TIRED!! School was kind of bored today... 1 hr ECM lecture, 1hr MA tutorial, 1 hr FA lecture then break from 1-4... In between went to see Christina Wong about the project survey... Then went for BLAW lecture... School end at 5...

Head down to  the band room... Only manage to practice "Overture for Percussion ensemble"... Then committee got meeting so got to go out... But went home... Coz I'm restless...

Saw this line on the bus... It's the Canon digital camera advertisement... The line is "Style is nothing without substance".

I totally agree to it... One may have the looks... May have the best fashion sense... May have the style... But if there's no substance (bad character,bad attitude) in them... No matter how pretty they are and how well one dressed up... They will appear to be the ugliest... the looks are not able to cover it up.. It's gonna show it all out...

Actually I've been thinking of this all the while... I've been thinking why people thinks that everytime when things happen and I bend my head down.. They would think that I'm crying... WHY?! I found my answer....

It's because I always drop tears in front of them... Actually come to think of it... Ever since I enter SP, I've shed tears openly for countless time... Be it for band or other things... And everytime it's during band days... Or when I'm in the band room... When I was in secondary school, I don't cry openly... I would only do it when the night falls... I don't know why, I've become so open with my emotion when I come into SP... It's like as if there's no mystery in me... I can't hardly hold back my tears...

Ohya... Was quite pissed with my sister, meichan today... Don't feel like saying.. It's the same old thing... Think nothing can ever get into their head... Hello people!! Time to grow up! Usually I would be pissed for a few hours... But this time round it went off after 5 mins... And I knew immediately that I'm no longer bothered by them... I"ve learnt to take all the things that they do very lightly... Coz I know that it's no used getting upset or heart-broken with things that they do in the dark... behind my back...

Besides, I've lots of things to do that I don't even have much time for myself... Percussion ensemble, IBM, my studies and tuitions... But seriously I would rather teach my tutees than teach my sisters... Call me selfish or what.. Be it... can't be bothered......

I'm quite happy now... Some of my friends are giving me positive answer for the percussion concert... In fact they are helping me to publise to their friends outside!! hehe... GUYS PLS DON'T DISAPPOINT ME BY BACKING UP THE LAST MIN!! I know you guys won't... THANX FAEZAH!!! LOVE YA!! *sHy*

Hm... Got sectionals tml then after that church... Gotta sleep now... nitez...

FINALLY~!!!! It's over!!! The string's concert is over!! HMMM.......... FRESH AIR!!

Got my summon letter already... My mum called me and she tell me I've got a fine of $200... I was having dinner happily and immediately my mood dropped to the bottom of the well?! I was pissed and still pissed! On the way home, I couldn't help but worried... My mum is a person who always joke around! Even serious matters~! As usual, She lied to me!! It was only $20... Really can't stand her!

And she strike lottery... HEHE! It came at the right time!! So she's gonna pay for me...

Instead of losing $20... I earn an extra $50!! hehe.. she gave it to me!!

Ok shld update again tml!! Very tired now... Gonna sleep after watching the last episode of my show...

*yAwNz*  

Tired! I'm so tired!!! I'm exhausted!! Can't seem to concentrate to do anything...

Looking at my schedule this week... All I can say is Haiz....... And I missed tuition with all my students...

I'm off to rest....

Band prac was ok today... not that bad... I feel so good now~! I exercise today! I feel so healthy!! Shld do more!'

I'm so glad that my burden is off... I'm glad that we had a talk... Said everything! WooOOOoooo....

I'm in high spirit now!! Don't know why... Probably it's the exercise and the talk....

Happy.... Tired...

School starts at 11... YEAH!! Hurray!

Have not been blogging for the past few days... Felt that there was nothing to talk about... Nothing in particular...
 
Moody? Sad? Tired? Angry? I have none of them... I don't know why... I don't feel anything... Except for monday and tuesday... Silly days!! 
 
Ok... It's the end of the week... My mind is in a blank now... Total blank... It's been a emotionless week...
 
I'm so sleepy now... *yAwNz*

Watching Life-Size now... A Walt Disney production... By Lindsay Lohan and Tyra banks...

 

What a week!!! My first 2 days of the week started out bad... So bad! It's totally ridiculous! I don't know how my week is going to be like... I think it can be make into a drama...
 
Movie: The week.
Main actress: Jocelyn Lee Shang Ying
Directed by: Eveybody who appears in my life this week.
 
Monday: 
It started out well... until things happen during band... Firstly, I hurt my toes against an instrument case. *OUCH* Then after that I didn't see the pail next to me... ANd I put my leg... I almost trip over it... That really make me blush! How clumsy can i be! Then when I tried to sit on the sofa side... I lost my balance and almost fall... Luckily Chris held on to me...
 
Tuesday:
The worst day ever!! I got caught for jay-walking!!! And I will receive a summon letter in 2 weeks... Ok! When you hear the word "summon"... You usually get it for driving... but i got it for jay-walking!! Serious how bad can it be!!

Wednesday:
Didn't go to school... Woke up late... My students came to my house... They were especially noisy!! I don't know why!! It pissed me off and i started being fierce to them... Then went for band prac... They did some tuning... MY GOD! The sound irritate me!! I can't take the noise~! Really can't stand it!! Don't know why I can't take the noise!
 
Thursday:
Prac with string ensemble!! Boring!! Boring and Boring! Besides boring, it's just boring!!
 
Friday:
Went for tuition.... then i don't know! my mind is in a blank now!
 
Saturday:
Went to school for lesson... supposed to be from 10-12... Then he ended at 11! What the hell! What is he thinking!! Crazy fellow! Then went for sectionals... Well, not that bad... Don't want to say much... Then went to church... Song prac... OK... I shouldn't have touch the keyboard or played on it... My aunt started asking me to play for the worship...
 
Sunday:
As usual went to church... Don't know why i rarely drag myself up to go to church... If it's school I will definitely do that... For the first time, I played the keyboard during worship... Well, I didn't feel nervous... weird! I would be in it was the past... But I'm glad that I did not... Or else the whole worship will be screwed up by me...
 
After that, met Zai to watch contemporary dance at the outdoor theatre at Esplande... Nice!!! Lucky the person explain to the audience or else I will be like huh....
 
Went to Coffee Bean boat quay, to have a drink... Then we had a long talk... really long talk... Had a nice time talking to her...
 

 

 

Think I'm the first in all my friends' history to be caught for jay-walking!!! And all of them were laughing their heads when I told them about it... My friend even sms me after reading my blog...
 
And Chris was so mean!! He said that when I received my summon letter tell him the amount of fine I need to pay so that he can have a good laugh at it!! IDIOT!! And the worst thing ever!! My mum didn't scold me... She did gave me a smile... Then she asked for my IC number... I knew what she was up to immediately!! And I refused to tell her... She wanted to buy 4D!! She said it's my first time!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!  How can she be like that!! So I asked her to pay my fine if I have to... She said ok! then I gave it to her willingly!!
 
The first two days of this week has already been bad... Guess it won't be a good week... Think I better pray hard!!

What a "GOOD" morning!!

You will know what I mean by "good" morning as you read...
 
My mood is getting better... So much better... I woke up this morning with the best mood ever since school starts... Everything went well... I was happy and very motivated to go to school... Ok then dressed up and happily went out of the house... Was abit late... Initially, I wanted to take a cab but I was thinking it's ok... Just take a bus... So I did...
 
As I was at the interchange, I usually crossed the road... YES! I CROSSED THE ROAD!! And guess what happen! Damn it! IT RUINED MY WHOLE MORNING! I WAS CAUGHT JAY-WALKING!! For my whole of 17+ years, it's my first time being caught jay-walking! I've jay-walk there like thousand of times... And after so many years! I got my punishment today! And I will received my summon in 2 weeks time! HELLO PEOPLE!! DON"T START LAUGHING!! I'm worried sick! I don't know how much I've got to pay! My friend help me check... The max. is 500 bucks! MAN! My pay comes this week and it will be totally gone soon!!! How good can this be!! My mum is going to kill me if she knows this... Probably not... She will start laughing like some of you reading my blog now.... The policewoman asked for my IC and I gave it to her... And I listen to her "leture" me... And when I was about to walk off... I asked her where to pay... OK! I don't know if you call it silly or what... My classmates think I'm very silly! Especially the question which I asked her... They said that I should beg her and asked her to give me another chance...  But you know what when she caught  me I never had the thought of explaining coz I was in the wrong after all... I've just got to wait for the summon letter to be sent to me and for now be worried for 2 weeks! Damn! I should have just stick to my initial decision!
 
Then end up I still took a cab to school... Coz I was late...
 
While having lesson, my teacher told us he has good and bad news... "Bad" news is that he will be away next week... so it means no MA I(P) and lecture... It was meant to be good news for us... Well, his "good" news, sorry alan! you won't want to read this...
 
I have make-up lesson on this sat from 10-12! Hell! It's a super bad news for me!!! Super! super! It means I can't go for sectionals!! I will missed practice... Ok probably I can go but I will have to leave at around 2... I need to go to church! The percussion ensemble is coming and I'm bad enough! Who's fault?! It's definitely him.... It's the 3rd week of school and it's our FIRST MA I(P) lesson!! The first week is becoz he went on reservice... then I don't know about the second week... And next week he will be send for a course... Coz the school wants them to introduce the programme to us... SPSS it's already tough enough... and this bloody programme is 5 times difficult.... Guess what when he comes back he's going to write a report saying that it's not suitable to introduce to us... Right! Why not just not go for the course and some teach!
 
How bad can this be! When my mood is getting better, the sun is starting to shine and suddenly.... BOOM!! Here comes the thunder storm! And the poor me with no umbrella is totally drench and pathetic! Why must it be like that!!!
 
The summon thing is not getting off my head! I'm really worried...
 
So what's the moral of the story...
 
If you are late for school, jolly well take a cab and reach on time! If you still want to take a bus and be scolded by your teacher! Go ahead! I will support you! BUT use the bridge or traffic light! Don't jay-walk! Rather be scolded then pay a price! At least you don't have to burn your pocket!

Emotionless...

I'm feeling emotionless today... It's kind of scary you know... Everywhere you go you have no feeling... It's like a walking dead person! I don't feel sad, happy,angry or whatever expressions... My mind is blank... Or rather I should say that there are too many things that I don't know where to start? Or how to start?
 
Had a talk with Chris just now... Well, told him like everything... Sets me thinking too...

*yAwNz*

Can you believe it! This is so................ Boring.... Waking up early for a boring lesson... Having backache problem since yesterday morning... Must have slept at the worng position... Wanted to take a cab coz i wanted to sleep more... But decided not to... Waste money! Besides I'm broke recently... Been spending on notes and cabs and other stuff... Not on shopping!
 
My sister is late again! When I open my eyes at 8.30... She's still sleeping beside me!!! So I just said! MEIYING, you are late again!! Then went back to sleep... Can't be bother if she missed school or not... So long as I don't have to escort her to school... hehe... *BAD*
 
Guess she's happily sleeping now... Snoring loudly! Like a pig... And later she's gonna get her mc...
 
Ohya getting my pay tomorrow and another one this week! Hurray! It sums up to 380 bucks! hehe... Can go sign up for my tx card already... Broke now so can't sign up... the form has been laying on my table for weeks...
 
Ever since school re-open... I've been missing my tv programmes on disney channel... Like "Totally spies", "Lizzie Mcguire", "Evan Stevens".... And I've not step into the cinema for a long time... The last time I went was to watch "Harry Potter and the prisoners of azkaban"... I want to watch "Mean girls", " 13 Turning 30" not sure it's still on...
 
School ends at 3 today... But I've got to give tuition after that... Well it's only for one hour... Anyway time flies very fast....
 
 

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I'm never gonna bother! Never! Never! NEVER........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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I'm so full!

Just came home from dinner or rather supper... Went to Swenses! Hehe... My sis treat... No my mum gave us a treat... But she didn't go... Went with my sis and her friend,Lina... We order lots of food.... Prawn Dippers, Redeo Wings, Sirloin Steak, Crayfish Pasta, Curry chicken baked rice and also ice-cream... Topless 5 and Frosted Chocolate Malt... Luckily Lina was there to help me finish my share... Or else the food will be wasted...
 
Off to bath then sleep... Got church tml!
 
 
 

Time for myself...

Just reach home.... Went for sectionals in the morning... Attendance I guess was better... Lj came too... He looks like a girl... And his head looks smaller... And he definitely slim down alot...
 
Practice was bad today... I need lots of practice... Left about 1... Went to church for song practice...
 
Then went to boat quay Coffee Bean alone... Sat there for 2 hour... Did some reading and thinking... But don't seem to be able to do any thinking... Too many things already... It feels so different being there alone... Usually would go with my friends... A very good place to be alone there... especially in the afternoon coz it's quieter... 

Speechless....

I don't know what to say... Abit speechless... Today besides lessons is still lessons... Supposed to give tuition... But then... I wanted to be a good friend... So I accompany Faezah till 6 to wait for her mentoring friends... See where can you get such good friends?! Ivan was there too... Poor Ivan and me... We sat on the ground for 1 hour... Our butts were numb! When I asked my tutee if I can go at 6... She said too late so end up cancel... Came home early slack around...
 
Ohya I was scolded by Nat and Alicia for drinking too much food juice... I drank 3 packets... 2 packets of Golden Tomato and one carrot mixed fruit juice... So when I wanted to buy my third packet... Nat went with me so as to stop me! But too bad... Her mission failed! hehe... Hey Nat! U know what?! When I came home I bought another 1 litre of Golden Tomato... Hehe... :x
 
Recently borrowed a book from the BizIt Library... It's called "Perfect Stranger"... Just started reading... Not a bad book... Came upon this... I don't know whether to call it a joke or riddle...
 
Question: How many advertising people does it take to change a light-blub?
 
And the answer is.......................................................................
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12- one to fix the light and 11 to explain the concept.

Better....

Feeling much better now... After talking to Ivan last night before I went to bed... Thanx sis! At least today I feel lighter... Not much of a burden feeling... Had a good cry too... And somehow a good sleep and a not so good one...
 
Coz of the weather this morning... It's so good for sleeping! But had to come to school for lesson! haiz...
 
Chatting with my cousin now... All thanx to the e-messenger thingy... Lucky I went to read alan's blog before lesson's start... or else I'll be bored to death!
 
Having RWPS now... Guess most of them are slacking lor... After this I have another break... Sian! I really hate breaks... Then after that a 1 hour lecture before school calls it a day...
 
I've got tuition later... But lucky it's just 1 hour... Btw I've came out with a new way to teach my students english... To make the lesson more interesting...  That is by making them watch a movie and after that write a movie review... Guess this would make it more interesting then reading a book and writing a book review... Even my youngest sister who thinks that english is boring... And finds that english is quite fun...
 
Can't wait to use this method... Don't know whether it will work or not... Planning to let them watch School of rock... The first movie to my new method!
 

It totally suck!

It's just one of the bad morning today... Woke up feeling very irritated and frustated... Changed my clothes for several times... Not happy with everything I wear... And I ended up wearing the slackiest attire.... shorts, big t-shirt and slippers...

My mum called me in the afternoon to tell me that she got lock out coz the door is spoilt... And she called me to nag at me... As if nagging at me can help to open the door... I'm not studying at Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry!

Recently, many things happen... Family... My parents had a quarrel last sunday... It's my dad's fault... I'm not sure if they have made up already or not? Coz I don't get to see them much... When I'm back they are already sleeping... When I see them they didn't say anything...But this is not much of a problem... They will be alright soon! I know them! My sisters have always been a problem... Studies... Attitude... I don't know what to do with them... This only is adding up to my stress...

And it's the second week of school... And it's simply horrible... I can't feel the bond with my new classmates... And things happen yesterday... Which led Nat to be quite unhappy about...But glad that it's over now... Nat you are definitely not in the wrong!

Band is enjoyable but stressful.... It's my playing...

And I feel that I'm incapable of doing things... Things just ain't up to my expectation... Everything just seems so horrible... And Plus the fact that my mood is at it's lowest point now in my life... It feels horrible... I need to breathe!

There are happy times... But the happiness is just for a moment... It doesn't last long at all... The loneliness and sadness is overwhelming... It's kind of contradicting! I feel out... Too out that I feel like running away... But again... Today I feel like being alone... Spending time myself... Probably walk on the streets blankly? I don't know...

Had half tub of Wall's Chocolate Ice-cream,chips and lots of stuff... But it's only temporary... WAtched school of rock just now... But it kept me happy for a moment... Guess when I'm on bed it comes back again...

I don't know how to be ready for this week's sectionals...

This week is going to be hard... I seriously feel the sore in my cheek and face... And I'm trying very hard to put a smile on my face... The week is going to be long... Feel like hiding! TIME-OUT!!

Nothing much...

Too many things happen today... And I don't feel like writing anything here... Too many things in my heart... Just wanna keep to myself... My heart is feeling empty... And I'm so tired after a long day... Having lots of mind and heart battle today... There's a pierce in my heart.... Used the wrond word yesterday... There's no pierce... There's a hole? I don't know something is lacking...

I'm tired... Nitez people!

GOOD NEWS!!!!!1 GOOD NEWS!!!

I forgot to write this in my blog... It's a good news! how can I actually forget! Probably it's becoz we fooled alan that day... No I think it's becoz of the corrupted jokes that I heard from Shawn they all... Really can't stand them!

This is definitely good news! Well, at least to the percussionists! It's the best news ever!! Ms Hope has approved our concert!!! HURRAY!!! Hehe... Alan got fooled by us becoz of this! hehe... Funny!

Her eyes was sparkling when she heard that we wanted to have a concert!! And she was for it man!! Way to go man! But that also means that we have to practice even harder!! IT takes all the hard work in order to have a good concert! So LET'S ALL WORK HARD PEOPLE!!

Ohya... I mention about Shawn and gang corrupted jokes... Vanessa and me went out of the band room coz we can't stand alan,and chris... But it was worse when we went out! Shawn and Kay chye was worse!! They siad things that Vanesse and me didn't want to know and doesn't have the need to know... Even Chris and muru don't know about it... So chris they all are just the surface one... Shawn and kay chye are the "experts"!

Beware of them!!

No need to escort!

Alright man! Today is the last day that I escort my sister to school!!! Finally! Was waiting for today.... Came home... Was slacking at home to wait for time to go to school... Had a very bad cough then I took the cough medicine... Was dumb enough to do that... Lay on my bed... And when I was totally awake it was 2.30! And school was at 9... End up didn't go school....

Slack at home the whole day... Study FA!!! I don't want to fail anymore... I want to do well... And plus the fact that I promised my aunt to work hard this semster... So I had to know my facts well... If not she will start nagging at me again... Hate it when she does that! Coz her words never boost my confidence level... It only demoralize me... only sometimes...

And she would compare me with someone! I hate it! It just irks me! That person results has got nothing to do with me! It's that person's problem!!

It's a sudden thought... coz it links...

Going to bed soon... Got school at 9... early morning just sucks! Nitez...

Quote of the day....

LIFE has its ups and downs. Sometimes the sun shines, sometimes the rain pours. BUT don't forget, it takes both sun and rain to make a RAINBOW!!

Remember that people! So smile!

What a wonderful morning...

Send my sister to school just now... Met a few of my ex-teachers... Mr Lee, still the same... Always wearing the same shirt... I definitely know what to get for him for the coming teacher's day... My chinese teacher... Can't remember his surname... hehe... :x

And Ms Lio or rather Mdm Lio... Don't know her husband's surname... She's pregnant now!! My god! Her stomach is big!! Feel like touching it but don't dare... Perharps next time when I go back... All of them was wondering why I was back at school... Early in the morning... Who else!

Heard the national anthem when I was crossing the road outside school... Brought back lots of memories... Hearing it again gives me a different feeling... Used to think that it's very troublesome singing early in the morning... Wish I had a chance now... Well! What can I say... Human are always like that... It's only when they lose the chance then they will start to cherish it... But by then it's too late...

It reminds me of the time when Jermaine and me were late for school... And We had to stand in front of the whole school... We were not the only one.... So paiseh! Both of us were still laughing... Of coz our classmates will laughing at us too when we went back to class... All thanx to my principal who was so frustrated with the late-comers theat she came up with this rule... Whoever is late has to stand in front of the whole school... Guess what! It worked! The next day... 3/4 of the late-comers were gone! It broke the record man! Of coz both of us were inside the 3/4... Well! Both of us are always late... We have to run into school once we reach the gate... We would even purposely go to school late just to have breakfast... MacDonald's! Come to think of it... Can't stop laughing!

Ok need to bath or else I'll be running late for school... Ohya got to go see Ms Hope later... God Bless Us! Hope everything would go smoothly!! Got band later!!! YEAH... it makes my days shorter!