I'm feeling like a thousand things is in my head. and I just can't get things started.
Am tired from work for the past 2 weeks. almost 15 hours of work everyday. It's draining me...
Economy is going chaotic. And so are our lives. Long gone are those who said that banking pays well. Now the question is. Can you even keep your job? People are paranoid about their investment. And I've lost some too.
I'm getting annoyed with people around me. Wanting to get some interest out of AUD. But is afraid. Changing minds from time to time. It's getting on my nerves. Just what the hell is your final decision.
My mum thought that I've lose my senses by having a $10K credit card bill and there she goes nagging away over the phone. With a "no it's not", I ease her and just hang up.
Things around me are going on so fast but my pace is slowing down each day with the tiredness. Yet I can't stop 'cause I've projects and assignments.
I'm starting to hate school. Hate marketing. But like finance. Surprising.
And I just want to leave somethings the way it is now. I don't feel like meeting some people 'cause it reminds me of others. The others that I don't really want to associate with. I tried to push it away. But they keep forcing me.
I'm disappointed with some people in my life but they just don't know. I've become less interested in what they are doing. Cause the ones that really cares are far away. The friendship that used to bring some fun and laughter, now I want to stray faraway. But it just won't allow me to. I've hinted but it insisted.
Does it have to be so clear? I just want my time alone. To spend time with people that I think would make me happier.
My voice has slowly lose it's existence in the work place 'cause I chose not to be too close. Everyone is wearing a mask. Even those that I thought are nice, are actually not really sincere and nice. Those I don't like remain unwelcome in my life.
Now those few people are running through my head. And some used-to-be close ones. I'm feeling sore.
I need chocolate or ice-cream.
It's okay. I shall abstain.
Till the next time round.
ciaoz.
