I'm not sure to be happy or not.

If happiness was water... Then there isn't a single drop of it in me.

Somehow I'm just not happy. Not satisfied. It's not worth the amount of work I'm doing.

Now I just have to be double efficient.

Work,yes to my amazement,it ended at 7.30pm sharp.

And the bus came at exactly 7.35pm. Headed home for a bath before I went out to catch a moive. Watched "Ghost Rider" with Swee Wah. Not a bad show. But I simply could take the volume. It was way too loud for me and we were sitting to near.

But overall it's still ok. Tired but come on! I finished early like once in a blue moon! I had to go have some life.

Okies. Tired.Seeing stars already.

Ciaoz!

Was expecting a massive traffic jam down at Keppel Road this morning since it's the first day of work after chinese new year. And people might still be in the holiday mood. Well at least for me it is. But it turn out otherwise,the traffic for smooth sailing and there wasn't even a slightest jam to talk about.

And I suddenly thought to myself. Oh shit. Am I supposed to start work today. Was it tomorrow? I didn't want to dress up and reach the office just to realise that I've made a mistake in coming in to work today.

I was hoping I was right but too bad. It ain't that good.

Despite staying home to rest for the past 2 days, I am still very sleepy now. Reason?
I slept at 2+ last night.

And now. Even the fax machine which has rested for so many days is down. Probably everybody and everything needs abit of warming up. I missed the bus in the morning and had to take a cab or I may just reach miserably at 9.45am. 9.30am is already bad enough. So I took a cab and guess what. The cabbie needs warming up too. T'was a lady cabbie. From the look and the smell of her cab, I reckon she was new. Plus the fact that she didn't know her way from my house to ORQ. Given that it was only a short distance and most cabbie would have know how to reach here.

I was thinking of catching some sleep while on the way to work. I mean that's what all of us would do after a late night sleep. But sad to say. I could not. She could not even read the signboards or road boards clearly.

Was rather annoyed but tried to be patient. After all, everybody has their first time. =)

I'm starting to think the break was to get prepared for the battle today. I have not done anything for today. I did but it was from last week. I have a bad feeling and I'm quite sure about it. Emails are coming in. Incoming logs has reached 34 and given the time now., it's way too early for this figure.

What's more can I expect.

My leave on friday!

The break that I finally long for is gonna be over soon, that is in less than 24 hours time.

But this break just came right on time.

Before that, Happy Chinese New Year Peeps!! Hope you guys had a great one! I did. Lots of sleeping and resting at home. Just lazing around.

It's the 3rd day of chinese new year and I've finished all my house visiting on the first day! =D
Didn't collect much of hong baos since I've only been to my uncle's house. And the thing I was looking forward to for this cny wasn't the hong baos, it was more of the rest and sleep I could get.

Work has totally took all my time that I didn't not had time to spring clean and given the mess in my room, I knew I need the time badly.

And so friday I finished work at 9.30pm, I definitely could not do it cause I was dead beat. I came back feeling so tired and really wanting to give this job up. But a good sleep does it all.

And thank God, I didn't have to go back to work on saturday. Boy! It was new year's eve! So it was spent packing the room. Phew. Lucky me. I had my cousins to help me. So it wasn't that bad.More hands, twice the speed. Did all the vaccum,mopping and cleaning. Didn't really do a thorough one. But good enough as compared to before. And I realised I have so many new clothes that I have not washed!!! Some have been there for almost a year!!! And it's still there!! oh God!!! I need to really do something to it. That is! Washed them soon!!!

I could almost fall asleep while packing. All of us were tired and sleepy! Started packing from 1pm and just in time for our reunion dinner, without taking a bath yet! =D

We had steamboat this year... again... But we never got sick of it. It's fun. And another thing that never change every year is... We would never fail to quarrel with each other. But I would say it's kind of tame this year. It lasted for awhile. But not as bad as the previous year.

And without fail, our programme after the dinner would be to join the crowd after dinner. But sadly, this year i was too tired and had the only intention to zonk out at home. No matter how my sisters persuaded me to go, I just rejected them. That they just got to bed. Cause they knew they failed.

Did I ever tell you I have a soft spot for friends?

If I didn't, now you know.

Jerm called me at exactly 15 mins before the clock strikes 12! To ask me to go chinatown!!! I told her I was tired and I really need rest... blah blah... but like I said. I can't reject a friend. So we went instead. Was supposed to wait for my cousins and his friend to come home for a game of monopoly. So in the end change of plan. My sisters,cousins, Jerm and I, a total of 7 of us went to chinatown. But it was quite a bore this year, probably we went too late. It wasn't as squeezy and I didn't manage to get anything at all. ok except for 3 pair of earrings. That's all. It was so bored.

We stayed there for only 1-2 hours, went to look for my cousin's friend whose working at party world ktv. Talked to him for awhile and headed to look for swee wah.

We met, we talked and look at each other. Guess what?! We didn't know where to go or what to do! We stood by the road thinking and thinking and thinking.

Final decision?! To head to my house for monopoly! Imagine 7 people in the middle of the night! No not middle! It was already 3.30am! At that time, we were still laughing and shouting loudly!! For your info,my house isn't that big. But we... no they! had fun. I was practically too tired to play the game. Paired up with swee wah. But thanks to him! Before we even start the game, he said he had a feeling we would lose. And thanks thanks! We did. So I left him battling alone. Was kind of worried that he wasn't comfortable at my house. But turn out otherwise. He had so much fun, that I left him there to go to bed. Luckily he knew Jerm and my sisters.

So yup... that was my new year. I slept at 5 in the morning and woke up at 8.30 am!! It was a sunday had to head to church before the visiting starts! =)

Headed to uncle's place for lunch and saw my baby niece!! Oh my!! She's so cute!! And so FAT! haha... but it's ok. And I fed her... boy she's so heavy that my arms was getting numb... and it was quite a big bottle of milk. My uncle said I'm qualified to be a mother already. Passed the test! ;)

But seriously, I'm not sure if i'm up to it when I really have one. It's different.

Headed to my grandma's after that... stayed there till I met my mother's side uncles,aunts and cousins to catch a movie. "Follow the law" was what we watched. Funny. Very typical Jack neo's movie, very Singaporean.

Finished the show at 11 plus. And that's it. I could not take it any longer already. With the work and amount of sleep for the past few weeks. I was really getting giddy already. So my uncle drove me home while the rest of them headed to Marina to walk and spent their time at starbucks.

I came home,bathed and just fell asleep on my bed.

And for yesterday. Nothing much. Cause I just stayed home to sleep and rest.

Nothing interesting.

Okies.. I just woke up 2 hours ago... now I'm sleepy so I'm gonna take a short nap. =)

And ya... Will photo blog in a couple of days time!

It's been a long and torturous week. Work was like fighting a battle. A race. A race against time that victory is seldom on the same side as human.

For 2 weeks. 2 freaking weeks! Out of 5 days, I would go home at 10+ for 4 days. I'm barely hanging on anymore. Mentally and physically, every single energy inside me is taken away. Sucked dry by ABN.

My health is giving way soon. And I know that. I get giddy and my gastric is acting up more often recently. I couldn't go to sleep until 3am last night, cause the pain was unbearable.

I'm barely hanging on anymore. Trying hard to brace myself up!

Before my morning has really started, I already had so many things to do and so many problems... and the meaning behind this?

That is... I can't knock off early today... which is quite a high possibility.. since we are having a meetin now! to 1pm... thanks! 2 hours gone!

The bad thing of finishing work early the day before is that you're never able to go home early the very next day!

So I did enjoy the once-in-a-blue-moon privileage to knock off yesterday and I headed to bought my bedsheets cause I don't think I'm gonna have time this weekend. And definitely not next week during days cause of work and plus the fact it's gonna be near CNY, we are expecting lots of payments. And CNY is next weekends!

Red packets! Red packets!!! Bonus!! Oops... =x

I didn't just say that!! I didn't!!

Yes I did!! haha...can't wait!

Anyways yup... I finally bought my bedsheet with a kind companion, Mr Swee wah! Actually maybe not... probably he just wanted to take a breather from studying that's why he was willing to accompany me... haha... =D

I spent like 95 bucks at Aussino for my bedsheets. But am satisfied, can't wait to change it and sleep on it...

Now I forgot the purpose of this entry already. haiz.. see what work can do to someone.

Ciaoz peeps!

Just came back from lunch and am so lazy to start work but just sleep.

My jaws are feeling so tired after the 2 days of chewing gums to keep myself awake during working hours. To keep those eyes of mine wide open so that I won't missed out any single instructions.

It's only a wednesday but I have been working till 10+ for the past 2 days. With such a start,I'm not sure how is it gonna go for the next few days. I'm supposed to meet up with swee wah but have been going back on my words. Now for that I really have to apologise pal!

And CNY is not gonna make things go any better.

I'm tired and really need a break.

Somehow I feel that my health is deteriorating. I'm getting giddy spells all the while. And on monday I could almost faint from the gastric pain that was overbearing since lunchtime. Maybe fainting/collapsing won't be a good idea. At least I get a longer MC to stay home for a peaceful rest. hmm... sounds like I'm dying soon.

Anyways it's wednesday, hope it's a better day!

GO OFF EARLY!!!

The weekends are finally here. Phew what a week at work, it's always like going for a battle. So much to follow up since Eanna has gone on leave. A week of leave in fact. Hope things settle in a little and go on smoothly as we're short of the manpower if anyone goes on leave.

As usual, I'm working my arse off. Being the only pathetic soul doing the HK box, while 3 others are doing SG box. And i'm starting to feel tired and irritated, and starting to complain more often. It's not the work i'm complaining about, it's my colleague. His hissing and noise are getting on my nerves. It startes from when I step into the office at 930 till he finished everything. And now I can't the least be bothered to talk to him anymore.

He likes to not pick up his calls and it would be route to me. Like yesterday, there was this poor lady waiting for him to fax something to him! The lady sounded so pathetic! It's a friday! Ya we have work to do but she doesn't! Why can't he just get it done and over and let the lady go home. That was the first call. Half an hour later!! Imagine the girl waited and waited! I would just bloody come up and look for him! He refused to pick up and it was routed to me. The worse thing he had the cheek to tell me.

"Jocelyn, if the call is route to you( HELLO! Isn't it obvious it will EVENTUALLY route to me), say KC left!"

Damn! You bet I was so pissed off! I didn't even answer or picked up that stupid call!

I mean how much time can faxing take up?! And he was almost done with his work and I'm NOT!

He's just the typical kind of person who show favourtism. Thank God he's not my boss. Sometimes I really pity those people he shouted at. Like yesterday.

I better stop talking about him or else I'll just list out all the bad comments I have about him. Not that nice.

Like a flash, the first month of Jan 2007 has ended. Chinese new year is just round the corner. hmm... new clothes?! maybe not... we'll see about that. Oh and it's definitely the month of love.

About that I've something to say. But not now... cause i'm running late!

Bathing time!