Ok never blog for few days... Coz I'm really busy!!! It's Christmas season you see...

Anyway! First of all!! Merry Christmas peeps!!! I know it's one day late!! But well! I send out my wishes on the day itself too!! I hope you guys receive... Anway it's still Christmas coz somewhere somehow they were be still people exchanging presents and wishing each other... But anyway!! May all your wishes come true!! And have a blessed Christmas!! If your christmas wish have not come true! It's ok!! You still have new year wish!! A new year, a new start, a new beginning and a new journey... If the year has started and your wish still have not som true yet! It's ok!! Wait patiently!! It will!! :P ok... i'm not crapping...

Let's see what happen this few days...

23 Dec
School started at 9 and ended at one... Super tired... But still headed down to church for Christmas practice coz we won't confident enough... So only Andy, Adeline and me were there... And Andy was late again!! Always!! Ok I'm no better! So practice for worship on Christmas itself... Then Adeline went off... then waited for my sisters and they were freaking late... I was quite disaapointed adn angry with them... They don't seems to bother... told them to come at 6+ they came at 8+... Well, I've nothing to say... anyway it's over... so Andy and I did the skit without them first... had to shift things here and there ourself... but still manage to get things done... reached home at about 11+.... totally tired... fell asleep straight away after lying on the bed...

24 Dec
Yeah! It's Christmas eve!! And school finishes early!! Started at 9 and supposed to end at 5... but coz it's Christmas eve it ended at 1!! haha... Ok!! I was totally not looking forward to go to the train station... Coz I was meeting my fren there... he wants to pass me present... I was so scared!! I didn't look forward to get his gift!! Let me tell you why I'm scare... He was supposed to pass me the present on wednesday at Dover mrt... But he couldn't make it!! And the night before he kept insisting on coming over to my house area to give me!! And I told him no... don't want!! But he kept insisting!! Guys!! let me tell you this! When the girls say no for the first time and you asked the second time... the girl will just say no again... If you are going on for the third or fourth time!! PLS DON'T EVER EVER DO THAT!!! It's gonna pissed us off!! So open up your eyes and ears!! Actually it applies to girls to... in fact everyone!! ok back to track... Saw him at the station... I was scared that I grabbed Shunli's two fingers and pulled her with me... the moment he gave me the present I just wanna GO!! Ok... I don't know why I'm so scare but I just don't want to see him...

When I reach the platform, cia and shunli were more anxious to see the gift! Coz there was a card too... OK... i decided to see the gift first! And I tot it was a smart choice! It wa indeed! Ok then I read the card... the moment I saw the word I threw the card to cia... and hug on Shunli... now I'm thinking should I write a note to him to explain things clearly... I think I should... Don't want to have any misunderstanding... As Lj always says "Assumption is the mother Fucker of all things"... opps! haha...

after that headed down to PS to get Andy's gift... then headed to church for the last practice... After prac headed to my Aunt's place for dinner... NICE~! The food was not bad!! The hamsters were cuter!!! haha... so fat!! And their fur are so soft and nice!! hah... But didn't stay there long coz met Andy to watch "Kungfu Hustle"...

Met at Suntec... The show was not bad... quite lame n funny... But it doesn't worth $8.50... worth $6.50 only... Andy was so sweet... haha... he bought me a Cranberry drink! And gave it to me in the cinema... was shocked! but anyway thanx thanx!!

The show ended at about 10+... and he didn't want to head home before 12 so went to Pacific cafe at citilink to slack... not bad... once we reached we found a place... then we talk and then he wrote his cards... then wished each other "Merry Xmas"... and of coz busy sending msg... Yup! This was how I spend my Christmas eve... Though It wasn't the way I wanted it to be... But at least I'm not alone... :)

We left at about 12+... and he send me to the bus stop and I told him not too... but he insisted... ok then... End up he send me home.. He said he were wait for the bus to come and I joke with him that you might as well send me home... and he said he actually intend to... and I told him not to~! And believing that he won't... but when the bus came he boarded the bus too... so no choice! But anyway thanx!! Had a gd christmas eve... Thanx for asking me ot go watch "Kungfu hustle"...

Came home quickly wrapped all the presents!! haha... kind of last minute but no choice... slept at about 3+...

25 DEC
It's CHRISTMAS!!! haha... Kind of nervous... coz today was the performance... And I'm really scared... Well, I was so nervous... And so Andy suggest that we pray... And after praying I cried... MAN! But well the worship and skit went well... had good feedbacks from the floor... They said we acted well!! Barrie said I look so confident! But actually I was freaking nervous!! haha... Hmm... I'm gd!! :P haha...

Then took photos with my church mates and friends... Jermaine! Thanx for coming!!! Thanx for the care bear!! Really like it alot!! I was hugging it to sleep last night! And guess what!! I had a good sleep! And I dream of someone!! haha... Will tell you when I meet you...

Gave out all my presents!! Hope you guys like it!! Andy! Hope you like yr G-string!! and of coz the guitar picks!! I really don't know how to choose! Sorry! Glad to hear you are fascinated by it!!

Headed to Bugis with Jermiaine to get some stuff for my trip to msia...

26 DEC
Went to church in the morning for service... went to Tiong Bahru just now to get some stuff... and yeah I'm heading for msia tonight!! haha... looking forward to it... Missed four days of school!! haha.... Shiok!!! But it means four days not seeing you... haiz... anyway don't worry I will get something but for you guys! If I can! ok I'm off to wash my hamsters cage then get some rest... it's gonna be a long train ride to K.L... My butt is gonna hurt!!!

Take care peeps!! C u guys! Four days later!! Gonna missed you peeps!!!

my eyes are feeling so heavy... i'm so tired... school starts at 10 today ended at 1... then immediately rush to go meet Jess to get Christmas presents!! and my heart hurts!!! I took $150 out and my wallet is empty now!! And I still pay by nets!!! Wth!! Haiz... Christmas time is the time whereby I'm always broke... But well... Giving is always happier... :P So don't really mind...

Bought candies for the percussion section and the class... Bought alot... ohya... I hurt my hand again... So had to go see the sinseh... my hand have to bandage for 3 days... man it's very painful... wanted to wait for it to get worse like before then go consult a sinseh but thinkin about percussion... make me change my decision... :P Spend another $17 for nothing... And I found the reason... It's becoz of my phone!! I know it sounds ridiculous!! Coz when I told everyone the reason they just gave me the same kind of look... So don't ask... I always had to exert alot of force to hear what the party says... So after a long time... This is the end result... Get it? No... then it's ok...

Band prac was kind of boring today... didn't play much coz of my hand... Sian... They are going to change the days for band prac... tuesday and thursday... tuesdays are my tuition days!! can't change!!! Haiz... hope they won't change... Coz it will affect my schedule alot...

School starts at 9 tml... I doubt I can wake up man!! Confirm late one... Tml still got christmas prac in church... need to rush to buy other gifts too... haiz... AndI have not wrap all my presents!! AH!! No time!!!

guys take a look at the website below... it's cute...

http://www.iloveegg.com/winopen_ani/ani11.htm

hmm... a rather long day... slept at about 12+ yesterday night... coz i was super tired... Sort of had a good sleep... slept till this morning 10+... coz have to wake up to collect the stringray that my mum ordered for me... yup... for the bbq for the graduation ceremony for the band seniors... every section was asked to bring at least 2 kind of food... so we brought stringray and french fries...

Yup... as usual me and jerm were in-charge of the shit job... collect the stringray and marinate it!!! YES!! I MARINATE IT!!! well, I don't know whether it's nice or not... coz I followed my mum's instruction over the phone... a litte sesame oil and pepper... and LOTSA chilly!!!! haha... Hmm... I really think market it's not a place for me to do my grocery... supermarkets are more suitable for me n jerm... haha... we look like idiots there lor!! all the aunties!! experts!! My god!! and I was using english to speak to the guy who sold vegetables... haha... lucky he knew how to speak english... I guess it's the uncle's son... haha... coz he's young... *phew*

And I didn't know 1 kg of Lime is SO MUCH!!! And it's only A DOLLAR~! my god!! ME n Jerm was like!! WAT!!! SO MUCH!!! SO CHEAP!!!! MAN!!! RITE!! IMAGINE THAT!! WE REALLY SOUND N LOOK LIKE IDIOTS RITE!!! haha... :P

After marinating the stringray at my house... Took my shower and went to church for Christmas practice... went there early to wrap gifts... then practice started at 4+... Did the skit... man!! Kind of tough for me man... Was trying very hard to do well... And PLS STOP MAKING FUN OF US FOR GOD SAKE!!!

After practice, went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner with my sisters and cousin, Jess... Had lots of food... And after that headed home... We didn't take a bus or cab... YUP!! we walked home!! Man! I feel so good!! All the food had been digested!! And a good form of exercise!!! Took about 2 hours to reach home... and we were singing loudly and dancing on the road... haha... I know it's crazy, stupid and paiseh... BUT WHO CARES!!! Is either I'm sad or I'm be happy!!! so I rather be happy...

Ohya... Was reading Venassa's blog... came across this... It really motivates me when i read it, babe!! For *ehem* U know who... and of coz other things... It makes lots of sense... If today u have fail to do something... don't give up... contiune... Coz failure doesn't always means a full stop.... the end of something is the start of a new life... Read this guys!!! Simple yet easy to understand, simple but great impact...

Failure.

Failure doesn't mean you are a failure,
it means you have not succeeded.

Failure doesn't mean you accomplished nothing,
it means you have learned something.

Failure doesn't mean that you have been a fool,
it means you had a lot of faith.

Failure doesn't mean you've been disgraced,
it means you were willing to try.

Failure doesn't mean you don't have it,
it means you have to do something in a different way.

Failure doesn't mean you are inferior,
it means you are not perfect.

Failure doesn't mean you've wasted your life,
it means you have a reason to start a fresh.

Failure doesn't mean you should give up,
it means you must try harder.

Failure doesn't mean you'll never make it,
it means it will take a little longer.

Failure doesn't mean God has abandoned you,
it means God has a better way for you.

Hope you don't mean, Ven... Coz wanna share it with all my friends...

Hey peeps!! Always rememeber this!!

tired? bored? sad? ???

I'm feeling so down now... It's written all over my face... I guess everybody can see it...

School was kind of bored today... well... I didn't sleep well last night... Slept at 2+... then woke up at 5+ coz my mum came into my room to wake my cousin up... then went back to sleep then my dad woke me up to lock the door for him... WTH!!! Then I couldn't go back to sleep... managed to catch some sleep before waking up at 7.15... Lesson started at 9... didn't want to take a cab... lucky I was early... But I had a terrible stomache!! Still bear with it! till I reached school...

I was freaking tired... So by the time it came to MA lecture... I was already stoning... And it was only the second lesson... Imagine the whole day... 9-5... haiz... Super tired... and it was a day that last with no more than 10 words spoken... :(

After school, came home and went for the family gathering at my uncle's place... not too bad... but I was too tired... and didn't have the mood... had penny of thoughts... But the food was not bad... learn how to make a new kind of salad... will try it out next time...

Have not been to school for 2 days... coz is like boring... Well, lessons last for only for awhile and waste of time.. so didn't went yesterday and today... Slept till noon... ahah... but well I'll be going tml... let's hope i can wake up... :P Coz lessons freaking hell starts at 9!!! How the hell am I supposed to wake up at that time!!! haiz...

Got a family gathering tml night at my uncle's place... haha... my aunt said that I could bring friends coz the more the merrier... so Nei(my other aunt) called me and said it would be more appropriate that we bring our boyfriend... so I told her I don't have a boyfriend... so she asked me to go hire one... hmm... not a bad idea after all huh... but well can't find the right person and hire! waste of money... so... well anyway it's just a joke... just crapping...

SIgns for u Guys,do u even knw?

Be more sensitive & u'll feel it.

U might not even know that she likes u but she
does.The signs are:

-when she seem to be friendly & flirty to other
guys except u

-when shes jealous,she'll express it in a
different & indirect way

-She tries to be by ur side most of d time yet
occasionally she doesn't so as to avoid
suspicion

-She looks at u in a different way

-Shes more den concerned about ur love life

-She may seem very normal & it nvr crossed ur
mind dat shes in love wit you but she tries &
hopes to see u everyday

-She fumbles when u ask her a simple question

-When u ask her why shes jealous,she says i
don't knw,she doesnt have an answer or
denies it.

-When u ask her who she lyks she says no1 or
tryna be secretive saying its a secret or keep u
guessing

Second day of school

Hmm... it's kind of bored... first lesson for the day... starts at 1pm... totally drag myself here... not exactly... just didn't manage to sleep well today... woke up at 5+ coz the house phone rang... then after that 7+, 8+... every one an hour I will wake up once...

first lesson is ending soon... and my next lesson is at 3... haiz... what a day... first week of school is always so slack and bored... I rather spend my time with jess!! Going out...

Ohya... my female hamster was bitten by the male hamster... ASSHOLE! She has a hole that is of a 10 cent coin that big! Shit man! I was so pertified when I saw the hole... i was shivering when I called Jerm... Lucky Jerm friend came down to help... Sorry to make you guys come down so late!! Thanx!! Hope she is doing well at your house now... and taking care of her...

got the cage from Jerm already... The 4 small hamsters are separated from the male hamster... 2 cages = more work... have to wash 2 cages and that's kind of tiring when no one at home actually bothers to help wash?

Well except for Jess... thanx for helpin me dry the cage, wheels and stuff...

Band was kind of boring yesterday... had a guest conductor... suppose to do "First Suite in Eb" but he took the whole of first half to do other pieces... and only spend 20 mins to do "First Suite in Eb"... which we had spend 3-4 band prac... 3 hour each prac to do only that piece... But well, at least probably it would show that we sound ok...

Finally, starting we sectionals soon!!! haha... can't wait...

School is starting!!

School is starting tml!!! yeah!!! Finally! Looking forward to it... but i'm so tired!! freaking tired...

Went to church in the morning for service then had practice in the afternoon for Christmas... Man!! Long day... I'm half dead... Having a terrible headache!!

Went to watch shutter with my cousin, Jess. It's a wonderful show man!! haha... ask me about it!!!! Let me tell you i don't know... Coz We left the cinema before the show ended... we only watch for about 1/2 hr or more... coz both of us were too scared... and she wanted to leave... so we left...

Headed home...

Btw where's MLT 9?! I've been studying in Sp for quite awhile... and I don't know where the hell is that lecture hall...

It's gonna be a long day too tml... Got band after school... there were be a guest conducter coming... can't remember his name... But I guess first day of school is gonna be super sian!

Woke up at 12... couldn't get back to sleep... I'm looking forward to monday... Coz school is starting!!! Well... I don't know why I'm looking forward to it... I'm just not in a holiday mood... I don't even have the feeling that it's a holiday... Time-table quite slack... but of coz still thinking where to skip lessons... :p typical me! or rather I should say typical students would do that...

Met Edwin yesterday to watch "Without a paddle"... not a bad show... had a gd laugh!! wanted to watch shutter but full house!!! haha... but something even funnier than the show happen... well think I better not say... though I really wanna share with you guys what happen... but I shan't!! :P Anyway thanx edwin...

After the show met up with cia... had a talk with her... went to esplande with her... thanx girl!!! Manage to catch the last bus... *pHeW*

Ok thanx for all the advice! but the decision still lies with me... :P I'll think over it carefully...

Going out with Nei later to town... getting christmas presents... hmm... christmas is round the corner... Guys! What do u all want for christmas? coz i'm having difficulty thinking what to buy... but pls! within my budget!!! No house! No BMW! $100,000!! NONO!!! I can't afford that!

well... a long and tiring day today... went to church since 12+... was practicing for christmas... well, i've been kind of too fierce i guess... but well that's me when I want things done... Manage to get things done...

Then headed straight down for band... And we just did "First Suite In Eb"... For whole 3 hours!!! And somehow somewhere in the piece there was a long rest that I lost count... was really tired... Sorry Jerm... was late... end up you guys starve because of me... But nvm! Next Monday got roast duck to eat!! haha...

Attendance was still quite bad... only Jermaine, Charlton, Raf, Bernard, Wee Liang, Venassa and me... hmm... Sorry Venassa make u come down for nothing... But at least we did "Marching Season"... And you like the vibes part alot rite... haha...

Tried out "Marching Season" by Yanni during the break!! WOAH!!!! The beginning was fantastic man!!! Super nice... but we screw up at the 7/8 bar... haha... But well it's only the first time we tried out this piece... still got lots of work to do... :P

hmm... thanx guys for all the concern! I know you all can see that I'm bothered by somethings... but sometimes things just ain't to be the way it is...

ANYWAY!! My hamsters gave birth AGAIN!!!! Man! I'm beginning to think that hamsters have HIGH SEX DRIVE!! Serious!! They just gave birth like 2 weeks ago... and today when I came back from band and feed them... I notice 6 new born hamsters... they are super small man!! only the size of my pinky toe!! Kind of disgusted... But at least these makes me happy when I first step into the house... at least for the moment...

here's an entry for you!! FENDI!!

Effendi!! Gonna miss you alot! serious!! Thanx for all the things you have did for me... Really appreciate it!! Though I only really knew you for a few months... but you have gave me lots of memories!! and lots of advice just now... of coz not only that... I never tell anyone my story in the way I told you... Laughing hard and trying to say it out... :P

Now you are going to NS... Haiz... don't know when it would be the next time we can sit down for a cup of iced milo and crap!

Glad to hear that you really like Veronica!!! haha... And had a good sleep with her last night!! :P

Glad that I'm one of your Charlie angels too... haha... so honoured!

Hope you can come for our next percussion concert or even perform as a guest player!! You better!! haha... Looking forward to that...

Don't worry!! Time flies... soon you will finish your BMT... then two years will be gone...

Take care k!!! Miss ya!!

RIGHT... mood now?? I don't know... Just had a talk with Effendi, Muru and Jermaine... Thanx guys for all the advise! But I know it's up to me whether I want to do it or not... I know you guys want me to clarify but it's tough... I can't do it... Give me time...

Should I or should I not... I'm in a dilemna... I'm so scared... is it true that sometimes guys wanna know if the girl like them before moving on... I don't know... Gonna try to keep myself for the moment...

Be strong... but how to... My mood these few days have been rather down... the feeling just kind of suck... It's cold outside and my heart is cold too... haiz...

Just came back from church... did some stuff for Christmas... Woke up at about 9.30... early huh... well for me... slept quite late last night... couldn't get to sleep... my mind is so active... it's been thinking of stuffs that I making myself can't sleep... think got to go back to my pills...

Hmm... let see what I'm gonna do for the rest of the day... is either I slack at home or I go give tuition... But i'm not in the mood to give tuiton... I'm in the mood to slp!!! See about it later... but I guess I'll cancel... hehe... YES! Lazy bum!

Suppose to go watch movie yesterday with Edwin and Hanyong... End up didn't go... haiz... long story... Edwin don't want to go home too late, then Hanyong want to climb... haiz... troublesome... kind of irritated coz I didn't know what you guys want~... so the smart me cancel it! hehe... Don't worry i'm just complaining... don't take it too serious...

BUT I WANNA WATCH "SHUTTER"!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SO HAPPY!!! HAHA... Jermaine is back!!! SHE'S BACK!!! I REALLY MISSED U GIRL!!! The hug felt so warmth!! Really glad to see you just now when u came in to the band room!! Thanx for getting the stuff for me!!!

AND YEAH!! Sylvester didn't win the Singapore Idol tittle!!! HAHA!!! You don't have the substance boy!! that's y!! TAUFIK U ROCK!!!! anyway who cares... that's not the main thing!

Band was kind of boring today... first half we did sectionals... haha... we did "One O'Clock Samba"! haha... sounds better!!! Then guess we did sth wrong... then after that did the pieces that we are supposed to... Well basically have fun today! Lots of laughter and craziness... haha...

Check my results already... Was really scared as I getting nearer to home... came home try to do everything I could... go to the toilet... washed my hands and feet... watched tv... all those stuff!! Finally check! I PASSED!!! haha... well not really good grades but at least better than I expected! Sorry Edwin!! Played that joke on you... SORRY!

Few more hours...

Just few more hours Jerm were be back!! YEAH!!! She's back! Few more hours I might be able to get my gifts! AND IN A FEW MORE HOURS I"M GONNA CHECK MY RESULTS!!! ARGH!! I"M SO SCARED!!! But well who cares... the fear is no longer there... just like Andy says... "Have a faith!"

I just woke up at 2+... Going to band early today to telly the percussion tickets... and gonna do samba today...

can't wait for Jerm to come back! I missed u girl!!

I'm feeling terrible!

ARGH!!! I'm sick!! Very sick... down with a very bad flu... and my voice totally change!! There's something stuck at my throat... I feel like coughing but it's not coming out... think i'm have a cough then a fever... hmm... hope not...

Just came back from watching "Bridget Jones Diary - The edge of reason"(If I haven got the tittle wrong) with Edwin and Hanyong... Well, a show worth to watch... and it's a happy ending! hmm... I wanna watch "shutter"...

Went out with Jess in the afternoon... Went to Tiong to get her hair cut then to Bugis to change my wallet... then headed down to town to shop around... MAN! there's lots of people down town... SO irritating!!! so many people! especially when taking the train... went to Far East Plaza... shop around but couldn't find anything nice...

Headed to Heeren to meet Edwin... And for god sake! EDWIN!! CAN U STOP USING THE PHONE WHEN YOU ARE OUT WITH US! It's kind of... rude? irritating?

Then waited for meiying and meichan to come meet Jess... and at the same time change my hp coz it running low of batt... hmm... think it's time for me to change a phone... why is everybody having problem using MY PHONE!! while I can hear! Still looking around for a phone I like... any recommendation guys?!

*yAwNz*

Think I'm gonna sleep early tonight... Feeling so sick now... headache... bad flu...