Man I'm having a terrible stomache that I'm breaking into cold sweat. Thank God there's only one tuition today and I'm out of this damn place to somewhere more peaceful and the temporary non-existence of my sisters.

Seriously, if i could live under the same roof as my sisters for another minute it's a total miracle. Yes i'm still living with them but it's unbearable. When I say it's a miracle, it means to be able to bear with them and having no problems with them. I wish I could leave this place and I'm dead serious. But I don't know what's the problem. My mum just doesn't allows me to.

If you say I don't love them! That's absolutely! Nothing can be more true than that.

I just dislike their presence. I could go on holiday for like a week and not miss them, I've tried before so don't say wait till I try then I'll know, and I don't know why people would say they miss their noise! Holy shit! That's like.... NOT EVEN THE LAST THING ON EARTH I WOULD EVER DO.

Never proud of having them as sisters.

It's just a day that's a little usual than the others. Cause besides tuition I met up with sufen to do something that I never thought I would. Till now I still can't believe it. And I went shopping after that! Damn man! I just love shopping!

Bought 2 shades for 3 BUCKS EACH!!! Yes 3 bucks! one aviator shades, the other is a simple shade. A ring and pair of earrings!

Overall I just can't stop shopping! I spent like 80+ while I was on cruise.

And I've learn a lesson today. Never speak of anyone behind their back cause you never know you might just walk straight into them.

Totally a close shave! ",)

Finally school have started for most of the people surrounding me and everything seems to be back to normal. Holidays are over and so are all the relaxing moments. It's back to fighting and struggling hard for each new day.

And though for me, there's no struggling through to keep awake during lectures or trying hard to wake up for a day's work but work has just start to begin too. School has start which means I as a tutor must work double hard and start worrying for my students. And how to give the best to them.

The 3D2N cruise trip to Redang was good. It was definitely a time to rejuvenate before coming back for more obstacles with my students. It was a total getaway from the urban life and learning to appreciate the beauty of nature, that we have long forgotten about, once again. How vast is the sky? How the wind can give such a tranquil feeling? Leaving the uptight life that we have for just a little while was more than worthwhile. And the cute crews we met on board make it better than anything else! Even better than the food!

And definitely! The company has gotta be good! Good company = fun bitches! Singing, eating talking and simply enjoying! Was the whole point! The purpose on the cruise was probably forgotten by us.

But sadly we couldn't snorkeling due to unpredictable sea tides. And so we headed back on board for sleep and food.

And I will never forget how much audrey find it a drag to end this trip and the complains about starting school. Yes, all of the 3 bitches in my cabin has all return back to school. It wasn't a feeling of missing school or returning back to study. It was a thought of my future. What exactly do I want. Is this something that I really want? Or was it something else?

Is just as simple isn't it? Like a relationship between a guy and a girl. It's either you are friends or lovers. So what's with the status "It's complicated" in friendster? Each time I see "It's complicated", I just think it's funny. If you are single, it just means you are not attached even if there's some guy in your life. And vice-versa. You are attached means you are in a relationship. What's so difficult?Sometimes I really don't understand. Why make something that's so simple to be complicated.

Marriage that was supposed to be a lifetime matter has now become a matter that could last for as short as days? weeks? months? Something that was so sacredAs I see the people around, I wonder has the world become too open oram I still just too conservative.

Finally I'm settled down for some serious blogging. Entries has begun to decrease as days passed and laziness has taken over. Not much of anything to say. Even if I did, blogging would be a chore using my computer and it's troublesome to alternate between my laptop and the computer.

Life has been great, especially with so many people that adores me beside me. Suddenly I miss my aunt so much! Staying over at her house during the weekends has help to build a stronger bond! Spending more time with her to make up for the times that we have lost. And my mind seemed wholly taken up with reminiscences of the past. My rebel stage.

Almost every teenager of age 15-16 goes through a rebel stage, I'm not an exception. Forbidden fruit is always hard to resist. The stricter she is, the more I go against her. And it drew us quite far, well not sure for her. But to me, I feel that it was difficult to communicate and interact with her. Growing up in an environment that makes it diffcult to treat adults as friend when I'm really in need. Not even my mother. Even when that incident happen, I could hardly go to any of my family members for help. Except for my sisters. She knew I was sad and hurt, but I was to proud to admit that I was devasted.

But the stay overs has make me realise that, she's more than just an auntie. She's someone I can really communicate with, like a friend who's always there. I remember when I got rejected by ntu, I felt so lost. I called her and I just couldn't stop those tears.

What made me cried wasn't about the rejection, it was the voice coming out from the phone and the comforting words that I never thought she would say. And I realise how much disappointment I've brought to her and those years that I've wasted by just hoping that it would be like before.

I'm still pampered by her. The things that she gave me. I seriously thank God that He has sent someone like her beside me. And definitely happy with the reason why I move there. At this moment, I miss her and spending time with her. And she's sleeping alone at home now.

Talking about sleeping, I seriously have not seen someone who sleeps so fast at anywhere and anytime like her! But totally understand why.

Anyways it shall be more updates on my weekends.

Last friday I went back to SP to submit my passport and money. It feels abit weird to go but it's nice seeing the section again! And the new band room is darn cool! Stayed there till 730 ant I left for sengkang! Sorry peeps! I had to rush off to catch my last episode of the show! =)

But still it was nice seeing you guys! And we're gonna spend a few days together soon! Totally looking forward to it!

And I went shopping today and yesterday. But I only bought a top yesterday. And that's 20 bucks for you! And it's 401 bucks for you today! =)

I bought a mp3 and 2 pairs of shoes cause I really couldn't decide on which to buy since I like both. The 2 pairs of shoes cost $62.80! So it's definitely the mp3! So it's no shopping for this week and next week! It's saving week!

It's gonna be a success since I can't go anywhere on weekdays! And I'm glad that there's church during weekends.

Well basically it's just like that.

It's a lovely thursday afternoon. And finally it's just a day with only one tuition. I've done my morning work-out and feeling fantastic.

After this it would be breakfast-cum-lunch and then washing of my new clothes and old but new clothes. Well it's clothes that i've bought probably a year ago and left it there to collect dust. it's a habit already.

hmm... I wonder what I should have for lunch? should I have a wrap or should I cook my own udon? Everything seems nice cause I'm super hungry now.

Anyways life has been wonderful recently. I've stop sending resume anymore, cause I totally give up and I really hate office job. Besides my tuition schedules are already taking up almost all the time already. Except for monday, all my weekdays are kind of packed. And for me weekends are a no-no for any work!

I've been staying over at my aunt's place every weekend and I'm loving it. Though there isn't scv there but it's quiet and I can concentrate more reading my book, and besides there's vcd for me to survive on. I wish I could move over! But my mum would not allow that man! How am I gonna convince her. I shall use the keyboard as an excuse! =)

And who cares if there's no internet connection! Cause I simply don't need it anymore! Having a choice between peacefulness and internet and scv, I think it would be peace!

And shopping in Singapore is getting way too boring. I simply can't get anything and there's not much of a GREAT SINGAPORE SALES though it's the season. Probably it's the mood and I've not been going out. Good choice though.

Okies it's time for lunch!

Till then peeps!