Blessed are the meek

God! My brain is totally dead.. Can't really think well... Always hated morning lessons and today I've four hours of trading lessons... When you have to really think hard whether to buy or sell and if your own views are correct...

Wrong position... That's it... Make a lose... And there goes my credits for the lesson...

I'm beginning to be afraid of trading...I'm beginning not to trust my own judgement and views.... And that's totally sucky...

For FO we traded foreign currency... And let me tell ya... It totally suck!! Not exactly know what I'm doing but still made a profit of 31 only... really bad...

Man!! Trading it's so gonna be my nightmare... And so is my year 3... I just can't wait to graduate... But I don't wanna graduate coz of SP PERCUSSION!! That's MY LIFE!!

But I can't let music take up everything of my life coz my aunties and uncles won't never agree to it... Coz there's no prespect which is kind of true in our society... How much effort had the government tried to promote ARTS in Singapore... But look at the bloody repsonse! How many outdoor performance the DAP had... The audience are just so DEAD!! Lifeless!! You try to get them to anticipate but all they do is just give you that "huh" look or smile and sit down... WTH!! What's with these people!!!

We try our best on stage to bring joy to these freaking people but they are not helping us... :_(

Probably I'll just let it take half of my life... Just waiting for the holidays to come and get a taste of how the entertainment world is like... I don't mind giving up what I'm studying now... It's my family... Probably not my mum or dad... It's my aunts and uncles... And my interest is what I wanna be doing though I'll be poor...