Final Endurance, I hope.

Endurance is really tough especially when it comes to something that you don't like. Each day seems like hell and you can't stop blaming time for passing so slowly.

But I hope this is my final endurance here. And probably move on to another stage of my life with a career change. I'm excited about it and looking forward to it.

Back in the office on a sunday for standby in Dubai processing just in case there's anything. I'm just making full use of the internet services given to us. I'm wondering if I should do my masters in Marketing. The bf is gonna start his studies soon in May and Ivy is gonna do her Masters in Mkting communications as well. It's influencing me to wanna study again. I'll give it a good thought first.

It's another hr before the cut-off time for client's instruction to be fax to us. Hope I can get out after that.

Anyways enjoy the last bit of weekend!

Making God's word the final authority in life

Just finish battling with many issues for the day. Waiting for the bf to pick me up.

Sometimes I just wonder is it worthwhile to put in so much effort at all. People don't appreciate or even remember. It's quite discouraging.

But again I forgot. God never change. I'm doing it for the glory of God and not for anybody else. They don't remember or appreciate. God will remember and reward accordingly. The world's order of things are unsure and indefinite. Each day before I step into office, I pray for strength from God in everything I do. And things will change for better.

And now though there are many issues but I've settled it all and it's time to head home to the nest.

"I am the Lord, I change not." Malachi 3:6.

Happy CNY and V-day, my dear friends!

Nothing really special for this occassion, except for the long holidays and red packets. But it's not really a long holiday 'cause am back today on the 2nd day of CNY to support the dubai market. It's awful feeling.

And so the spring cleaning should be done way before CNY and just enjoy the new year. But I've been so busy at work, working late for the whole of last week. I rarely could spare any time for spring cleaning. Cleared some of my shoes on CNY eve though. Threw quite a few pairs away but it didn't make much of a difference. 'Cause I've already got a few new pairs to fill up the space! So it just looks like how it was before.

Yet to clear my clothes and bags, I'm sure it's gonna be a disaster. I just can't stop buying. The old ones are not going but new old ones just keep coming in at a uber crazy flow! I'm trying to cut-down a little. It's tough! Made a promise to the bf. For this spring cleaning, I'll have to listen to him. Those that need to go, will have to go. There was a little disagreement to the shoes that day 'cause I'm not the kind that keep to my promise when it comes to clearing my old stuff that I treasure so much and actually listening to the man telling me what to do. Ego. That's me.

Plan is to pack tml. Don't think I'll have enough time to do so. I'll always stone mid-way through the packing cause I don't know what to do with the overflowing stuff I've got or even where to keep them. For some reason, I'll just blank out.

Anyways am just waiting for confirmation from another team, in order to make my payment out. But the system is down, this whole processing for dubai is pissing me off. I hope I can leave at 10pm. Or before 11pm. Pissed with my boss as well, it's her week for dubai shift. We are nice to take turns for her. She left at 4.30 ytd. Just felt that she should be the one coming back today, not us covering for her. It's not fair and she just kept quiet abt it. It's fine to come back to work if you enjoy the work you're doing but it really sucks when it's not.

You know, I've been giving a good thought of my future here. I can't give up the benefits and the pay but I'm sacrificing my happiness which is not worth it. Decided to leave some time this year and move on to something new. Probably no more banking line. Wanna try out marketing communications kind of job. Am 24, still young for a career switch and I don't intend to settle down so fast. It's never too late. Everything is just getting draggy here. Looking at my work and all the investigationgs and recon one person has to do. There's only 1 word that starts highlighting itself in my head. Hate. So I guess it's time to move on. To something new and fresh.

Sunday's sermon was good. It was about faith.

And Heb 11:1 mention.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, being convinced of what we do not see."

Entrust your life to Him. And it is mention in Heb11:40

"For God had provided something better for us, so that they would be made perfect together with us."

I've always been afraid of quitting my job. Many questions will start popping in my head.

Can I get a job? A job that pays as well as this? Would I be once again jobless for many months?

All these uncertainties are driving me insane. And each time when I make a decision to leave. I'll be held bad. This is when the good times are here.

But it's short-lived. Bad times come quick. I'll be filled with frustration again.

I guess my students made me realised something. I've always been telling them. Do what you like, then you'll be happy. They did. One of them got into Integrated resort event mgmt and the other mass comm.

If I could tell them that then what am I still doing here. I used to put in a 120% for my work but now it's just 100%. I'm tired of this place.

I'm gonna try out marketing. I know it's tough. Long hours. But who knows I might be just happy with it. I'm still young. I still have time to change my career.

The fear and questions are no longer in mind. God will provide for me. Like what Heb11:1 said. We do not know. BUT! He knows!