31/8

Dead dead dead... I'm dead beat.

It's the last day of the month. Work has taken the toil out of me. Mentally and physically. That I can't do anything now.

All I want now is to sleep and rest. It's 1st sep tml and it means I can apply for NIE already. But you know what, I'm not so enthu into it yet. Cause I really don't know what I want.

Anyways it's been raining so heavily for the two days but too bad. I can't sleep! Work always gotta spoil everything! Well work load was rather heavy today or should I say for the past few days. OT everyday but well there's OT pay so who cares.

27/8/06

First of all, not too sure if it's good or bad news. I've withdraw my resignation from ABN Amro. Don't ask why cause I don't know. And for a matter, yes I'm staying. So maybe just be happy for me?

I don't know what lies ahead of me. For now it's confusion and uncertainty.... erm... and more uncertainty? The next step is crucial cause it's gonna decide my future.

I really wonder why did I ever wish growing up faster when I was a kid. Growing up means more responsibility. And more decisions to make. But well, that's life. It's never forever 16.

I'm just slowly getting used to whatever I'm doing at ABN, while doing that I'll just wait upon the Lord.

I've gotten my first pay! And it's pay-day this week! Pay from ABN, pay from tuition. Shit! Now I'm thinking of how to spend it. When will this bad habit be gone. well it's already habit.

And ohya. To anonymous and anonymous, it's just a teeny-weeny issue. Pls don't start. Help me to keep it a happy blog. Would appreciate it.

P.S. try looking back a few entries.

To my esteem ladies and gentlemen!

I hereby announced that I,Jocelyn Lee, has verbally tender my resignation to ABN Amro Bank at 8.05pm! Yes I was still in the office!

Wat else work?! I totally can't stop smiling! Can you believe this! I finally said it out! I couldn't stop grinning to myself. =)

But I had to control! But I'm still glad!

Anyways I have an interview tml! Job that I like but the pay is definitely not as good! But well. Shall leave it to God! Let His will be done!

Nitez...

It's offcially my 3rd week at ABN Amro. Just in case, you think that I'm waiting for my first pay. You're so wrong! I'm just thinking of when would be the right time to tender.

Anyways I've been working OT since Monday! Except for yesterday. I've been knocking off at 8plus. It's only the 3rd week and it's already like that. imagine if I stay there longer.

I really hate telling myself everyday to hang in there and just do it. I'm sick of it. I totally hate the job but I can't bring myself to tender. Well we'll see how the other interview goes first. It's really not about the pay. It's my interest and about me being happy while working.

Oh well, I'm once again stuck in a situation of not knowing what to do again.

Just see how it goes.

Oh btw! I didn't know a typewriter in this era could actually "delete" away the wrong words you type! Ok right! Call me a hillbilly for all you want! I bet some of us really didn't know about it cause we NEVER EVER use a typewriter in our lives! Not even in the school!

And here I am like a fool trying to figure how to use the typewriter to type the wordings on a draft. And you bet it sure took me a long time. Probably the school should teach those taking my course to use a typewriter. Serious there's alot of things that you still have to do manually. After all, technology ain't that helpful.

Why do I sound as if I'm so happy there?

Crap.

And now I miss staying at sengkang! I've been staying there more often than my home. And I went shopping at compass point with my aunt. I was only given 3 hours to shop! And I sure did make full use of it! I spent like $103 at Metro. Please don't go "Eeee... Metro! Auntie clothes!"

If you did, I'm gonna smack your head! I can basically shop at anywhere! Even Chinatown! That's what I call real shopping! Anyways I bough a pair of super cute slip-in with a donkey print on it! "Aww... Cute!"

Okies sorry!

2 tops and a shorts! I think that's all... I could not buy more cause I wasn't allowed to! =D

But well i'm glad there's someone to stop me!

Holiday is over and it's back to... Oh I hate the word! Save it!

And it's a drag to even say "good night".

So it's gonna be...

That's all folks!

well let's see... it's my second week at ABN Amro. how is it like?

Totally sucks! There's never one day I would live without saying the sentence " I wanna quit!"

I have already gotten ready my resignation letter, it's just a matter of time when I will be tendering. It just makes me feel so guilty that Lydia(my head) is trying to rush the IT side to configure my PC with all those olympics and lotus notes! Totally so useless! And troublesome.

And talking about work there! The people there are so damn rude! Not those from my department! But those bloody private bankers! Trust them to call themselves PB! They know nuts man! Useless people! And Patricia Sng! You bloody idiotic PIG! Oh she's one of the PB! The super rude lady which I don't know why my ex-colleague could actually just let her push her around! Just so sry I was in a bloody bad mood cause i'm stuck doing this job! And just in time for me to vent it on this bloody pig!

My colleague, KC, was like so happy when he heard how I answer her man! She's so bloody unreasonable man!

Let's not talk about work. There's only one word! yucks!

Anyways been rather busy. Very busy in fact. And I need a change of job. I need a job that will make me happy.