Hmm... it's been a long time since I wrote an entry and once I came in Whoa~! Guess I saw something unpleasant written in my blog... But well.... It's not much of my problem after all...

Exams are here and I have taken 2 papers already... Econs and Stats... Hope I can pass... I don't want to take supp paper... Just finish my Stats exam just now... The paper was manageable, think I can pass! I pray hard!

Qutie pissed off now, don't know for what reason... PMS I guess... Think gonna take a rest before I start studying for my next paper... I don't feel like writing this blog anymore, there are many things which I can't write here especially one big part of my real feelings... feel so constraint... It's that the word?! I just feel that I'm not able to express myself well here.... yeah! that's the word!

Friendship

*yAwNz*... I'm so tired!! Had a long day... my lessons were from 9-4... Surprisingly I didn't skip lessons... I went for all... then after I went to the band room with jermaine coz she wanna practice for her coming concert on Sunday... Well. I learnt new things today... I learn how to play latin and chacha on the drumset... Have not try it on the drumset yet... But I will!! Drumset is my target!!! haha.... See myself there!!

The weather nowadays are terrible man!! So humid!! When I'm at home I always stay in the room coz it's air condition... Unlike the living hall it's like oven... Super hot!! Man~! What kind of weather is this!!!

I'm trying very hard to re-download all the songs that I used to have... So many songs! how the hack am I supposed to remember!! Don't talk about it... Let's talk about something else...

Actaully a guy and girl can definitely be closed... First you have to understand the difference between friendship and intimancy... Friendship is about something other than the two people in the relationship; intimacy is about each other. In a true friendship(I'm talking about a guy and girl), something outside the two friends brings them together. The key to friendship is a common goal or object on which both companions focus.

I feel that when a guy and girl get closer, it does not mean that it is a step to BGR... It can be a step closer to true friendship... Why not? Let say if you like someone, it is not neccessary that he/she has to become your girlfriend... if you guys break-up already and never talk to each other, isn't it a waste? A friend that was once so closed has now gone so far.... A relationship may not last forever, but at least friendship last forever... I've learnt this from someone and also from the book I learn... To see every guys I know as a brother instead of a potential partner.... I think I have alot from that person and the book... He make me see a point that I never see previously...

Besides Kinship, Friendship is the one that last forever... Even though there may be some quarrels or people backstabbing, it is sad to have such people... But learn from this lessons! It's just adding colors to your life... Everybody will meet this kind of people in their life, but how bad can it be? Life still goes on...

When I see some of my friends suffering in their relationship, I think that singlehood is the best! It can be lonely but there are friends... I've been single for about 3 years but I feel great... Life without a partner is full of freedom... But I can say that I need a partner but now is not the time... I'm not ready to give my full commitment...

Sometimes people were ask, "hey jocelyn! At what age do you want to get married?"
I would tell them 22 years old but now i think I would no longer answer that... I would say "when the time is right and that is God's timing. I believe he has everything plan for me."

Now I want to concentrate on my drumming,studies and other commitments.... Wah! It's been a long time since I write this much! Ok... Off to d/l more songs!! That's my commitment now!

Message of the day:

We picture lovers face to face, but friends side by side; their eyes look ahead.

Last day of school!!

Alright it's the last day of school! so good... I was late for lessons, took a cab but didn't really regret... Ending of schoo, term means starting of exams week... I'm left with 2 weeks to study for my 3 papers... God! My first year is ending soon!! that is so fast... It's like yesterday only... time really files...

Well I'm going for my lunch now, after that I will have 2 more lectures which official end the school term... hehe...

haha.... Finally got my com fixed! Change the whole cpu... Spend about $714... got a burner too!! so happy!

Have not been able to write my blog all because of the stupid cpu... I think computer stuff are so troublesome... Life span not very long then need to have anti-virus thingy but without it we can't live... how contradicting....

Think sometimes human are so fickle minded... can't make up our mind what to do... even the strongest person...

*yAwNz*... I'm so tired... still lessons tml! start at 9!! God! don't think I can wake up... As i hear my sister snoring, makes me even want to sleep... wanted to write more but my brain don't seems to be functioning at all... think i'll write more tml...

Hey guys! it's been a long time since I last write an entry... If I did it would be on alternate afternoon... All thanx to my "good" computer... The hard disk is spoilt and I have to get a new one... GOD!! It shut down every half an hour or so... It's so irritating!! Especially when I have to do project... And all my project have to be submitted this few days... But now I've done everything and submit already!! haha... Love my sister! Thanx to her that help me connect to the problematic internet too...

Well yesterday was a wondeful day.... ok let's talk about Sunday first! What A beautiful Sunday... It was Easter Sunday... Before that I wish everybody a post HAPPY EASTER DAY!! I know it's rather late but well... hehe... After church, I went to meet my section people, we went to esplande to listen to a jazz band... It's Thomson Big band... Wah... That was really good man!! I love Jazz!! I've fallen for it!! My next motivator... hehe... Well that was this particular song called "It is you"... A guy came out to sing... WAH... Jermaine, Venassa and me was "in love" with him... Our legs went soft... We became more energetic... We were attracted by him... He is fantanstic! Wonderful vocal!! hehe...

And before that I went shopping alone... I felt so good! I bought so many things... I bought a bag at $5 which cost $19 at first... bought 2 braclets one for jermaine, a pair of earrings and a few plastic bands... It's been a long time since I shop... I have been away from the world for so long... anyway I'm going shopping tomorrow... Alright! That's What I call LIFE!!

Can't wait... I'm feeling so uncomfortable now... Feel like vomitting... Should I go for Spss???

Microsoft Excess is so chiam!! So confusing!! I really hate this shit man! But no matter how bad this thing is, it can't spoil my mood for the day... I'm so happy... What a wonderful day it is... hehe... :)

As usual... Itab lessons are bored! I don't know how to do alot of things... coz I never really pay attention in class... boring la... Think i'll go home and do it...

Argh... I ate 1/4 tub of chocolate ice-cream yesterday!! Oh my god!! I'm going to put on alot of weight man!! Better stop!! Or else all my effort will go into the drain...

I hate Microsoft Access!!! HATE YOU!!! HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait for the lesson to end!! What s start of the day... :(

Suddenly I missed band... Can't adapt to the life without band yet... Coz I have been having band prac almost everyday for the past 2 weeks... Feel that life is so boring without band!!

Yesterday Halim called me... Finally after so long... thought he was "dead"... Opps... Missed him so much! We have not been contacting each other for a few months... Well yesterday we had a good talk... A heart to heart talk... We were on the phone for about 1hr... I told him lots of things... I think so far he is the only guy that I can pour out my feelings to... Telling him the biggest secret of myself, I don't feel the least awkward at all...

Okie... Lesson ending soon... Can't wait! Can't wait for the day in school to end... I'm so sleepy! Still got to give tuition tonight...

What a successful concert!

Finally the concert is over!!! It was a great concert.... It was almost full house!! WE sold about 1400 tickets... Even the principal, board of directors and Miss Hope were very happy and satisfied with our concert... they said we sounded good!

I was really nervous when I reached there... I couldn't get the grin off my face when I reached Esplande... It's really big there... It's like maze there...

Ok... Each of the section boys and girls have their own room seperately... There were a shower room inside too... Fanatistic place man!

Our room was very messy coz we were busy doing make-up lots of things to do... Coz we finish rehearsal at about 3+ near 4... And we have to be ready by 4.30... Super rushed!

I was very nervous during the concert... Well I screwed up abit... but nobody know that I had make a mistake... Hehe... Professional player!! haha...

After the concert we had to quickly pack up and leave the place... so sad... Can't get a chance to interact with my family and friends... But it's so sweet of my sisters to buy flower for me... It was a really big Sunflower!! Thanx!


After the concert we went back to school, then had a debrief... then phototaking session... We had a thank you speech for Lj coz it's his last concert... So sad... I was saying my speech half way and about to cry... All thanx to Chris, he interrupted me and all those emotional feelings becomes laughter!!

After those touching speech, we went to Thai Express at Holland V for dinner... Splendid dinner... Had lots of fun... Even though we are tired but I think we were never forget this night... Where many contribute to the success of the concert... I can say that we are one lucky batch to be the first batch to perform at Esplande...

Hope next year we can perform there again... I'm still very tired now... and my legs are still aching till now coz of the court shoes... Lesson is ending soon... I want to go home to rest!!

Just few more hours.... and my concert is starting... I'm so nervous and scared now... Thinking how I should style my hair... Can't get it.... Need to practice later....

Went to watch Gospel of John just now.... Really good show but very touching... and very very... erm... I don't know how to say... The pain the the Son of God went through, I just can't help crying.... Really long show too... My butt was hurting...

Well, I feel so stupid... I know it's irritating to keep messaging people and ask them to go for the concert.. I know some of them are irritated but... If it's your concert would you just sit down and shut up?! I'm sorry guys if you are ever irritated by me... Coz of the concert...

Ok I'm rather tempermental recently... I don't know why... I get pissed off easily... Sorry guys if I ever did show my temper to you all... Trying very hard to control... ok that's all... Off to style my hair!!!

Attitude makes it all....

Something interesting....

Dear All,
A small truth to make our Lifes 100%.......

If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17
18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26
Then Hardwork= H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% only

Knowledge=K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% only
Love=L+O+V+E=12+15+22+5=54%

Luck=L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47% (don't most of us think this is most important???)

Then what makes 100% Is it Money? ..... No!!!!!
Leadership? ...... NO!!!!

Every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps change our attitude.
To go to the top, to that 100%

what we really need to go further..... a bit more.......
Attitude=A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

It is OUR ATTITUDE towards Life and Work that makes

OUR Life 100%

Don't you think so?!?!?!?!

So from today onwards live your life with a good attitude towards everything you do!!

I'm so sleepy...

I was late for school again!!! Very late!! And I'm so sleepy today can't keep my eyes open at all... Until now... I'm having acc lab lesson now... Rather fun lesson... Acc Pacc is really so troublesome... Lucky wan chien,Rey and me did the entries correctly or else... Think we've got to re-do everything...

Everybody is rushing to finish the assignment now...

Argh... My auntie book the tickets for Gospel of John without asking me if I can make it or not.... I'm leaving tommorrow afternoon for sectionals... haiz...

haha... Most of my classmates are so screwed up with the Accpacc... It's giving so many problems... Our class is so messy and noisy... Most of them are so busy... Except the few of us....

I'm early today... I didn't take a cab and I was not late for lessons!! Good job man! Way to go Jocelyn!

Got lots to write this few days... But coz of my stupid computer... giving me lots of problems!! So argh...

Concert is in 3 days time... Super nervous and scared! Tickets sales are bad for me... I only manage to sell 13 tickets when we are asked to sell 20 tickets... I'm really sad... Very sad when some of my friends don't want to go... Actually I didn't really persuade them this round coz I know they are not interested in it... But I just can't help feeling sad... Unlike my IBM concert... I just kept my mouth shut about asking them going for the concert...

I really can't think of anyone anymore... I have asked everybody... I feel that if you don't feel like going just say it straight... Don't ask so much then end up keep your mouth shut and didn't even say anything about the thing... I really hate it... Don't want means don't want...

I'm sorry if some of you read this... But this is my blog I can write how I feel here... If I don't write how I feel here... Then what's the use of the blog... I might as well write it in a book...