss was there too! Imagine that! how embarassing man!

Somehow... everyone knew after i came back from the toilet!

Audrey can you imagine? ARe you laughing?

All thanks to the new banking compliance rule, I have so much paper work to do. Piles and piles of papers on my table. The sight of papers now just scares me away.

And thanks to those banks which doesn't comply with the rule, I have to chase them by sending messages! Work load just ain't getting any lighter huh!

When things ain't getting any better, my boss told me my back-up is NOT coming in anymore! She's not coming in! My plans to go on leave and tution arrangement are all gone! gone! gone! GONE!!

How am I suppose to take a break like that. Just hope that Adecco quickly find someone! And I'll be all fine. I'm starting to lose all my patience in this job.

If I had not talk to Jo and Aud yesterday, I wouldn't have know that people actually do read my blog and IN FACT count the number of days I have not blog! My apologies.

That's why despite being so tired and having a bad headache, I still make an effort to blog today.

Anyways work was the norm. I mean what else can I say. That's the problem why I have not been blogging for so long.

There are so many things that happen every single day and I wanna blog it. But once I start work and everything. Those things and words just goes away and I'm only left with the word "WORK".

And I doubt anybody would wanna hear about it,cause it's just the same each day. Unless I make a grieve mistake. And I don't wanna belong to the group that once you're in the workin society, all you talk about is work. It's just like when boys are in NS, they talk about NS all the while.

who says that doesn't happen? It happen sub-consciously! Like when I went out with Kar heng, Halim, Ruben and his gf. The 3 guys just can't stop talking about NS! But the worse thing was I felt like it was like an outing with 4 guys and 1 girl! =)

Oh well that's me. Laugh out loud. I behave the way I am with people i'm comfortable with. If I ever were to try to control and try to impress someone, I think i'll just forget it. It's so uncomfortable not being able to be myself!

Anyways as I was always taught,my upbringing and religion, smoking is bad for health and it's a sin. I always hated the smoke, I still do now. Especially when some stupid idiotic fellow smoke right into my face! It sets me on fire and seeing red!

Working at ABN has become so stressful and I'm grasping for breath every single minute. It's so diffcult to find time to de-stress. Not even when i'm home resting. Somehow I still think about work. But guess what the thing that came to my mind,was the least possible option that would have even come to my mind.

I was sitting at my desk and suddenly this words came to my mind.

"I need to de-stress! I wanna smoke."

Yes... those were the words that came to my mind. I hate smokers but I don't know why it just came to me that smoking might actually help me solve the problem for at least for a couple of minutes.

It's the least possible option but it's also the least possible thing that could happen to me. I dislike the smell and hate the smoke. And I detest the side effects that can happen even more.

Therefore I'm still smoke-free now, though once in a while I would still think of it but nah it's such a expensive "exercise". I spend my money else where. ",)

That's all for it today. Gonna sleep soon I guess.

Will try to update more often! Ciaoz peeps!

Before the clock strikes 12 and end the first day of 2007! Here's wishing all you peeps out there Happy new year!!! Have a great and blessed year ahead!

Anyways 2006 have been kind of smooth for me. Very blessed in every single way! Even the tiniest thing in my life. And my new year resolution came through and that is to remain single in 2006. It would still be the same for 2007! No relationship! Definitely not.

But you bet that I started 2007 with a bang man! I headed to wala wala with zai,ven and zai's 2 other friends. And for my god-gracious life! I drank the most yesterday. Enough to make me high and laugh. For the first I drank so much. Was laughing loudly while walking through holland v. yes imagine that. But wasn't drunk. I could still walk in straight line.

And I always thought that girls puking after too much was obscene. And yes for the first time I puked outside the mac at beauty world. I basically puked out all the friies! For the first time, I reached home bathed and washed up in less then 10 mins!

So much for the start of 2007. But luckily I didn't have any hangover or headache. =)

Just woke up feeling that I won't wanna drink for probably as long as I can. Cause I'm still having that funny feeling in my stomach.

Anyways just watched "Stranger than fiction". T'was a ok show. quite funny too.

Sad thing is that holidays gotta end soon. It's back to work tml.

so it's just sigh....

TIRED!!

Was a stressful and hectic day at work. And ever since I started doing HK box. I've been setting the records for the most number of TTs done per day! And once again without fail I set the highest number of outgoing payment today! 110! All by myself! It's a record!

Ok fine I'm proud of myself! But it's kind of stress.

Trying to rush for cut-off time but eventually we couldn't meet the cut-off time at 6.30pm cause there were just too much to do. And something you should know, hongkongers go back on the DOT over at HK! Not even a minute later! So many payments hit visa... oh well... why am I sharing this with you guys when you guys know nuts!

But just know it's a record. and I didn't leave office till 10+. I mean since I have work till 9+ might as well stay awhile more to claim taxi! Wanted to book the london cab cause it's 8 bucks for booking fee! Am I crazy?

NO! Why bother to help the company to save money??!!! But eventually there wasn't any london cab... sad... got me excited for awhile.

And finally I was home... Bath and had my dinner.

Oh! Ever since I started work at ABN, milo,biscuits and cakes had became my best friends. I had milo,biscuits and cakes for the past 3-4 nights?

Is it enough? oh well.... Just enough to stop me from feeling hungry since the appetite is not there.

hmm.... Life made simple by milo,cakes and biscuits.

How does it sound?

Not pathetic... but seriously simple.

But I need a god damn fun life!! Crazy one!!!

Working at Abn has change my life. Not exactly life, it's my perspective towards life. I wanted to get married at the age of 22. Yes it's not a typo error, it's true. There's a reason for it. I wanted to draw the gap between my children and me closer. give birth early. But now?

Finish my degree,get a job I like. Be a career woman and work my way up within the shortest period showing full potential! Earn good money,buy a car of my own and buy a house. But! I can't get a house myself until the age of 35!! oh my god single at the age of 35?! What a old hag!
So maybe i'll just rent a place... Just move out of this place! A place without my sisters is the best thing in the whole wide world!

But imagine... me... Single career woman. Strong and living alone?!

Can you imagine that?

Pls think harder.

hoo... I just realise how long I have not been blogging. it's seems like forever. Tiredness and laziness would be the excuse.

And finally I have the slightest time to do so today.

Oh! Before I forgot. Happy Christmas peeps!

And well heard of the song "Let it snow",it's "Let it rain" now.

A nice and quiet Christmas. Everybody has gone out except for my folks. And I'm glad they don't come bothering me. Leaving me to enjoy this very precious day that was hard to come by. I woke up at 12+! Oh man. I can't even remember when was the last time I woke up at this time and had a good rest. With the rain outside, it makes me feels like going back to sleep and probably have a good dream of some good-looking hunk! Which I don't know who it might be since I never get to see the face of the people i never knew in my dreams.

Anyways life have been the same, besides work! I have been shopping, that now I've gotta ground myself from going out. Mango sales,zara sales. Seriously, I didn't even try to squeeze myself in, except for the first day of mango sales,which I bought a jacket.

I won't wanna miss such a good day spending at home. With just music,book or more pathetically still making my christmas presents. Yes,making.

Talking about presents, I have spend a bomb on gifts this year. But I did receive mine too. So it ain't that bad. And it always happen every year, people don't know what to get for me. Since I have everything. For a matter of fact, I like surprises. I mean that's the purpose of gift right. Giving it to someone,whereby the person would receive it unexpectedly.

And I have a couple of books in mind at the moment and I don't know which one to get. I just feel like getting every one of them.

But for now, I've gotta finish the book i'm reading and the pressie I've gotta give tml!!

Things were supposed to get better,especially when I'm on leave today. But reality seems to be playing a trick on me.

As usual I reached office at 9.15am yesterday morning. But I didn't start work till 11.30am. My pc was down. I couldn't log in to my intranet, my shared files are gone, my daily processing system was impossible to access too. Basically over the weekend, my pc network was gone, for some reason.

And unwilling I called up the "helpless" desk. And thanks to ABN fantastic idea of outsourcing. They called but no one came to help. So I could only ask for help from the IT outside the room. And oh well, though it took long. He did after all save half of my day back for me.

Work was piling up and up. And nothing was done. And I had to skip lunch. So all I had ytd was pancake,chicken sandwich,one small chocolate muffin heavenly made by auntie jenny and a hot cup of chocolate.

I didn't stop working from 1130 to 830pm. Boy. That was work for ytd. Every thing just gotta turn out bad.

Anyways I met up with swee wah ytd and we watched "Step up".

Seriously, in my opinion, on a range of 1-5 stars if I could give 6 I will. It has this power of telling you to. "Hey! Get up from your seat and start moving peeps!"

But well that's my opinion.

Okies I've gotta bath. It's Thailand in a couple hours of time!

I hope I'll be able to come back in a piece despite some political unrest there!!!

Ciaoz peeps!!

14/11/06

I have lots to blog, lots to share but here I am now sitted in front of my laptop. Not knowing what to say or type. The last time I blog was probably 3 weeks ago.

And wow it's seems like a long week. Work has totally drain every single of my energy. What's left of the little energy is used for tuition and meeting up with friends during the weekends.

Work has seem to turn to the better side nowadays. I'm back to going home at 8+. And leaving time for tuition during the weekends instead of squeezing it all in the weekends.

It just seems that my life has become so routine.

Oh well not exactly. A whole set of meal always end with a nice and sweet,delicious dessert. Making it interesting and colourful. Though it might cause some weight-gaining situation but we all deserve to indulge in sinful treats. ",)

Looking at the cheese cake in the fridge is good enough. Tasting it might turn out otherwise.

Anyways being in Abn for almost 4 months, I've seen almost like 7-8 people leaving. It gives low morale to the people. And just when things ain't getting anywhere better, Payments & Receipts and Treasury merged. My nice lady supervisor was swapped over to Treasury and I'm gonna have the most not gentleman supervisor. But so far I've not gotta report to him so life's good till date.

That's not the point. I saw lydia and teck seng talking to Jack and another girl in the meeting room today. I reckon that both of them wanted to quit since Jack ever mention to me that he wanted to tender but was told to thought it over just last week. So I guess everybody is up to their neck already.

When I tell them,anyone, that I ever tender and withdraw after that. All of them would give me one kind of look. The "why" look.

But the funny thing is that I never knew how resolve or take away the "why" from them. I could not give an answer. It's something that I can't express out myself. I just knew that I felt un-safe when I made that decision. If you ever have such feeling, you'll understand what I mean. Though I'm tired and working late, but somehow I'm happy.

And I've learn something. People may come and go due to the work stress, the working time. But that doesn't means you'll have to follow. It's how versatile you are. How adaptive you are and how you look at every single situation.

Friends asked me why don't you get another job. It's too tiring. But where am I gonna find a job is willing to pay 1.7k diploma holder with grades that sucks but a merit in cca?

It's not gonna be long term cause no matter how. Stuides come first. Degree come first. I'll complete it before I really step into the next stage of my life.

But the first most important lesson for me to learn is to stop spending like there's no tml!

I'm going thailand next week! =.="

Oh man! It was the most embarrassing moment of my life today! I've never blush like that before! Rmb there was this cute guy I mention like few mths back at SB night?

Yes I've got his number,his msn and friendster. Crap man! I can't believe this is happening. Went to watch their band perform, it was fab. Just that the others can't stop teasing us! And shit! I was trying so hard to deny that I was blushing! And the worse thing was he was sitting opp me while having dinner at mac.

Ok it doesn't mean anything. Though I do find that he's cute.

But well I'm still happy. Happy to know a new friend. or rather friends!

It's KTV session tml!!!

Oh anyways I've been very happy recently cause two of my students did well for exams. Nini was promoted from NA to Express! Imagine as a tutor the sense of satisfaction! My efforts of teaching till 12 mid-night paid off. Qiao Ting maths improved from a C to A1!

What more can I ask for? Oh maybe I can't . For Yolanda to improve more, to get more than border line pass.

23/10/06

Hello folks! It's time for some updates. But we'll just skip mon to thurs. And jump to every weekend. I can't really rmb what I've done for the past few weekends. Oh well, one thing I can rmb is spending almost 100 over bucks every weekends.

And from mon to thurs I get stuck in that stupid place! Ever since we've moved to the new place. I've been staying later and later. The whole of last week I finish work at 9+... What's new. Like today I left at 10plus.

Somethings need to be done. Oh well! Karen! Heard that. She just can't be bothered.

Anyways let's skip work! What's so nice about it.

But I do love my weekends! Meeting up with friends. Shopping like some rich tai-tai. How I wish I was.

Met up with ruben and halim one of the weekends. Went for dinner and mustafa. I don't know everytime we meet, we would go there. We just simply enjoy it I guess. But t'was nice. Bitching, laughing... haha...

And last friday I met up with jo,audrey, weiloong and afiq... We went to makansutra. Oh the food was fab! Or maybe probably cause I needed some console after a hard day's work. The meeting was fantastic and nice. Updated them on my small little office "romance"! haha... And audrey just can't stop asking me to get the courier guy's number! HEY! I want to k!! But how!!! He's like gone. And it's gonna be the silmmest chance ever to bump into him again! I just know he's at Great Eastern!

Right. Now i'm thinking about him and those short little walks "together". This sounds so silly. And they just kept pushing me, pscycho-ing me. Disturbing. And Miss andrey said that she thinks it's right. That's why she's asking me to do so.

OKIES! If I have the chance I will!!

And sunday was waking up day! I bought a puma bag for 99 bucks! A top and a bottom that added up to 159.90 bucks! Yes shits! So dead!! I'm gonna control! And I'm dead serious!! Control! Control!!!

I guess that's all. Probably more. But I'm slpy!

Well, it's a public holiday tml!! not sure how you guys gonna spend it! But listen to my good plan!

I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK!!

My fellow ladies and gentlemen! It gives me great honour to annouce to you that I'm officially an auntie!

My cousin gave birth to a baby girl yesterday at 5.36a.m! She's so adorable! So small! And she just slept quietly and peacefully when I was carrying her!

Babies are the most precious gift from God!

Her name is Jemmima. Probably I would upload a photo soon. e\Everybody in the family is so happy about her birth! But sadly I didn't get to see her open her eyes. She kept sleeping throughout the time I was there.

Well that's the only good news I could share now. Besides that, nothing good to share.

Finally secondary school exams are over soon. It would mean that I'm gonna take a break for 2 months! Not rushing here and there. Could you imagine that I actually taught to 12 midnight last week. Boy! I was so tired.

And Ive yet to get enough sleep from all that I've lost.

But shopping was never better! I spent like shit every week man! 100+ every week! Seriously is too much! But I need to vent it out somewhere!

Okies! Self-control!

Now that I've got more time... Hopefully! If work doesn't requires much from me! Which is almost impossible!

Okies that's all for updates!

Ciaoz peeps!

Rest

Finally I'm home resting. Had to cause I was too sick to go to work.

Was sick since monday night, but still went to work ytd. And boy it was horrible man! The headache was killing me and I had so much pressure on me as I was doing the HK side.

The pressure really made it worse and I had to work OT till 9+. Tell me about not wanting to go and rest.

Anyways not much of a rest today, I'll still have to give tuition. So get well soon jocelyn.

Finding myself trapped in an enclosed office,
Your sunshine smile suddenly surfaced.
The room seemed warmer ever since.
Of all the world's 12 billion folks,
We saw, we smiled and we finally spoke.
The moment we shared may be minimal
but we ended in a perfectly happy note.

Written by Mr WRM.

29/09/2006

Life is just a short stay on the planet known as earth. A temporary hotel or motel that we check-in for almost 60 years. Less or more. Depends. But still a whole 60 years is gonna flash across your eyes just like that.

But what is beautiful is the moments spent with the people you meet in life. Along this journey that will end someday, we meet many different kinds of people. Black,white, yellow. Short,tall, fat and thin. Name it out. I guess we're all gonna be so amazed.

The only big difference would be the period of time they accompany you on this life journey. There are people who comes and go. And there are some who would stay forever till you're one leg into your own grave.

But they are some whereby you would just wanna keep that little excitement trying to be able to coincidently bump into each other.

And yes. This part is about me. And I'm already thinking back of the moments. It may sound stupid but it's a little colours added to my boring working life.

I think back and I don't regret staying at ABN Amro. Oh well at least for this part. My job scope requires me to up and down the floors almost every hour, that was at the old building. On a particular day at 12.05pm, that was the first time I saw him. The day his existence was made known. First impression. Cute. Seems nice. Hmm.. sounds like a description for food. But anyways that was the first time. And from then on each time I go to the 2nd floor or 11th floor I see him all the time. And that was when the crush begins.

And yes. My crush was the TNT guy or rather the courier guy in the building. We see each other so often. That I begun to think that it's so funny. I can't help grinning to myself each time I see him. And I often wonder if he knew my existence in this small 15 storey building. And once I couldn't hold the happiness in me, I gave him a smile. I couldn't help it cause we bump into each other too many times.

Of cause, there are times I don't get to see him. Like I didn't get to see him a couple of days and I was sad. Cause see-ing always made my day. I remember see-ing him at 5+ whereby I was totally dead. But I was recharged! Okies.. it sounds weird but oh well.... the power of crushes.

I still remember trying to bump into him a couple of times but failed. It should not be planned . It should be coincidence. I still remember the kind of feeling when I couldn't see him on the last day at the old building. But in fact the new building was better.

Going thru and forth from the old and new building in the morning was the most pleasant moments I had. We would walk back together as in front and back. Oh well! We didn't know each other! What do you expect!

And finally I saw him grinning to himself the other day when we saw each other. And it was so dumb when he didn't enter the lift the other day. Oh I can't imagine.

But well. We saw each other. We smiled. And I always wondered if he knew my existence. And I've got my answer!

We spoke for the first time yesterday! Yes I was over the moon!

The lift that cause the upsetness was the one that broke the silence and smiles that we often exchange. And I can't imagine how can someone be so blur to forget pressing the floor that he was supposed to go. But that was nice. haha...

"Do you often walk around. cause I always see you."

My existence is known to him. I'm satisfied.

We spoke again today. In the lift again. and while waiting for the lift. And once again, he went to the wrong floor. At this point of time, even he can't help but laugh at his stupidity.

But it would be the last time we spoke. Cause it's his last day today.

The whole smiling at each other and see-ing each other. And realising each other existence. Ended on a happy note. That is what I would say. I like it this way. Though it may sounds like a some little girl's feeling but I think I like it this way.

The simple and sweet acquitance relationship. The whole excitement was trying hard to bump into him. For a look and a smile.

Now that it has ended. Lydia has made special arrangement for TNT to deliver the documents to me. Called it coincident or what. It doesn't matters anymore since he's not working at ABN anymore.

But who knows I might just bump into him since he got a new job at Great Eastern. ",)

Now this was a short journey in my life.

Not too sure why I feel happy and satisfied. Probably I guess 'cause this is much more simple. Need not know too much and feel too deep.

if you think your birthday is getting any worse. Then listen to mine.

It's my birthday today and you know what I was working OT till 9pm in the office. So how good can it get?

No celebrations but I still have gifts. Oh well I did had a mini celebration with my family. Sweet of them to buy a cake for me.

Sweets~

Okies not much to share. Just tired.

Ciaoz

20/09/2006

It's simple. I have a crush! Oh gosh! A crush was like sometheing that can happen like centuries ago! And mind you it's a crush! yes. C.R.U.S.H. CRUSH!

See. Told ya it was simple.

17/9/2006

T'was a fun,exciting and tiring day. And not forgetting a happy day.

Cause I bought 3 pairs of heels in less than an hour and a bag. Yes I did. I was just like some happy little girl, walking around with two big bags and people staring at me. But who cares. I'm happy! It's "Once in awhile" anyways.

Bought a bangle and a ring too. Oh I bought a pair of sandals ytd. So in all it's 4.

I'm so tired now. That I could just fall asleep right at this instance, if not for my wet hair.

I just came back from Nini's place. Now here's the interesting part. Too excited already! Now I'm seriously hesitating having babies. Cause of cleaning the shit part! I totally had a bad experience just now. But no doubt she's a smart girl. She knew she shitted and asked me to change her diaper. But you know me. So inexperience.

The worst part comes now! She started digging her hands into her diapers! Knowing that we were scared, she started chasing us around the house! And this little bitch was so happy! Can you imagine Nini and I screaming and laughing in the house and this little rascal is chasing after us. Imagine it and you might now be having cramps because of laughing.

We called for "SOS" but her father was no where to be seen. Decided to change her diapers! Don't ask me how? We just had to! And so we started to do it! And Thank God! The dad came back just in time! To save me from not having dinner!

Oh God! I'm having second thoughts. Maybe next time when I have my baby I'll leave it to my husband. At most, I'll use gloves! I'm dead serious!

Don't ever try picturing me doing it with my bare hands! NO WAY!

It's work again tml... Nitex peeps!

9/9/2006

If I ever start blogging it's gonna be about work. You know like how NS guys talked about NS?! That's how I'm gonna talk about work.

Ya. You said it! "Get a life! Jocelyn!"

And yes. That's what I'm gonna do. It's not gonna be about work.

The used-to-be busy and exciting Jocelyn's life has now revolve around work and tuition! I seriously need to get a life! It's ugh disgusting and unbearable! Even I can't stand it.

Anyways I have not been blogging for almost a week but I guess you guys won't wanna read about it cause it's just work so I'll shall be kind enough to save all of your eyes and emotional state.

Well I save you by not blogging. But I save myself by shopping! I bought 2 bags, a pair of shoes and I don't know what else did I buy. I just can't stop buying. I seriously need a shopping therapy as in a real one. Not that kind of shopping therapy.

I'm stuck. I'm stuck about what to blog. I can't believe this. Gosh. It's just goes showing how boring my life has become.

Suddenly I just wanna sit by the river with the strong wind blowing against my face, almost disfigured, and read a book. Totally laid back kind of life, with no one around, just people walking through and forth. Sitting alone with no conversation engage. Just me and my book. That's what I call life for now.

You think it's boring? Well It's my life. And it goes with my mood. I don't have to go with the crowd right. The way I dress, the things I get and things I do. If not, Jocelyn's kind of life would not exist.

I'm gonna live the lif that way I want!