Finding myself trapped in an enclosed office,
Your sunshine smile suddenly surfaced.
The room seemed warmer ever since.
Of all the world's 12 billion folks,
We saw, we smiled and we finally spoke.
The moment we shared may be minimal
but we ended in a perfectly happy note.

Written by Mr WRM.

29/09/2006

Life is just a short stay on the planet known as earth. A temporary hotel or motel that we check-in for almost 60 years. Less or more. Depends. But still a whole 60 years is gonna flash across your eyes just like that.

But what is beautiful is the moments spent with the people you meet in life. Along this journey that will end someday, we meet many different kinds of people. Black,white, yellow. Short,tall, fat and thin. Name it out. I guess we're all gonna be so amazed.

The only big difference would be the period of time they accompany you on this life journey. There are people who comes and go. And there are some who would stay forever till you're one leg into your own grave.

But they are some whereby you would just wanna keep that little excitement trying to be able to coincidently bump into each other.

And yes. This part is about me. And I'm already thinking back of the moments. It may sound stupid but it's a little colours added to my boring working life.

I think back and I don't regret staying at ABN Amro. Oh well at least for this part. My job scope requires me to up and down the floors almost every hour, that was at the old building. On a particular day at 12.05pm, that was the first time I saw him. The day his existence was made known. First impression. Cute. Seems nice. Hmm.. sounds like a description for food. But anyways that was the first time. And from then on each time I go to the 2nd floor or 11th floor I see him all the time. And that was when the crush begins.

And yes. My crush was the TNT guy or rather the courier guy in the building. We see each other so often. That I begun to think that it's so funny. I can't help grinning to myself each time I see him. And I often wonder if he knew my existence in this small 15 storey building. And once I couldn't hold the happiness in me, I gave him a smile. I couldn't help it cause we bump into each other too many times.

Of cause, there are times I don't get to see him. Like I didn't get to see him a couple of days and I was sad. Cause see-ing always made my day. I remember see-ing him at 5+ whereby I was totally dead. But I was recharged! Okies.. it sounds weird but oh well.... the power of crushes.

I still remember trying to bump into him a couple of times but failed. It should not be planned . It should be coincidence. I still remember the kind of feeling when I couldn't see him on the last day at the old building. But in fact the new building was better.

Going thru and forth from the old and new building in the morning was the most pleasant moments I had. We would walk back together as in front and back. Oh well! We didn't know each other! What do you expect!

And finally I saw him grinning to himself the other day when we saw each other. And it was so dumb when he didn't enter the lift the other day. Oh I can't imagine.

But well. We saw each other. We smiled. And I always wondered if he knew my existence. And I've got my answer!

We spoke for the first time yesterday! Yes I was over the moon!

The lift that cause the upsetness was the one that broke the silence and smiles that we often exchange. And I can't imagine how can someone be so blur to forget pressing the floor that he was supposed to go. But that was nice. haha...

"Do you often walk around. cause I always see you."

My existence is known to him. I'm satisfied.

We spoke again today. In the lift again. and while waiting for the lift. And once again, he went to the wrong floor. At this point of time, even he can't help but laugh at his stupidity.

But it would be the last time we spoke. Cause it's his last day today.

The whole smiling at each other and see-ing each other. And realising each other existence. Ended on a happy note. That is what I would say. I like it this way. Though it may sounds like a some little girl's feeling but I think I like it this way.

The simple and sweet acquitance relationship. The whole excitement was trying hard to bump into him. For a look and a smile.

Now that it has ended. Lydia has made special arrangement for TNT to deliver the documents to me. Called it coincident or what. It doesn't matters anymore since he's not working at ABN anymore.

But who knows I might just bump into him since he got a new job at Great Eastern. ",)

Now this was a short journey in my life.

Not too sure why I feel happy and satisfied. Probably I guess 'cause this is much more simple. Need not know too much and feel too deep.

if you think your birthday is getting any worse. Then listen to mine.

It's my birthday today and you know what I was working OT till 9pm in the office. So how good can it get?

No celebrations but I still have gifts. Oh well I did had a mini celebration with my family. Sweet of them to buy a cake for me.

Sweets~

Okies not much to share. Just tired.

Ciaoz

20/09/2006

It's simple. I have a crush! Oh gosh! A crush was like sometheing that can happen like centuries ago! And mind you it's a crush! yes. C.R.U.S.H. CRUSH!

See. Told ya it was simple.

17/9/2006

T'was a fun,exciting and tiring day. And not forgetting a happy day.

Cause I bought 3 pairs of heels in less than an hour and a bag. Yes I did. I was just like some happy little girl, walking around with two big bags and people staring at me. But who cares. I'm happy! It's "Once in awhile" anyways.

Bought a bangle and a ring too. Oh I bought a pair of sandals ytd. So in all it's 4.

I'm so tired now. That I could just fall asleep right at this instance, if not for my wet hair.

I just came back from Nini's place. Now here's the interesting part. Too excited already! Now I'm seriously hesitating having babies. Cause of cleaning the shit part! I totally had a bad experience just now. But no doubt she's a smart girl. She knew she shitted and asked me to change her diaper. But you know me. So inexperience.

The worst part comes now! She started digging her hands into her diapers! Knowing that we were scared, she started chasing us around the house! And this little bitch was so happy! Can you imagine Nini and I screaming and laughing in the house and this little rascal is chasing after us. Imagine it and you might now be having cramps because of laughing.

We called for "SOS" but her father was no where to be seen. Decided to change her diapers! Don't ask me how? We just had to! And so we started to do it! And Thank God! The dad came back just in time! To save me from not having dinner!

Oh God! I'm having second thoughts. Maybe next time when I have my baby I'll leave it to my husband. At most, I'll use gloves! I'm dead serious!

Don't ever try picturing me doing it with my bare hands! NO WAY!

It's work again tml... Nitex peeps!

9/9/2006

If I ever start blogging it's gonna be about work. You know like how NS guys talked about NS?! That's how I'm gonna talk about work.

Ya. You said it! "Get a life! Jocelyn!"

And yes. That's what I'm gonna do. It's not gonna be about work.

The used-to-be busy and exciting Jocelyn's life has now revolve around work and tuition! I seriously need to get a life! It's ugh disgusting and unbearable! Even I can't stand it.

Anyways I have not been blogging for almost a week but I guess you guys won't wanna read about it cause it's just work so I'll shall be kind enough to save all of your eyes and emotional state.

Well I save you by not blogging. But I save myself by shopping! I bought 2 bags, a pair of shoes and I don't know what else did I buy. I just can't stop buying. I seriously need a shopping therapy as in a real one. Not that kind of shopping therapy.

I'm stuck. I'm stuck about what to blog. I can't believe this. Gosh. It's just goes showing how boring my life has become.

Suddenly I just wanna sit by the river with the strong wind blowing against my face, almost disfigured, and read a book. Totally laid back kind of life, with no one around, just people walking through and forth. Sitting alone with no conversation engage. Just me and my book. That's what I call life for now.

You think it's boring? Well It's my life. And it goes with my mood. I don't have to go with the crowd right. The way I dress, the things I get and things I do. If not, Jocelyn's kind of life would not exist.

I'm gonna live the lif that way I want!