Saturday
Went to school for sectionals... Then after that went out with Venassa, Jermaine,Muru & Charlton... Had a tiring day... And I was very pissed... So too bad... Muru and Charlton saw a sight of me that they were so shock... I ate alot... Went to IMM... Had fishball noodle, yam cake and Chui kueh... share it with jer and Ven... Then Went to Daiso to get some concert stuff... Haha... It was like a playground for the few of us... Then head down to Orchard, think to look for hat... Took 105... Tot that it will go to PS but forgot it doesn't... So alighted at Far east.... On our way we bought the $1 ice-cream... Straight after that Venassa,jermaine and me had bubble tea... Then head down to center point to look for the hat but too bad the shop closed already... So decided to chilli out at Coffee Bean... Guess what... We pasta and oreo cheese cake! Hehe... After that head for home...

Sunday
As usual, went to church in the morning... Super tired... After church went for lunch with my aunt and church members... After that head down to Chinatown with my pastor, aunt and Vivian... Coz I need their help in helping me get cloth... Feel so guilty that they have to run with me the whole of Chinatown to look for the hat... Appreciate it so much... But manage to find the hat but not black so decide to head down to Bugis to take a look... My aunt and pastor left after Chinatown... So Vivian and I head down to Bugis... To contiune to search... But the shop closed down already... By that time I was really drained already... I really feel so bad to make Vivian run with me everywhere... Lucky she was there to help me think of places or else I don't know what to do...

Decided to stop the search after walking from 2+ to 6+... Non-stop... Went to suntec for dinner.... Goodness gracious me!! I really can't stand myself... I took 1 hr to decide what I want to eat... But Vivian was very patient with me... Waiting for me to decide... So end up decide to eat Vietnam food... Had a fulling dinner... A big bowl of beef noodle and fries... it was kid's meal...

Meet up with Adeline for awhile... It's been a long time since i last saw her... Missed her so much... Hope she can go for my concert... Hope her shift would stay the same... Nurse = Irregular hour!

Monday

I missed my first lesson... RWPS!! I couldn't wake up! And I just realized that Friday is the percussion concert and I have RWPS presentation!! OH NO!! HOW!! Must go look for my teacher already... Went for FA tutorial with all the stuff I bought on Saturday and Sunday... School ended at 2+... Then meet up with Venassa and Jermaine to go around SB to promote our concert!! But hang on!! We went around the whole of SP!! To promote... And I was so tired and excited about the promoting... That when I saw my friend I shouted... I don't for what bloody hell reason why I did that... I just know that I have to push ticket sales... I don't give a damn about other think about me... Go ahead with your thinking!! It's not my concern!!

Had dinner at FC2... Ate lot too... But I everything is burn off already... Had sectionals... We did the combine stomp thingy... Finally we had completed the thing... Just have to practice more!! After the band prac... Mr Tan did Canon In D with us... Terrible man!!

I finshed studying for my test tomorrow... Tried to sleep but I can't get to sleep... I'm wide awake... I feel numb... I don't know whether I'm tired or worried... I feel like crying but tears just can't come out...

But this few days have been sad for me...

Why is it that I care?! And this is what I get in return... Is this what i get for my concern... I put in so much... But the more i put in... I get more disappointed and it's more tiring... I'm so sick and tired...

I shouldn't have put in so much in the first place.... I think I'm like a fool... I know I should give more than I receive... BUT I'M STILL A HUMAN!!!

I really hope this can be over soon... God please give me the strength to carry on...

Had sectionals with Mr Tan just now... He helped us in our percussion concert pieces... Weel not too bad... But I'm disappointed in something... Having a terrible headache now...

Going off to rest... Will be going out with some of the section people tml to buy costume! Hope we have ideas... God please give us inspiration!

I'm bored! Very bored... Woke up late today... Came to school at 1... I'm now doing my report for RWPS... It's on some bubble tea issue... Suddenly I remember Chris asking us to do a survey on this... Guess those data tally sheet are from them....

Can't believe I'm getting to work... Usually I'll slack for this lesson... But I'm doing my work now... Anyway the percussion will be having sectionals with Mr Tan... Hope it goes well...

*SoB*

I'm drained! I'm numb! School started at 9 and ended at 1... Well not a very long day... But had a terrible headache this morning... Lack of sleep... Thanx to Alicia's panadol... Or else my head would be bursting! I have been suffering from stomach upset since sunday... I don't know what happen... i just know that when I go to the toilet... It just comes out with it... Hope it would recover by tml...

Head for the band room after school... Coz we had rehearsal at the auditorium at 3... So practice my love songs... Lots to do... Muru helped me up with my "Overture"... Thanx muru! Even though I screwed up during the rehearsal...

Rehearsal ended at 6... So gotta to move the instruments back... Then head to FC4 for dinner with the section... Man! Joanne is really a big-eater! Probably we could ask her out the next time we go for buffet... hehe... A percussion girls' outing!! Purely girls!! Sound kind of cool... Gossiping! Bitching! Whatever we can talk! Girls! What else!

After dinner we practice the combine stomp and the drumline... up at FC5...
Kind of worried for the ticket sales... Doesn't seems good... I'm so worried that people would not enjoy our concert... There's so many things to be done...

Everybody was so tired... Rarely see the section so wearly before... guess everybody had a long day... Everybody is feeling uptight coz the concert is nearing... We have to work really hard! Like practice everyday... After that it's the IBM concert...

As for me, I'm drained! No! I'm numb!! Totally numb! I can't stop playing just now... The rythms just keep flashing through my mind... I really couldn't stop! On the way home, while bathing and even now!! And later when I go to sleep... i'll be tapping!! totally insane!

I'm feeling kind of lonely recently... Not that everybody is ignoring me... My family and friends are there... It's not that kind of loneliness.... it's the singlehood... Ah yes! It's the need for love... A need for relationship... Hoping for someone to appear... I don't know why I'm feeling this way... Probably it's becoz I'm tired and I need a hug... A warm hug... And someone to lean on... The feeling is overwhelming... It's taking over me... Probably it's just for a moment, it would soon be gone together with those tiring days...

Anyway I'm enjoying singlehood... I have my family and friends... And it's less commitment... Probably I have the gift of singlehood... Hope not!! Relationship = time consuming + hassle...

Anyway I'll just leave it to God for "Mr Right", while letting that feeling fade off itself... It would be gone soon.. for now! "Mr Right" is percussion concert!

Something eerie... I don't know how the hell my blog has music... Serious! I didn't change the template or do anything... Don't know why it's there... Nvm just leave it there...

Very tired... Having terrible headache... So sleepy... had sectionals just now... Came back quite late... I've been seeing my mum and dad last often... And I think she's worried about me coming home late... But I guess she understand... Coz she's never angry when I come home late... As in like 3am or so... All she does is just nag... YEAH MAN! My mum has lots of trust and confidence in me!! hehe...

I've been quite disappointed with some of my closet people... It's affecting me so much... Affecting the way I think etc... The worst thing about me is that once I change my opinion of someone... It's gonna be there forever... They are blacklisted... I don't want to blacklist them... Guess I got to take it easy...

I've been thinking of somethings that happen in the past... The things that I went through during my band days... I really hate myself sometimes! I hate myself for crying! When I think back... I think people are irritated by me... Probably I'm too sensitive... If they don't, I'll hate myself too! Why is it always that I'll only drop tears when I'm in band?!

If it's not meant to be yours, it would never be yours...

Finally understand this sentence... Went through it and know the pain behind it... Terrible feeling...

Something eerie... I don't know how the hell my blog has music... Serious! I didn't change the template or do anything... Don't know why it's there... Nvm just leave it there...

Very tired... Having terrible headache... So sleepy... had sectionals just now... Came back quite late... I've been seeing my mum and dad last often... And I think she's worried about me coming home late... But I guess she understand... Coz she's never angry when I come home late... As in like 3am or so... All she does is just nag... YEAH MAN! My mum has lots of trust and confidence in me!! hehe...

I've been quite disappointed with some of my closet people... It's affecting me so much... Affecting the way I think etc... The worst thing about me is that once I change my opinion of someone... It's gonna be there forever... They are blacklisted... I don't want to blacklist them... Guess I got to take it easy...

I've been thinking of somethings that happen in the past... The things that I went through during my band days... I really hate myself sometimes! I hate myself for crying! When I think back... I think people are irritated by me... Probably I'm too sensitive... If they don't, I'll hate myself too! Why is it always that I'll only drop tears when I'm in band?!

If it's not meant to be yours, it would never be yours...

Finally understand this sentence... Went through it and know the pain behind it... Terrible feeling...

Screwed! Totally screwed!! Our presentation was like shit! totally...

We made abit of mistake... Well the whole class was like that... He would even comment on the slightest mistake then one can ever spot... But well that is his job... True enough! Sarcastic remarks are definitely there... But he did try to help us so that we won't fail... Anyway it's ok... I'm feeling like shit now... I don't know why...

This few days my mind can't seems to be organised... Plus the talk I had with Alan last night... About the percussin concert... We are so not ready... But what can we do now... It's too late... We just have to practice everyday...

Problem is that I've got to go for tuition today at 5.30pm but I have sectionals at 6pm... And I know I can't missed it... But my student's chinese CA is tml... I'm not sure if she can study herself or not... I know the concert is coming but my student's CA is as important to me... I don't know what to do... Guess I'll msg her later and see how it goes... Probably a telephone tuition...

haiz.... My mood is totally down...

Anyway I did a personality test... I'm a blue monkey...


You are Blue Monkey, who has pretty smile and are charming woman. Your personality is very straightforward and conscientious. Although you seem rather nervous, you are naturally strong and can not stand to lose. You are a honest person with guts. Your facial features are handsome and you are a smart dresser with urban sense. You are also a curious person.You are a hard worker, and you put your energy not only in work but also in your personal interests. There are many Blue Monkey people who have mastered an art that would result in practical benefits. You can show womanly consideration to those around you, and even if you are not feeling well, you can commit your self in making happy atmosphere.Although you try to act cheerfully, you tend to be rather lonely mentally. Unlike your outer characteristic, you tend to submit to lonely circumstances.You are not very good at expressing your feelings, and may give false idea to those around you. You should know that without trying to make your self understood, you won't to get the cooperation and help of the others.You will be able to lead life free from pressure, if you can keep a relationship with those people bonded by heart. Your intelligence and creativity makes you suited to jobs relating to art and design.Once married and you have children of your own, you will become good mother and wife.

My Sunday seems ruined! Totally! But not exactly!

First my student said that my hair was ugly, I looked old... OUCH!! Totally ouch!

Then my mum told me my white t-shirt got stained... Coz she hanged it with the stupid NDOC red colour polo T... What the hack... She said that the colour is coming off... Not to sure about that coz I've not seen it...

There's this sour and bitter feeling in me... Making me feel like crying... My jaws feels numb... And I'm feeling paranoid at the same time... There's so many things in my head... My mock presentation next tuesday... And my freaking teacher is a sarcastic idiot... Everything that comes out from his mouth is sarcasm...

I'm so afraid that on the day... He will just shoot me with something that I don't know how to answer... Then he will start to throw sarcastic remarks...

My test results... The concert... my playing... And me making a mockery out of myself... I don't know... there's so many things in my mind... It's so messy... How i wish I can organise it... Like an organiser...

The concert is getting near... And I'm feeling more and more uptight!

Well at least there's something good for today... With my mum around... Guess what my hair cut + highlight + treatment was $195! Yes!! It's not typo error!

My mum was asking me how much I highlight my hair since yesterday night... And I refuses to tell her... Then she made a guess that it was $30... Nah my mum is not that stupid she knew that it cost a bomb... That;'s why she kept asking me the price even till this evening... She came into my room just now and say she pay $15 for me since my hair cut is $30... She's smart man! She took out a $100 note... Can't deny my mum really knows me very well! She knew it! She must have knew it!! So sly!

She lured me to tell the truth... I pulled her and she ran away laughing.... So i ended up telling her the price and she gave that $100... And my dad came into the room... And he was laughing...

At least this is not that bad... I love my mum man!! Of coz not just becoz of that!

Mami!! I love ya!!!

Sorry guys... Always seeing the same old thing... Have been very busy recently... Too tired to blog already... One week has just passed like that! SO FAST!!

Monday
Nothing much... Just school and then band...

Tuesday
Was a terrible and tiring day... It was the graduation performance day... We had 3 sessions from morning till evening... Even though we have long breaks in between... It's the humidity and the perspiriation that is making us weary... Finally the thing ended at 7+... Carried instruments back to the band room... Then slack for awhile... Then cut the percussion concert tickets! From 8+ to 10... Couldn't finish cutting it... So some of us brought it home to cut... Ohya Lj was there too... So went to have dinner at Clementi Mac... LJ and gf, Jia hui & Dennis, Muru, Alan, Joelly and me... Reached home about 11+... Then bath then contiune to cut tickets.... Man! I cut till 4am... God I was really half dead when I finished...

Wednesday
Supposed to reached school at 8am to chop the tickets... Then passed it to Alan at 9 then go for lesson... But I couldn't wake up... I was too sleepy to get off my bed! Waited for Alan's call at home but he never call so I thought he didn't go to school too... But he went... Don't know why too... Nvm contiune with my beauty sleep til 12 then wake up and chop the tickets before meeting Zai, Venassa and jermaine for sushi...

Luckily Alan and Muru didn't go... Or else they were be horrify by the way we eat... We seriously couldn't walk after eating... And Venassa looks as if she's pregnant! haha... Then after that went back to school for sectionals... Venassa, jermaine and me were stoning while doing the storm thingy! Our minds were totally shut off!! So we went to washed our face...

Sian... IBM camp coming... It's on the day of our percussin concert... BUT thanx to Mr Tan... He said the camp shall start with everyone going for our concert!!! HEHE... HURRAY!!!

Thursday
Supposed to practice Samba Classico but don't know why end up only get to practice 30 mins... Haiya... don't want to say... Have this feeling that we were end up not perforning Samba Classico... Ohya... We did the ticketing... there goes the time...

Friday
Had sectionals with Mr Tan... Man terrible! I felt so terrible! He did "Overture for Percussion ensemble" with us... My tears was already coming out when he was correcting me... Tried to hold back my tears for so many times... But it kept coming back... Manage to hold it till the end of sectionals... But when we were on our way home... I couldn't hold it anymore... I stopped at the bridge and broke down... Luckily Jermaine asked me to go off....

Took a cab home... I really poured out to her when we were at the taxi stand... Luckily she was there... Or else I might just wander off everywhere...

Went home finished up the last 3 pages of my BLAW then went to sleep with lots of worries in me...

Saturday
Took my BLAW test... Well not that bad... hope I can passed! Just pray for the best... Went for sectionals after that... Missed out on 3 pieces... Got to buck up... Felt better... Was rather sad when we did the storm thing... Coz of a sentence... Thanx Venassa and Jermaine for helping me in the new rythm...

Finished sectionals at abt 2... Then went for lunch at clementi with Zai, Venassa and Jermaine... Then went for my haircut... Cut my hair short and highlight it... super gold or brown... can't take it man! was super shocked... The price was more shocking!! Nah... don't talk about it...

OHYA!! Finally went for movie!! Finally after ages!! Went to watch "The Notebook" with jermaine... We were sitting at the first row!! But luckily we went! The show was not bad... All the show that we wanted to watch were all selling fast or sold out! But well the show was not bad...

Sunday
Went to church in the morning... Had a meeting on the September and Christmas event... Went to give tuition... I'm so sad! My student say that my hair is ugly and I looked old! I felt so hurt! Then came home to asked my sister, Meichan... What she think of my hair... How contradicting! When I asked her yesterday, how was my hair... She said ok, just not used to my hair colour and hair style...

When I asked her just now, how she think? She said ok... That was the first time... The second time I asked her... If the hair style suits me or not... She say it doesn't suit and the colour too gold!! What the hack! Ain't my closet people supposed to tell me the truth... why is it like that?! why?! I'm really disappointed lor... Feel like crying now...

Just hope that tomorrow people won't start laughing at my hair...

Off to do my tutorial...

Took my FA CA today... My confidence level is so low!!! The fear in my heart is there... I not only have to pass... I have to score well! Very well! Or else my aunt will start nagging at me... It's true... I talked to her on the phone just now while I was in the train... i told her I took my FA CA and I was scared... Guess what she say... "Aiyo, you always like that study. how to passed!" WHY?! Why is it always like that!!!!! Why?! It's as if that I didn't study... she think I did not put in effort to study hard... But... Why?! Why can't she see the point that I have no confidence?! WHY?!!!!! why... ARGH!!! My mood just change within one night~! Plus the gastric juice working up! The awful dinner!

And I think I should tame down... It's time for me to quiet down... I think I'm too noisy... Probably I talked too much... Make too much noise...

Hope tml would be a better day for me...

After school, went to the band room to get the poster and ticket design for Ms Hope... But when I went to SAA, She's not there so went back to the band room....

Stayed there to practice for abt 2 hrs... Waiting for Alan to come to go see Ms Hope together... But it was horrible when we see her... Can't believe she actually can tell us... Don't whether she should invite people or help publicise for us... Just becoz of that NDOC performance!! Hello! We only manage to practice on tuesday evening and wednesday morning... While the actual performance is on wednesday afternoon... What can you get Ms Hope!! Alan and I was like telling her that we have practice for this concert for abt 2 mths and for that performance 2 days... She still give that kind of reaction... Can't be bother... Main motive now is to get the concert done! And of coz with good results!

After seeing Ms Hope went to have dinner with Alan and some of the freshies... Was waiting for Jermaine to go home but end up she not going home... So I went home to change first then go meet them to watch concert... It 's by Kasetart University Wind Symphony... They are from Thailand... They are really good man! They sound good! played well.... what else... I don't know...

But fot the first half I was struggling to keep awake... Coz I was very tired and the pieces they played was quite slow... Well I managed to keep myself awake... The second half was better... But sad that they didn't prepare encore piece... But the Trombone players did played a song called "Jambalaya"... Good! Nice song! Like that song alot!

After concert, went to Lau Pa Sat with some of the band members to have dinner... Bet all of them are starving... Joelly, Xue Chun, Yiting and me share our food... Then took a cab home...

I'm dead beat now... But I'm too tired to know what's tired already... In fact, I don't feel sleepy but my body is tired...

Guess I'm taking things easier now... Since they don't appreciate what I do for them... I don't see why I should contiune... Or drop tears becoz of them... Or drop tears when I say I'm getting to hate them... Seriously I'm getting more and more emotionless towards them already... It's as if there's no more feelings there...

Haiz... don't talk about such unhappy things now... Just had a wonderful time just now... hehe... Had a great talk with him... hehe....

Off to sleep already... Nitez!

School starts at 9... And I can't wake up! I woke up at 8... So you guys know how I came to school...

BFI lesson ain't that good... She was quite unhappy that we were chit-chatting away while we were supposed to do our tutorial... I was not guilty when she scolded us coz our group really did our work... We really did spend the time doing research online when the time was given to us... Guess what kept us going?! All thanx to you, Alan!

Alan thanx to your blog's song... Suddenly all of us were searching for information online... Thanx man! But in the end we still couldn't find anything much... But manage to do abit...

I'm having ECM tutorial now... Quite sian... Lesson end at 1 then got to go see Ms Hope to show her our percussion concert poster and ticket design... And also to get the excuse letter for last week NDOC performance...

I was reading through Venassa's and Alan's blog... And I found out that I missed out alot... I've not been reading their blog... Sorry guys!

Venassa, You know what! There are many more guys out there... Who are not like him... Or maybe like him who might be your prince charming... Probably he's just not the one... Sometimes it's just like that... When you don't know him... You felt that he wa the most wonderful guy ever! And when you get his email or no. you are over the moon... But when you get to know him, he becomes you nightmare... And you wish that you have never gotten his number... What to do! Life goes on!

And ya you are right! You got a life to live on! And don't forget! You've got us!! Jermaine is my girlfriend and you are my sweet heart! Remember?! Or are you my lover? argh... it's the same anyway... Hope to see you more often coz I missed you!

Alan I know this is late... But coz I really missed out alot on the pervious few entries... It's only when I clicked on the archives and read thru then I realized... Just wanna tell you that life isn't always smooth... Here's sth for you... LIFE has it's ups and downs. Sometimes the sun shines, sometimes the rain pours. BUT DON'T FORGET! It takes both sun and rain to make a RAINBOW! Remember that!

Just wanna tell you that, you are a very caring and helpful person... Thoughtful, humourous, considerate, good SL and lamer... opps... hehe...

In fact, the percussion section guys are the most caring guys among my guy friends... From Lj to you to Chris to Bernard to Muru...

You know sometimes things just ain't going our way... I definitely have times that did not go well... Remember my jay-walking incident! Bet you remember! Forever! How many times were you jay-walk before you get caught?! Probably never in your whole life! You bet I have spilled my bowl of noodles, soup or cup of drink like thousands of times... I was even stupid enough to use my fingers to touch the hot iron without feeling the heat immediately... when I was young... And ya I'm forever getting bruises everywhere... and the best part is that I don't know how i got them...

So you are not the only one! Cheer up! There are many others with you!

Ohya Thanx for the praise! About me playing soccer! What do you not know?! Of coz I'm good... "P

Joking...

Probably we could organise an outing to play soccer... Maybe all of them might come! hehe... Not a bad idea? What do you think?! Comments?!

I'm doing research on my ECM project now... And we have to discuss online... Probably post some questions or website on... My group is doing personal finance... Still searching for it!! HELP!!!!

Haiz... Have not been blogging this few days... Coz I've been very tired... Really tired.. Let's see the last time I blog was friday night...

Saturday

Supposed to wake up at 8+ to go to church but was late... End up reach there at 10... Sing practice supposed to be at 9 but end up Vivian and I were late... So start late... Poor Andy! Got to wait for us for 1 hr... Sorry Andy!
After song prac, took a cab down to SP for sectionals... I'm was like half dead already...Couldn't do or think about anything... I only ate 2 small panckaes... And it last me for 9hr plus... Almost fainted while having sectionals...

But I'm glad that we came out something for the stomp already!! hehe... Sounds good! Even though I didn't manage to play the love song medley but I guess it's good... All thanx to Charlton! hehe...

Ohya... We had spring cleaning on that day too... The band room is neat and tidy now!! Hurray!! And It's more spacious at the percussion side! Goody good!

After that went for SWS percussion concert... We were late... All thanx to Alan!! Last minute need to SHIT~! Missed the "overture for percussion ensemble"! So sad... If you asked me what I think of the concert... I would say that it's too jazzy... Way to jazzy... I almost fell asleep probably it's because I'm too tired... Well! We had a friend who fell asleep... hehe... :x

But the mallets player lack of energy level... So abit dead... After that we went for dinner at Holland V... That's all for saturday!!

Sunday

As usual... It's a church day for me... Never will I missed! hehe... Service starts at 10.30... And Andy was late!! Very late! He woke up at 10.15! Must be surf too much already that's y... I was so scared when we started without him... What if he didn't reached when i needed to play... I will be playing the keyboard alone!! And singing at the same time... But thank God he came on time... And we got back the guitat and keyboard working together again!!! hehe...

After church, went for lunch and then after that came home... Wanted to study but too tired... so took a rest... But I can't seem to study... I'm really so tired... And plus it's the time of the month... Makes it worse... But still manage to study Chapter 1 and half of chapter 2.... Then after that went to bed... Was looking forward to the percussion outing on monday...

Monday

Finally, MONDAY HAS COME!! Was so looking forward to the outing... Woke up about 12+ then study for awhile coz I've got a test on tuesday... Supposed to meet the them at 4 but I was late... I reached at 4.30... Sometimes shit just happen... Attendance was quite bad... Only Vanessa, Alan, Muru, Charlton and me turned up... But nevertheless we still enjoy... When I finally met them, told Vanessa something that make me cry... I really did cry... Tears came out... But lucky Alan said "Hi"... i quickly hold it back...

And everything went fine for the day... We went to Pizza Hut for dinner... Ate alot... After that had ice-cream and drank bubble tea... We were strolling around orchard when we finally decided to go play pool... haha... pool again! I'm an expert at it man!! hehe... ya! "expert"... right alan?!

We were watching "Singapore Idol" there... Super funny sia!! Some of the contestants really make a fool of themselves... Especially the Lemom tree guy... haha...

After that went home... Study for BFI...

Tuesday! It's today!

Had my test today... Doubt I can passed... If I really passd my test, I'll be laughing or maybe crying... Everybody is asking me why I'm dressed up... People listen up! It's becoz of a lame reason... IT's becoz of my module EPI... My teacher wanted to see the way we walk and sit down... So she made us wear skirts and heels... And what did I get at the end of the day... Blister on my legs... Of coz I did learn something... So sian... My legs are aching now...

Feel like studying for my FA test on friday... But too tired... but tml I'll be going for a concert... Better study abit later... and tml... don't like last min work...

Countdown to "De Avanganda Percussian 1"
24 days

Countdown to IBM
38 days

I'm feeling kind of weird... Very weird... Somethinh is making me think!
THINKING Thinking Thinking Thinking thinking....

I'm so sleepy... I feel as if I'm floating in the air... Feeling so drowsy... I'm not having enough sleep and I'm aching all over due to the moving of the percussion instruments on wednesday for the NDOC performance... Thru and forth 4 times...

Had sectionals with Mr Tan yesterday... Only the percussionists... we did two pieces... "My Merry Widow" and "Miss Saigon".... ohya and abit of "October"... I hope they take out "October"...

"Miss Saigon" was still alright... Lucky I'm not playing for this piece or else I'll go deaf in about a few more band pracs... It's fff... And Mr Tan is right!! I'm always afraid to play the gong... It not only hurt my ears but it affects everyone standing near the gong... Especially the mallet players... I'm so sorry guys!! Especially Venassa! She's the first victim!! hehe... And I played like 10 over times... Coz Mr Tan find that It's too soft...

"My Merry widow" was terrible... I screwed up my marimba part!! Totally... I've lots of bar of running notes... And I missed lots of them!! Or rather all of them!! Need lots of practice... IBM is like 42 days time... And there's the percussion ensemble concert... it's in 28 days!! It's in a month time!!! God!!

Finish school at 5 today... Wanted to go to holland v to eat dinner but end up I changed it to Bukit Merah Mac... EEEeeee........ Been eating fast food... so sian...

Then went to watch the play "Army Daze" at Henderson sec... Well, it's not bad but I think there's lots of things to improve on... And I really can't stand the students... They were screaming and shouting!! And trying to be cold... Now I know how irritating I used to be last time... And I was having a terrible headache (due to lack of sleep!)... will tell you why later... Those screaming just makes it worse...

And the second half of the play was like forever... Can't wait for it to end....

Finally it ended... Marilyn and I immediately went off...

Called Alan they all to see if they were still having sectionals or whether they wanna go makan... But they don't want so I came home...

Ohya!! My head is hurting!! It's killing me man!! Tell you why... I didn't go for my BLAW tutorial yesterday... So when I went for lecture, my friend told me that I have to submit the tutorial today... It's a must.. Coz Ms Pat is angry... So I took her word and I did it... I had sectionals and I went for supper with edmund,Muru and Alan... When I reached home is about 11.30... And I did my tutorial till 4 am!! I seriously did it... And I overslept this morning... Lesson was at 10.. i woke up at 9.30... Rushed to school...

Then I went to look for Ms Pat asking her if I could hand up my work on sat... She said it's ok... It's not compulsory!! I was like!!! What the hack!!! Hello! No one told me that!! They said it's a must!! I felt kind of cheated and angry at the same time... Haiz... anyway it's over... So I just submit what I've done...

*oUcH*!!!!!!!!!!!!! my head hurts!!

Sian... Tml I 'll be busy for the whole day... Got song prac in church at 9 am... Then after that rush down for sectionals at 10.30 to 2.30... Then After that give tuition at 4.30... Then got a concert in the evening... Haiz...

Got a test on tuesday... Better start studying now... So that I can go out with the percussion section on monday!!! YEAH~! I'm looking forward to it!!! I hope no one back out the last min...

What Shall I plan?

Hmm...... Meet 3.30pm at Somerset Mrt... Then probably go shop awhile first then go for dinner at centrepoint Pizza hut... Then probably we could go see fire works!!! hehe.... Pure percussion outing!! YEAH!!

Okie off to bath liaoz... Got to study later.... Sian-ed...

Today was the NDOC performance... It was really terrible... I felt that we really tarnish the reputation of SP percussion...

We only started practicing yesterday... And this morning... We were excused from 9 onwards... And we took this time to practice... And no matter how I practice I just can't get it right... I was so dishearted! Very! Tears ere in my eyes... My nose was getting red... I tried very hard to fight back the tears that was coming out of my eyes... I just hope that it didn't come out... Thank God it didn't!! I even wanted to gave my part to muru... or like runaway... But that's irresponsible...

And when the real thing came... We screwed up... i got lost!! Totally lost! I didn't know where I was and I started to anyhow whack softly... Only the ending part was together and good... Ms Hope is very disappointed... It's all written on her face... I feel like shit man!

After that we went back to the band room... All of us were tired... But I guess upset was more than the tireness in us... Well, it's over! What to do! LIFE GOES ON! (Jermaine's favourite line)

After that went to Holland V's Thai Express to have dinner with Alan, Muru, Zai, Jermaine and Joanne... Well we had a good dinner... Everything went back to normal... All of us were laughing and joking around...

After dinner, Alan, muru, Zai and me went to BREKO to chilli out... well, had some serious talk... But I guess it's good thing... At least we know what each of us are thinking... And everything is clear in front of us... Even though the atmosphere was abit still but the food and drinks makes it better... We had photo wedges and Oreo Cheese cake!!! My god it taste so nice!! I just love cheese cakes!!! YUMMY! Alan and zai had alcohol, muru had caramel twister... it's coffee... And I had Passionfruit tea... It's not bad... Quite nice... Well so long as it's fruit tea it tastes nice to me...

Got to go sleep liaoz... I'm so sleepy... My head is spinning...

Sorry guys... Have not been blogging recently... Coz I'm very tired after I reached home... My eyes just can't fall in front of the computer... I would feel giddy after that....

The whole of last week was terrible... My schedule was really killing me... I hadn't have enough rest...

Monday school was from 11-3... Then had band prac at 6.30pm... Can't remember what I did in between... Ohya... I went to work out with Zai... Did some prac before that and studying...

Tuesday- school was from 11-5... Thank God! My MA lecturer had to go for a course or else school will start at 9... Then due to the string's performance on thursday, we had to rehearse on wednesday... Band prac was brought forward to tuesday...

Wednesday school was abit better... Had lessons at 9 but lesson at 11 was cancelled... So that calls it a day for school... Went to Jurong point to get "school of rock"... Did abit of shopping with my friends... Bought a really big pencil box... Wait till u see it... It's really big... And it's cheap... Is 2 for $5... Head back to school to pack the percussion "cupboard"... the scores was in a mess... Everything was in a mess... Couldn't stand it so decided to pack... Thank God Muru, Alan, Bernard and Joelly were there to help... Managed to pack the stuff in abt an hour... It looks neater now... And I feel as if a burden is off my shoulder...

Had rehearsal with the stirngs... My god they are terrible!!! So dis-organised! There are 10 over people on the string to help set up and they took like more than an hour!!! We waited from 3+ till 6... But lucky they did "Carmen Suite" first... Or else we have to wait till 9+...

Thursday... A BLAW DAY!! Had 5 hours of BLAW... 11-2(tutorial), 3-5(lecture)... Heavy!! By the time it was 3.30, I can't take it anymore... We actually have excuse letter from 12pm but decided not to use it... Coz I think it's useless... Going there early is just a waste of time only... They will still delay the time... And true enough... When I was there at 5, they got nothing done... I'm so glad I didn't skip lessons... Was the actual peformance day... I'm so glad everything is over... But I was quite angry... Let's not talk abt it... It's over anyway...

Friday... School was 9-5... long day... Nothing much happen I guess... Can't remember... After school went home for dinner and rest awhile before going to teach... from 9-10.30...

By the time Saturday come, I was already very weary... I was exhausted... I've been waking up 8+,9+ practically everyday... And my body doesn't seems to be getting enough rest... I don't why I didn't fall... Guess God gave me the strength to carry on and that's why I'm still kicking a life now... Just when I was feeling restless and breatheless... This came to me... Really at the right time..."He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." I think it really gives me the answer... After my mood was better... I'm became to be very tired and busy... But yet I'm happy... And I still can go on...


Had sectionals from 10.30 to ard 2.30... We manage to practice "Overture for Percussion ensemble", "Canon in D", "Whole Tone Fanatasy" and we did the rythm for the drumline... It was written by Raf...

Then after that I went to church for lessons... 4-6... How am I going to concentrate? Was the questions in my mind... But surprisingly... I managed to... I was so high that I was joking and laughing my heads off... guess it's becoz I'm too tired to be tired anymore... get me?

After that stayed in church to practice songs and played on the keyboard... I need more practice... Going to sign back for keyboard lessons again... Met my sister, Meiying for dinner... We went Swenses again!! And she pay again! Lina was there too... I played a joke on them that really scared them... They got really freaked out! And they chose not to believe me... I told them that I was not my parents' biological daughter... It was so funny to see the expressions on their face... They beg me to not joke with them... hehe... Take it easy man!

Ohya... In order for our food to digest... We decided to walk home from Chinatown... I know that sounds crazy... But that sth more crazy... While walking home... We went past this pub that was having bbq outside... it's just beside the road... All of us were like why are they bbq-ing here? And Lina just said happy birthday... The guy heard it and he asked us whether we want some food... We told him we didn't want it... And he kept pestering us... So we walked faster! But you know what!!! He started chasing after us with the food and ask us to help him!! He's totally out of his mind!!! Of coz we run away and shouted to him that we don't want... Guess he saw how relunctant we were... that's y he gave up... In the end we still took a cab home....

Sunday
As usual I went to church... I'm so happy... I met up with marilyn!! So happy to see her... Supposed to study but end up we went to K-ster... hehe... That stupid girl... Take so many photos of both of us... Then not satisfied with every shoots...