Market Crash.

Boredom is killing me.

Penny of thoughts suffocating me with lots of stress and worries.

Studies.Work.Money.

And all these are unnecessary. I know it. So I'll just leave it to God.

I just need wisdom to plan everything properly. Life would be a whole load easier. And that includes spending money. Credit card bills was a killer last mth. 1.3k was charged to it! So control is definitely the word now.

Was emailing Arvin and he was suggesting on getting a busking license for the band. A totally fab idea. So we can perform on x'mas or any other day. But we'll have to go thru audition first. But currently practice has stop. And I need to resolve the key issues. Just hope the solution does work out.

Time now is 3:41pm. I have been sitting at my work station surfing the net since lunchtime.

Guess I'm really more of a workaholic. Ever since the lady who came in to help me out,I've been bored to death. Before she was in, I was so busy. So busy that I can't even think of anything. But now I've so much time to think! Think about what I wanna do. What are my plans in future.

To think is better than not to think. My job doesn't even require much thinking, if I don't think it's gonna get rusty soon. Need to make those brain cells work a little.

Work has been rather slack but each time when I'm abt to knock off. Things cork up last min. Then I'll be late. If today it's gonna be like that again. I'm just leaving. I just love days that I have classes. I can leave as I want and I have to! ^-^

It's almost 4. 2hrs 30mins more to end of work! And super duper long weekend!

Have been doing some random blog reading and talking to some friends.

And it seems that... EVERYBODY IS GOING ON A HOLIDAY!

Everybody is talking about going here,going there. I went there and here. Everybody is having plans to go here and there. blah blah blah....

When is it gonna be my turn? When can I start to plan? No... I should say when can I ever carry out my plan?

I've so many plans in my head. Zillion of things to do... But the foremost thing I have to do now is TO TAKE A DAMN BREAK! A tiny weeny short break, I would be more than satisfied.

Okay so here's how it goes:
24jan-25jan: stay home to study for my consumer behaviour test on sat.

and then I try to fit in some breaks in between to go on a holiday.

Mar:A short trip.

But realise I can't at all. Exams end on 23feb. New term commence on 12Mar. Too rush. Financially restraint too!

So I guess probably in Jul. Hmm... Not too bad. Seems okay.

Look further down the calender(and it's only Jan), probably oct or nov would be nice. Dec the best.

Damn! I have school in dec and all of our leaves are froze in the december. And 23nov is the last day of exams, new term starts 26nov.

So I'm only left with July. Last day of exam:22 June. New term:30 July.

The one and only term that gives me ample time. And probably during that time, financal wise would be good. Least I'm talking about the extras income, After starting my budget plan coming mth.

I'm pretty much pressing for time. And time is just ticking away. Talking abt time ticking away, I've yet to start my revision for CB test on sat. Gosh... Kill me.

Work has really exhaust me to the max and when I'm home. I'm just simply brain dead!

okays.back to topic.

Anways plan was to go bangkok in thailand. Not that rich though I'm working in a bank. So I shall go for the more value-oriented one. I need a shopping haven for me!! Shop like there's no tml!! haha....

sry got a little carried away. But who can I go with? Pan di might be going. Gotta call a few more gfs. If pan di can't make it,then it shall be gfs outing!! But max of only 4 allowed! No more than that!

So much of planning. Let's see if it's possible when the time comes.

Okays. Time to work.

Healthy Lunchtime

yes it's lunchtime and here I am sitting in front of my work station blogging.

Am just lazy to head out for lunch and besides I need to save up a little so I shall cut down on my lunch expenses and enjoy my healthy lunch made up of salmon and veg(tribute to my mum's money!) ^-^

I finally did sth to all my clothes and jackets that I've bought some time back(more than 2 yrs back is possible). Sort it out,pack them nicely and got my mum to bring it to the laundry shop downstairs my hse.

It cost a total of $67 paid by mum and not claimable!=)

Anyways I've been using office hours to blog everyday so it goes showing how manageable work is.

Schedule for the week is tight.
Today:Tuition
Fri:Finance class
Sat:gym,church & Pan di's cousin 21st bday
Sun:church and dinner @night.(gotta pop by popular to get my studen'ts assessment books.

Have got a test next sat morning. Consumer behaviour. Sigh. Haven really start studying. And I've yet to do my finance tutorial for tml...

Shit! It just came to my mind.

Time is already 13.28, have only got abt 30mins to study.

Grad the chance!

Cheers!

After surviving on baos,bread and milo for the past 1 mth, I finaly step out of office for lunch ytd.

It felt good cause it was only with WS and WM. A small group is what I would prefer now.

Shocking news:
WS is converting to perm. Just one signature away.

I was like! hello girl!!

*thinking* wish I cld hit her head to knock some sense. Asking her not to convert.

It may sound cruel but it's really the best option.

Staying here wouldn't be the choice of any wise man. Unless due to certain situation.
If not just get your arse out of here.

But anyways just rec'd an email from her this morning. She's stayin as contract for the time being until she sort it all out. Way to go granny!

Best news for the day:
Cia's last day at work. It may seems and sound insane that I'm happy that pple are leaving. But for a fact it's really the best choice. Rather than drown here.

Bad news:
I'm still here.

Am really starting to know the feeling of "unhappy at work."

Not a single trace of motivation at all.

I can't go cause I need the money. Cause the pay is freaking good. Cause the bonus is insane! And cause they are gonna sponsor for my studies without signing a bond after I complete my course. That's doubly insane!!

Gosh gosh.... I feel so trapped in this.

Time now is 18:16.

I need need to head for school soon.

Ciaoz peeps!

Each day as I go back home, I would tell myself.

"Jocelyn, you've gotta smile at work tml. You've gotta be hapy at work."

Each day pass, and weekends are here to say hello. And I'm still trying to tell myself this. I told Dean that I will be a happy Jocelyn.

But it turns out that I'm not. I came in today, not wanting to go out for lunch. Not wanting to join anyone or join the big clique for lunch.

I realised. I'm not happy at work.

The motivation and drive is gone. But definitely not a chance for my or others work to be screwed up.

Possibilities:
1) I'm sick of my work and need something new or more interesting.

2)I'm sick of the people,which is not likely.

3)I'm too stressed up trying to cope between work and school.

Guess (1) would be the biggest possibility. Well there's nth much I can do. Just stick my arse around for another a year or so. Then we'll see how.


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I'm almost 2 months into my degree course and in the mist of this. I'm thinking is this the thing I wanna do?

I'm coping quite well if you want me to say. I have never answer any finance question like I did now when I was in poly. Finance lessons was a terror to me! I simply don't understand why. Or rather I would say probably I didn't put in effort to know why.

I just wanted to finish up and get my arse out of this shit.

Finally bidding good-bye to finance with a big smile, I welcome finance back into my life after a year with a big smile and much enthusiasm. Can you believe it?!

uh-eh! I can't! I started doing my tutorials! And actually put in so much effort to try and study. And amazingly TRY to understand this shit! Tell me what's the funny thing abt life?

I took 2 days off just for a test on sat. It's not a normal test. It's 40% weightage! So if I'm looking at just pass and waste my money! I won't be taking off from work.

On top of all these stress, I'm failing in my emotions control. I lose my temper easily. I get irritated. I just don't know how to control all these blues and reds. And someone has to take it all my nonsense. Family are the ones you take for granted. But the even closer ones bears it all.

Pan di. You're the dearest in my life. Thanks for enduring with me through my emotion roller-coaster ride. I know u don't enjoy this ride at all, who will right. But you sat on it with no idea what kind of track is coming ahead. Till now U're still on the ride. Thank you so much...

Since the start of 2008, though it has only been 9 days, my record of taking cab has been clean. You have no idea how proud I am! until this morning!!

Damn!! Taxi fare are soaring!! Every 20cent the meter jumps,my heart is filled with anger! It cost me 14.40 to take a cab from home to office! This is insane! I think even cabby think likewise. I bet business are getting worse. In the past, I used to take taxi w/o hesitation but now?

No hesitation! Just take the bus!! Just wait!

Gosh... probably they should bring it back.

Thankfully work was fine. Not too bad. Lunch in with my finance notes and bread! Sad but yea...

Working and studying ain't that easy. Knew it from the start but there are more. I'm gonna make things work! And it will! Still have tuition.

"Jocelyn you must be insane!"

yea yea.... I know what you mean. But oh well... ... .... ....

I'm speechless too!

Tiredness is taking over. I'm losing focus now. My brain is sending msg to my body! Time to slp!
But it's time to study!

Ciaoz!

I've missed my last 2007 entry and first entry of 2008, it's the 4th day of 2008 and I've yet to come out with a proper new year resolution.

2007 just flew by unknowingly, and 2008 is here to say "Hi, I'm here to make you work harder! hahaha(evil laughter)."

Flash thoughts:

it's the last day of 2008, 2009 is here to say "congrats! you only have another 6 mths in this damn place!"

Bidding good-bye to 2007 wasn't a loud or happening one. Probably age is catching up. It was a moment of mix emotions. Sadness at 7pm, frustation at 9pm, laughter from 10pm - 2am.

Least there's laughter to be mention.

However sad,angry or happy the last moment of 2007 is, I'm all geared up for 2008.

Movie of the year 2007 (least to me):

Almost every scene was filled with excitement. Getting audience so jumpy. Probably off the seats if that was possible.

Can't get my fav. scene upload due to Co's computer restrictions.

Overall 4stars out of 5.