mood: happy =)

Yes I'm happy but I don't know why. Probably a bad day would follow up with a good day. =)

I was supposely to knock off early today but I still went off at about 845. half an hour earlier than the usual time. But work was still rather smooth today.

And I had a great dinner of xiao long bao to satisfy my cravings for the night. After a hard day's work,soul food for the body! =)

Let's see what else... oh! the honeydew ice blended from coffee bean is nice and refreshing,just as how they advertised it. Should give it a shot but no promise that all of you would like it. It's still personal preference.

hmm... Have u guys had the experience of see-ing your crush once again after many years later? Not talking about the kind of crush with your classmates which you still see now. I really meant those who just disappear in your life with a snap of your fingers.

I have always wondered how these crushes of mine has turned out to be. Whether they have change for the better or worse. Physically and ya still physically cause I don't really know them well.

Like I say I was wondering how they looked like. And guess what... I saw one of them while I was on the bus just now. I could not imagine cause I've always wanted to see how he turn out to be. Plus the fact that he stays just 2 blocks away from me and I've not seen him round the neighbourhood for years. But I'm just glad I didn't see him all this while. =x

oops... just pretend I didn't say that.

oh my god! I think i'm gonna die of retribution one day. I've been "discussing" about how people looked! Oh god! All thanks to swee wah!! haha... if he read this, he's gonna feel so innocent and framed! haha... but who cares!=p

After 4mths plus, yes pals! I need to change my phone again. I've dropped my phone too many times. Now my LCD screen is giving me so much problems! So I'm deciding to get a new phone! Sony Ericsson is on the list that I'm gonna try. =)

okies... ciaoz peeps!

Finally this torturous week has come to an end and I'm just so drained from work. I know it's late and I should be in bed. Despite being drained, the reason why am still awake it's cause I was happily chatting away.

Reminisce of the good old days. And how Auds think that I'm rather stern.

But seriously, those will the days. Though I still have my serious times but I enjoyed almost every moment spent with them. And you know what! I'm just gonna make it happen again! This time round. It's gonna last for as long as we live. =)

I'm in the process of making it... to complete this delicious dessert! Nice on the outside. Tasty on the inside!

T'was wen min's last day at ABN today. I'm happy for her but sad that she's leaving cause one khaki is gone. And soon wei shan would be gone too. And I'll be left alone again. No one to bitch with or laugh with. Though I've know them for like 2 mths plus. But it seems like a life time. They're the kind of friends that I would wanna cherish forever and catch hold of in my life.

Anyways was sitting at my desk in the office and was thinking what do i really wanna do. This job just came to my mind.

"Wedding planner."

Helping couples to prepare for their first greatest moment of their lives. And see-ing the smiles on their faces when everything just falls in place. Helping them to look for the best gowns and suits for the dinner. And places to capture their blissful happiness reflecteds in their smiles and eyes.

Bringing a smile to people face.

Nice.

Let's end this with a nice good dream. =)

Did I ever mention to you guys about this colleague who sits besides me that hits the table and always scolding vulgarities?

I think I did. Cause everyday he does that.

And now? He's getting on my nerves.

"fuck.shit.si bei jia lat."

These are the words he always used and suddenly for no reason hit the table real hard. ugh. Imagine life sitting next to him. Sometimes I start to doubt if I'm 20 or he is. He's like in his late 30s but it doesn't seem so.

Ok I really have an issue with him. I better stop or else retribution will be upon me. =x

Now I'm back to my waiting-for-work-to-do state. Relaxing a little bit cause I've been working none stop since I step in for work during the past few weeks and esp. when we came back from bintan.

I had so much work to clear for the past 3 days. Fortunately for me, yesterday was a rather low volume day so ya... manage to finish evrything that was pending. even the forward value ones. =D

Lunch time is approaching... Gonna have Japanese Ramen. =D

Adecco

Haha... this whole adecco thingy is making everybody laughing their heads off! And creating a joke out of my boring and live-less life!

But for the last and Zillion time i'm saying! Auds and turtle! listen hard!!

Adecco is a JOB AGENCY!!!

Not a name in spanish,german,french or whatever langauage you think it is. =D

Oh well I've been home for 2h 30mins already. Yup.... everything went smoothly at work today except that I was feeling rather giddy and trying hard to really keep it still and not move my head too much or too hard.

*yawnx*

I reached my workplace at 9.30am today.... yes as usual I'm late! I'm never early for anything!

Sat down and before I could warm my seat.

"Jocelyn! Today got one SI and get ready for meeting."

Eanna ( my authoriser) said this and I was shocked cause I thought everybody else was waiting for me. But apparently not. Cause in the end the meeting started at 10+. Oh god you bet the meeting was so long, it lasted for an hour or so and I was trying hard to control myself from wanting to shit.

Karen,head of department,intended to start a operating manual for newbies. And she said this... "you can ask Jocelyn".

Karen: "Jocelyn. When she first came in, she didnt know anything and was thrown into the deep sea. She was so blur that she wanted to quit and be a teacher."

=.= thanks for telling the whole wide world.

But ok if not for this meeting I won't know that Karen didn't know what I was doing. She wanted to know why the P & R section are competing with the Securities side in going home late.

Eanna spoke up.

Eanna: "For Jocelyn is understandable. Cause she has to finish the outgoing first,then do the incoming funds,then the internal transfer through email."

Karen:"Huh. Jocelyn do so many things ar!" (in teochew)

She was shocked! I can't believe she don't know anything!! oh god. But here came the nice part.

Lydia:"Jocelyn is very good!"

Then came the applause! haha...

I was blushing with happiness. I don't know how that came along but that's exactly how i felt. When your capability is recognise, you're just on cloud nine.

Now that she knows, I hope they were be more bonus and high increment for me!! hiak hiak.... =D

Seriously, for the first time I pay so much attention to a business meeting. I learn alot. How all this mgmt actually go manage the section and department.

It comes in handy! =o)

Adecco.... to audrey!

Dear ladies and gentlemen! Remember! If you're not sure of anything, don't ever say anything! Or you might as well end up like audrey! Pls read the tagboard and u'll know why.

But thanks to her! She made me de-stress! And made Jo laugh her heads off!!

Auds! Auds! My dear auds! Now you know you better learn!!

haha.... I could not stop laughing even when I read my tagboard again! haha...

Nevertheless, Thanks for the good laugh! =p

And Auds is pretty proud of it cause she even blog about it!! =D

Wanted to photo blog but guess i'll give it a miss. I'm so tired and sleepy now.

The price to pay after a trip with the company? Long hours back at work!

Oh yeah... I just came back from my bintan trip with the company. The room was fab!! Fantastic! Peeps! You guys should check it out!!

You bet I start my bintan trip with a BANG!!

A loud bang in fact! I fell flat on the floor when i was in the company!! Yes yes... so flat that i got a carpet burn! I tripped due to the friction between my sneakers and the carpet! yes how stupid! And the worse thing. There was a guy behind and at the side and my boss was there too! Imagine that! how embarassing man!

Somehow... everyone knew after i came back from the toilet!

Audrey can you imagine? ARe you laughing?

All thanks to the new banking compliance rule, I have so much paper work to do. Piles and piles of papers on my table. The sight of papers now just scares me away.

And thanks to those banks which doesn't comply with the rule, I have to chase them by sending messages! Work load just ain't getting any lighter huh!

When things ain't getting any better, my boss told me my back-up is NOT coming in anymore! She's not coming in! My plans to go on leave and tution arrangement are all gone! gone! gone! GONE!!

How am I suppose to take a break like that. Just hope that Adecco quickly find someone! And I'll be all fine. I'm starting to lose all my patience in this job.

If I had not talk to Jo and Aud yesterday, I wouldn't have know that people actually do read my blog and IN FACT count the number of days I have not blog! My apologies.

That's why despite being so tired and having a bad headache, I still make an effort to blog today.

Anyways work was the norm. I mean what else can I say. That's the problem why I have not been blogging for so long.

There are so many things that happen every single day and I wanna blog it. But once I start work and everything. Those things and words just goes away and I'm only left with the word "WORK".

And I doubt anybody would wanna hear about it,cause it's just the same each day. Unless I make a grieve mistake. And I don't wanna belong to the group that once you're in the workin society, all you talk about is work. It's just like when boys are in NS, they talk about NS all the while.

who says that doesn't happen? It happen sub-consciously! Like when I went out with Kar heng, Halim, Ruben and his gf. The 3 guys just can't stop talking about NS! But the worse thing was I felt like it was like an outing with 4 guys and 1 girl! =)

Oh well that's me. Laugh out loud. I behave the way I am with people i'm comfortable with. If I ever were to try to control and try to impress someone, I think i'll just forget it. It's so uncomfortable not being able to be myself!

Anyways as I was always taught,my upbringing and religion, smoking is bad for health and it's a sin. I always hated the smoke, I still do now. Especially when some stupid idiotic fellow smoke right into my face! It sets me on fire and seeing red!

Working at ABN has become so stressful and I'm grasping for breath every single minute. It's so diffcult to find time to de-stress. Not even when i'm home resting. Somehow I still think about work. But guess what the thing that came to my mind,was the least possible option that would have even come to my mind.

I was sitting at my desk and suddenly this words came to my mind.

"I need to de-stress! I wanna smoke."

Yes... those were the words that came to my mind. I hate smokers but I don't know why it just came to me that smoking might actually help me solve the problem for at least for a couple of minutes.

It's the least possible option but it's also the least possible thing that could happen to me. I dislike the smell and hate the smoke. And I detest the side effects that can happen even more.

Therefore I'm still smoke-free now, though once in a while I would still think of it but nah it's such a expensive "exercise". I spend my money else where. ",)

That's all for it today. Gonna sleep soon I guess.

Will try to update more often! Ciaoz peeps!

Before the clock strikes 12 and end the first day of 2007! Here's wishing all you peeps out there Happy new year!!! Have a great and blessed year ahead!

Anyways 2006 have been kind of smooth for me. Very blessed in every single way! Even the tiniest thing in my life. And my new year resolution came through and that is to remain single in 2006. It would still be the same for 2007! No relationship! Definitely not.

But you bet that I started 2007 with a bang man! I headed to wala wala with zai,ven and zai's 2 other friends. And for my god-gracious life! I drank the most yesterday. Enough to make me high and laugh. For the first I drank so much. Was laughing loudly while walking through holland v. yes imagine that. But wasn't drunk. I could still walk in straight line.

And I always thought that girls puking after too much was obscene. And yes for the first time I puked outside the mac at beauty world. I basically puked out all the friies! For the first time, I reached home bathed and washed up in less then 10 mins!

So much for the start of 2007. But luckily I didn't have any hangover or headache. =)

Just woke up feeling that I won't wanna drink for probably as long as I can. Cause I'm still having that funny feeling in my stomach.

Anyways just watched "Stranger than fiction". T'was a ok show. quite funny too.

Sad thing is that holidays gotta end soon. It's back to work tml.

so it's just sigh....