Grateful heart for 2010

Without fail, each year I'll be late for the last entry of the year. Few days before the year comes to an end, I have tons of things to say but somehow I'll be somewhere out there doing something else.

But today I'm sitting here typing with a little anxiety within me. And I can't imagine how fast a year has just gone by, both unknowingly and knowingly.

2010 has been a happy and kind year. But it wasn't the case throughout the whole year. I had my down moments first half of the year struggling hard. My one goal for this year was to at least get something started on getting a driving license and getting back in shape. But of 'cause neither of them happen.

Another one thing which didn't happen was my decision to leave, I was half a step away from plan. Sometimes I feel that somethings are just so amazing and God has His way to stop our impulsive actions. This year, it was with such great blessing that I had my once in a lifetime opportunity to go Belgium on a business trip and also my first ever trip to Europe. Never in my whole 24 years of life did I thought I would step foot on Europe. Or rather not so early but at least backpack not with such luxury for a month. I remember how depressed I was when I first got there, I forgot that Jesus is my comfort. He truly is. The rest of the days were a blast! This verse, His promise so true!

Joshua 1:3-9
I promise you what I promised Moses: ‘Wherever you set foot, you will be on land I have given you ... No one will be able to stand against you as long as you live. For I will be with you as I was with Moses. I will not fail you or abandon you.

Definitely not forgetting, friends who stayed up to the wee hours in Singapore chatting with me through the long day in Belgium. Never been so grateful for that before. I've learnt how to cherish the people and things beside me even more.

There are the friends who brought so much laughter to my life and colleagues who make working life so much more fun than ever.

And of 'cause, not forgetting the boyfriend who has been the most lovely person in my life. Taking care of the small little things which I always forget or never seem to bother at all. Being one month apart has brought us even closer together and our relationship to another level. We're putting in effort everyday but effortlessly. It doesn't matter if how we started wasn't the least romantic at all but we're putting many romantic and happy memories together now.

In a couple of hours, it's biding goodbye to 2010. I hope that you were step into 2011 with a brand new you and a fresh start. There's always a time for everything but never forget to have a time to give thanks for everything!

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

2a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

4a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

Happy & Blessed 2011, my dear friends!

Love,
Jocelyn

A quickie.

I just couldn't wait any longer.
Bought this top yesterday and I had to wear it today. And of all places I had to take it in the office's toilet! =)
And Pat thought that I was insane to take a photo of what I wore. It was a good chance 'cause nobody was inside, a full length mirror and good lighting! Perfect place! Love the polka dots, colour and puffy sides at the shoulder area. Reminds me of mum's era. Semi retro-fied.

 

Christmas was good and well spent with lovely people. I wore my boots!

Can you see my proud face? Proud to be an Aunt to a lovely niece like her.

 Ailing said wave is the next upcoming fashion.

 Who knows.

 Old man or baby boy?

It just puts a smile on my face each time I see this.

 "Little fockers" and Dim sum to boxing day.

Good night fellas!

Funny and weird

It's really good to blog, I feel.

It gives a chance to look back at some events or incident that took place many years back. Sometimes there is a limit to our human brain and we just can't remember everything that happen unless it's something that has a great impact on our life. 

I had nothing to do and thought maybe I should look back at some entries when I first started blogging 6 years ago. And I found out something really funny and weird. Which I totally forgot that it ever happen.

Can't stop laughing about it after I read it. In fact I was pretty shock. I shared with the bf and he said "How come." Hahaha...

It's shocking 'cause I actually did had this something going on with one of my church friend 6 years back. We went out together and it was almost like a date and actually count down to Christmas together, which I totally forgot.

I still can't stop laughing. But it was a good laugh.
And this gave me another reason to blog.

A season of sharing and giving

No more last minute shopping and wrapping of presents anymore.

Every year. At this time. I would be wrapping all the presents and pack them to give out in church. But this year I managed to get everything settled early and I could spend a quiet Christmas eve at P.S cafe @ Palais with Marilyn and Weibin.

How strange. The other side of Orchard was crowded with many people and traffic was so jammed up. But right over at Palais shopping centre, the trees blocked the view of the crazy traffic, the quiet surrounding and jazzy christmas songs makes Christmas more like Christmas.

It's the time to give, time to gather with close ones for a dinner and a good laugh.

As a kid, I always hope that I could have a X'mas party. But it wasn't a tradition for my family to do so. So I told myself when I grow up and get married, I would definitely have a Christmas party with lots of food and presents under the Christmas tree. Lots of laughters and love fill the house. And Christmas decorations to beautify the whole house.

Just this. It's good enough. It's not about partying hard and getting pissed drunk. It would be such a meaningless Christmas.

I hope this year's christmas would be good for everyone! And I'm looking forward to a long weekend with lots of rest and basically lazing around.

Blessed Christmas my friends!

Lots of love,
Jocelyn.

More mishaps

Just when I thought the day was bad enough. I realised that I misplaced my ATM card when I wanted to pay for my cab fare.

And I found my phone in my bag while digging for my ATM card! It was in my bag ringing and vibrating the whole day!

Seesh... "This week", please end soon!

Shit... Just keeps happening.

Talking about a lousy week.

I forgot to bring my phone today.

Damn.

It really hasn't been a good week at all. I started feeling so terrible and moody like I would kill. Then I had my break on Tuesday. But when I went back to work yesterday, I felt pretty crappy as well.

And worse of all, my forgetfulness and unintentional actions might have upset someone. Sorry is the only word to say.

But my mood swings are driving me insane too. I can't handle it well myself and I just wanna hide or be left alone.

Pre-menses symptoms. I hate.

Break

It's just 3 more days to Christmas and 10 more days to the end of 2010 yet I'm feeling so weary and tired.

I love Christmas and I should be looking forward to a brand new year but it seems so far away.

I need a break. Away from Singapore. Away from civilisation, the advanced technology of internet and handphones. Dump my phone aside. Totally uncontactable. Just the two of us on vacation and enjoying the local life.

I wanna pack for Malacca. Maybe. I should. On the 1st week of 2011. Get away from work which I hate. Will be on full shift from 9am-10pm tml. I hate. Totally. I hope I'll be out next year. It's been too long. Too much hesitation.

I shall check for the tickets later.

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Day at Universal Studio

It has been a pretty tiring day at Universal Studio today. The sun was hot and it was packed with lots of people. And Caleb's mood swing. It was all so difficult to deal with.

I just wanna have a good rest now. Doing my mask and surfing the net. That's all.

I seriously think I need to lose weight. I'm eating like crazy, my tummy is showing and I'm not feeling that happy about it. I try not to be so bothered but you need to get in shape to get in style!


A couple of stuff to update, will do so soon! And it's time to lose those FATS!

Not an opportunity missed.

My Belgium trip is cancelled 'cause they found someone from India to go. I guess it's the timing. They wanted someone urgently but I can only go from 3 jan onwards.

It's kind of disappointing cause my friend was so happy to tag along. But other than that it's okay. Things happen for a reason. It might look like a opportunity missed. But God got His plans. The timing just wasn't right. With X'mas and new year round the corner and these 2 events are even more important than my birthday. And I wouldn't wanna spend it alone as well.

Gonna meet Mei and Wan chien for dinner today. It's friday but am in heels. It goes with what I wear. Can't wait for the day to end soon. Wanna do some 'me' shopping today!

Hope you start your friday good!

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The early sound of the christmas bell!

I had a chat with a friend far away last night and I'm quite surprised to hear that so much have changed after I left Belgium almost 6 months ago. I promised I'll keep it a secret so I won't share it but I'm just so proud of her action toward this issue. And I certainly hope that my listening ear was useful.

Anyways the christmas bells rang super early in the office! We had our "Decorate our lorong competition" judgement today! And I'm pleased to inform you that our lane was the best looking one! All the efforts and teamwork for today was worth it! The judges like the doves and were quite fascinated by it.

They said we're the one declaring war! I say we're encouraging all of them!

But it doesn't matter who really wins at the end of the day, it's the process that matters the most and bond us together. It was great to see all the rows trying hard to outshine each other if not our ordinary fish tank would not be liven up with the christmas atmosphere.

And you think that's all? Definitely not. We had generous prizes from the few Team heads and bosses for the winners. Not just that! We had lucky draw for 3 person. 3rd prize was $100 capitaland vouchers and $170 for 2nd prize.

First prize. I shall conclude that you guys didn't get high pay for nothing! =) An itouch!

Funny thing is that our colleague, Lucy, was supposed to get it. But she was on block leave. I can imagine... If she ever found out or heard about it, I think she's jumping high and low somewhere in New Zealand! Probably crying! Evil. I know! hahaha...

And we can close this competition by singing "We have joy. We had fun!". 

 Self - made photo frame! Thumbs up for Patricia!

 "Villagers" from lorong 5!

Always forgetting the slippers!

 My gossiping group in office! Who keeps secrets just between ourselves!

Ah ying, My other half in the office.

Ah bu neinei Santa!

Alright! Good night peeps! Hope Christmas would be fun for you this year!

Bad and a couple of good

It's been quite awhile since I updated a proper entry. I just couldn't.

Last week till this wed was some tough time for me. I had TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder ) and the jaw pain was killing me. It affected my hearing and somehow my concentration for almost everything. Even opening my mouth for a normal bread was tough, it had to be in small bites and am already a very slow eater. It was fatigue to even chew, what's more about talking. And I couldn't laugh like how I usually did.

You must be wondering what took me so long to see a doc. I had jaw pains before lasting for 1-2 days but this time was really bad. Till I had to go see one which gave me nothing but medicine for fever/pain/headache. Of cause I wasn't convinced! He even laughed at me when I rejected the MC! No more intern doctors anymore I swear! So the next day, I went back to my usual doctor and I have to complete my whole course of medication for 2 weeks to bring down the inflammation. It was quite funny when he said I had to rest my jaw which was tough. I had to go for soft food, no laughing with mouth wide open and try not to talk so much.

Well it's the 3rd day of medication, am able to open my mouth slightly bigger but I can feel it's still weak.

On a happy note, my boss brought me delightful news on wed morning. I might be heading to Belgium again for 2 weeks. It's not really confirm yet, depending if they can find anyone over there to help out. It would be lovely if I can go. Of cause the business class experience once again and first winter and snow experience after 24 years of life. :)

Not forgetting the much slower pace of life. I really wanted a break so this would be good if I can go. My bosses are really worried about me since I have quite a weak health. Or maybe a nicer term which they used. Delicate body. Winter is gonna be pretty tough for someone who can't withstand the coldness in office. But I'll make full use of my winter allowance.

I have my worries about this trip if I can go. Till then I'll update you 'cause it's quite silly.

Anyways I had lunch with my Amsterdam colleague who came here for a project. Brought her to have some beef noodles and she likes it. But I hope she really does. We had a really good chat and find somethings in common! Besides I've learn something! Buy some good cloth from Arab street and get a photo of your favourite dress, bring it to the tailor. And wala! You'll have your favourite look alike designer's dress at a dirt cheap price! Can u believe it! She's telling me where to get stuff in Singapore! I'm not disgrace by it 'cause most Singaporeans don't do that. Maybe I should start digging up my old magazines and cut out pictures soon! =)

X'mas is pretty much round the corner and everybody is busying doing X'mas shopping and putting up decorations. My workplace is definitely not giving a miss to join in the fun as well. We have this "Decorate your Lorong competition". Most of them have started putting up and some even completed! But my row has yet to start. We have the idea in our heads and since everyone's decorations are in red and gold. I thought maybe we could go for a dazzling white x'mas instead and a snowman! I just love X'mas! It's all about giving and sharing!

I did some X'mas shopping yesterday though it wasn't so sucessful. But I manage to buy a new pair of red heels! =)

Now I can throw away the old one!

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Tick Tick Tick.... It's friday!

The last and only time that I hope weekend would pass fast was when I were all alone in Belgium for 1 month. I still remember. There were too many weekends and too many long hours to go by.

But today, I'm hoping Sunday come quick for the bf's return from KL.

I don't know but it's kind of strange to not have him around me, I feel that half of me is missing.

Okay so I do miss him. I'm glad. I was still doubting myself this morning.

Anyways it's friday and I'm still in the office feeling starved! Had a really early lunch.

Nothing special tonight just heading to my cousin's place to babysit my niece and nephew. But I think it's fun enough.

I guess this week will be packing my stuff and clearing some old stuff to get the re-vamp starting.

Alright! Have a nice weekend!

Apart

The bf will be heading to KL over the weekend. Yes sadly without me. Leaving me all alone in this small miserable island.

Gonna miss him and spend weekend without him. Kind of not used to it. But maybe I can meet some friends or get down to some laundry business. Way too many clothes piling up.

Anyhow it's Friday. Hope your weekend would be good.

The new chapter

Sometime last week I had lunch with some friends. I've knew them at my current workplace 4 years back and both guys had left for better opportunity outside, leaving only Weishan and I strangling with our decisions. They have heard us bringing up the word "resign" many times but we're still here.

But this is not the only thing that they have caught up with. Marriage is. Dean's having his wedding next march. Jossie, on the other hand, is already married and becoming a father soon!

And here comes the question. "So! When's yours?"

It's strange 'cause my mum has not push me on this yet. In fact not in my family. My uncles and aunties got married late. My cousins as well. And I'm only 24 years old. Some may think it's time but not to me.

5 years more. At least that's the earliest. There are just too many things that are more important on my list and marriage is not in sight yet. But I'm definitely settling down, just not now.

And so it was 2 against 2. 2 guys who thinks that 26 is the time to get married against one girl that thinks 28 and above is the right time and the other who thinks marriage is not necessary. Am I missing something here? Are things changing too fast? From then till now. Have  females taken the place of males?

Then I dropped a question. "Is there a difference being a married couple and dating couple?"

2 nods was what I got from the 2 man in front of me. Dating means you don't have to see that someone every single day. But marriage is seeing that person everyday. Getting used to his/her habits. And losing your own free time.

Hello! Who's logic is that? 

But I thought it was not. Maybe I stay over pretty often that we know each other living habits so well. Of 'cause we do. He finds me so lazy that sometimes he just can't stand it either. He's so neat and organised but too naggy sometimes.

But didn't you guys proposed because you love her and I'm sure you said this when you're on your knees.

"... and spend the rest of my life with you."

Ladies, you said yes almost immediately.

So why is it different. You love that person so much that you should be happy to see the person you love everyday. Sharing every moment or event that had happen for the day. It's about putting in effort to maintain a relationship. A marriage. Balancing between family and friends.

Communication is necessary in all relationships whether it's with friends,family or partners. You need to talk to solves issues. That's something I like about him, we always talk. Happy and unhappy. At least we know what each of us is thinking. Relationship is not a guessing game or stressful task. Relationships makes you breathe easy. It's sweet. Oh but sometimes sour or bitter.

I don't know what it's gonna be like 5 years later. Whether either of us will change and whether the bond and love between us will still be that strong. But I can say we're both putting in effort in this relationship effortlessly.

Well, I guess it's all about making the right choice before you enter the next chapter of life. Marriage it's sacred. There's no time for regrets once you step in. Carry on and make things work out.