Don't know why for some reason... I hope ITP starts quickly... Don't know why for some reason I wanna end my poly life... All these came together just today... I didn't feel like going to school... The moment I step out of home I wanted so much to go back! I didn't know why... I wanted to hide at home...

Opening up my organiser and flipping to this week schedule... I feel like crying... I could see alot of words... Projects, tests... so on... Hoping for the week to end was what I want... But it's only the start of the week... I feel so heavy...

Many thoughts are running through my mind... Problems that add on to my worries... I wanted so much to call my aunt but every time when I feel stress... Hearing her voice, I would cry out... I can't control it... I really hope she is here... Coz I know she's the one that can really help me through this tough time... I have to put on a brave front every week I see her. But I know that she can see through me, I know she knows sometime is wrong! "I'm just tired"... was my excuse everytime! I want to cry in her arms... I need her hug! I need it badly... My grandma is gone... my aunt has moved out... I can only hug on to my care bear and blanket to cry at night... I miss them!! I missed it! I want it back... I can't take it any longer! LET ME DIE!!

OK... I was kidding... I still have lots of things that I wanna do... My problems are ain't that serious till it makes me feel like dying... Coz I have no guts to jump off a building, slit my wrist, swallow pills or whatever shit... Though I did have the thought of not waking up to see the beautiful sun the next day... that's if I sleep to die... I'm fearful of that too... But well if it's time... Then God has the right to take it...

Felt like breaking down just now while having tuition... My heart felt so heavy... Projects, tests, presentation... my student's CA... I really feel like crying at that moment... She's practically making mistakes for every questions and she don't seems to be able to focus... I know it's 3 hour already! She's tired... I'm tired too... Probably it's me... I don't know... I really think it's me!

It's making me losing my appetite... I can't seem to eat... A few small bits of biscuits could stop my hunger and I can't don't eat... I've not eaten since morning... Stomach is calling but small bits of biscuits and I'm full... I don't know when I will faint but I ain't feeling good for a few days already... I just feel so giddy... But still I ain't eating... eating disorder...

God really knows my issues... When I was feeling that way, fendi send a message asking how am i...

I know you people are walking through this tough time with me and I appreciate it alot... But it's me... the question goes back to me again...

I don't know how to pull through this month... exams are coming... just hope I can concentrate.... Band is always the one that help me pull through this few weeks... music heals the mind... coz in music there's an order and a timing to follow... but now band has stop coz of exam break... and sectionals is only once a week... and there's no sectionals this week!! it means no get away from problems... I just have to look for the way myself... well I know what to do...

After this I have to prepare for crm speech tml... I'm worried as well as for the TA test on wednesday... I can't fail!! Again studies is another issue for me... After speaking to my uncle last week about the money issue for further studies after poly.... I wanna go Uni and I have to... my results are probably only average... or worse off... ARGH!! It just keeps coming back...

Wanting to take a further step to achieve my dream coz I'm slowly building up the guts... But I don't know how. I don't have the time to be spared... Too many commitments... too many personal issues that need to be considered!! I have supportive friends and 2 sisters... But I hope I have supportive family members too...

How contradicitng huh... my dreams and my studies... I can choose both can't I? probably I can... but again it's up to me...

yes yes... everything goes back to me once again!! ME, MYSELF AND I!!

Change a new blog skin... Peeps, don't freak out, pls! I know it looks scary... It's not me kind of blog... Even when I see it, it gives me a creep... But the more I see itI feel that it's ok... I don't know... I just wanted something gothic... and these is gothic enough!! Ok or rather too much...

Just had my hot and well deserved bath... after a long tiring day... finished my crm project... Nat I'm sorry if it's not good enough...

Penny of thoughts while I was bathing...

My real feelings for the week.... I'm sorry to those who I lied to... I had my reasons... I'm sick?! Bullshit! it's all crap...

it's my issues... it's ok if you don't know... Coz I know someone knows... and He has not forsaken me... today's worship was like an answer to me... the week that I've gone through... God knew after all... He revealed through the mouth of others...

it was tough for me... till now I'm still not ok... I know you guys don't want to hear that... but I'm seriously not ok... mind games are tough... my imagination are running wild every moment... the week was filled with tears... it was a terrible week... I didn't feel like going to school on monday... so I skipped I thought it would be ok the next day... but never did I thought it was otherwise... I went to school but I wasn't in any class!! I cried before TA starts I couldn't enter the classroom... So cia and mei spend the time with me at the FC, I cried till I was so sleepy and I slept... CRM was starting but I broke down again... this time worse... I hid at one corner outside the class... lecturers walking past saw it and asked...

At that moment I just wanted to stay at that corner... i felt so lost... so lonely... I couldn't control the tears that came rolling down... spend the whole of another 2 hours sitting outside the bench... Thinking, crying and in a daze... wanted to be alone but I had band... walking zombie could be found in the band room... I couldn't do anything, didn't feel like eating... I didn't eat the whole day... Band prac started everybody was warming up and I was sitted at the back at the percussion area... Dreaming... Muru came to asked and once again I couldn't control it again... came home, saw my sister squat beside her bed... and the tears came again... it was a teary tuesday... my eyes were all tired after the whole day of crying... fell asleep on the bed while crying...

I didn't eat from tuesday morning til wednesday night... I couldn't eat anything... it sounds crazy...

I lost the number of times I cried this week... wednesday went shopping... but it was only a short moment of happiness... thursday went walking around alone... cityhall, suntec, cineleisure, heeren, ps... I was basically walking the whole day...

Friday... broke down during UCCD break... called Ven to talk to her... Thanx Ven for coming down to check on me... Thanx for the diasy... it made my day...

Saturday was a great day... lots of flowers... but once again everything went back to square again...

tiring myself is the only option now... which I am now... really tired... Not been sleeping well for the past few nights... I'm suffering from insomia and eating disorder...

But thanx Jerm, Cia, mei, Ivan, Ven, Raf, Joanne... my sisters... you guys have beeen great...

A successful performance it would be... Though we didn't manage to get the 100 bucks but it's ok... coz we have achieve our main motive... that's to promote our next upcoming concert...

Ohya... and we had two groups approaching us to perform for 2 more events!! haha... GOOD!! Well more public performance outside school is what we are looking for... More experience and exposure...

For me it was really a good experience... Really performing public... outside school... I realise that I do not have stage fright anymore... I was cool and calm... It's as if I belong to the stage... I'm part of the stage... haha... Well after all the event is called "The stage is yours"....

Guess I'm already slowly overcoming my stage fright problem... GOODY!!

But it's a tiring day for me... Woke up early to iron the guys clothes... pracitce in school for awhile then headed to TBP... Some of us took the train and some took the cab... lack of manpower and some stuffs are too heavy to carry when taking the train...

Alan, I'm sorry for the outstanding outfit you have... haha... it was on purpose! Anyway Happy Birthday!! That look on your face was really a classic moment man! Should have taken the expression on your face!

I guess we all did enjoyed ourself on stage! Did we?

Thanx for those who came to support!! Thank you so much! Thanx for the flowers!! really... I have diasies, sunflower, rose and lily on my table now... Gotta get a vase before they all die... or rather vases! haha...

After the whole performance carried the instruments back to school then headed to Bugis for dinner... Ok people I'm eating... don't worry... I'll try to eat k! Though I didn't finished it... But I had chocolate cake... Sara Lee chocolate cake! Man!! Heaven!! Super good!! Chocolate!! Made my day.... haha....

It was Alan's birthday cake... really big candle... haha... can reuse it to I think 60 years old??!! haha...

Raf what can I say about you?! You know what I'm thinking of... And you always hit the bull eye... AH!!! But thanx for being there sweetie... Appreciate it...

lots of projects to do... And I have yet to start on my CRM... been really busy... start tml....

ok my vision is getting bad... It's so blur... it seems to have a layer of watever making me impossible to see properly... probably it's time that I stop... Or else I'll be blind...

well I'm so tired... This week has been tiring... projects, band and rehearsal for tml's performance... and 3 days of retail theraphy... it's killing me... but at least it helps...

ohya... Ven thanx for the flower... it made my day! Really! thanx! Love ya... I owe u a hug!!

off to pack my clothes then bed time!

OK! FOR ONCE!! MA MADE MY DAY!!! SERIOUS!! haha... I'm so happy!! I feel as if I'm flying... haha...

We've got 72.42 for our group presentation!! Which is almost like impossible!! We always get C or D... haha... well! All this goes to Cia!!! Thanx cia!!! Without you! We won't get our B... though it's a low "B"... but who cares! It's still a B!

well for my individual report!! haha.. needless to say... that's the one that made my day!! I've got 73!!! haha.. how can that be... Well again got to thank Cia, Jerm and meimei... Thanx for helping me with my MA report... especially cia! I owe u one and I'm serious!

Am typing the script for sat's performance now... and also typing a memo to the Finance department to get back our money for our previous concert... well shit happens sometimes...

Ms Hope told us that we could get back our money but we have to bank in all our money first then we can endorse... BUT! After banking in with the Finance department, Went to see Ms Hope... She said it's gonna be difficult to get back our money and it's impossible! Man!! The moment she told me that I feel like see-ing my five finger prints on her face! Bloody hell!! 760 BUCKS!!! You know how much is that and she tells us we can't get it back!! DARN YOU! So now we have to try to type a memo to the Director of Finance... HEY!! We said in our proposal that we will divide the money among ourself once the concert is over!! AND HELLO! YOU READ IT! AND APPROVE IT!! NOW I HAVE TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH TROUBLE!! YOU! MORON! SWINE! ARGH!! WHATEVER!!!

Just came back from rehearsal for the sat's performance... man! Tired! Well lots of gimmicks! Tiring... Not bad good exercise! SWEAT IT OUT!! Haha... But hope you guess enjoy! But I assure you guys that you are gonna enjoy!! Wahaha...

guess you guys can see that my previous entries are just some article and some stuff which I like to share... Am not blogging about what happen in my life this week... I don't have to say much, guess you guys know... so shall not waste my energy... pretty tired...

have been spending money as if there's no tml at all... Ytd i bought a new watch! Yes a new one... a bag... 2 skirts and t-shirts for the sat's performance... for the section...

Today lesson ended at 1... went shopping alone... went to cityhall and suntec... then took a train to somerset... Walked from cineleisure, heeren then PS... headed to Chinatown to meet Nei before going back to school for rehearsal... not bad! worked out today! Been walking the whole day.. even under the rain... feels good...

Blogging is something I would think twice now... probably writing a diary would be better... well I do... but if I happen to not see the sun tml... pls take it out and read it... anyway I'm dead so what am I afraid of?!

Was bathing just now... And this came to me... "What are my priority in my life?" well it goes to you too... Was thinking about it... hmm... my priorities... I have lots of commitments... I know my first priority which is God! But I'm not too sure what comes next... there's studies, family, friends, band, tuition...

There's only 7 days in a week... and 24 hours a day... How much time I spend with my family... i don't know... I think I spend more time with the mallets stick than I spend with my family and friends...

Feel a slight pain in my tummy... guess it's because I've not been eating... ok skip that part...

I'm tired... Gonna sleep... Take care peeps! Don't forget to come and watch us perform!! haha...

FREE PERFORMANCE!

SPBAND Percussion Section
Venue: Tiong Bahru Plaza, Open Concourse
Date: 5th March 2005
Time: 5:30pm to 7:00pm

It's free! So do come support!! THANX!!! It's also to promote for our next "De Avanganda Percussians"!! 3rd of June!

came across this article... "Tap those feelings"... Rather good... It goes like that...

Right. We know from science classes that our bodies are 70 per cent liquid, but our emotions seem equally fluid.

Phrases that are used to refer to the states of water are commonly used to describe the state of the heart too.

For instance, a loved one can ooze charm one minute, and make your blood boil the next.

A betrayed friend can fume when he is wronged, lashing out at you as hot rage flows through him.

On the other hand, when you win a football game, elation can course through your veins. Indeed, victory is sweet, and those who experience it can drink in their success.

When you get top marks for a test, relief and pride can flood your heart. But when the chips are down and an "F" is announced, sadness can well up at the sight of failure.

Best friends tend to pour out their feelings to each other, confiding their secrets. In fact, misery loves company, so there's no need to drown in sorrow, or wallow in it alone.

Thankfully, bad times don't last. The next big event you plan with your friend can stir up excitement, and that can bubble up to the surface as the day draws closer.

A reliable friend is someone you can count on. Sometimes his presence and presents can make your heart overflow with gratitude.

When your friend does well, it is as if his joy is yours too, and you might feel your heart swell with pride when he wins a national award for an excellent essay.

The thought of being away from good friends and missing them could even fill you with horror.

:)

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And the story ends here....

It's my life now...

If you can understand you can if you can't then you can't...

If you are still burying yourself in some problems today and brooding over it... DAMN!! GET OUT FROM IT NOW AT THIS INSTANT AND CARRYING ON WITH LIFE!! Coz Life goes on...

It has been a tough week for me but I've pulled through... Finally straighten things out... I've been thinking too much and creating a problem or problems that doesn't exist! Thinking back I think I'm so dumb!! It's so dumb... Why did I ever do that... And end up with 3 sleepless nights... Man! 3 days!! Without sleep! I wonder how I did that... GESH!

I don't know why the sudden enlightenment.... I just know I feel good now... After all how long can we be upset for... It's tiring... Of coz my friends were there to help me to pull through... Fortuntately there was MA to keep me busying with... and band that stop me from thinking...

Oh yeah... Talking about band... Hmm... I've been dragging myself to band... It's been like that since... can't remember when... But I just feel so tired.... Wanna take a break... Feel so tired.... Band should be something I look forward to... but don't know why... But I'm always looking forward to sectionals... Coz can get to do marching season!! Love that piece!! can't get it off my head...

ok for today... I woke up late!! lesson was at 9 and i woke up at 8:52 when meimei msg me.. haha... And it's weird... my phone was on my left the previous night but this morning it was on my right... Probably when the alarm went off I just switch it off and went back... But serious I couldn't even remember doing that... Who cares!! Too tired already...

Rather long day today... I'm exhausted... Very... After lesson had band... whoa... Was watching basetball match... WAH!! NUS is GOOD MAN!! Not just that... The guys are pretty good-looking too!! haha... opps! :P

OH! OH!!! The coach is cute too!! haha...

Okie off to sleep already...

Finished my MA individual report already.... Well, went to school to finish it coz my com have got no excel and words... etc... so had to go to school... stayed at the biz library till about 3+...

Didn't go for FF and Fmkt today...These few days have been tough for me... Since Sunday... Feeling so heavy hearted... it was like fighting a war with my emotions.. I've not really slept for 3 nights... I hated to sleep, I hate to lie on the bed with many thoughts running through my mind... With tears filling in my eyes... Waking up suddenly when I manage to get some sleep... And those things just flash through my mind...

Starting MA was a tough job for me... i couldn't concentrate... My mind was simply in a whirl... But manage to get started with the help of Cia... telling me what to do... Helping me to survive through this time... Burying myself in work was the only time that I didn't think of anything... and when we had band... I couldn't even have a single second to let any other thoughts come to my mind... except for the rythmns and getting it right...

Those words just keep coming back to me... It's so scary... I don't know what to do... probably the best is to leave it as it is... probably when I don't talk about it... the problem won't emerge... I know it's not the best solution but that's the least I can do... Coz I really don't know what to do... I couldn't even keep eye contact with them... I'm really scared... Starting a conversation might be tough in future... And now I know clearly where I stand...

well... for the rest of the week I don't know what will happen... I don't know if tears is going to roll down my cheeks or not... probably it has already dry up ater 3 days...But I'm glad I have good friends... that support me and giving me encouragement... Jerm have been always there to listen to what I say, giving me encouragement... Hope I didn't give u a shock that night... Cia helping out in my MA and of coz those things that you said... and meimei too... thanx alot peeps!

For the moment projects and preparing for the coming tests...

Tired... Drained... But trying to keep the smile and laughter going... and the only time is in band with the percussion...

It's scary how things turn out to be.... Within a day... But it's like a lifetime that is flashing right in front of my eyes...

Humans are fake... That's why we get along sometimes... Even my smile and laughter are becoming fake...

A simple sentence that ends my day...

I'm so glad... I cried out... been surpressing it for a few days... didn't know how to release it out... shouting no use... nothing could help...

But now I'm feeling better... I just couldn't stop... Tot I was ok then went to brush my teeth... but when Lina spoke to me... I broke down again... this time worse...

Then my mum came in... Manage to stop... Seeing her just makes me laugh.... she still can crack a joke with me... "what happen to you?! your air-con not cold that's why u cry ar?!"

Haha... how can I possibly be sad after hearing this lame joke... :)

Well just half an hour more to Valentine's day... It means half an hour more to cry and put a full stop to today... :)

BE STRONG! COZ LIFE GOES ON!! Familiar huh, Jerm?!

Thanx meimei, ShunLi and Cia for the encouragement.... I'm ok... And I'm quite sure Shunli...

hmm.... tml is Valentine's day!!! So my dear friends!! How are you guys gonna spend your day? Studying for test? sleeping at home? Watching tv?

OK nvm about tml... what are you guys thinking of now?

Thinking hard how to ask the person you like out for a date... peeps! Do it! Have faith!!

If you don't have a date, it's ok!! Don't be sad! Keep smiling! Valentine's day doesn't means you have to spend with yr gf or bf... It means spending time with your loved ones... and yes! It doesn't only include yr gf or bf... It can be your family, friends, or someone that you have neglected... Watching tv, sleeping or studying for a test... it's ok... better than spending big bucks... :)

well... talking about test... kind of worried... Might not be going to school tml... Not sure yet, told my mum I'm not going... Will see how tml... I'm kind of tired... though I have a long nap just now...

Worried for MA project... need to submit this coming week... I have not started coz I don't know how to do... And I have tests coming up soon... Many projects!! MAN! I really don't have the motivation, determination and mood to do all these now... I hate tests and projects... But would rather do projects... I don't know... i always feel so stress up during exams...

well one at a time... just finished my dinner... feeling so sleepy...

Ok was pissed just now... Calm down already... tired... A day that is somehow good and bad... And kind of disappointed with my sister...

I guess most of the time is the people that are closed to you and matter to you most disappoint you...

Ok well I cleared the misunderstanding and I'm glad I did... Like what Ven said Sisters are out to make love, not war! just some miscommunication... I'm back to normal now... After blasting some music and not talking for about an hour I guess... Coz I know I'm just gonna shout at people if I did open my mouth to talk... And I don't want that to happen... So yeah! I'm cool now... I'm smiling already...

Thanx Ven and Zai! For offering help to calm me down... Sorry for the harsh words that I have used just now... U know... F*^K... Oh yeah... And Hanyong... Thanx for asking whether I'm ok or not... :)

Well let's see what I did today...

Went for tuition in the morning... Nini's sister is so DAMN CUTE!! I was carrying her and she kept smiling to me... acting very shy.. but she had her whole load of saliva on my arm... but well she's still cute!! MAN!! BABIES!!

Anyway, Nini's mum gave me a $50 hong bao... Thanx thanx!! Hmm... guess in total i got about 300+ I guess... Hehe...

AND YES SHIT!! I've spend too much this week!! DIE DIE!!! I spend so much money...

Went out with meimei... met her at Outram... went to Pearl Ctr to trade-in my phone... YEAH!! I bought my new phone!! Nokia 6670!! YEAH!! haha... the uselss phone is gone! But my pictures inside are gone too... haiz... couldn't find the cable to download into my com this morning... so just have to let go... when it's time to let go it's time... I'm so glad that I check with almost all the shops there... as I go to the shops behind they offer better price... But well got the phone for $268.... quite a reasonable price I tot... :D MEIMEI! Thanx for accompanying me to go there... Thanx! Thanx!

SHIT!! I spend about 200 bucks on tuesday... and today!! I bought a pair of striking green slippers at $5 and I bought a heels for $31.90 from VNC and a watch for $8... shit!! I bought too many pair of shoes, slippers and slip in!! DIE! And watches too... Meimei bought the same pair of slippers too... And she bought a pair of slip in from VNC too, for $13.90... It's pastel yellow colour... Looks good on her!

Not a good idea for a one week break huh... Glad that it's is starting next week... It means I have no time to shop... GD! At least I won't spend much... I hope so!!

After Far east we headed to Harbourfront... Coz wanted to get handphone pouch but couldn't find anything nice at Far east... Managed to get the handphone pouch and some handphone accessories.... Then went to Sakae for dinner... then headed home...

OK talking about that... I think my student, Nini.. is freaking mature! She knew who I like... yeah! I totally forgot till she asked me... it was like kind of wrong to tell her... She kept teasing me... But she said things that really surprised me... She said don't just stick to one guy... look around and try to know more people... i might find someone better... Shocked?! she's only 12... But hearing it from her it's like wah!! she make it sound so simple and somehow somewhere it just knock some sense into me... A 12 year old girl telling me that... I've lots more to learn when I'm handling with this area...

Anyway tat's it for a day...

My mind is tired... Not able to think... can't concentrate... my eyes are closing soon... But I'm trying hard to keep it open... funny huh?! I don't know why too... I've been in a daze the whole day...

Not been doing things right... Dropping every single thing that I'm holding on my hand... almost broke a bowl just now... spilled water on the table and floor when i was refilling my bottle... what else I dont know... Just too many times...

But thanx to Mr CUCKOO!! and his lame joke... As you guys can see the messages he tag... Anyway thanx pal!! It kept me smiling...

Tml is sat... What am I to do?

I've got tuition in the morning at 11 a.m.... Then after that is either I call meimei out or not... Have yet to msg her... Coz I can't decide myself...

I need time out alone... I need to be alone... Tat's how I'm feeling now... Probably it would be gone tml...

ok how was my day? if you were to ask... well I'm kind of tired... I was like in dreamland when I was out...

Didn't know whether to go Chinatown to check the price of my phone... But when the train was at Outram I didn't feel like getting down so sat all the way to Tiong Bahru...

Went to Watsons to get some stuff... And cheese hotdogs for my mum... Bank in money... GREAT! I have money in my bank now... When I meant "great"... It ain't filled with happiness or greatness... It's just the word "great" that has no emotions... well... that's what words are when it is itself... It's us that put in the feelings...

My face is getting better... At least my 90 bucks is not wasted... *phew*

Feeling kind of shitty... But better now after eating somethings... snacks as usual... no proper dinner... or lunch...

and I have a BLOODY BIG BLISTER! DAMN!! Super painful!! I'm feeling hungry but I don't know what to eat... Again I don't know what I want...

Was talking to my aunt just now, Nei. She said somethings to me... that left me feeling so.... shit?

But I think she's kind of right... She pointed out things that is nothing to me... Which I didn't realise myself too... It just left me so heavy hearted... In fact through out the train ride half of my mind was thinking about that issue...

Well just another person who is outside of the situation telling me things that I can't see myself... But still I'll follow my heart...

It's the second day of chinese new year... yeah... Guess I'm gonna rot at home... Not too sure either...

Anway had macdonald's for breakfast... Hotcakes!! Yummy!! A long long time...

Didn't count how much I collected... Kind of sian... Ok till here I suddenly forgot what I wanna blog... GESH!! What do I wanna blog...

Ok just let me say what I'm thinking at the moment... Getting a new phone... Oh! I feel like shitting... haha... My mind seems to be kind of blog... It's stuck at that moment... The moment that leaves me thinking and thinking...

Suddenly thought of Edwin... haha... I'm so proud of myself! "What counts is that the moment I saw you, you melt my heart. Whether my next day would be bored or not it doesn't matter, coz having you in my mind every min brings no boredom into my life!" haha... *PROUD* haha... Can't believe I could actually thought of this... Edwin you owe me one don't ya?! haha... just kidding... Btw did she reply?

And trust me!! You won't regret! *Crossing my fingers* hehe... no la kidding...

hahahahahaha.... lalalallalala..... lalalalalala.... hehehehe.hehe...... lalalallalalalalalalallalalalalalallalalalalalalalalalalallalalalala....yeahyeah yeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeah....... hohohohohhohohohohoohohohohohohohohohohoohho.......hahaahahahahahaha.......

Ok guys I'm bored... bye! Off to shit! :P

Happy Chinese New Year peeps!!! Did you guys manage to get lots of clothes?! spend lots of money?! haha.... Well for me it's not bad... Quite good I guess... haven count yet... Went to my uncle's home in the morning... then to my grandma's home... stayed there for awhile only coz was not feeling well... having a tummyache... shit rite! on this day... reach home at about 5... Gonna rest... night's programme don't know yet... anyway just updates!!

Mon (7/2)
Did some packing... spring cleaning... then went for band in the evening... manage to surprise JERM!! haha... I didn't forget your birthday girl! HOW CAN I??!! I did that on purpose! And I'm so glad you feel SAD!! It shows how important I am to you... haha... Ok! sorry about that! Hope you like that simple celebration we had for you... And sorry... make the whole section don't wish you happy birthday... :P

After band went home... can't remember what I did after that... oh yeah... I can buy new phone soon!! haha... my mum gave me 300 bucks to buy phone... 100 bucks for me to spend... another 100 bucks for my facial products!! haha... :P

Tues (8/2)
New year eve!! A wonderful new year eve I can say... haha... Woke up at about 10+... then did some packing before meeting Jerm...

Met Jerm at 11.30... MAN!! WE had a great time shopping!! It was really a shopping spree!!! SHIOK MAN!! It's been a long time for me and her... a long time that we spend the time together to shop... as we are both very busy... and someone's attached huh!! haha... joking!! SERIOUSLY!! But hey! I realy envy you... serious! Glad you found someone...

Anyway.. I bought a set of facial product that cost 90 bucks... then 2 pair of slip in for $16... 2 necklaces, 2 bracelet and a ring for 52 bucks... yes wonder how people spend 50 over dollars just on accessories?! Let's go shopping with me and you'll know! hehe... then 2 tops... one from "Samuel and Kevin" $11.20 and one from "U2" $13... and a bottom for $23.90...

Really feel damn shiok sia!! it's been a long long time... Glad that I spend that money... haha...

feel satisfied headed home for reunion dinner....had steamboat... as usual... except something different... we had guests at our home... Justin and his dad came to join us... Justin is my cousin's friend from perth... Not too bad... Then contiune packing my clothes after dinner...

After packing met up with Hanyong to watch "Flight of the Phoenix... Not a bad show... though all the while they were in the desert... feel thirsty for them man... headed to Chinatown after the show... Saw fire works!! haha... super crowded at Chinatown... Don't even have to walk... you just get pushed around... Bought sweets for my mum then we headed to clarke quay...

Reached home about 2+... washed up packed then went into my dream land....

AHH!!! My acne is back I guess... So troubled by it.... DAMN TROUBLED!!

It recover after I have seen a doctor... But I don't wanna see the doc again... waste money...

How does acne develope? Acne is caused by overactive oil glands (sebaceous glands), stimulated by the hormone androgen, mixing with dead skin cells, which leads to plugged pores and outbreaks. This is particularly true during the teenage years when androgen production is at its highest.

Acne begins in the hair follicles. Sebaceous glands, which are attached to the hair follicle just below the skin's surface, produce an oil called sebum. Normally, sebum empties onto the skin's surface to lubricate the skin. But when cells that are shed from the follicle lining stick together, they form plugs that prevent the sebum from exiting the pore. This is especially common during adolescence, when cells from the follicle lining shed more rapidly. Rising hormone levels during puberty cause the sebaceous glands to get bigger and produce more oil. The mixture of oil and cells helps bacteria to grow, eventually breaking the walls of the follicles. That's when sebum, bacteria and shed skin cells collect under the skin, causing inflammation, pain, redness and pus, causing acne.

Ok I'm just being over upset about the acne on my face... So sian... feel like buying this product... "Proactiv"... seems good...

nvm... forget it... Just use what I'm using now... if it's not helping then I'll use that... get money from my mum... anyway she will be more then willing to pay coz it's my face... haha...

ok i finish cleaning the kitchen... kind of tired...

YEAH!! It's back! It's back to normal again!!! haha... My com is working again!! Yes finally!! All thanx to my cousin!! And of coz Malina's cd... Thanx for all the help peeps!!

Now I can't blog without being worried that my com will just auto-restart itself!! haha...

Well, yesterday was MA presentation... well he said that... our class has high B's and low C's... and there was a "D"... Kind of worried... very... But well... it's over... What's done cannot be undone...

Submitted my CRM individual project yesterday... yeah! After that my com "recover"... Haiz... Have to go to Jerm house to do my project... Feel so bad to disturb her... But thanx pal!! thanx thanx!!

Well it's a good thing that I submit early... It means I can slack during the weekend... and not rush my project... And Monday there's no school... Kind of troublesome to go back to school... So here I am... Slacking at home on a weekend... Or rather spring cleaning... yes! No one is at home... so I'm doing the spring cleaning... Sorry Ven! Had to do spring cleaning... Can't meet up with you... Hope you enjoy!!

Wanted to skip MA lecture and UCCD tutorial... But for that moment yesterday... I really didn't know what I want... I keep saying that I don't know what I want in my life!! For the moment! haha... BUt well end up mei n I went for both... but luckily we went... Coz we only can afford to skip once... So I skipped once already... *phew*...

Skipped UCCD and headed down to town... Wanted to go Far east... BUt end up went to Cafe Cartle to eat... Met up with Edwin and Hanyong... Saw Shun Li on the way so drag her there with us... haha... Was super tired... Not been sleeping well the past few days... But mei has Jap class at 6.30... so decided to walk to PS with her... Just treat it as an exercise after a meal... On the way both of us were quite quiet... Guess we were tired... Reached home... took a rest before going to give tuition...

Met up with Swee Wah... he passed me something... then we had a chat downstairs my house... from 9+ to 11+... Well, realised that I haven been catching with him... At my student's house I read an article that says how to survive on Valentine's Day... And there was this part which says... spend with someone that you feel you have neglected all this while... haha... he's was the first person I thought of... Feel so sorry towards him!! Sorry pal!! Can't meet up with you... I know you know the reason... I'm really busy... Even if I promise to meet up with him, last minute it might be cancelled.... hmm... think need to do some reflection...

So I asked him out on Valentine's Day... but he rejected... haha... He said if I really have nothing on then asked him... or else last minute cancel again... haha... give him too much hope... And I demanded a bouquet of flowers from him... haha... Just joking!! It's extremely expensive on that day...

Just had my dinner... And going to start spring cleaning... Gonna be a superwoman!! My parents are out! Sisters out too... YUP!! DOING IT ALONE!! HAIZ...

Went to bought new cups... cups are getting too old!! ok shall start with the kitchen... Must get it done before chinese new year!!

It's 1.30 AM now!! yes!! And I'm not at home... I'm at Jerm's house doing my CRM project... Well, I'm kind of done already... Just need to go school to print and bind it... The submission date is next monday... But it's my term break next week!! I don't wanna go back to school in the morning!! So think I'll submit tomorrow... That's why I'm mugging here...

I'm so tired... Still got MA presentation tomorrow morning... AT 9!!! Hope everything goes well... Hope Ambrose won't shoot us with difficult questions!! Pray hard!!

Well... lots of thoughts running through my mind now... But don't know what is it... I'm just too tired...

Ohya... went shopping with meimei today... a rather short one... I bought 2 new watches again! then a necklace... some daily products... moisturiser... wet tissues... and a facial massager... yup that's all...

ok people I don't know I'm talking... Need to rest... Mind's off!! Nitez peeps!

sorry peeps... com is still down... now using my cousin's gf laptop... so sweet of her to lend it to us... wanted to do my project but lazy no mood... anyway got to give the thumb drive to meiying coz tml ganesh got to use it urgently tml.. so will only get it back... well i'm forgetful so better to let meiying keep first... well haha... also to use it as an excuse! :p

let's see... let's see... what have I done the past few days...

29/1 (Sat)
Today was the riverraft camp... so camp in school... coz band performing on sunday... well practice was kind of slack coz it's not something important... but kyle was angry with the band... oh well kyle is the president of SPBand... suppose to have spring cleaning but only 5-6 people came to help... so he's kind of angry and disappointed... and he started scolding the band... he said "What the fuck is this?!" I'm so disappointed... tat's all i can't remember coz the previous sentence leaves a deep impression....

after the prac was abt 8 plus... so we had our sectionals... work on maching season.... haha... not bad improve abit... from nothing to something... but well was kind of disapointed too.... coz my section told me they are staying... whole section staying tat's why when they persuaded me I agreed to stay... end up last min... some cannot stay... feel so cheated... but well... haiz... thanx alan for staying!! and thanx for your laptop... if not I won't have started on my project!!

ohya.. talking about that... I was feeling heavy hearted when I went for camp... coz i thought the submission for CRM porject was monday... but lucky I msg cia and ask her.... found out that the submission date was friday... Phew... load off the shoulder...

30/1 (Sun)
Didn't sleep since the previous night... but know what... I'm super energetic lor... all my friends who slept... was super tired.. but I was so awake... don't know why... but i guess it's because I had a good sleep on friday night... thats's why... well the river raft was kind of sian... the weather was super hot.. and we had to play under the sun!! and i feel like bathing so much!!

Darnz!! you know how it feels when you are all sweaty... and sticky... and you can't freaking hell bath... MAN!!! that totally sucks! but it was kind of fun watching people's raft sinking into the water... haha... ohya!! they had this new event called "walking on water"...totally cool man!! totally!!! those people just use styrofoam board and then walk on the water... haha... and guess what!! the first person who won this event was a GIRL!! haha... GIRL RULES!! ;)

reach school about 12 plus.. then got to pack the percussion area... gotta put back to where it is... Thanx to all who help in carrying the percussion instruments!! thanx peeps!!

By the time we finished it was 1 plus... still very awake... haha... don't know why... then headed to tiong bahru to eat with siti. jerm and weilun... didn't manage to eat much coz don't feel like eating...

Reached home... unpack abit... then BATH!!! YES!! FINALLY BATH!!! haha... took about half an hour to bath... wonderful hot bath.... mmmMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......

But when i came out of the bathroom I was fraking tired already... lie on the bed to watch tv but realised that can't take it anymore... slept till about 9 plus.... took my dinner... then slept at 12 plus again...

31/1
Didn't had a good sleep last night... have been waking up after every one hour... sianz man!! hate it!! But well... woke up at 8.20... coz meeting hanyong to watch movie... watched "Hotel Rwanda"... not a bad show... touching... but didn't really like the part where the Hutu killed the Tutsi... pity those people who actually got to witness this... fighting hard just to live... and when you live, u gotta live with the nightmare forever... well, i actually cried... haha... tears were in my eyes but... manage to push it back... haha... keep making fun of hanyong... coz he lost his whole bag... dumb right?! :x

Missed CRM lecture... actually intended to go to Farrer park to get his fingerboard but well it only opens at 5... so headed to school for TQM tutorial... boring lesson.... but stay there and crap with meimei...

FMKT was kind of tough... coz i didn't understand what he say... haiz...

After school headed to bandroom... finally lodge the police report for the missing percussion booklet... gave it to SAA... then when it's done can bank in to finance building... ahha... then can get back money already.... better be quick... kind of troubled today... with somethings... and was talking to Jerm about it... thanx Jerm!! Feel like crying since FMKT... Thanx for lighting the fire!! And Thanx for talking to me... I know what to do... and anyway I intend to do it...

Band prac was boring today... only got Jerm, Raf, Joanne, Qiao ling and me... sian... haiz... side read one piece... can't remember what is it called... But was bothered with something else...

haiz... I think I'm really stupid... Let my chance slipped off again... I think I really think too much... Probably the problem lies with me... if I can see things in a more simpler manner... probably today it the day... hha... ok I'm crapping... just remember what Jerm has say... Today might be the day... ahah...

school starts at 1 tml... and I'm still not tired... but slping soon I guess... Don't wanna slp late... Or else those pimples are coming out again... t's getting better now...

Sorry guys have not been blogging recently coz my com is down and i'm busying with my individual project... Finally finished it... need to submit today... And I feel so satisfied!! haha... Finslly done!! But I wanna thank a few people!!

Thanx Mei!! For helping me out... helping me to print... and allowing me to go to your house to complete everything... If not I think I won't be able to finish it in the evening... thanx!!

Thanx Jerm!! For letting me go to your house till 3 in the morning to do my project!! And staying up so late with me... Thanx!!! ohya thanx for the cup noodles! the delicious chin-chow drink and your craps!! haha...

Thanx Effendi!!! Well, must really thanx this dude here... Thanx for helping me to take the photos!! It was really more than enough!! Important pictures taken.. very useful for the project... and thanx for the pictures you have found from the internet and putting it in your thumb drive... Saving my time to look for it online... make my job easier!! :) thanx!! thanx!!

Well, things have been rather bad for me... And I've been coming to school feeling heavy- hearted and sad... Except for today... Well thanx for those who have been encouraging me...

But well though bad, but I guess God still has his good plans for me.. or else I won't be able to finish my uccd....

yeah!!! FMKT presentation is over!!! And i found my necklace yesterday night!!! Was watching tv... then saw the person wearing the necklace... the more I can't stop thinking of my necklace!!!! was preparing to sleep already but in the end still wake up to search for it... :P

Couldn't sleep last night... didn't manage to have a good rest...

Well supposed to have class photo taking today end up don't have... Go to school early for nothing... haiz...

FMKT presentation went well for me... I was very confident... Not nervous at all... When meimei was half way thru her speech I was already thinking about other stuff.. Then after that Shun Li... I was already so sian of waiting already... But well everything went well...

BUT MY LEGS ARE SO TIRED!!!! so so tired... the heels are so freaking high... ANd I had to wear till 10+... coz I had band... can't stand it... Now my legs feel sore...

Band was ok today... for first half we did the pieces for the coming river raft performance... Then second half we did "Elisabeth"... NICE PIECE!!!

my mum cooked curry chicken!! haha... yummy... just finish eating abit... :P no matter how full still must eat!! Coz my mum cook!! haha...

Going to watch "Elektra" tml morning... then go for TA... got sectionals after school... haiz... long day... but nvm!! Can play "Marching Season" can liaoz!!! YEAH!!

WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!!!!! AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so bothered!!! Can't find it... I misplaced my necklace!!!! MY PRECIOUS NECKLACE!!! haiz... So vex... can't find it on my table!! DAMN! Should have kept it that day!!! Hope it's not lost... Hope it will be out in a few days... haiz...

I'm so tired and sleepy!!! There's FMKT presentation tml... Prepared already... Wanna start on UCCD... But need to ask Zai somethings first... before I can proceed on...

So sian... Had some chocolates!! Feeling much better already... :) well, leave my necklace for awhile.. shall put on another one tml... anyway I guess I have more than enough necklace... definitely one will match... :P

Tml Alan will be starting his ITP... All the best Alan!! Enjoy k!! Anyway kind of worried that I can't handle... But well will do my best!!

OK PEEPS~! ALL THE BEST FOR TML'S TQM DEBATE AND FMKT PRESENTATION!!!

Feeling rather lousy just now... Couldn't get the rythmns right... Almost cried out... It's all written on my face... I know it can be seen... Andy and Nei could see it right through me...

I'm so sorry... Sorry Andy for keeping quiet the whole bus trip... I just didn't feel like talking... Though I told you the reason but still didn't feel like talking... Anyway thanx for the concern! Thanx for the advise... ;) will remember what you... Pressure should come from others not myself... But well... it's my expectations for myself.. But well will look into it...

Feeling much better now... after talking to Nei... Looking at the positive side... Need to prepare for the presentation on Monday... Kind of nervous... Don't know why...

On the train to KL 


Stupid face?! 


outside swenses at the airport... 




thumbs up!! 


my mum, meichan, Jess, Mailina, and Me! 


Jess and I 


Meiying and Jess 


my mum and the four little rascals... haha... 


Meichan and Jess 


OooOOooo... that totally feel so good! 


say cheezz!! 


My mum & Jess! 


OH MY GOD~!! haha... Miss ya girl!!  


Muackzz.... Love ya! 


A CLOSER TAKE PLS!! 


last group photo before you go girl!! ;( 

It's time... a new blogskin... new song!!! a very nice song... it's something like every girls' dream... or probably I would say every girl that are in love or secretly in love with people... :)

Anyway there's a reason where I change my blogskin... Firstly, whenever I read my blog it would remind me to smile always... And it is also to remind you guys who are reading to smile always... no matter what!! SO SMILE!!!

Never be replaced by First Lady

Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(think that u should know),
All the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(you should know),
the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you,
yes I do(yes I do)
I'll be with you
as long as you want me to
until(until)the end (the end) of time (of time)

From the day I met you
I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you
and I wanna have your kids(have ur kids)
Things could never compare to the feeling of your kisses,
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank god that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt
in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday that I spent with you
and I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(think that u should know),
All the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(you should know),
the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you,
yes I do
I'll be with you
as long as you want me to
until (until)the end (the end) of time (of time)

a little crazy and implusive...

probably not a little... I think I'm very crazy!! REALLY!! I went shopping with meimei just now... Ok my mum gave me $150 now I'm left with $0!!

Ok these are the things I bought... A formal top, a skirt, a pair of pointed heels, a watch and 3 BOTTLES OF PERFUME!!! YES!!! 3!!! No typo error!!! :)

Bought them from body shop... all different tyoe of fragance... Like 3 and yes I just took them off the shelves and into the bag... and the money goes to the cash box... haiz...

And I was thinking about it the whole day when I was shopping.. I regretted!! But well not anymore... Coz i got a free gym bag where I can put my shampoo and stuff quite big... And a free make-up remover!!! haha.... Didn't realise it was inside until when I reached home... Hope it can last me for the whole year!!!

Meimei bought a halter neck, a skirt, cardigian, same pair of pointed heels as me, same watch and a bath foam from bodyshop... just realise that her taste and my taste are about the same!! :P Should go shopping more often with her... we are going again next week?!! Are we?! But no more perfumes!! tat's all... NEW YEAR CLOTHES!!!

Ok tat's all... I'm kind of sleepy...

just another day...

Yup... it's just another day for me... the sun continues to shine, and I'm able to wake up to see the light... water continue to flow... time continues to pass slowly probably even without our notice... Somethings are still the wat it is as before... No different answer or different story... Not much of a diff... Just that I'm able too see my parents when I wake up this morning... Rarely get to see them or talk to them for the past few days... :) Ohya... and able to have breakfast! hehe... And me starting on my UCCD... But my computer is giving lots of problems! Spoiling my mood!! haiz... only manage to start a few lines...

Have not blog for five days already... sorry guys... Too lazy... Ok just some updates...

Sunday 16/1
Not much... As usual went to church... then headed home I think... Can't remember liaoz...

Monday 17/1
Well, monday.... the first day of school for the week... school started at 12... Not too bad... Got band after that... Did the same old pieces... then headed home... Studied for TA for the test on Wednesday... And finished it without realising it...

Tuesday 18/1
School started at 1... ok! didn't self declare or anything... it really start at one... super slack right... Was kind of not feeling well... had fever on and off... body aches... Had sectionals in the evening... there were only Charlton, Alan, Raf, Joanne, Jermaine and me... We did "Marching season", "Above and Beyond", "Matrix" and "Russian Dance".... yup that's all... then Jerm and I stayed there till abt 9+ to self prac... :)

headed home to revise TA... Kind of worried... Couldn't sleep... TA just keep coming into my mind...

Wednesday 19/1
Took TA paper... well... what can I say... I don't know... There were 15 true and false qns... only manage to confirm 6 answers... the rest just by luck... and the charts... haiz... Just hope I can pass... *praying hard*

School ended at 1... Then headed to K-ster with Shunli and meimei... haha... thinking back... they have been asking me to go KTV since friday... and they never fail to give up!! ESP ShUNLI!!! The moment she sees me she will say... "Go la"... Till i got so scared! haha... end up promise them that I'll go...

After that headed back to school for band... And I'm sick!! Down with a flu!! headaches... just feel so terrible... First half of band we did some pieces for the the river raft event... next sunday... Finally some different pieces!!! At least we can take out 2 classic pieces... been playing it since year 1... then second half... did teathre music.. wah sian!!! So asked Raf to play for me... and stayed outside the band room to rest... Coz was feeling sick... Sorry Raf! thanx alot!!

Thursday 20/1
school started at 9... and the first lesson was Fundamentals of Finance... yeah! boring... her lessons are forever boring! We got back our results for FF... I've got 72%... was super shocked! Tot I will fail...or probably get 50+... But thank God! Then for the rest of the lesson was basically stoning and copying answers... was too sian to go for lecture... so meimei, shunli and I skipped FMKT and UCCD lectures... Took our lunch then headed to SAA to see Ms Hope... Finally submitted the percussion thing to SAA to approve... haha!! After that can bring in to finance building...

Supposed to take class photo... But because almost half of the class is not here so we shift it to Monday... then headed to town with Meimei to go window shopping... to see what clothes or shoes we wanna buy... bought a bracelet... and a small tube of perfume... :)

Headed home rest took my shower and took a 15 mins nap.. then went for tuition... MAN! was terrible... 2-hr tuition as today is a public holiday... had a difficult time teaching... nose block... terrible flu... talk for abt 1 and 1/2 hr... was losing my voice the last 1/2 hr...

YEAH!!! I'm going shopping later!! with meimei!! haha... Was so worried! Coz I have no bucks!!! But my mum gave me $150 just now!!! haha... And I'm already thinking what I should buy!! haha... First of all!! Formal top first for presentation on monday!!! Then skirt, accessories, shoes! and MORE SHOES AND ACCESSORIES!!! haha... YEAH!! Can't wait!!! haha.... Meeting her at 3.30... :)

and i'm still eating my food since i started blogging yup... it's 12.49pm now... haha...

I miss you...

Yes! I miss someone... not that someone... I miss my grandma... Though she has left us for about 2 years... I still miss her as much... I miss her hug! Her presence... Her kisses when she give a peck on my cheek... Her smell... Everything about her... The small little actions that looks so silly yet keeping me smile...

Sometimes I regret... Thinking back of my actions...

The time when she was admitted to the hospital for the last time and never return... The time when I keep telling myself... It's ok, she will be discharge just like the previous times... When what is happening seems impossible... But I never fail to tell myself that everyday... everyday when I go to the hospital to see her... Her condition are not stable... sometimes it's fine... sometimes it's bad... When the doctor says she's fine... I hope for her discharge soon... But when I knew that her condition is bad... my heart just fills with fear... Coz I know that my bubbles of hope are getting lesser and lesser... smaller and smaller...

From being conscious to poor memory... and having blur vision... and have to depend on her sense of listening to recognise people... when my uncles and aunties told me that she could only remember me... every moment she's calling my name... whoever came she would just call my name... thinking back my heart aches... tears fills my eyes... thinking of her calling my name... she's bed-ridden... I know how much she wants to be discharge... But one day, she didn't wake up in the morning... no matter how anyone call her she didn't open her eyes... She fall into coma... I lost the chance of hearing her voice... talking to her... listening to her calling out my name... Going there after school everyday, hoping that she would open her eyes to talk to me... but no... she never... To see her being able to breathe was the only hope ever since... she only grasp her last breathe when my cousin told her that they were take care of me and themselves... and told her not to worry... And just like that she left us...

Sometimes when I get to sleep at night... I would think about her... Tears will just come rolling down my cheeks... Flashes of memories just come into my mind... When I long for a hug, I long for hers... But she's not here to give me a hug... And there's no one to give me that hug I really long for... I miss her dearly...

But I'm glad that she accepted Christ... And she's at somewhere very peaceful... smiling everyday... And Life still goes on for me...

just another day...

Just came out from the bathroom... Feeling so clean but sleepy... I'm so tired... Have not been sleeping well ths week... and having break outs!!! AH!!! Losing the radiance... Bought this week's issue of CLEO... somehow the contents inside are talking to me... Reminding me to take care! Like too much sweet stuffs are bad for skin... and ya this week I have don't know how many bottles of sweet drinks... almost everyday I'm having sweet drinks... Little plain water... too much sweets and chocolates... And today I feel like a diabetic patient... haha...

Having insufficient sleep would coz the face to lose it's radiance... It can be really shown on the face... yes... And I'm not having enough sleep... feeling tired everyday.. as if I hve work all night but in actual fact no I didn't... and ya so tat's happening to me.. and having pimples popping up!! ah... So I must sleep early tonight... Ok enough of crap...

Went to give tuition this morning... Well so far so good... First lesson with Nini... Her sister has grown so much but at least now she don't cry that much... Phew... Or else I'll suffer coz as usual she's taking care of her sister... Still as adorable...

Feeling so tired after mugging for FF yesterday... Trying hard to concentrate since Sunday... And I've been so restless... And there was band yesterday and when I'm home I was too tired to study but still manage to study...

Woke up in the morning to finish off what i'm left with... Manage to finish... phew... And was late for school!! Took a cab! haiz... there goes my money again!! I'm rather broke recently... but who cares!

Thw whole day I was feeling so empty! Prepared... feel that I've nothing to study anymore when I keep looking back at tutorial... But I'm just so scared!!! Scared that my mind will go blank... Skipped CRM... wanted to study but ended up slacking...

But when I took the paper, it was as if i was doing my homework... manage to do can write but not sure if my answer are right or not... but well what's done is done.. there's nothing I can do... Just wait for results...

After the paper, went to the band room for sectionals... And just heard that we might need to perform for school on Friday... Alan has yet to confirm with Ms Hope... if we can play we will...

Did "stomp" might be for the friday performance... But I reckon we play "Kabe"... Anyway we did 3 pieces today... "One O'clock Samba", "Above and Beyond" and "Marching Season"... It's our first sectional!! FIRST!! And I broke down already!! I felt so inferior!! Everybody could play except me... for marching season... I could only play the first note for the 7/8 bar... and I stood there for the rest of the bars... and I still hear the others playing!! haiz... I know it's the first practice can't rush... But I have to put in the double the effort than the rest... Coz they can't possibly wait for me only... So I muz work hard!

Was tired when I came home... But didn't feel like sleeping... And worse feel like studying... But end up only manage to copy FF tutorial...

Uncertainity fills my heart and mind...

I'm feeling uncertain now... "How do I feel?" It has been a question in my mind recently.... Or am I just too tired that's why I feel uncertain... I know what I want... But I don't know what to do... Or how to do it... advises from friends helps... but I still got to make a decision... Probably wait and see... I don't know... Probably just let go quietly? But I can't bear to... I jolly well know that in my heart... it's a no... But why still that answer in my heart? It's so contradicting... JOCELYN WHAT THE HELL DO U WANT TO DO?! IT'S EITHER DO IT OR DON"T THINK SO MUCH!

Missing you already...

Jess!! I missed you!! Though you just left this morning at 1+ am... Sorry that I couldn't really spend much time with you... Separation was kind of hard! Though I have hugged you so many times, but I still miss the hugs and kisses!! How I wish you cnould just stay here but you had to go back... But it's ok... When I have the money and time this year... I'll go look for you k! And I have keep my promise by taking neoprint with you... which I have promise 2 years ago... But I wanna take more with you!! Girl! Take care k!! Gonna missed you! And do soften down on your language sometimes k! Cheers!!

Will try to upload the pictures on my blog k! but not now... :P

6th of January 2005... YUP! It's the sixth day of 2005... A new year a new beginning...

Well, 2004 was a memorable year for me... many things happen... Good and bad... It's over.... Coz "Instead of living in the shadow of yesterday, walk in the light of today and the hope of tomorrow!"

The good times I will locked it up in my heart... Keeping it... The bad times... I'll learn for it... Looking back... Lots of things take place in 2004...

We had our FIRST PERCUSSION ENSEMBLE CONCERT!! "DE AVANGANDA PERCUSSIANS"!! Though it was not that good but it was an experience for each and every one of us in the section... Though the process of preparing the concert was tough... i remember dropping tears lots of times... Trying hard to fight back the tears which I can't each time... Feeling helpless... But Thanx to my section!! Thanx for the concern and encouragement!! We are in the new year... and preparing for our next concert in June this year... Let's all work hard and have a better concert!!

2004 has been filled with anger, laughter and tears... And not forgetting STRESS! WE had 3 concerts... First was the MD in April, then Our percussion concert then IBM, both in September... I've learn alot... Thanx for all my section members who helped me to get the rythmns!

Jermaine!!! Thanx alot!!! Thanx for lending a listening ear and a shoulder to lean on!! Thanx for the advise you have given to me... Though there are times when we are unhappy with each other but i'm glad that we know how to lay things out to say and get it solve immediately! And I wanna shout it out loud!! JERMAINE! You are my FIRST LOVE!! Though I said it many times!! But what are first love for right?! Hope that in 2005 we were contiune to bring our friendship into a next level!

Effendi!! My Charlie!!! haha... Thanx for all the gifts that you spend...really appreciate it!! Thanx for the advise you give me... you know who... I know the decision still lies within me... Don't worry! I'll try hard to fight back those tears! taking things easy! Now that you are in NS... I missed you so much!!! But nvm time flies fast!! And I haven got to see yr new hairstyle!! haha...

Alicia, meimei, Shunli and Nat!! Thanx alot!!! Thanx for being so understanding when I'm so busy with band and couldn't contribute much to the projects!! I think I can't find anybody who can relly accept this! And I wanna Thank God that He gave me you guys!! Always there for me.... I guess all of you know what... Thanx thanx!! Let's all strive hard during this new sem! Looking forward!

Ok never blog for few days... Coz I'm really busy!!! It's Christmas season you see...

Anyway! First of all!! Merry Christmas peeps!!! I know it's one day late!! But well! I send out my wishes on the day itself too!! I hope you guys receive... Anway it's still Christmas coz somewhere somehow they were be still people exchanging presents and wishing each other... But anyway!! May all your wishes come true!! And have a blessed Christmas!! If your christmas wish have not come true! It's ok!! You still have new year wish!! A new year, a new start, a new beginning and a new journey... If the year has started and your wish still have not som true yet! It's ok!! Wait patiently!! It will!! :P ok... i'm not crapping...

Let's see what happen this few days...

23 Dec
School started at 9 and ended at one... Super tired... But still headed down to church for Christmas practice coz we won't confident enough... So only Andy, Adeline and me were there... And Andy was late again!! Always!! Ok I'm no better! So practice for worship on Christmas itself... Then Adeline went off... then waited for my sisters and they were freaking late... I was quite disaapointed adn angry with them... They don't seems to bother... told them to come at 6+ they came at 8+... Well, I've nothing to say... anyway it's over... so Andy and I did the skit without them first... had to shift things here and there ourself... but still manage to get things done... reached home at about 11+.... totally tired... fell asleep straight away after lying on the bed...

24 Dec
Yeah! It's Christmas eve!! And school finishes early!! Started at 9 and supposed to end at 5... but coz it's Christmas eve it ended at 1!! haha... Ok!! I was totally not looking forward to go to the train station... Coz I was meeting my fren there... he wants to pass me present... I was so scared!! I didn't look forward to get his gift!! Let me tell you why I'm scare... He was supposed to pass me the present on wednesday at Dover mrt... But he couldn't make it!! And the night before he kept insisting on coming over to my house area to give me!! And I told him no... don't want!! But he kept insisting!! Guys!! let me tell you this! When the girls say no for the first time and you asked the second time... the girl will just say no again... If you are going on for the third or fourth time!! PLS DON'T EVER EVER DO THAT!!! It's gonna pissed us off!! So open up your eyes and ears!! Actually it applies to girls to... in fact everyone!! ok back to track... Saw him at the station... I was scared that I grabbed Shunli's two fingers and pulled her with me... the moment he gave me the present I just wanna GO!! Ok... I don't know why I'm so scare but I just don't want to see him...

When I reach the platform, cia and shunli were more anxious to see the gift! Coz there was a card too... OK... i decided to see the gift first! And I tot it was a smart choice! It wa indeed! Ok then I read the card... the moment I saw the word I threw the card to cia... and hug on Shunli... now I'm thinking should I write a note to him to explain things clearly... I think I should... Don't want to have any misunderstanding... As Lj always says "Assumption is the mother Fucker of all things"... opps! haha...

after that headed down to PS to get Andy's gift... then headed to church for the last practice... After prac headed to my Aunt's place for dinner... NICE~! The food was not bad!! The hamsters were cuter!!! haha... so fat!! And their fur are so soft and nice!! hah... But didn't stay there long coz met Andy to watch "Kungfu Hustle"...

Met at Suntec... The show was not bad... quite lame n funny... But it doesn't worth $8.50... worth $6.50 only... Andy was so sweet... haha... he bought me a Cranberry drink! And gave it to me in the cinema... was shocked! but anyway thanx thanx!!

The show ended at about 10+... and he didn't want to head home before 12 so went to Pacific cafe at citilink to slack... not bad... once we reached we found a place... then we talk and then he wrote his cards... then wished each other "Merry Xmas"... and of coz busy sending msg... Yup! This was how I spend my Christmas eve... Though It wasn't the way I wanted it to be... But at least I'm not alone... :)

We left at about 12+... and he send me to the bus stop and I told him not too... but he insisted... ok then... End up he send me home.. He said he were wait for the bus to come and I joke with him that you might as well send me home... and he said he actually intend to... and I told him not to~! And believing that he won't... but when the bus came he boarded the bus too... so no choice! But anyway thanx!! Had a gd christmas eve... Thanx for asking me ot go watch "Kungfu hustle"...

Came home quickly wrapped all the presents!! haha... kind of last minute but no choice... slept at about 3+...

25 DEC
It's CHRISTMAS!!! haha... Kind of nervous... coz today was the performance... And I'm really scared... Well, I was so nervous... And so Andy suggest that we pray... And after praying I cried... MAN! But well the worship and skit went well... had good feedbacks from the floor... They said we acted well!! Barrie said I look so confident! But actually I was freaking nervous!! haha... Hmm... I'm gd!! :P haha...

Then took photos with my church mates and friends... Jermaine! Thanx for coming!!! Thanx for the care bear!! Really like it alot!! I was hugging it to sleep last night! And guess what!! I had a good sleep! And I dream of someone!! haha... Will tell you when I meet you...

Gave out all my presents!! Hope you guys like it!! Andy! Hope you like yr G-string!! and of coz the guitar picks!! I really don't know how to choose! Sorry! Glad to hear you are fascinated by it!!

Headed to Bugis with Jermiaine to get some stuff for my trip to msia...

26 DEC
Went to church in the morning for service... went to Tiong Bahru just now to get some stuff... and yeah I'm heading for msia tonight!! haha... looking forward to it... Missed four days of school!! haha.... Shiok!!! But it means four days not seeing you... haiz... anyway don't worry I will get something but for you guys! If I can! ok I'm off to wash my hamsters cage then get some rest... it's gonna be a long train ride to K.L... My butt is gonna hurt!!!

Take care peeps!! C u guys! Four days later!! Gonna missed you peeps!!!

my eyes are feeling so heavy... i'm so tired... school starts at 10 today ended at 1... then immediately rush to go meet Jess to get Christmas presents!! and my heart hurts!!! I took $150 out and my wallet is empty now!! And I still pay by nets!!! Wth!! Haiz... Christmas time is the time whereby I'm always broke... But well... Giving is always happier... :P So don't really mind...

Bought candies for the percussion section and the class... Bought alot... ohya... I hurt my hand again... So had to go see the sinseh... my hand have to bandage for 3 days... man it's very painful... wanted to wait for it to get worse like before then go consult a sinseh but thinkin about percussion... make me change my decision... :P Spend another $17 for nothing... And I found the reason... It's becoz of my phone!! I know it sounds ridiculous!! Coz when I told everyone the reason they just gave me the same kind of look... So don't ask... I always had to exert alot of force to hear what the party says... So after a long time... This is the end result... Get it? No... then it's ok...

Band prac was kind of boring today... didn't play much coz of my hand... Sian... They are going to change the days for band prac... tuesday and thursday... tuesdays are my tuition days!! can't change!!! Haiz... hope they won't change... Coz it will affect my schedule alot...

School starts at 9 tml... I doubt I can wake up man!! Confirm late one... Tml still got christmas prac in church... need to rush to buy other gifts too... haiz... AndI have not wrap all my presents!! AH!! No time!!!

guys take a look at the website below... it's cute...

http://www.iloveegg.com/winopen_ani/ani11.htm

hmm... a rather long day... slept at about 12+ yesterday night... coz i was super tired... Sort of had a good sleep... slept till this morning 10+... coz have to wake up to collect the stringray that my mum ordered for me... yup... for the bbq for the graduation ceremony for the band seniors... every section was asked to bring at least 2 kind of food... so we brought stringray and french fries...

Yup... as usual me and jerm were in-charge of the shit job... collect the stringray and marinate it!!! YES!! I MARINATE IT!!! well, I don't know whether it's nice or not... coz I followed my mum's instruction over the phone... a litte sesame oil and pepper... and LOTSA chilly!!!! haha... Hmm... I really think market it's not a place for me to do my grocery... supermarkets are more suitable for me n jerm... haha... we look like idiots there lor!! all the aunties!! experts!! My god!! and I was using english to speak to the guy who sold vegetables... haha... lucky he knew how to speak english... I guess it's the uncle's son... haha... coz he's young... *phew*

And I didn't know 1 kg of Lime is SO MUCH!!! And it's only A DOLLAR~! my god!! ME n Jerm was like!! WAT!!! SO MUCH!!! SO CHEAP!!!! MAN!!! RITE!! IMAGINE THAT!! WE REALLY SOUND N LOOK LIKE IDIOTS RITE!!! haha... :P

After marinating the stringray at my house... Took my shower and went to church for Christmas practice... went there early to wrap gifts... then practice started at 4+... Did the skit... man!! Kind of tough for me man... Was trying very hard to do well... And PLS STOP MAKING FUN OF US FOR GOD SAKE!!!

After practice, went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner with my sisters and cousin, Jess... Had lots of food... And after that headed home... We didn't take a bus or cab... YUP!! we walked home!! Man! I feel so good!! All the food had been digested!! And a good form of exercise!!! Took about 2 hours to reach home... and we were singing loudly and dancing on the road... haha... I know it's crazy, stupid and paiseh... BUT WHO CARES!!! Is either I'm sad or I'm be happy!!! so I rather be happy...

Ohya... Was reading Venassa's blog... came across this... It really motivates me when i read it, babe!! For *ehem* U know who... and of coz other things... It makes lots of sense... If today u have fail to do something... don't give up... contiune... Coz failure doesn't always means a full stop.... the end of something is the start of a new life... Read this guys!!! Simple yet easy to understand, simple but great impact...

Failure.

Failure doesn't mean you are a failure,
it means you have not succeeded.

Failure doesn't mean you accomplished nothing,
it means you have learned something.

Failure doesn't mean that you have been a fool,
it means you had a lot of faith.

Failure doesn't mean you've been disgraced,
it means you were willing to try.

Failure doesn't mean you don't have it,
it means you have to do something in a different way.

Failure doesn't mean you are inferior,
it means you are not perfect.

Failure doesn't mean you've wasted your life,
it means you have a reason to start a fresh.

Failure doesn't mean you should give up,
it means you must try harder.

Failure doesn't mean you'll never make it,
it means it will take a little longer.

Failure doesn't mean God has abandoned you,
it means God has a better way for you.

Hope you don't mean, Ven... Coz wanna share it with all my friends...

Hey peeps!! Always rememeber this!!

tired? bored? sad? ???

I'm feeling so down now... It's written all over my face... I guess everybody can see it...

School was kind of bored today... well... I didn't sleep well last night... Slept at 2+... then woke up at 5+ coz my mum came into my room to wake my cousin up... then went back to sleep then my dad woke me up to lock the door for him... WTH!!! Then I couldn't go back to sleep... managed to catch some sleep before waking up at 7.15... Lesson started at 9... didn't want to take a cab... lucky I was early... But I had a terrible stomache!! Still bear with it! till I reached school...

I was freaking tired... So by the time it came to MA lecture... I was already stoning... And it was only the second lesson... Imagine the whole day... 9-5... haiz... Super tired... and it was a day that last with no more than 10 words spoken... :(

After school, came home and went for the family gathering at my uncle's place... not too bad... but I was too tired... and didn't have the mood... had penny of thoughts... But the food was not bad... learn how to make a new kind of salad... will try it out next time...

Have not been to school for 2 days... coz is like boring... Well, lessons last for only for awhile and waste of time.. so didn't went yesterday and today... Slept till noon... ahah... but well I'll be going tml... let's hope i can wake up... :P Coz lessons freaking hell starts at 9!!! How the hell am I supposed to wake up at that time!!! haiz...

Got a family gathering tml night at my uncle's place... haha... my aunt said that I could bring friends coz the more the merrier... so Nei(my other aunt) called me and said it would be more appropriate that we bring our boyfriend... so I told her I don't have a boyfriend... so she asked me to go hire one... hmm... not a bad idea after all huh... but well can't find the right person and hire! waste of money... so... well anyway it's just a joke... just crapping...

SIgns for u Guys,do u even knw?

Be more sensitive & u'll feel it.

U might not even know that she likes u but she
does.The signs are:

-when she seem to be friendly & flirty to other
guys except u

-when shes jealous,she'll express it in a
different & indirect way

-She tries to be by ur side most of d time yet
occasionally she doesn't so as to avoid
suspicion

-She looks at u in a different way

-Shes more den concerned about ur love life

-She may seem very normal & it nvr crossed ur
mind dat shes in love wit you but she tries &
hopes to see u everyday

-She fumbles when u ask her a simple question

-When u ask her why shes jealous,she says i
don't knw,she doesnt have an answer or
denies it.

-When u ask her who she lyks she says no1 or
tryna be secretive saying its a secret or keep u
guessing

Second day of school

Hmm... it's kind of bored... first lesson for the day... starts at 1pm... totally drag myself here... not exactly... just didn't manage to sleep well today... woke up at 5+ coz the house phone rang... then after that 7+, 8+... every one an hour I will wake up once...

first lesson is ending soon... and my next lesson is at 3... haiz... what a day... first week of school is always so slack and bored... I rather spend my time with jess!! Going out...

Ohya... my female hamster was bitten by the male hamster... ASSHOLE! She has a hole that is of a 10 cent coin that big! Shit man! I was so pertified when I saw the hole... i was shivering when I called Jerm... Lucky Jerm friend came down to help... Sorry to make you guys come down so late!! Thanx!! Hope she is doing well at your house now... and taking care of her...

got the cage from Jerm already... The 4 small hamsters are separated from the male hamster... 2 cages = more work... have to wash 2 cages and that's kind of tiring when no one at home actually bothers to help wash?

Well except for Jess... thanx for helpin me dry the cage, wheels and stuff...

Band was kind of boring yesterday... had a guest conductor... suppose to do "First Suite in Eb" but he took the whole of first half to do other pieces... and only spend 20 mins to do "First Suite in Eb"... which we had spend 3-4 band prac... 3 hour each prac to do only that piece... But well, at least probably it would show that we sound ok...

Finally, starting we sectionals soon!!! haha... can't wait...

School is starting!!

School is starting tml!!! yeah!!! Finally! Looking forward to it... but i'm so tired!! freaking tired...

Went to church in the morning for service then had practice in the afternoon for Christmas... Man!! Long day... I'm half dead... Having a terrible headache!!

Went to watch shutter with my cousin, Jess. It's a wonderful show man!! haha... ask me about it!!!! Let me tell you i don't know... Coz We left the cinema before the show ended... we only watch for about 1/2 hr or more... coz both of us were too scared... and she wanted to leave... so we left...

Headed home...

Btw where's MLT 9?! I've been studying in Sp for quite awhile... and I don't know where the hell is that lecture hall...

It's gonna be a long day too tml... Got band after school... there were be a guest conducter coming... can't remember his name... But I guess first day of school is gonna be super sian!

Woke up at 12... couldn't get back to sleep... I'm looking forward to monday... Coz school is starting!!! Well... I don't know why I'm looking forward to it... I'm just not in a holiday mood... I don't even have the feeling that it's a holiday... Time-table quite slack... but of coz still thinking where to skip lessons... :p typical me! or rather I should say typical students would do that...

Met Edwin yesterday to watch "Without a paddle"... not a bad show... had a gd laugh!! wanted to watch shutter but full house!!! haha... but something even funnier than the show happen... well think I better not say... though I really wanna share with you guys what happen... but I shan't!! :P Anyway thanx edwin...

After the show met up with cia... had a talk with her... went to esplande with her... thanx girl!!! Manage to catch the last bus... *pHeW*

Ok thanx for all the advice! but the decision still lies with me... :P I'll think over it carefully...

Going out with Nei later to town... getting christmas presents... hmm... christmas is round the corner... Guys! What do u all want for christmas? coz i'm having difficulty thinking what to buy... but pls! within my budget!!! No house! No BMW! $100,000!! NONO!!! I can't afford that!

well... a long and tiring day today... went to church since 12+... was practicing for christmas... well, i've been kind of too fierce i guess... but well that's me when I want things done... Manage to get things done...

Then headed straight down for band... And we just did "First Suite In Eb"... For whole 3 hours!!! And somehow somewhere in the piece there was a long rest that I lost count... was really tired... Sorry Jerm... was late... end up you guys starve because of me... But nvm! Next Monday got roast duck to eat!! haha...

Attendance was still quite bad... only Jermaine, Charlton, Raf, Bernard, Wee Liang, Venassa and me... hmm... Sorry Venassa make u come down for nothing... But at least we did "Marching Season"... And you like the vibes part alot rite... haha...

Tried out "Marching Season" by Yanni during the break!! WOAH!!!! The beginning was fantastic man!!! Super nice... but we screw up at the 7/8 bar... haha... But well it's only the first time we tried out this piece... still got lots of work to do... :P

hmm... thanx guys for all the concern! I know you all can see that I'm bothered by somethings... but sometimes things just ain't to be the way it is...

ANYWAY!! My hamsters gave birth AGAIN!!!! Man! I'm beginning to think that hamsters have HIGH SEX DRIVE!! Serious!! They just gave birth like 2 weeks ago... and today when I came back from band and feed them... I notice 6 new born hamsters... they are super small man!! only the size of my pinky toe!! Kind of disgusted... But at least these makes me happy when I first step into the house... at least for the moment...

here's an entry for you!! FENDI!!

Effendi!! Gonna miss you alot! serious!! Thanx for all the things you have did for me... Really appreciate it!! Though I only really knew you for a few months... but you have gave me lots of memories!! and lots of advice just now... of coz not only that... I never tell anyone my story in the way I told you... Laughing hard and trying to say it out... :P

Now you are going to NS... Haiz... don't know when it would be the next time we can sit down for a cup of iced milo and crap!

Glad to hear that you really like Veronica!!! haha... And had a good sleep with her last night!! :P

Glad that I'm one of your Charlie angels too... haha... so honoured!

Hope you can come for our next percussion concert or even perform as a guest player!! You better!! haha... Looking forward to that...

Don't worry!! Time flies... soon you will finish your BMT... then two years will be gone...

Take care k!!! Miss ya!!

RIGHT... mood now?? I don't know... Just had a talk with Effendi, Muru and Jermaine... Thanx guys for all the advise! But I know it's up to me whether I want to do it or not... I know you guys want me to clarify but it's tough... I can't do it... Give me time...

Should I or should I not... I'm in a dilemna... I'm so scared... is it true that sometimes guys wanna know if the girl like them before moving on... I don't know... Gonna try to keep myself for the moment...

Be strong... but how to... My mood these few days have been rather down... the feeling just kind of suck... It's cold outside and my heart is cold too... haiz...

Just came back from church... did some stuff for Christmas... Woke up at about 9.30... early huh... well for me... slept quite late last night... couldn't get to sleep... my mind is so active... it's been thinking of stuffs that I making myself can't sleep... think got to go back to my pills...

Hmm... let see what I'm gonna do for the rest of the day... is either I slack at home or I go give tuition... But i'm not in the mood to give tuiton... I'm in the mood to slp!!! See about it later... but I guess I'll cancel... hehe... YES! Lazy bum!

Suppose to go watch movie yesterday with Edwin and Hanyong... End up didn't go... haiz... long story... Edwin don't want to go home too late, then Hanyong want to climb... haiz... troublesome... kind of irritated coz I didn't know what you guys want~... so the smart me cancel it! hehe... Don't worry i'm just complaining... don't take it too serious...

BUT I WANNA WATCH "SHUTTER"!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SO HAPPY!!! HAHA... Jermaine is back!!! SHE'S BACK!!! I REALLY MISSED U GIRL!!! The hug felt so warmth!! Really glad to see you just now when u came in to the band room!! Thanx for getting the stuff for me!!!

AND YEAH!! Sylvester didn't win the Singapore Idol tittle!!! HAHA!!! You don't have the substance boy!! that's y!! TAUFIK U ROCK!!!! anyway who cares... that's not the main thing!

Band was kind of boring today... first half we did sectionals... haha... we did "One O'Clock Samba"! haha... sounds better!!! Then guess we did sth wrong... then after that did the pieces that we are supposed to... Well basically have fun today! Lots of laughter and craziness... haha...

Check my results already... Was really scared as I getting nearer to home... came home try to do everything I could... go to the toilet... washed my hands and feet... watched tv... all those stuff!! Finally check! I PASSED!!! haha... well not really good grades but at least better than I expected! Sorry Edwin!! Played that joke on you... SORRY!

Few more hours...

Just few more hours Jerm were be back!! YEAH!!! She's back! Few more hours I might be able to get my gifts! AND IN A FEW MORE HOURS I"M GONNA CHECK MY RESULTS!!! ARGH!! I"M SO SCARED!!! But well who cares... the fear is no longer there... just like Andy says... "Have a faith!"

I just woke up at 2+... Going to band early today to telly the percussion tickets... and gonna do samba today...

can't wait for Jerm to come back! I missed u girl!!

I'm feeling terrible!

ARGH!!! I'm sick!! Very sick... down with a very bad flu... and my voice totally change!! There's something stuck at my throat... I feel like coughing but it's not coming out... think i'm have a cough then a fever... hmm... hope not...

Just came back from watching "Bridget Jones Diary - The edge of reason"(If I haven got the tittle wrong) with Edwin and Hanyong... Well, a show worth to watch... and it's a happy ending! hmm... I wanna watch "shutter"...

Went out with Jess in the afternoon... Went to Tiong to get her hair cut then to Bugis to change my wallet... then headed down to town to shop around... MAN! there's lots of people down town... SO irritating!!! so many people! especially when taking the train... went to Far East Plaza... shop around but couldn't find anything nice...

Headed to Heeren to meet Edwin... And for god sake! EDWIN!! CAN U STOP USING THE PHONE WHEN YOU ARE OUT WITH US! It's kind of... rude? irritating?

Then waited for meiying and meichan to come meet Jess... and at the same time change my hp coz it running low of batt... hmm... think it's time for me to change a phone... why is everybody having problem using MY PHONE!! while I can hear! Still looking around for a phone I like... any recommendation guys?!

*yAwNz*

Think I'm gonna sleep early tonight... Feeling so sick now... headache... bad flu...