Ever had the experience of bumping into someone from the past? Someone that used to be so significant to you at that time?

If you did. How did you feel?

Happy that you saw an old friend? Or was it the heartbreaking memories that start filling you and you realise that tears started to fill your eyes which uncontrolably roll down that rosy cheeks of yours? Washing your happiness and smile away as it drip onto your top?

Time seem to stop at that instant and you could feel your body getting hot despite the cold weather. And you don't know whether to smile or say hi.

I don't know about you but these were the questions that I have always been asking myself.

I finally found the answer yesterday.

After supper at "MakanSutra", cia,weishan,ligen and I headed to the hong kong cafe that served the most horrible food that you can ever pay for. Laughing as I filled them the details of my weird,which cia and ligen heard as wet,dreams. It was really weird not WET! Something supernatural. It's not about the dream.

In the mist of our loud laughter, cia waved to someone. Being a normal human, I turn back and saw someone. I didn't thought that we would ever get the chance to bump into each other. After all it's been almost a year or so.

Back facing the direction he was walking, only our heads met. As he walked past our table and me, the feeling came. The feeling of happiness when you see an old friend. Not the heartthrob feeling or the painful memories. None of that actually surface or filled the picture. It didn't take away the laughter from me.

In fact it felt good to see a classmate after so long.

Under the moonlight or rather cafe's light with a oh-I-think-i'm-so-handsome guy sitting opposite our table, I've got the answer to my questions. =)

Have been sleeping rather late these few days and eating abit too much! Gotta watch out on that!

Finally, I step foot into "Timbre". Went there 4 times and on the fourth visit I finally went in. boy oh boy... is it just so difficult to get a drink and get myself lost in good music?!

Wednesday's night Timbre outing was fanta-bulous! The company (weishan,ligen,cia and hannah) were great! Pizza was good. Talking about!! It's been nearly 2 months since I allow myself to indulge in treats like PIZZA! Since we were out to unwind and have fun!! Just gotta keep the rules in the pocket for that few hours.

Since we were at Timbre and, weishan and ligen were there too. How could we missed out something so important that has to part of our outing! Alcohol. ^_^

Ordered 1/2 a dozen of "Sex on the beach" and 1/2 a dozen "Tequila shot", buckets of 5 henieken and my "seabreeze" which they called in the "long gang" water. Had a glass of lychee champagne which taste like beer. Hoegarden to be exact.

Got way too out of hand and before I realise. I drank too much. Was sober but walking straight and up the stairs was difficult. Shared a cab with ligen and cia. Being the strong and kind me,I decline their offer to walk me up. Which I did manage to.

"Thump!".

I fell onto the sofa with my sister there. Wearing the wrong shoes, I become handicapped. My sister unbuckle my heels. Got up on my feet and almost fall back to the window. Got my balance back and walked a coupls of steps. I let myself fall to the floor effortlessly. Laid flat down with my sister,meichan, taking out my bracelets and necklaces. Crawled my way back into the room. But I still had the ability to remove my make-up and bathed.

Despite the hot shower and I couldn't wake up. Couldn't get the strength back. With another thump, I sat on my other sister,meiying's bed and asked if you could dry my hair for me. Which I felt my body fall lazily back on her.

And I crawled up to my bed and under my blanket. And it was sweet dreams.

With all those noise that I made and the time I was home, luckily my mum was still sleepily soundly that I could quietly sneak into bed. ^-^

And of cause! Having to be on leave the next day! =)

Time: 22:38pm (awfully sad but so true.)

Location: Lvl 26,ORQ.

yea... yours truly is still trapped in the office.

It's total madness,I would say,today. That's the thing I drag most when there's a HK holiday. And it makes it worse when you are all working alone. My kidneys are feeling oh-so-sick! Kidney failure to be exact. Or stones? that's what they say if you hold your bladder TOO long!!!
6 hours to be exact!

But work ended at about 10.15. Am here waiting for my Cia darling to finish up her work and the 3 of us(weishan,cia and I) will head off for some food to fill the empty stomach!!!

Sinful!! But still I've gotta eat! WATCH OUT!! That's gonna make you cry!!! Am still on a diet! Not that strict as before.

Lost about 6kg in a month plus!! more to GO!!!

Well guess that's about it for now.

Will update more when I rmb what I wanna say! ^_^

Here's a toast to all the lovely mothers in the world!

*cling*

But of cause. Mother's day is not only today! Only today is the day, that's what makes it special.

And no matter how big or small the gift is, they always appreciate it.

For us, mother's day celebration was yesterday. Headed to the crystal jade restuarant at Ngee Ann City. The total bill was abt 500+ and mum paid for it!! haha...

Ok pls don't start cursing and swearing for being such an unfillial daughter.

This mother's day my mum had the biggest present ever. Her wish came true.

I rmb having a conversation with her. She said mother's day is round the corner and I asked what does she wants.

She smiled to me saying,"I only have one wish."

I said, "OK! I'll get it for you."

I always knew what her wish was. So without hesitation I agreed. Cause I knew that even if she had the money to do so, she won't ever do it. The money will eventually be spent on us. Seriously there wasn't any pain to talk about when I paid for it. In fact, it was a sense of satisfaction. Finally it's my turn to be able to make her wish come true. However that's not gonna be able to repaid for what she has done for us. Never!!!

At least, she's happy.

It was sweet of my sisters to contribute a little(lots to them) despite that they are not working.

Now this was the thing that we bought for her.



yes. A 2.3K LV lastest and limited edition bag.

^-^

But if i'm gonna get it for myself!!! Saw the blood?!

It's over.

If you had met me by chance for the past 2 weeks, tell me something and i'll just forget it almost immediately. It was a hectic week for me. The previous week on friday, I gave tuition to near 12 after work. And since that day, you won't see me home before the clock strikes 12.

On monday, the eve of labour day, I worked till 8+ and headed to Nini's house for tuition. Left at 2+. Reached home.Showered. But it wasn't bedtime for me. Had to do some science papers for the answers. Didn't sleep till 5 in the morning. Before I could really rest, it was time to wake up and continue marking and searching the web for answers to questions I didn't know. And it was time for tuition again.

The worse? I taught till 2.30 on wed and had to wake up at 7+ for work.

Most amazing thing of all? I never thought that talking too much would EVER be one of the reason why I lose my voice. Was wrong. I just kept teaching and teaching. Talking and Talking non-stop for hours and hours. yea... by now you wld have thought drink more water. WHICH I DID!! more than 2 litres a day! It wasn't a sore throat. wasn't any pain to talk abt.

My voice was husky. My boss thought I was sick. For a week plus. I never imagine I could go to such an extent. The strength and determination from God was amazing.

And of all time, I made a terrible mistake at work. My boss had to clear my shit. It wasn't the best time for this to happen. I was feeling terrible. Wanted to quit out of guilt, cause I just felt I was incompetent. Perfectionist u can call me. Humans all make mistakes but I just can't allow myself to have that. I felt condemn. Condemn by my authoriser and boss.

Hannah woke me up with this.

"U're condemning yourself! No one is. God's people will NEVER be condemn!"

For a fact, it was right. All along I was condemning myself, cause now everything is back to normal. They're talking to me. casually just like the past.

That was the past 2 weeks. Hectic. Balancing between work and tuition. Kept busy every single minute,gives me no time or room for my mind to think about other things. The numbness of work. Overworking. I like it. Love it. Wished it could be like tat most of the time. Ain't nuts. I just want it.

Besides this 2 major things, I can't really remember what happen for the week. I think I've overworked so much that for the 2 weeks while I was working my memory span was less than 1 min. Was doing sth and had to divert my attention to something else. But when I'm done, I can't rmb what I have to do. Not just once. Probably a couple of times in a day. =D

Well thank God it's break time now!!

Anyways my mum bought me my 21st birthday pressie already! When i'm only turning 21 in SEPT!! End of SEPT! She said she was anxious. =.=

About what? No idea man.... But what I know is that. She's a super traditional mum when it comes to things like that. By now you might know what she bought for me. A necklace.... with a key pendant. It's white gold. It's really nice and I love it.

I asked why didn't you buy a DIAMOND necklace instead?!!! hahah...

Now that was a joke. Diamond ain't really my thing. Branded goods are never my thing too. It's definitely my mum's! Cause this mother's day, her wish is gonna come true but burn a big hole in my pocket! She's getting a LV for mother's day gift!! Can't believe it?

In fact, I was the one that say I'll buy it for you!! ^-^

Nothing wrong with that. She never bear to buy it for herself. Every single cent she earned, she spent it on us. And how is that 1,000 over bucks bag ever gonna repay her love for us. Something I ought to do.

Was having a casual conversation with my mum that day while I was taking a shower, while she was sitting in the kitchen. I asked her why don't she moved us. After all, we have al grown up and the space is getting smaller! and yea! with all my stuff.

"I can sell this house. Buy a new one and since I have not buy any new house before i'll get some blah blah... but i'm so old already. If I do so now, it's like putting a whole new burden on my shoulder."

She has got a point,I thought to myself.

"Anyways you guys are already so big and getting married in a couple of years. That time we'll just move in with you guys."

I laughed and told her. What if I'm still single at the age of 35!!!

"You won't." That sounded kind of worried from her tone.

I insisted. What if. And she finally said if that's the case, that time u'll buy a new house and we'll stay with you! Not a bad idea eh.

You can't rule out this possibility. The number of single women at the age of 35 is increasing rapidly in Singapore. I told her.

"Mami. Women in your era and my era are so different. And your daughter,me,belongs to the women of MY era."

That means it's the career mindset.

Men and women have equal work opportunities now. Over the years, everything have changed. Education was no longer just for the men but for women too. That was the time when they started to plant the seedling. A society with career-minded women.

In the beginning, men were supposed to lead and women to follow. Asked any women now, out of 10, 7 would laugh at that thinking. Yours truly is one of them.

Question.

Are men getting weaker or are women becoming tougher?

I would say. Men ain't getting weaker but in fact the women are getting tougher. More independent. Men were born to be masculine,tough and strong. Providing the kind of support for women. They still are now. Just that the difference now is that women are catching up.

I wanted to get married at the age of 22. Laugh if you want cause even I,myself, can't help laughing at my sillyness and stupidity. That thought was before I came out to work or rather before some incidents that had happen that made a major change in life.

It didn't took long for me to have the career woman mindset. about a month plus. The early marriage was out of the picture. It was all about supporting myself and my parents. Buy a house myself. Depend on myself,instead of waiting for someone to support me. Not a single tear for anyone or even any stress that come my way.

To me that's a weak woman. Not someone I would want myself to become. Not even a chance!

After so much had happen, it has become clear to me. The exact things that I have to focus and give my all at this point of time.

Enough said. Bedtime!

Ciaoz!