I'm stressed up and tired. One week five days I worked almost 10-12 hours. Probably longer for some people. But for me. It's tiring. And weekends I'll have to run around for tuition. And stress is building up on my shoulder that I can no longer lift it up.
My students' exams are round the corner. Probably in 3 weeks time. And I've so much things to do. I'm worried about their results. Worried for them. To me,their bad results is my failure.
Time is just running out. And because of work. Having tuition on weekdays are always so difficult. By the time I finish, it would be too late to go over. And I can't just throw my work to my authoriser. It makes me feel irresponsible.
Told Eanna and Lydia that I'll have to leave early during late aprils and may. I feel guilty.
Am I too responsible or what? I hate leaving my work to someone else to do just cause I need to rush off. It pisses me off. Though my bosses don't mind. They knew from the very first day that I was giving tuition.
And I've never thought of giving up anyone of the 3. They are my students but the kind of close relationship it's more than a student-tutor kind of relationship. I'm not sure how they feel, but that's how I feel.
At times they do pissed me off for not doing their work. But when worries sets in, anger is just nothing at all.
Well just gonna hang in there for one more day. After which it's a long weekend. From thursday to monday and back to work on tuesday.
Pretty packed for all the days. In fact all packed up!
Gotta head to bed. The pain in my head is making me insane!
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