2005 soon to be the past

Have not been blogging foe quite awhile! So I'm here with my last entry on the last day of the year! It's 31 DEC 2005!! The last day of 2005! And that would totally be an "OH YEAH"!

Be it good or bad, though I've more bad experiences or probably lots of good which I can't remember, I still Thank God for everything!! I believe He makes everything happen for a reason! If it wasn't for the bad, I would not have learn the good! Isn't that good!

And one thing that would make me feel that I'm the most fortunate lady on earth is to be blessed with my family and a group of wonderful(wonderful is not just the word), DARLING friends! Always there to be with me!

To the percussion section:

Hey peeps! You guys have been great! It was nice working with you people! And being the neutral ones! You people didn't give the sections leader, me, any problem! And wah! How time flies! You guys are with me for a year already! And just 3 more weeks to come, I'm no longer the SL. I don't know how you guys feel but I think it would be a sad scene! But it better not be! And we would still stay in conctact!

And I sincerely seek your co-operation for this 3 more weeks! Thanx peeps!

And now to a group of important people! Those that see me through that one particular incident!

I know I've said this lots of time! But still I'm gonna say it again! Thank you so much! It has been the toughest period of the year of me! To struggle so hard with the emotional feelings and to fight back those tears each time I wanna tear! But like I said if bad things didn't happen, I would not have know that I have the good things around me all the time! And now I'm stronger than ever! haha...

And not forgetting my Rojak gang! Which was officially formed this year 13 october 2005! We finally manage to meet up like almost once a week! Though it's already a couple of weeks that we have not met! But I'm sure we will meet soon next year! And for the years to come! And even if we are married with kids!! We will! Not will!! WE HAVE TO!! WE MUST!!!

And now let me look back on what I've did! Ok I can't really remember what has happen from Jan to now! Oh probably some incident I do! But the last thing that I could remember that made me so happy was the Hong Kong trip!!! It was a dream come true! And I will upload the pics onto my blog after this k! Since I have all the time now...

Year 2005 was totally crazy! I've never cried as much as I did for my WHOLE ENTIRE GOD-SAKE LIFE!!! Almost got drunk by beer! But not yet drunk! Ok gotta get this clear!! I wasn't drunk to say that I'm not drunk! I was not drunk that's why I said I wasn't drunk! So don't say I'm drunk k!!! But now I finally know if I ever got drunk I would just laugh non-stop! Even the slightest tiny lame cold joke would start the ball rolling!!

Well there are still many things! But I'm still looking forward to 2006! I'm very interested in my future! WhatI really really want! Was just discussing about it yesterday with Jerm, Auds and emilie!

But well! let's sum it out! cause I've been trying to blog this for a couple of times already!!

Anyways!! Happy new year peeps!! Let's look for a brighter 2006!!!

just 5 minutes ago, I had a small little unhappiness with my mum! over some issues! and now I'm back talking to her! And she's preparing dinner for me! Tell me! What did they say abot "mu niu mei you ge ye chou". I guess they are always right!

she boiled green bean soup! ya boiled those not cooked but cooling for the body!

So as planned went to Tong Luk with my aunt so as to celebrate my sisters birthday! and shopping after that and mel's concert! But! I didn't none of those! I stayed home the whole day cause I wasn't in the condition to go out at all! I had to stay home to rest! Christmas is coming, can't afford to fall real sick!

Anyways melodie, my apologies for not being able to attend your concert! so sorry!

I'm finally able to eat well today unlike yesterday. Had my first meal at 2pm and for the rest of the days were fruits. Am feeling a bit better now after the panadol and the rest...

Okies gotta run! Dinner time! And time for "Death becomes her"!!! Nice show!

after my first clubbing experience, I had a fever this morning... is it some coincidence or what?

couldn't get out of bed till now... after taking a panadol! fever is gone and my throat hurts like freak! and the flu is killing me! I've got to stay away from chilli! ugh! That's like the saddest that can happen to me! =(

Just hope it won't get worse until christmas performance is over... Lose my voice, fever whatever! Just let it happen after 3pm of 25 dec...

Trying to login to balckboard to do my e-learning (dumb shit) but it's super lag... probably I'll just do it later...

For now... I've got to pack my room it's in a whole lot of mess!! Diaster!!!

oh finally am about to relax with no loud music!

Just came back from MOS - Ministry of sounds at clarke quay. ok Clubbers!! You've gotta check this out k! It's darn cool! they have different rooms! Like R&B dance room! the balcony and there are still rooms above! it's hell cool!

And like I say clubbers! You don't like to dance or hate loud music stay to pub! and that's for me! 3/4 of my time I was just practically moving with the music and looking at people around me! I always thought that clubbing was dumb... Looking and thinking how dumb they are and I'm actually joining them in doing this dumb thing! But not until when they played the song "what's going on"! Then I went high! The rest was like practically trying to get me dance 3/4 of the time! The moment I step onto the dance floor I just wanted to leave!

But well if you like and know the song! Getting high is no prob!

Overall it's a nice place! But I'm not hook to it and I still prefer pub! =D

Well that's my first clubbing experience for you peeps! I thought I would be hooked to you BUT! sad to say I prove myself wrong! And I really don't like to club!

anyways met up with the year 1 classmates and we had pizzahut for dinner! but before that I met up with shunli... and we went shoppping... I bought a mango skirt! for $59!! haha... I know it's crazy and I feel the pinch! but well it's a gift from my sister... she gave me $40 for christmas so I just paid $19! Not too bad! =D

Bought 2 bottles of nail polish!

Ya that's it! I'm sleepy! And I'm staying home tml morning and afternoon! NIGHT??!!! It's gotta be midnight shopping at town!! wahhaha... shit!

u r so not gonna believe this! I went to my mum's place to help out today! YA! Surprise?! i'm surprise too! But it's hell shitty! Those oil and stuff!! UGH! Gross! just makes my hands worse! Ok I know I sound plastic here but who cares! I'm a girl too! No girls would want rough hands! DUH!

Anyways I'm dead beat! Slept at abt 4+ and woke up at 9+... But gd pay! How good? u better not know! =D

will be meeting up with the year 1 classmates for dinner... So i'm still wondering should i go shopping before that!

I'm staying home for damn good tml! Pack my stuff and swimming tml! Supposed to swim this morning but yeah I couldn't wake up...

yeah! finally BD financial report is submitted! And maths test is finally OVER!! I'm a free bird now!! I can relax! haha... But well it's E-LEARNING WEEK!! that means i'm supposed to bloody hell stay at home and study! lame shit huh! and for people like me? I can even skipped school! the more about self study at home! AND it's Christmas soon! and I'm in a hell shopping mood!!

I'm totally addicted to shopping! how crazy! I can't define! HEY! It can't be defined so it's SERIOUSLY SERIOUS!!!

Went shopping with Jerm after everything in sch and band... There's hell lotsa of people! And it's supposed to be a section outing but it turn out to be best friends outing! But it's cool! just the two of us! It's been so long! =D

Walked around! Sat down for some food and watch some performance!

And was supposed to shop!! yes supposed to!! but! I just bought an organiser binder, mechanical pencil and some manicure stuff! yes that's shopping for the day! WTH!!

That's why!! I'm right to say! Never go shopping when you intend to shop cause you can get NUTS!! Go when you don't intend to buy anything!! That's the way!!! And never window shop! ugh! Awfully disgusting horrible feeling!

I've lots of stuff on this week! But I seem to forget about it... Gotten it recorded in my organiser! or else i'll just keep forgetting! And now I've stupidly arrange two gathering on the same day and the time is close to each other!! sorry peeps!

oh man! I'm so tired and sleepy! My eyes are barely opening at all!!

Just finished revising for tml's maths test... and finally the financial phase report for bd is done... Got to consolidate tml in sch and there's sectionals tml...

Okies... it's time for bed! test is at 10am tml. I never thought that I won't be so scared about taking maths test... why?

Maybe i'm just losing the confidence and i'm sleepy now...

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

Your Fashion Style is Classic

You like what's stood the test of time... Simple, well styled clothes that don't scream trendy You stay updated and modern, but your clothes stay in style for a while You wouldn't be caught in animal prints, fake fur, or super bright colors

What's Your Fashion Style?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

You Were An Angel This Year

You Were 0% Naughty, 100% Nice You know you've been a super good girl this year So good, that you may have missed out a little... Don't worry, Santa will make it up to you!

How Naughty (Or Nice) Were You This Year?

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force. You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle. An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

ok did some stupid test cause i was bored... partly a reason to not start doing project! But well I've got to start! Cause I've got to spend time studying for maths tml... DRAG!

went down to town just now! And there's hell lotsa of people there! and yup! I went shopping! WINDOWN SHOPPING!! OH MAN! you know how that feels??!!! Terrible!! Very terrible~! There are so many things I wanna buy! But thank god I didn't had the mood to shop.... Or else I will be crying like hell!!! It's really darn horrible! BUT!! I have my eyes on lots of stuff already! WHICH! I'm gonng get on monday or tues! hehe...

And I think I shall not change phone for the moment though the phone is quite screwed at the moment... Need to decide on what phone first... It'a always tough to decide on a phone! So I shall not buy yet! I've got to change my habit on buying things on an impulse!

Now I feel like clearing my cupboard and some bags... yes! your eyes are not playing a trick! I actually bear to part with my clothes and bags! Well the old has to go, TO GIVE A WARM WELCOME TO NEW ONES!! HAHA... So i'm clearing to buy new ones and not to not buy anything!! hehe...

MANGO SALES IS ON!!!!!!

Mango sales was crazy man!!! Every mango shop you go, it's crowded like you can even hardly have enough space to breathe!! It so darn humind! Clothes everywhere!! And people don't even bother picking up the clothes on the floor and step over it!! It's hell crazy man!

And you know what! I was crazy enough to join this crazy people!! BUT! Seriously! It's simple irresistable man!!

I was so tired and intend to come home after walking for awhile at orchard! but I reach home like an hour ago... just manage to cool down and bath! Want to start doing BD or maths! but I'm too tired... Exhausted! Well it's the time of the month! Always hated that!

ok... I bought 2 skirts, a bag, a top and a jacket! the best part?! I spent $159!!!

yes yes... drop your jaws! I can't believe it too! But argh heck!!

ok good news.... BD submission date is officially extended to monday! which is wonderful! cause I have 3 more days to do BD...

Am studying maths eh... I mean practicing at the moment and watching tv... Have a test on monday! Oh get e-learning week! ya so why study so early? so unlike me right? it's because there's maths lesson on friday... Maths for business is just abit different. So at least if I don't know anything I can still ask her on friday... =)

I think maths is the only module I will do my tutorial and bother to study early... Cause I prefer this man! Seriously...

There's something wrong with me. There is and i know. But I don't know what is it.

painful but wonderful fruitful tuesday

yup as I mentioned yesterday I'm going to roller blade today... And I DID!! =)

haha... you bet it was wonderful man!

Did a little warm-up and lesson at a small pavement before going on to the track...

I was waiting for my first fall so badly!! And finally with a "thump" I fell flat on my butt which activated the voice button with the word "fuck"! It was darn loud! yah... But who cares! I'm minding my own business. Managed to get up with audrey help and continued on....

And after my first fall, I fell twice but now forward! Thank God I had my guards on! Or else I'm gonna end up with UGLY SCARS!!! UGH!!! Bohoho...

And hey this time i got up myself! And I could overcome the hump obstacles though I needed audrey help initially and was quite afraid!

Got the hang of it after falling a few times. Oh well you really need to fall in order to learn, though I think I'm suffering from concussion now. But still it was fun! Just need to consistently go blade! And I'm getting my own pair of blades!!! And blade every week!! haha... I can't wait man!!

And I spent like almost 2 hours to get the hang of it! Just need more confidence! So if you wanna learn sth! DO IT! Falling is just the process! But it's cool!

BUT!! I'm sincerely apologetic to those who I shouted and scream at while I was learning to blade! Especially the poor guy who got screwed by me for no reason! I was blading and I heard a bicycle coming my direction with a screech! and I almost lost my balance! And I shouted fuck right into the guy's face! He was darn shocked! And his fren was like woah.... =)

And on the way back to return the blades I almost lost balanced and I screamed right into 2 guys face! oh god!

BUT HEY!! I apologised to the 3 gentlemens k! I apologises when I know it's my fault! Not like some freaking damn people....

I think I've got to really control my vulgularities when I learn to blade.... But hey! When you are gonna fail you can't think of anything much right! what comes to your mind, comes out from the mouth.

Ok... I'm sleepy! Eyes closing soon! BUT! Too bad I can't sleep cause I've got to do BD! =(

And there's school tml at 8!!! hmm.......

I realised it long ago! BUT! I don't bother! I don't bother about your criticism! I don't bother about your stare! I don't care about you! Cause I don't I don't give a DAMN about a shit like you! you are just a piece of shit with a fucking disgusting and gross character! you are a stinky stingy asshole!! you think you are good?! you think you are talented! LET ME TELL YOU!! YOUR CHARACTER IS YOUR WEAKEST POINT!!! I hate the stupid darn face that you give me! PIECE OF SHIT! GUYS LIKE YOU SHOULD JOLLY WELL BANG YOUR HEAD AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE!!! you should not even deserve to exist in the first place!! I don't need your help! I will just follow and think what is right! I don't have to necessarily listen to you! If you feel the my attitude towards you has change! GOOD! Cause you are NOTHING TO ME! JUST A BIG TIME BASTARD! ASSHOLE AND FUCKER!! I'M BEGINNING TO HATE YOU MORE!

I'm just gonna be nasty to you! you step on me! Don't blame! I'm never gonna be nice anymore! I will not bear with all these shit anymore! and this applies to everybody! SO DON'T TRY ME! I MEAN IT! I'M NOT GONNA JUST SWALLOW THIS SLIENTLY ANYMORE! NICE JOCELYN! I NEVER BE ANYMORE!

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Okies enough of the vulgular and fierce entry. But I do mean it! =)

It's a monday once again... but monday blues wasn't really here today. it was better than the usual. BD was good! our finally year 2 balance sheet is BALANCED!! HEARD THAT BALANCED!! OH! I'm so glad this word existed! It just sound so good! But then! It's time to get down to real work! I need to analyse the pro-forma statement! And there's still lots of things to do! And submission date is coming friday! hmm... doesn't sound that good after all! But well! Sacrifices have to be made! There's no school tml! so I'm gonna mug thru the night to get things done as much as possible! so that I don't have to rush on wed night! Rushing just totally sucks! The feeling is just terrible.

anyways! Swimming session went well just now. after one week! finally! Exercised! I've been eating like nobody's business! Hmm... but it's true! it has got nothing to do with anybody about how much I eat... Think everybody should think twice when they wanna say this sentence. I just need to control alittle! or else I'll be back to square one.

Will be going to blade with audrey tml! =) correction! Learn how to blade! yeah... learn! I don't care how many times I fall! I'm just gonna learn! that's the process! And after I master it! No before! I'll go buy my own pair of blades! And east coast park! Every sat! =D

well that's what happen today and plans for tml... weekend was good too!

Met up with Ruben and Kar Heng to attend Halim's OCS parade! Well it's the normal stuff that they do when all of them pass out! Just that they are all officers! BUT! I saw some CUTE GUYS!! HAHA.... NOW!! That's the bloody advantage! But well ask me how the cutest guy looks like? I forgot! Cause I'm just merely see-ing! Not there looking for potential partners! Which I'm totally not interested in!

And for gos sake! All of them look the same from the audience view! Anyone seems to halim! And the both of them had a bet! Want to include me?! nono! I'm not that dumb! I'm the one with the advantage even if either one of them lose! =D

and the smart me got my swenses ice-cream treat! =) With an empty stomach! cause My first meal was at 12plus... And when I had dinner at Lau pa sat, it was already 11+! All Thanx to halim! Doesn't army train you to be punctual and fast?! hmm...

but well! I had a fun time with them! Though I was the only guy! But I seem like a guy there.... hehe... OH!! YEAH!! RUBEN ALMOST KNOCK SOMEONE DOWN!!! ALMOST!! I nearly got a heart attack! I wonder if he really did! I'm never gonna take a car! Ok get it clear! It's not Ruben's fault! Cause he's the SAFEST driver you can ever meet! Not gonna explain cause it's too troublesome! But just glad nothing happen! phew... what a close shave!

Reach home, bath and it was time to sleep!

Sunday was a full day man! As usual church in the morning then song prac... And my sisters and I headed to Tiong Bahru Rajah Inn for dinner. We had steamboat buffet. We could order anything on the normal, even the normal dishes. and our desert wa ice-cream! And FONDUE!! and you can have it as much time as you want! We stayed there from 6-9... It's $24 during weekends and $20 for weekdays! Expensive?! Nah.... I don't think so! so long as you are a big eater! you will make your money worth there! I ate till I could not wak straight! I was practically bending like a few degrees! feeling was terrible! But fulfilling! hehe...

But I woke up with a stomachache this morning! I lao sai! And was 45 mins late for my lecture! =)

Well like I always say... Better late than never! =)

Okies... I'm off to do BD! YES BD!!! (Just to encourage myself)

Nitez peeps!! Take care!

oh man oh man!!! we got second for the business strategy game (BSG)!!! Or God!! It's so unbelieveable man!!! Bernard must be darn happy!! I'm not too sure abt the other 2 groups in class but cia's grp got first! and my grp got second!!

BUT!! We owe him MORE THAN A THANK YOU!!!

Ok! I'm back to bd project!! SIAN!!! =`(

Question/s:
what is monday's worst nightmare? Or what would make your monday blues worst?

Answer:
Business Development

I'm like dying soon of boredom and sleepiness... 13 more mins till monday blues in school ends!

I mean in the first place there won't even be monday blues if I have nothing to do right?

If I'm happily watching tv and slackin at home... (you noticed the word "happily") so in what way can we talk about monday blues here?

Now I'm left with 6 mins and my monday blues will be gone!! GONE!! Cause I'm going shopping!! Oh darn this is terrible man!! Christmas is coming~! And I need to buy like lots of pressie!!

ugh... this is sad... And I just bought a pair of heels ytd! Ok it was a need NOT A WANT!!! I needed it for CSB!! If I had one pair at home I freaking hell won't buy!! I PROMISE!!!

monday blues is going off soon... And I'm hungry!

OH!! Talkin about monday blues... Shit just happens to add on to it...

I was shitting in the girls toilet at the foodcourt!! and this bloody auntie in the next cubicle was bathing (I think).... And she splashed water which leaks into my cubicle!! SHE WET MY JEANS! AND!! MY SHOES!! SHOES FROM HONG KONG AND I WORE IT ONLY THE SECOND TIME!!!

BITCH!!

CIAOZ!

supposed to go for a swim but darn safra was filled with so many pple and the person told me it's open to only safra members on sat n sun... And was last sat swim a fake?

Ah nvm... anyways I'll be goin out with my cousin and sister... for supper... right!

GOD!!

Anyways I watched "American Pie Band Camp" just now... Not a bad show... =D

Finally upload the pics I took in HK into my com... Will blog it soon k! It's gonna be a long entry! so ya it takes time... And I'm plain lazy!

But I've alr put them into my friendster.... =D

band prac ytd was ok for us... but it was quite terrible too...

but sth pissed me off even more... the SLs meeting pisses me off...

But the jamming session after that in the band room was good! Enjoyed till we forgot the time...

oh man! I'm feeling rather messy now... I need to catch up in school and I'm feelin so disorganised and fat!!

I've so many things in mind!! GOD!!

why! It's my last sem!! But I'm scared too! Just feelin heavy...

What Jon keat said today seems to weigh so much... But it's true... he's stating the fact!

Anyways sectionals was fine today... GUYS! I'm happy that you guys know your part and practice!! Thank you so much!!

Ok... I shall stop blogging for now...

I finally bought my long wallet!! $73!!! Oh man! I wonder how did I manage to spend that amount on a wallet! =D

But well I love it! I hope I would stay with it for a long time...

Bought my maths textbook too! Ok! Talkin about this! It just pissed me off!!

After buying my text, I wanted to bank in money at the UOB Clementi branch!! I was queuing!! I WAS K!!! And then this middle age man came in! CUT MY QUEUE!!! STEP ON MY TOES!! AND NOT JUST THAT!! HE STILL "ZI" ME!!!!

I WAS SO DAMN PISSED!!! STEP ON MY TOES! CUT MY QUEUE!! STILL LOOK AT ME AS IF IT'S MY FAULT!! DAMN THAT BLOODY GUY!!!!! HE SHOULD BE THANKFUL THAT I DIDN'T GIVE HIM A PIECE OF MY MIND THERE!!! WTF!!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS!!!

It's not my fault! I don't care if people start staring at me!! He's in the wrong!! NOT ME! I still gave way to him!! I couldn't stand it! I ended up depositing my money at orchard!!!

SON OF A NUTCRACKER!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's my first week in school after the hong kong trip... and my mood has yet to be back to the school mood... And that's awfully terrible!!

My body is here... but my mind and soul are still there...

Last week this time I just started my shopping spree for 3 hours!! I miss everything there! The weather and definitely the damn shopping!!!

How I wish I can go back there every year!!! I've got to save like shit... And next year there might even be a Sweden trip...

Now I'm beginning to reconsider my future... I wanna earn big bucks to travel and definitely giving my parents a chance to do so too....

anyway yet to blog the pics that I've taken in HK cause I've yet to upload them...

Not much of pictures that consist humans! Only food!! Just too busy eating and shopping... =D

I eat alot but I WALKED ALOT TOO!! So when u see me, DON'T SAY THAT I'VE PUT ON WEIGHT!! I'll JUST START SCREAMING AND YELLING!! AND BE MORE OBSESSED WITH SWIMMING AND EXERCISING!!

And I think i'm hook onto shopping... I was before... But even more now...

Oh god! Save me!

Now you understand why I need to earn more money... And I need bigger space but my mum refuse to move!

Argh... hack.. probably i'll just move out whenI'm older... somewhere near her? like a few blocks away... So I can get the auntie who help clear the house to clean mine... And be home for her wonderful home cook dinner by mum...

well I'm just saying... I doubt she'll allow me to do so... But still I'll just save the money first... She'll agree one day... and when I get married, my parents are definitely NOT gonna stay ALONE!!!

Ok sorry peeps... it's 4.43pm and I'm tired due to lack of sleep when my mum woke me up at 7+ in the morning cause she called the wrong number... And that happens all the time when my number is similar to my sister... my end off with 22 while hers 33... the rest of the number are the same... Can't blame her though cause I tend to forget sometimes too!! =D

15 more mins before school ends!! And I'm heading to town with meimei to look for wallet!! I need one badly though I haev alot already! Cause I've too many cards!! Damn! But before that we will have to head to Clementi to get our maths text! And I can shop cause my sister has return my 300 bucks!! I'm rich! Not that rich though!

And lastly!!!!!


*I MISS HONG KONG!!!*

Check this out!

it's darn funny... but some of you might have seen it alr...

http://homepage.mac.com/se7en/grandpajapan.wmv

Anyways... I went shopping again just now... Bought 2 tops, 2 necklaces and a jacket... =D

a fool no more i am...

This suddenly occur to me, while I was watching tv...

when I think back I feel like a total fool... The things that I used to do... and how crazy I was over you... I wonder why and how...

I'm not afraid to admit that I like you...

Cause if I will to still like you now, I'm more than a fool!!!!!!

Peace!

=D

change a blogskin!!! =D

Love nightmare before christmas... It's perfect... But if the background is black, it would be better man!!

Anyways!! I MISSED HONG KONG LIKE SHIT K!!!!

I shop too much there... Now I'm hook onto it... Was at the school bazzar... Bought 2 necklaces and bangles... And a t-shirt! =D

And I regretted not bringing my ATM card!! Shit man!! Was walking around Tiong Bahru with Jerm.. Saw lots of stuff man!! And I'm gonna get it TML!!!

Gonna get a top and shorts from Hang Ten... And 2 tops from Baleno... and a jacket from More than words...

Oh god!! A leopard never changes its spots!!

I thought I would stop shopping here after I come back... But it got worse... =)

Anyways it has been a tiring week for me... Came back from HK at 12a.m on friday... Pack some stuff and I've got maths lessons.... U bet it was "fun"!

I totally drag myself there... And the worse thing! I have performance after that... Well the band played quite badly ytd...

But it was better today.... The audience was FANTASTIC!! THE BEST EVER!!!

how does an empty hall sounds like?

There was only the MC and some staffs there who are in-charge of the open house for secondary school...

I really wonder why... Who would ever come at 10am in the morning for a bloody open house... I won't! That's totally nuts...

We should have just perform outside the stage at the plaza it could have been even better... And to compare... I choose river raft... Though I used to think it's silly but at least there are LOTS of PEOPLE!! Not just seats!!!

But well it got better after that... People start coming in... But they will fans of superstar Kelly... Well... better than nothing... At least we have people...

Pls don't tell me this is true!! Pls don't!!!

Someone told me Guo meimei Joice is from SP!!! This better not be true!!!

I'll be more than ashame of her!! I'll be like 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times so disgrace!!

ARGH!! DISGUSTING!!!

I'M BACK!!! I'M BACK FROM HONG KONG!!!

OK SHALL BLOG ABOUT THE TRIP MAYBE TML OR ANOTHER DAY!!!

Gotta catch some slp... Got class tml!!!

SHIT!

ok i gotta blog abt this!! I have to!! I can't stand it when I watch the advertisement on it!!

It just simple disgust me like shit!!!!

wo bu pa bu pa la! wo bu pa bu pa bu pa la!!

WTH!! What's Guo mei mei Joice!! Why must she say such songs!!! Such a disgrace to singaporean!! Can't she just sing a proper song!! A better one!! Rather than stupid songs that make that cartoon of her even more stupid!!!

If she has the potential, why such songs!! Oh god!! Can't they stop playing that DARN advertisment and song!! It's pissing me off!!!

oh god... I feel terrible...

My stomach is feeling weird... And I think I'm having low blood pressure... Oh god!! I hope I'll be ok for the next few days... Or else I can't enjoy myself...

I'm already done packing... Gotta sleep early tonight...

I've not taken chilli for like 4 days!!! argh!! God man!! How did I do that man?!!

And now I've lost my voice...

I'm not in a total sober state right now... I've said the wrong thing so many times the whole day... I'm feeling light and drowsy... All thanx to the medicine... It's taking effect already and i'm trying to fight back so that I can finish sending Andy the song... which is taking ages!!

It's taking control of my whole body!

I can just drop dead on my bed...

anyways peeps! Don't worry k! I will take care of myself! I'll try not to swim tml... I'll try...

Just don't worry...

talking abt that... I've been FEEDING on PORRIDGE AND FRUITS! That's all... can't be anyway more healthier than this man... If not for the medicine i doubt I'll eat... Just like yesterday I hadn't ate a single bit and I wasn't the least hungry...

I'm really trying hard to take good care... Probably porridge n fruits will last a few more days... Seesh...

I've sth to blog but! i'm not in the right state to blog or think of anything...

So ciaoz!

just came back from seeing a doctor... Cause my mum force me to...

i was feeling darn terrible... 38.2 degrees.. that explains why...

And i'm taking my first meal of the day just to take my medicine...

The weather outside is darn hot!! Darn darn hot!! Probably like 30 degress outside!! I don't know...

I'm just so glad that I'm home...

Not resting but typing a resume that is to be submitted tml to my CSB tutor... And after that I've to type a formal letter... oh man! I hate typing resume and formal letter!! Seesh! It's just a whole lot of trouble!!!

And I'm like so so tired that I really wanna sleep now... Cause percussion bbq was yesterday... Had a busy morning!! Lots of stuff to prepare and visiting betwen the bbq...

Despite being tired... It was fun...

AwwWWww... The goold old days!!

it pissed you off... but it disappoint me even more... you don't give a damn to my bullshit... And yet this morning when i ask if you think you are in the wrong you said yes...

Oh cut the act! You never thought you were in the wrong... cause you think what I said was bullshit... And the more you don't understand my intention... Probably whatever I said just now, you don't even bother a single bit... and am a fucking bitch to you... Be it...

i did my part... And I shall end my part here... I rather put my time and effort to outsider... at least they appreciate it...

Pronounce "dead"

I'm totally exhausted!! So so tired... it's a long and heavy day... And I just had my dinner! Well I slept at about 3+ last night and I had lessons at 8 this morning... So as usual, the only transportion for 8am lessons is cab... but still I was late, I practically could get myself out of bed...

After CSB, we had a 2 hour break! Darn! I totally hate breaks to the MAX!!! It's somehow a total waste of time... 1 is enough but 2!! Ugh!

Anyways after the break it was FMRP tutorial... And I'm offically pronounce brain dead~! I was so tired and Jon keat went on saying his stuff that he said to us during his lecture... Manage to copy down points that he said... Just that the words are forcing it's way through my brain that's already pronounce dead at 12.59pm!

Think the day ended like that?! Oh please! Since when Jocelyn's life would end just like that with so much free time! Had rehearsal from 4-6 for the open house performance which is in 2 weeks time... That's totally cool! We finally are playing a whole new series of sound and gotten out of the must play songs in the past!! I've totally lost count with the number of times I played "I will survive"! Spare me from that! Am spared anyways!

Btw I decided to help fill up the blank space on the white board cause Tanny has yet to choose a piece... "Marching Season" filled that blank up! Cool! It's marching season AGAIN!

And since we are playing marching season, we've got to practice!! And yes! It was sectionals! =D

It's been like how many months since we last played marching season as a section... We totally lost touch with it... It started out real badly!! Messy... totally unbearable! BUT!! It didn't took us much time to get in touch with it again!! We took about 2 hours to get it done... And it sounds so much better! Thank god all of us had played the songs before or else it would be worst than a nightmare!!

but anyways! thanx peeps for remembering your part and being able to get the feel back fast!!

"Marching season" at 8+ sounded so much better than "Marching season" at 6.45pm... =)

But I had a price to pay... old injury is acting up again... Just hope it would be fine tml...

I'm so tired but I still have to do my maths homework... Oh man! I wonder how I'm gonna concentrate... My eyes are beginning to feel heavy!! *seesh*

OH! OH!! Peeps I have a piece of GOOD NEWS!! Well not exactly good news... But to me it is... My cousin got a job at HMV HEEREN!! YOU GET IT?!! YOU GET WHAT I WANNA SAY!!

YES!!! STAFF ARE ENTITTLED TO 30% discount!!! SO!! If you wanna get CDs!!! Just tell me!! I'll try my best!!!

Okies... Ciaoz peeps!

swim... swim.. swim...

I FEEL DARN GOOD!! I just came back from a swim... I almost went into a state of depression just now!! Cause it was raining damn heavily!! So we had breakfast first!

I was so upset! and Jerm couldn't stand me! Thank God the rain stop! Or else I won't be able to swim cause Jerm said if the rain doesn't stop we will go home!! *pheW*

my prayers are answered!!

Anyways feeling good... and it's time to sleep soon... BUT!!

I meeting marilyn, victor, weibin and rui ming for KTV... I gonng drag my feet there... but I've promise them already so...

I keep my promises!!

CIAOZ!!!

oh god! I think I'm getting a little too paranoid! Ok probably not a little... it's a little too much... I feel so sad and depressed if i don't exercise one day... I feel so tight up and I wanna cry... Tell me how paranoid can that be man?! Sometimes I don't even dare to eat but I won't try to do that, it's just way too crazy...

Anyways I went swimming yesterday night... Damn you know how that feels to work out or rather exercise... I was still wondering when can I go exercise and soon enough Jerm called me yesterday night... *pHeW*

I'm already feeling fat now!! OKIES!! Stop being so paranoid Jocelyn!! You need to COOL DOWN!!! Breath in! Breath out!!

*Think about swimming tml morning!

anyways, I skip my morning lesson cause I didn't wanna spend 5-6 hours in the band room and I did wanna go out too...

And for the first time after so many donkey years I woke up at 7am!! Not feeling tired... I was wide awake! I even had breakfast... Went back to sleep at about 12+ and woke up again at 2.45pm cause I had to be back in school for rehearsal for the open house for secondary school...

headed to Clementi for dinner with auds, raf, weiloong and Jerm... Had Mac cause most of the muslim store was closed due to hari raya... I had kids meal... =D

And I was looking at the amount of fats that are available in cheeseburger and stuff... and they were trying to stop me... but they failed!!

Dinner was just enough not too much and not too little... Headed to geylang serai with them without Jerm... Bought the top that I wanted for only 10 bucks! Cool!

think that would be it for the day... Can't wait for time to pass so that I can go swim tml!!

First day of school...

It's the first super shitty damn day of school... I only had one lecture and for BD tutorial I practically slack the whole 2 hours! How does it sound for a first day of school?

I think it's totally useless... And dead bored!

Wanted to swim in the morning but it was raining cats and dogs so.... There goes the chance! i was kind of moody during the break... And all I wanted to do was to jog! exercise!! I felt so uneasy and sad without exercising...

well it was band after that... Had sectionals till 8.30pm and then full band...

headed to Geylang Serai with my sisters, Jerm and Weilun... bought 2 necklaces! =D

yaya... I know I have to control but i just can't resist beautiful things!! =D

I'm feeling tired after the walk, gonna sleep soon after my show... gotta wake up to swim together with Jerm! Just pray hard it won't rain or else it's gonna RUIN MY DAY!!!

It's the first day of school, and I can't help thinking of my future... It has never left my mind and it has been the topic throughout the day... It was the first thing that I discuss with Jerm when we went school together... Conversation with Mei and Shunli... It never left...

I have to decide my future in like 4 months.... I have 2-3 paths but I'm not sure which path or door is open to me... That I can step foot on...

Is that the common topic among all year 3s??

I'm feeling vexed... I feel like crying... what's on my mind now? do you know?

*yAwNz*

I'm sleepy... good night peeps!

Yes, it's a sunday... 30/10/2005...

And next semster is gonna start in less than 24 hours... Which I think SP is dumb enough to do so... Cause I only have to go to school mon,wed and fri, as tues and thurs are public holiday... I guess we are the only poly that start school... Which SP is ass enough!

Anyway with the semster approaching, it signals my last semster in SP! Which means out of SP for GOOD!! I'm leaving my poly life soon!! You heard that peeps!! Which means it CALLS FOR A CELEBRATION!! I'm leaving behind my shitty poly life!! Ain't you happy for me? Oh well, Band is only thing that I would miss... But at least it's a burden off my shoulder... I'm having so much problems but who knows...

And I have to plan my future in less than 6 months. To be exact about 4 months... I have to know what I wanna do after that... Actually I already know what I wanna do already... It's just that if I'm able to make it or not with my terrible results... Which I doubt I can enter into the local uni...

That explains why I'm looking through the website... Looking thru UWA website on Bachelor of Education... Just to explain I have no interest in the commercial world at all! It's not and never my bowl of rice... But money is a BIG BIG problem! My family is never gonna be able to afford to pay those darn fees for me... My uncle say that he can pay for me... But I don't wanna owe someone a favour...

I'm really am troubled by lots of things recently... Besides my own education and future... I'm troubled by something else... In fact one person in particular... I'm so afraid of bringing the issue up.... I don't know how to bring my message across to that person so that that person doesn't misunderstand... But somethings i feel why should I give a damn about how that person feels? Whether you like it not it's freaking hell no business of mine... You hate me, that's your problem... you might not even see me in your whole bloody life again... But still i have to handle this problem carefully...

*gOsH* I'm handling someone that's not easy... And who is becoming someone that i don't want to be in any way related!

argh... it just pisses me off...

I'm beginning to think of my 19 years... why have I live? Have I really cherish or wasted my 19 years of life? Somehow I feel that I have wasted it... I feel empty which I'm NOT supposed to!

Know what? I wanna put down my burden of the section... I'm sorry if some of you are reading this... But there are some problems that I can see and know but there's nothing I can do... And it all started when I took over as SL... I feel so helpless... And as a section leader I have not done my job and lose my authority... How am I suppose to be a better leader?

God please tell me what to do? How am I supposed to be a better leader? How am I suppose to convey my message across to them so that there's no misunderstanding? How am I gonna make the section better?

Just cane back from KTV session with the Rojak gang... had alcoholic drinks and beer! And I'm NOT DRUNK!! I SERIOUSLY AM NOT!! But I just disgrace myself! =D

Ok i'm seriously shag! darn shag! I've NEVER in my whole bloody life exercise so much!!! My legs and arms are aching! Almost out of my control! Kind of sleepy but well took a short nap and I'm up again with all the energy!

Still meeting up with Sufen and Marilyn later.... For dinner and KTV!

I'm just gonna drop tonight! I seriously think so!

Anyways the game was good just now! Pair up with Raf against Audrey and Jerm! I guess we won! And there was this little "agruement" that goes on when someone miss the shuttlecock or refuse to run! It was hell lotsa fun! And After every score or every ball I miss I scream~! And I really mean every single one! But still it was fun! Hope to have another one soon! And I'm so not gonna play badminton in school! I'll just start screaming and shouting in the sports hall! So... I'll think I'll just give it a miss! =D

Ok I wanted to blog about this and since I remember what I wanna say I'll just blog it before I forget.... After I pee...

Ok instead I shitted! Boy that feels good! Pardon me peeps! I'm trying to buy time so that I won't fall asleep and miss my appointment with my dear ones! you see I have not slept since yesterday night! So I could just fall asleep anytime! So I'm making my mind work! Even when I'm shitting! Don't you do that too? ;)

I don't think I'm weird...

Okies back on track...

I do admit that sometimes I get envious of my surrounding friends, of my age, who are getting attached one by one. And I'm the only one with nothing but only bullshit and shit holes in my life! I don't understand why when I think back. I want my poly life to end so badly! My lowest peak of life? You name it... I might have it in my 3 years of poly life...

However seeing my friends going through the relationship period, I find that I'm not ready yet! So not ready! I don't know when do you say "you're ready" but somehow I just know it.

The trust and belief I have lose it and I hate guys but I don't like girls (though I had that lesbian dream). So what am I left with?

A girl that doesn't believe that there's someone special or the right one that's out there, even though she always tell people about "the right one will come". A girl that give her friends encouragement about holding on and believing in the wonderful thing "love", while she herself so doesn't believe it. Someone who is guarding her heart against all people that comes near her and still trying hard! Someone who has lose all her confidence in the way she is. She thinks she's ugly in character and definitely physically! Beginning to think why am I living?

Ok this is getting abit too depressing... Damn! I'm hungry!!!

Sometimes I question the big guy up there but sometimes I thank him for the blessing in disguise. See I don't even know what I want.

I don't understand how do people get on from one relationship to another in a short time. I never know how they could do that. and of cause I would never know how it feels like. And whether is love sweet or bitter?

It can be so sweet in the first place, but what change it? why did one couple that look so happy yesterday would end up breaking up the next day. We can't communicate, too possessive, blah blah... but what's the real reason?

Am I? Or are you? in the place to define "love".

Is the person that you are thinking of or with right now is that special person that you would grow old with?

Someone that SEEMS so right at that moment, might not be the right one. Don't follow your heart, cause sometimes our heart lie too.

So what can you do right? Know what you want! clearly. And this is not following your heart, it's a different part of your body that you are using...

think carefully...

just came back from swimming! Man! My muscles are aching! I can't barely lift up my hands... After breakfast, it's a couple of rounds of badminton games with Jerm, Raf and audrey!!

So sweet of both of them to come down to our area!! haha... actually we make them come down!! *eViL*

I'm up not watching HBO! but checking out on my claories and how much weight I have to lose and stuff... Ok I know it sounds ridiculous!

I'm checking on every health information! And we only need 1 teaspoon of salt a day!! GOD!! so peeps watch out!!

My sister can't stand me! she thinks i'm crazy! Almost insane!

Week started out well... Seems like this week is gonna be an intensive exercise week! Feel good! =D

Went jogging on monday night.... Wanted to jog ytd but it rain once my cousin and I step out of house... So we decided to climb stairs! Boy! you bet it's so darn tiring man! people like me who doesn't exercise much in the past! And my legs are aching! Just hope it pays off!

had sectionals today! Did "Ride"! Feel demoralise but still putting in more effort! It's darn fast la! need to practice my strokes...

Tml is a pack day!! For once after I stop giving tuition! Gonna swim in the morning, badminton in the afternoon, dinner with "rojak" gang and then KTV! OH GOD!!! Finally I'm seeing in the sun!

MAN! Gotta enjoy my last 4 days of holiday! School is starting on monday!! SP IS AN ASS!!!

Oh yeah! Took my jab yesterday!! Thought my phobia for jab was long gone with the wind! BOh man! I'm so wrong!! Woke up at 2plus just to go for jab! Drag my mum along! My sisters have to take it too! so they went ahead first! And I was hiding at one corner. You know the kind where you try to look for security while waiting! And next moment tears filled my eyes!

And I cried! Don't laugh peeps!

that's so so embarrassing! But who cares! Who said that a 19 year old girl can't be afraid of jabs!! That's crap!

anyways discussing with Ruben regarding the chalet! Deciding on the dates! So that it would be the best dates!

just came back from a jog!!

it's mahjong time!!

Exactly 1 mth!

Am counting down, still counting down! =D

Ok I told audrey and Jerm about my dream yesterday when we were on our way to FC 3 for dinner before band! And they make a big fuss out of it!! Ah man!

Hey peeps! I know my sexual direction and more over it's just a damn dream! So please don't misunderstand! I know you peeps won't! but i'm sure it's gonna be a joke for quite awhile! I guess it's ok...

band prac was rather cool! There are only 92 days left before MD! Seems long but time flies! It's my last concert already!! Listen up peeps!! It's my last concert!! LAST ONE!! So YOU GUYS BETTER BE COMING!! ok I really hope you guys can come!

My first MD was at Esplande! And now it's my last concert! At Esplande!! Tics are selling at $16 (circle seats) and $21 (stall seats)!!

Do suport k!! Thanx peeps!!

my oh my! you guys are not gonna believe this man! I had a lesbian dream last night! Can't remember who was it but not of anyone i know.

Probably that's the reason why I was late meeting mei. Was supposed to meet her at 1.30pm! i woke up at 1.30pm! =D

We were supposed to KTV but we ended at cineleisure suki! Sorry girl! Will make up to you again!

I wonder why do people have such dreams?

hmm....

man oh man! I Have lots of thoughs running through my head...

Thank God I'm gonna go out soon or else it's just gonna keep thinking about it~

And it's raining outside again. Oops... I mean just now. It's bright and sunny outside!

But still it's such a nice weather! My body is aching after the jog yesterday! Man! After stopping for a week.

Gonna go for band in an hour so to sort out the parts for the pieces.

I just love holidays!

Jerm is finally back from SRI LANKA~! yeah! Man! I miss her so much!! Girl! you heard that I miss you like shit!! haha... I really do! Can't wait to see you tml!

Just hang up the phone with her! Ya the moment I put down, I'm here blogging!

Well she lost her voice, cause she had too much FRIED FOOD!! But still she went on saying her experience with her hoarse voice! Still loud and clear! =D

I would say an interesting experience she had! The place she stayed was like a live "Life discovery channel". She had cows walking beside her on the road and monitorlizards! And house lizards that have spots! Seesh! I wonder how does it really look like.

She bought a gift for me! Wonder what is it?

And she bloody hell bought an indian drum for less than 10 bucks!! GOD!! If that drum would be import to Singapore it definitely gonna cost MORE than that bloody 10 bucks! I would say at least a 40 bucks or so?

Anyways the rojak gang would be complete once we meet up this week! And I can't wait for that!

Damn. Mummy strike lottery yesterday and today. Okays people don't ask me how come? cause I don't know why. And don't ask me to tell you guys when my mums buy lottery. cause I don't wanna be responsible if you don't strike.

I'm staying home today! No outings! No spending of money!! I need to save! Saving plan going on well! Surprisingly! I just love exams period! It makes you save big time!

So it would just be watching tv half of the day. cause I just woke up from my sleep! Seesh! finally another good sleep!

I wanna move to my aunt's place for peace and quietness, but my mum doesn't allow me to! But I can't bear with the noise anymore! I need to have the space that I want! And I'm not getting it! It's my holidays, the only time whereby I can stay home and really rest! But not put on weight!

And I seriously think my sisters are the most USELESS batch of people I ever know! I don't care if they read this or who so ever! I seriously think so! It's a torture living with them. They don't know how to help keep the house tidy and stuff! And I'm fucking hell not doing it for them! And anyways don't won't appreciate my help! How many times they would really appreciate. it's no use talking to them heart-to-heart, it doesn't have any effect. ONLY FRIENDS!! ONLY FRIENDS! NO SELF REALISATION!

So I can't be bother! Their problem would be their! Nothing to do with me! Say I'm a bad, useless and inconsiderate! I don't give a damn! Cause you just don't understand the pain to really wake these people up! It's worse than studying for exams and crying over a concert!

From now on, I'll just try to keep quiet when I'm at home. Not gonna talk much...

I'm thinking if I should just go to my aunt's place like that against my mum or just stay home?

Watever! I'm just really pissed!! I don't understand why she don't allow me to! What's her bloody problem?! Don't tell me you miss me?! Don't give me that shit! You need me at home cause you need me for some other reasons.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT! DAMN IT!!

FOR ALL YOU KNOW! I FEEL THAT MY PRIVACY IS INTRUDED!! VERY INTRUDED!!

Just came back home from meeting marilyn and sufen! And because of the existence of the "popiah gang"! We decided to call ourself "Rojak gang" which makes up of marilyn, sufen, Jermaine and me!

Ok! I know it sounds stupid and ridiculous! SO! Can we think of another name instead of rojak gang?! Marilyn! I know you are reading this?! "Rojak" sounds so spastic!! I don't wanna go around and tell people I met up with the rojak gang today! Oh god!! I can simply imagine the look on their face!

HUH?! that would be it!

So I guess we could have a nicer name... Let's brainstorm for the next few outings! And that would be next thursday!! Together with Jerm this time! A full "Rojak" gang! Oh god!! Next week would be the last time k! We need a nicer name! More classy and unique!!

Anyways had hell lots of fun! Though there will only the 3 of us. We went to swenses for dinner. Then to crystal jade! Sufen and me each had a cup of $0.80 chinese tea, while our dear marilyn had her xiao long bao, which she was crazy about!

After that we went to "Breko" and had tea and some food! We had baked potato, toasties and Oreo cheesecake! We had some fun there! Laughing our hearts out!! It's been a long time since we met up but! We still felt as close! At least to me!! It better be for the both of you!!

And all thanx to marilyn's good idea. She got herself into trouble! haha.... Chamomile tea mixed with oreo cheesecake and potato! And she drank those!! haha.... SO! a lesson to learn dear! Keep your ideas to yourself! =D

Anyways we met up at holland V. That's what I like about Holland V, you have everything in one place!!

And we decided to meet up once a week! And it better be so!!

Damnit. Mummy strike lottery again!

Finally bought a new LCD monitor and audiobox A500!! Everything just look so cool! All black! Woah! With abit of classy feeling. But the screen is kind of screwed up. yet to find out the problem. But one step at a time.

Anyways stayed at home the WHOLE DAY!! That's totally so so! COOL!! I just love to slack at home. Laying on my bed or the living room sofa watching tv the whole day!! Switching channels here and there! That's my worst habit ever when i get hold of the remote!! And people said that it's a guy's habit? is it true?

Cause when school reopens and when I have to teach, i will never ever have the time to do that. it's a good way to refrain myself from going shopping and save money!

peace

Finally peace and quietness. I'm alone at home and only with the radio on. Man! I waited for this for a long time. Not that long. just 2 weeks... But it's to long to bear with it!

I just love afternoons whereby I'm alone at home, having my own space, doing my own stuff. Basically when my sisters are not at home. But it would just be in the afternoons. .

Anyways am having my breakfast and lunch now, packed from my mum's shop. And blogging at the same time. Ok, I'm supposed to be watching tv. But because I've no SCV at the moment, cause my mum have took it to starhub to change it. And I'm dying! I can die without tv! God! This is so boring. So I'm only left with the com and radio. Thank God, people invented such stuff to use.

And I can totally beat my record of not using the bloody com. I guess I have not been siging on to msn for a real long time. It would only just be blogging and checking mail now. I don't wanna sign in and beginning to feel that to me msn has lost its meaning. if you get what I mean... I just hate signing in! Overall MSN is nothing to me now.

Met up with meimei ytd! Finally!! After about 1 week plus! Caus poor her was down with chicken pox the day before the last paper! How suay can that be! Tell me about it! And she have to stay home to do the paper with all those itch! Oh! SP wanted to defer her! In another words! It's to fail her! Just that defer sounds nicer!! It's so not fair! SP is really some big time asshole! It's so not fair for people like meimei. How does she bloody hell know when those pox are coming out! And she has to retake the whole module again. And that would be when we have already graduate! SP is nuts!

We met up at Orchard to head to Far East to trim our eyebrow! And still I can take the pain! I was holding my breath and the person plucking my eyebrow kept talking to me! And I seriously didn't know how to talk and hold my breath. But it was over soon. Wanted to cut my hair too. But well I didn't in the end. Headed for lunch at scotts foodcourt, where they serve the best beef noodles! At least to me! But ytd one was not that nice. After lunch just went walking around. When we reach PS she has to go.

And since I didn't feel like going home though I was tired, so I gave Sufen a call! And met up with her. Was walking at PS and headed to cityhall by foot! Bought a couple of stuff. A watch, 2 pair of earrings and a earring. Think that's all. OH! and 10 bucks worth of bread from breadtalk! hehe...

It has been a long time I've not met up with her. 8 months I think! She was shocked! Cause I was asking her out! Since when Jocelyn will asked people out! That was what she said. I'm so sorry girl! Really caught up with lots of stuff! And only now I have time for friends and myself! I know you will understand! =D

Talking about that I've yet to meet up with someone yet! Shit! He's gonna start killing me and saying all those crap! Better meet up with him soon.

We had dinner at Cafe Cartel. Not much we share basically everything! We ordered a supreme platterr, a bowl of soup. And drinks for each of ourself! We didn't want anything filling. But we still felt full after that. Though we have not met up for a long time. We still have so much to say.

I've better to make use of this holidays to meet up with them before school starts. Or else they will start nagging again!

For the first time yesterday, my mum called me and cried. And I was still outside, on my way home. I mean it's not as if I have not seen her crying before. But the last time I really saw her crying was 3 years back when my beloved grandma passed away. Everybody cried cause she was so dear to everyone. But she has never called me and talked to me about the problem and started sobbing. I was shocked and loss of words. I didn't know what to say. It just hurts me.

Anyways after that I cried on my way home on the bus. I packed dinner home for her, hoping that she would feel better after that.

And the issue that left her crying was my sisters... I just don't understand why. They are like turning 16 soon.

I made up my mind. Now I'm in a dilemna. Should I? Or should I not?

I guess she felt better after that cause she strike lottery... Again. And I've got extra allowance for the day.

it's just another simple day.

Rise and shine. breakfast or rather lunch. Tuition. Then went back to see Dr Eu.

Well still on medication. I'll just have to wait for a couple of month and see the situation. Just hopes it gets better.

My decision is made. Whether you like it or not, I'm still going ahead with it. I can't take it anymore!

Nothing is more cruel than reality.

And when it comes. you can't run from it, you have to accept it and live with it.

Sometimes I just don't understand. And I'm so reluctant to accept.

There are a couple of issues that I've been running away from for a long time.

Unwilling to face it or talk about it. And when people ask, "I don't know" is the superficial answer. But there are more that I know.

Why did I have to know? Why did I have to find out? Why did reality satisfy my curiousity and gave me an answer.

I had a dream recently. A wonderful one. One that goes with my desire. Dreams always look so perfect, so wonderful and flawless.

Running away is inevitable. so as just to survive.

Accepting is so as to be brave enough to face it. And be ready for more challenges.

Accept or run away?

What's your definition of life?

I'm back. After 10 days. I just detest coming online and found no meaning anymore.

I've lots to say but am left speechless when I'm right in front of the screen.

Exams are finally over. But still as stressed up as before cause of my students' psle. But it's the last paper on monday and then it would be time to relax.

I've save almost enough but will put in more effort to save.

Just 3 more weeks, school's gonna start.

well I guess that's about it. I don't know what to say.

yeah. I finally found my year 2, sem 2 result slip!

I, I don't know why I miss you so much

Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch

You, you left me feeling high and dry

With nothing, nothing but the queston why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction

And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today

I'll say that I'm fine

But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice

It's just a lie

You knew what you had

You still walked away leaving me in this mess

My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me

And I, I guess I was too blind to see

Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad

But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me

Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

Officially 19

Before the clock strike 12 midnight and before 25 Sep 2005 becomes history, I shall blog. I've not blog for like a week. Yeah. As the title suggest, I'm 19. It's my birthday today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! AND IVAN! AND CHRISTOPHER!

Ask me how I feel turning 19? Well. Not much of a diff. It's just like another day. All because it falls between exams. It totally sucks. And it reminds me of my birthday 3 years ago, when I got my prelims like 2 days before my birthday! Crap!

But I still receive wishes from my friends and of cause some presents from a few of them.

The first thing that greeted me was EA NOTES! Darn! I was studying for EA exam!

Ok! serious! Just wanna thank the following people!

The first person was Nat! Then fendi. He actually called me. Hey! Thanx man! Appreciate it! It's ok that there's no gift, remembering is already more than a blessing!

Mailina, Audrey, my folks in Perth, Meimei, Chris (it was a total joke), Christopher, Alicia, Prisca, Ivan, MCDONALDS ( It's TRUE!), Anton, Marilyn, Melodie, Ivy, Jermaine, Weilun ( who thinks I'm 20!), Alvin, Adeline, Shunli, Muru, Lj, Venassa, Wan Chien, Collin, Gonnie and Herman.

Ya think that's all. I hope I didn't miss out any, and I doubt so, cause I still have not delete the message!

Anyways peeps! Thanx alot!

Why I said Chris was a total joke 'cause I actual msg him to ask for a birthday wish. Christopher's birthday falls on the same day as me and there was Chris and Christopher in my phonebook. So I forgot which one. I just send to Chris. It reads...

"Hey happy birthday! TO US! blah blah blah... "

"Oh it's your birthday today? Happy birthday. But why to us?!"

Then I knew I made a terrible mistake! So embarassing! Think must be brainwashed by EA!

Got a couple of presents.

Well my sister, meichan, didn't know what to get for me. So she gave me 40 bucks to buy my leather bag. BUT!! When I went there, it was only left with the sliver one! OH man! I would never carry that out! It's so TOTALLY NOT ME! ARGH!

So I invested on this green bag! that cost $19.90 = 20 bucks! So I still have 20 bucks. hmm... What should I spend on? I'm still thinking...

BIG BIRD!! Guess what is it?!

It's a bedroom slippers!! From Lina! It's darn cute and it fits me just to the "T". But I'm not gonna wear it! 'Cause I don't wanna dirty it!

My new specs!! It's black frame and the side is PINK!! =D

I know the frame is big! But who cares!! I just love it! And it cost $208!! It's a gift from MAMI!! =D

Okies, this is from Andy. I've too many books that are left unread. But well, I still welcome it!

Hmm... "Be a people person"

From Meimei.

AH!!! ANG BAOS!!! Wanna guess how much?

The 2 "man" angbaos are from mami and meiying. The 2 with the chicken are from mum's friends!

Aiya, Stop those guessing! I'll just show you! he...

The one with 2 fifty dollar note, don't need to guess! It's from mami!! Meiying gave me 50 bucks! and 10 bucks each from my mum's friends!

Man! This is even better than Chinese new year man! My mum gives me only like 20 bucks from CNY. I think so. I just hope my birthday is everyday!!

Have not gotten my first cake and blow my first candle this year. But well, it's alright. Anyways it's not of any use. 'Cause I don't know what to wish for and I've nothing to wish for.

Ok~! I'm done blogging! Gotta go study EA! OH YUCK!! EA is simply DISGUSTING!

was watching a documentary "Last mysteries of Titanic"

Oh god! It's like darn interesting!! After 93 years!! Some of the things are still intact!! thirst for more! BUT! Well due to time constraint of the show, it has to end. Can you imagine I'm just watching but already so interested... how about those on the expedition?!

*sEeSh*

Anyways, it's just a break after studying for quite awhile. Have got TA paper tml and I'm quite worried! Not quite! BUT VERY!!

Finishing my last chapter, take a bath then back to revision. Paper is 6pm tml.

Haiz...

GOOD NEWS~!

OH YEAH!! I've got good news!! Wonderful one!! I can make NEW SPECS!!!

Ok that's it! =D

I'm Back! with updatez...

Okays have not had a proper blogging opportunity EVER SINCE I STARTED DOING EA PROJECT!!!! It just got me so afraid of sitting in front of the computer staring at the screen! When I had enough staring of more than 10 HOURS!

OK!! I'm just PLAIN LAZY!!! =]

Anyways updatez would be easy 'cause nothing much happen. So let's begin...

From sunday to tuesday, it was just EA project. I would start doing at night and sleep at 6+ in the morning. And when I wake up, it's already 2+ in the afternoon and it's time for EA. I would be in front of the computer and no where else. The only time when I get my ass of my pink computer chair, it would be bathing, sleeping and when I'm out giving tuition! =)

It went on for nights and finally when Cia received it on tuesday, I had to make some amendments to the bloody ratios!

Finally EA had been submitted to Jon, gone for good!

Poor and innocent Jon. Have been cursing and swearing at him, once I can't get things done. My apologies! Anyways, Jon is my lecturer.

Nightmare over?

NO WAY MAN!! Had to study for FO (futures & options) test on thursday. So wednesday was spent at home studying for FO! And I'm like so darn bloody tired!!

And FO is darn difficult! I perfer it on the pit! All those shit that's all the notes! I mean I don't even apply it when I'm trading on the pit! So long as I can limit my loss and let profit run. Studying it was more than like a chore.

And I studied till like 4+, 5 the next morning. I was just too tired to absorb ANYTHING! So I had to take small little breaks in between, which is sleep! That's how I ended studying till 4+. Manage to get some stuff into that head of mine. Got some sleep and I'm off for test!

Took the test. One word. No, one sentence! but emphasising on one word!

I'm just gonna DIE. There was 16 true/false questions, 10 mcq, 2 calculations and 1 essay qns! God save my life man!! If you had studied, good for ya!! It was basically from the notes. But well, I gave all that chance away. I'm just gonna fail. I know it. No need for comforting words, cause I've already given up hope the day before.

Anyways one of the few tests that I would have such thinking.

I'm just so drained after so many late nights sleep.

The paper was long forgotten the moment we were out of the room.

Headed to commonwealth with meimei, to collect my mini water dispenser! I really mean mini! Will take a picture of it when I'm free and blog it the next time.

and we went to cityhall for lunch. Spend awhile together, bought some stuff. OH! I bought a REALLY REALLY UGLY SPORT SHOES!!!! I won't ever ever wear it out unless I go jogging at night! MAN! What do you expect after paying $23.90 for it!

Well, it's not that ugly la! At least I still go jogging with that.

And slack awhile at TCC, had a cup of oreo milkshake and shared a sandwich with meimei. Thank God we did, or else I'm not able to finish. We had our lunch like at 2+ and 3+ my stomach was calling for food, that was why we decided to settle at TCC. =D

Left at 4+ and headed separate destination. Now there's where all the work start!

Dinner was delicious! My mum made prawn noodles. It's darn nice!

Oh yeah! My dad was like saying "Joy. Ni yao xue huo zhu mah, bu rang yi hou wo men si le shui zhu give (sry can't think of the han yu pin ying) ni chi?!" (my mum was getting ready to cook for me, 'cause I asked her to.)

I said, "Aiya, deng wo yao jia de si hou zai xue." =)

And my mum was like laughing, but that left my dad nothing to say. =P

Anyways, I was really thinking of learning how to cook from my mum when I intend to get married. Her cooking is FAB! Better than my dad's, even though he cooks the noodle in his shop. =)

But well, it's still like how many years down the road. So for the time being, my parents just have to suffer by cooking for their little girl, ME! haha. =x

After dinner, work started!

It was time to pack my table. It's really tiring man! Started packing my stuff then I realise I actually have lots of things! And I mean lots of rubbish!! I still keep my year 1 notes, but now it's somewhere else. probably the incernator!

Had to pack, 'cause there was no way I could study on that messy table of mine. Now I have one big pile of unfold clothes! and I drag packing them. Will do it probably after TA? hmm... Then where should I sleep? I'll try to get it done later on...

Been wanting to blog about this, and channel 8 reminded me about it.

There was this recent case about a maid chopping someone into 6 pieces and da pao it and left it at orchard road.

Can you imagine if you were to find a head in a bag?! OH DAMN!! I'll just scream and shout and cry non-stop!!! I will be flabbergasted!! I already had that feeling when I read about that article!

*SeEsH*

What's wrong with people nowadays?! Chopping people up like chopping the chicken into pieces ready to coook curry chicken!

and there was another case that someone used a chopper to hack someone. It took place at the coffeeshop below my house.

Oh man! My hairs are like standing straight up!!

What were these people thinking about?! How could they ever bring themself to do such things?! I mean what did our parents, teachers taught us about staying away from knives since we were all small cute little boys and girls?! How painful it would be to get cut?!

And now these people using on others. OH God! Please forgive them.

Can't remember what's the next issue I wanna blog about, will if I remember.

Anyways that's it for today, gotta be off taking a shower, pack my clothers then STUDY!!

Not gonna blog much today. All I know is that!! I'M DONE AND OVER WITH EA!!!!!!

Good night. Take care. Byebye.

*sounds like Ambrose?!

=)

wheez! It's 5:08 AM... Just woke up from my sleep!! The earliest time I woke up ever!! haha... I can't believe I could wake up that early!!

You gotta be KIDDING ME?!! There's no school!! So why am I stil awake?

'Cause I'm not asleep yet!!! I'm up doing EA project!!! Wonder what project is that, it's a HORRIBLE DISGUSTING PROJECT!!! All those research you have to do is more than any kind of research for any kind of project. I was really struggling in the first place! Really stressed up and felt so useless for not being able to come out with anything. And I don't deny that I cried. It's always the case, I don't know how to handle my stress except for crying and my com was giving lots of problems! Hanging in the midst of my research! Was really pissed!

And I was swearing like nobody's business. I tried to stop but it didn't allow me to. And I had to control it.

Finally manage to calm myself down after some crying, praying and music.

Got myself into serious work. And manage to get lots of things done. Done with my forecast for SIA.

I'm left with the ratios.

Submission date is 16 Sep, Friday. So why am I burning midnight oil like crazy for these 2 nights?

'cause it's supposed to be submit to cia by sunday night and it's already monday morning now. So I have to rush. I'm feeling kind of giddy 'cause I slept at 5.30am last night.

Though it's tough but I do have a little sense of satisfaction. =)

My mum woke up at 4+ and she made this sandwich for me.

So the papaya and sandwhich is gonna spend time with me for the next few hours.

Okies... Gotta be back doing EA!

Time now is 3:50am.

I'm still up doing EA project! Trying hard to figure out what's going on, which is really worse then figuring out rythmns!! I rather choose to figure out those!!

Well, taking a break from it now. Just a short one... 'cause I'm darn cold and hungry! And staring into space or night-dreaming while typing. my vision becomes blur once in a while!

I still have service tml but am still up. I've got towake up at 8. So it's either I sleep now or don't sleep!

I have to submit the report to Cia later tonight, but I'm not even half done. And I've to give tuition tml, which I really drag myself from going. I just don't feel like going to teach. I wanna come home and do project. I'll be exhausted after a whole day of event.

But... I have to go. I'm left with no choice. It's just totally sucky. I hate teaching on sunday but I didn't had a choice.

If I could, I would scream it out loud here! Vent every single anger or unhappiness here! Don't wanna make things worse, so I'll just keep to myself. Anyways it's just a month or so. And it'll be over.

I recall what happen that day, I'm still kind of pissed. Haiz.. Shan't talk about! It's just some own personal problem.

Gotta be back doing EA!

Ciaoz peeps!

Kill me?!

You guys are so gonna kill me... Seriously!! OK... before that updates about today...

Went back to school for FO lecture this morning!! YES!! I went back!! But was late... Went back for the quiz... It's my second quiz so far... Well... Cheong cheong gives quiz most of the time during lecture... So imagine the number of times, he has given quizzes already. Anyways it's the last lecture... So why not?!

AFter FO, headed to suntec with meimei. Was shopping around, headed to BK to grab a bite 'cause my gastric was acting up... Lunch ended and it was time to study... Studied abit and went to sakae for lunch. We ate quite alot, spend about 2 hours inside...

And it was time for meimei to go 'cause she has jap class... For me?! I went to meet my aunt and sisters for the travel fair at SUNTEC!!!!!! Haha... Went there to look at the package that the agencies are offering for Hong Kong!!! OH GOD!! HONG KONG!!! I'M OVERWHELMED!!! SEESH... Cool it, JOCELYN!!

Got so cheated when we reach outside... thought it was free but we had to pay 3 bucks for admission. Nvm.. got lots of free gifts!! So many that I'm afraid that I left my own stuff behind!! We spent a whole of 4 hours plus in the exhibition hall... Chan's brother are having long queue so while waiting we went around to ask for the rates offered!!! At the same time went around to look for free gift!! YUP!! I do admire I'm kaisu!! And I'm proud to be a Singaporean!! But hey!! The freebies are most of the time th nicest!! How can you resist it!! Anyway went to collect the UOB tote bag and miss our queue! But it didn't take long before our enquires are answered!! As usual a whole lot of quesitions and answer went on!!

AND LISTEN UP PEEPS!!! I'M GOING TO HONG KONG!!! HONG KONG!!! I'M DEPARTING ON THE 21ST NOV!!! 645A.M FLIGHT!!! AND ON MY WAY TO MY SHOPPING PARADISE!!! CAN YOU IMAGINE!! HONG KONG!! THE PLACE WHERE I ALWAYS WANTED TO GO!!! AFTER WATCHING THOSE HONG KONG SERIES!!! ALL GIRLS ARE JUST GONNA DIE AFTER GOING THERE!!! 'CAUSE IT'S OUR WORLD THERE!!!

I'm gonna SHOP, SHOP, SHOP, SHOP N SHOP!!!

God!! I can't wait man!! The thought of it and by looking at the map.. I'm TURN ON!!! haha... =)

How I wish is 20th Nov NOW!! Packing my luggage and stuff...

But my only worries are tests... 'cause it's the 4th week of school. Well, for now I'll just pray hard... GOD PLEASE BLESS ME!! PEEPS PLEASE KEEP YOUR HANDS TOGETHER AND PRAY FOR ME TOO!!! PRETTY PLEASE!!! If it really happens then I'll just see what I can do about it... I'm GOING NO MATTER WHAT!!

The best of my days.... OHhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHhhh........

Oh yeah... Was talking about behaving yesterday... And TODAY?!! I, JOCELYN LEE SHANG YING, MISBEHAVED AGAIN!!! Look at what I've spend on the whole of this week.. Just this week k!!

Bought the cross necklace, ring and earrings on monday, 'cause I was killing time before tuition... It's 3 BUCKS EACH!!!

Bought this 2 pairs on tuesday... 2 bucks each... GOOD BUY!!! STRONG BUY!!!

Bought this bag yesterday... Finally bought it after thinking for so long... And I use it today!! heez...

Bought this yesterday too...

Bought this top just now... And I never regret! This top cost $33 few months back, and when I bought it today I paid only $9.90!! =D

YES!! I bought all these 4 necklaces TODAY!! JUST NOW!!! I went back the second time and the sales girl could recognise me... And she add on to my previous purchase and I got a mebership. It's 2 for $10 at first, but the second set I paid only $6.20!! hehe...

I wouldn't mind getting the membership 'cause the accessories are frreaking nice!!!

Well that's it for today... I'm sleepy already, will do EA tml...

So peeps! If you wanna kill me!! Tag kz! I'm awaiting...

NITEZ!!!

JOCELYN YOU NEED TO BEHAVE!!!!

Yes I need to behave... Or else my mum needs to get a new place or I'll haev to shift to my aunt's place...

I need to stop shopping in Singapore... I'm going crazy!!! I can barely control myself... It's gonna be worse if I'm going to Hong Kong... I'm saving for Hong Kong already but here I am spending lots... Seesh...

I shamelessly bought 2 pair of earrings yesterday... A bag today and a watch... I don't konw what's more...

I need to control...

Ok I need to do EA...

Never give up

Just an hour ago, I was gonna die... Was so frustated and irritated with EA and BD projects... I had to finish BD by today 'cause our group wants to submit it early... and I meant DAMN early... the dateline is 3 oct.. Ya freaking early... Anyways it would be good, at least we can concentrate on preparing for exams and I won't want to go back to school just to submit a darn report unless it's BAND!!

Anyways I was so frustated and running out of patience 'cause I didn't know how to do my part. Product and pricing. I could only copy what is on the powerpoint slides and I can elaborate no SHIT!! I am so stuck... And EA is running through my mind!! I just wanted to vent my anger, 'cause I couldn't come out with anything. And I have all sort of words coming out of my mouth.

And soon I realise there's a big problem. "Jocelyn, you are just not calm enough and it's no big deal! why are you reacting like that?!"

I click on windows media player and quickly got "Deeply in love" playing on my computer... And soon I calm down... And with Kang ming msg helping me to start on the core level of product and meimei's little explanation. I got started immediately and soon things just started flowing to me... Thanx for the help peeps!!

Thank God for the wonderful song too!! I wouldn't have calm down...

I'm now done with BD, and it's EA time... It's kind of headache... Already having a splitting headache but still gotta get these done or else I'll be piling up too much work during the weekend!!!

Exams are round the corner, need to get really started... Through I've already started but it's TOO SLOW!!!

I'm feeling sleepy and I seem to be turning and turning...

Compare

Supposed to be doing my project at the moment... but i've yet to start...

Was bored so I cut and paste photos of me from 3 different years of IBM... Compare how I look then and now...

Big difference? Well... I think there's a fair bit... Why not you guys tell me? =P

JUST LET ME SCREAM!!!

I DON'T NEED YOU PEOPLE!!! JUST GET LOST!! I'M ALREADY DEVELOPING HATRED TOWARDS YOU PEOPLE!!! I DON'T WANT THAT!! SO STOP DOING THAT TO ME ANYMORE!! DON'T COME NEAR ME!!! I'M WARING YOU!! DON'T GIVE ME A CHANCE TO HATE YOU PEOPLE!!!! I HATE DOING SO!!

THE THOUGHT OF IT, JUST MAKES ME SO ANGRY AND A FOOL TO MYSELF!!! THERE'S NOTHING WRONG!! BUT WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME!! CHOOSE SOMEBODY!! OR ELSE JUST KEEP YOURSELF TO YOUR OWN ASS AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!

Just a short one...

Not gonna be a long entry... 'cause I've to start doing research on EA or else I'm just gonna DIE!!

After school went studying with meimei at TBP BK... Manage to study a little bit... Exams are just in less than 2 weeks time... *sIgH* ='(

Gotta catch up... Saw Mr Darren Chong giving extra lessons to his students... Hardworking huh!

Am hungry now!! Waiting for my sister, meiying, to be back... 'cause she's buying dinner for me...

Seesh... I've been eating alot... How am I gonna lose weight... EXERCISE IS THE WORD!! Will start soon... Hope so! I hate jogging in the evening 'cause the air is just too polluted... Morning? Too early for me to wake up... So 10+ at night is the best... =)

Okies... Going off... EA HERE I COME!!

OH GOD!! PLEASE SAE ME!!!

I hate myself for being like that... Once again I have to hide under my blanket and cry... I try hard... But not hard enough... I just have to get through this period... I tried to be strong and thought I could... And be like a fighter...

But I'm just feeling so terrible... Indulging myself in my own world... I can't get myself into reality and go on... Looking the way I am, I tried so hard... And just glad that it pays off a little...

Thinking back... I feel so low and cheap.. I hate those kind of feeling... it's so embarrassing!! I was doing too much and just thinking too much... I should have thought so... It will never happen to me... I had thought of it... But I failed to stop it... Ain't I just dumb...

And it turns out that I've just been fooled... Just like before...

if anyone asked me to trust them, how can I ever trust them again?

Ignorance is bliss... But sometimes it's just difficult... I don't wanna act, I just wanna get out...

As usual couldn't climb out of bed for FO lecture this morning... I'm just gonna die man! I don't know how many FO lectures I skipped... Anyways went for FIA, was super duper late... yes... As usual... The leopard never changes its spots... =)

There wasn't BD this week... Headed to cityhall alone to kill time 'cause tuition starts at 5 and It was only 2.15pm when I left school... Walked around in hope of looking for somethings... Found my long wallet... it's roxy... 32 bucks... Got the urge to buy but hold it back... Couldn't stop thinking about it while I was walking but suddenly a thought came to my mind and I decided not to buy... =)

I'll get my cousin to check it out in perth... I didn't wanna buy here 'cause lots of people is gonna buy it and I'll have the same thing as people! Don't wan! =) So immediately the urge and desire to get it was GONE!! haha...

Well as what meimei and shunli always say... "everytime they go out with me, I'm bound to get something"!

Yup! I didn't fail to disappoint them again.. I bought a necklace, a pair of earrings and a ring... =)

And I shop at Carrefour... Shocked?? Don't be... I can just shop anywhere... I bought hangers... Yes hangers!! it's darn cheap... I bought 60!! haha... it actually comes in a pack of 12 costing only 2 BUCKS!! So one cost only like $0.17... =D

Anyways besides hangers, I bought towels and cotton wool... OK! My mum doesn't buy daily neccessities for me... The only daily neccessities they provide me are love and concern, money, a shelter over my head, food and COTTON BUDS!! Yup that's the only thing that they know that I used to often...

I called my mum and asked if buying hangers from downstairs my house was cheaper.. and she told me SHE NEVER BUY BEFORE!! WTH!! I'm shocked!! Anyways I told her about the deal and she told me to get it... I told her I'm getting 5 and she said ok... And next I told her I'll be giving tuiton ( hinting that it's too heavy)... "Bu you jin, mai."

Bought it... and the stuff was so heavy, I was looking like a fool... And Cia and Prisca spotted the fool...

Reach home the earliest today... MAN! And I feel that it's damn late already... Have to start EA... But I'm so sleepy... *yAwNz*

To sleep or not to sleep...

The hangers.. Spotted it 'cause I saw the pink ones...

Towels that cost $3.50 each...

Bought the stuffs below last week...

The flowers are darn big... I look like a siao char bo when I wear this...

Together with the big flowers earrings, it cost 2 for $5

Not very clear... It's bread...

Cookie earrings... It looks small but it's big on my ears...

bought this for $5... ;)

Well, that's it for today... I'm still between EA and sleeping...